The Year I Became a Conference Speaker (Part Two)
Tags: speaking, career, techtalks
Published: 2019-11-17 01:12:46

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title: The Year I Became a Conference Speaker (Part Two)
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_This post was originally published on [jessbudd.com](https://jessbudd.com/posts/the-year-i-became-conference-speaker-2/)._

I recently wrote about [how I came to be giving 3 conference talks](https://dev.to/jessbudd/the-year-i-became-a-conference-speaker-part-one-4m6i), in 3 weeks, in 3 different states. This is the story of my first talk.

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<img src="https://jessbudd.com/images/posts/laracon-speaking.jpg" alt="Jess Budd speaking at LaraconAU"/ alt="Jess Budd speaking at LaraconAU 2019">
<figcaption>At least it <em>looks</em> like I'm not freaking out</figcaption>
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The Monday before I set off, I had a skype [interview  with one of the DDDAdelaide sponsors](https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/coffee-catch-ups-jess-budd-simon-cook/). We chatted about my upcoming speaking engagements, among other things, but something I particularly enjoyed was his reference to my "speaking tour of Australia" - which is a phrase I will now steal, thanks [@encodetalent](https://twitter.com/encodetalent) :joy:

## My Australian Speaking Tour

### Laracon, Sydney

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<!-- <figcaption>Day 1 of LaraconAU</figcaption> -->
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First stop, Sydney for [LaraconAU](https://laracon.com.au/). This was a fantastic event, and despite not being a PHP or Laravel developer, I had an overwhelmingly positive experience. 

My talk was scheduled for early afternoon on the first day.


Speaker friends warned me I would be too nervous to eat lunch, so the lovely [@Amys_Kapers](https://twitter.com/Amys_Kapers) (who was speaking an hour after me) made us both a wholesome, nutritious breakfast to keep us going until after our talks. 

As it turns out, nerves don't affect my appetite :smile: so I ended up having a salad and gelato for lunch anyway,  but it's always good to be prepared! 

In the break before my speaking slot, the venue's AV person got me all set up with my microphone and battery pack. I was endlessly amused by the fact it was a Britney* mic, instead of a boring lapel mic. 

<p style="font-size:.85rem; margin-top: 0;">*These are not really called Britney mics, but that is what they will forever be to me.</p>

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<img src="https://jessbudd.com/images/posts/laracon-mic.jpg" alt=""/>
<figcaption>Me, childishly excited by my rockstar mic</figcaption>
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People were often asking me in the lead up to this moment if I was nervous - and honestly, I wasn't anywhere near as nervous as I was expecting to be. Maybe it was because I kept telling myself nerves are just excitement, or I was keeping myself distracted, but I felt pretty good. 

As I waited backstage to be introduced, I did some [power posing](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4ACeoqEjeA) and slow controlled breathing. I have no idea if these things really help, but figured it couldn't hurt.

And then I was called up.

Pretty quickly all those nerves I had kept at bay rose to the surface. 

But I knew I had practiced and was prepared -  so I told myself _"I got this"_ and started strong, despite my voice wavering a little.


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<img src="https://jessbudd.com//images/posts/laracon-setup.jpg" alt="Jess Budd getting ready to speak at LaraconAU"/>
<figcaption>On stage before my talk, setting up my laptop</figcaption>
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Unfortunately, a couple minutes into my talk I realised....I didn't have my speaker notes. 

Instead of using the projector as a separate display, it was mirroring my laptop - which instead of showing my speaker notes, was showing my slides.

I had to stop my presentation, change the display settings, apologise and explain to the audience what was happening, and restart again with my notes. 

This (in hindsight, minor) hiccup _completely_ threw me off balance. 

My voice was now wavering intensely. My mouth felt like sandpaper. I just couldn't regain my original confidence.

When my talk was finished and I walked off stage, I did not feel good about my performance. (In fact, I think my exact words to the MC when he asked me how I felt about it, were "I'll just go out the back and puke now").

If you'd asked me at that moment if I was happy with how it, the answer would not have been yes.

But later that day, many attendees came up and congratulated me on a great talk and wanted to chat about my topic.  And I started seeing tweets like this one:

{% twitter 1189755710608957441 %}


And this:

{% twitter 1189757936047755264 %}


And this:

{% twitter 1189789577675821057 %}


This positive feedback, combined with a few days distance, have me feeling pretty darn okay about my first conference talk now. 

Thank you to everyone that came up and said nice things to me after my talk and everyone who posted on twitter. It really meant a lot to me :heart:



Shout out to the amazing job [@michaeldyrynda](https://twitter.com/michaeldyrynda) and his team did on this conference and making the first time speakers feel welcome and valued.

Special thanks to the [@fendersperth](https://twitter.com/fendersperth) crew for cheering me on either in person, on twitter or in slack. 

If you're interested, you can find [my slides and other tweets I received here](http://bit.ly/2WHANxd).



## What have I learned?

- __Always check your speaker notes before you start talking :laughing:__ It won't hurt to take an extra minute to double check everything before you start, but it will damage your confidence if you're forced to stop part way through to fix your setup!

- __Positive feedback means a lot to speakers__. Getting up on stage in front of a crowd makes you feel pretty vulnerable. Receiving positive comments after helps make the world feel right again. If you enjoyed someone's talk, tell them or tweet them!

- __Other people won't notice how nervous you are__. Despite hearing my own voice wavering, having to take constant drinks due to dry mouth and somewhat shaking hands, other people don't really notice. Don't make yourself more nervous thinking about how nervous you're coming across! 

- __Giving a conference talk is a _lot_ of work__. Writing your presentation, creating your slides and practicing your delivery is significantly more time intensive than I expected. I would easily have spent 40 hours on this talk. I'm sure it will be a faster process in the future, but it's certainly not something you whip up in an afternoon.


## What next?

Right now I'm prepping for and focusing on my next talk at [Google Dev Fest](https://www.gdgmelbourne.com/devfest) in Melbourne this weekend.

Soon after I'll be off to Adelaide for the last leg of my speaking tour and the very first [DDDAdelaide](https://www.dddadelaide.com/). (There's still [a few tickets left!](https://www.dddadelaide.com/tickets))

I'll let you know how those both go in the third and final installment!