My Recovery From Programmer Anger
Tags: career, psychology, personalnews, mentalhealth
Published: 2019-06-11 16:52:10

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title: My Recovery From Programmer Anger
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description: I've been working through anger issues after reflecting on the content I've put out there for people in the software industry.
tags: #career #psychology #personalnews #mentalhealth
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After reflecting on the content I've put out to help people in the software industry, I've realized ***I still needed help working through anger issues***. 🤦‍♂️

I mostly avoided social media for the past 5-8 years, and when I started putting my ideas out, I was slowly lured into **outrage culture** without realizing it.

I've been on [many failed projects](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL32pD389V8xucc_4oDLyRYoLOnWyur0EG).

And I've had personal problems with my family and identity.

I made this video to apologize for my anger and how I've come across as "knowing everything" sometimes. 🙏

And to help you understand what I'm doing to recover.

I'm committing from here on out to be more discerning with how I share my opinions and advice.

Maybe by understanding my struggles, you can find peace if you've also struggled with anger or resentment in your career.

Software developers have the potential to make a lot of money, and even though I had most of my financial and material needs met, [I was really empty inside](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdA6aQR-s4U&list=PL32pD389V8xsYo9ETSd4JTu5EYYLcYZCu&index=6&t=0s).

After suffering from [a bout of chronic insomnia two years ago](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o--UZkCtUho&list=PL32pD389V8xsqw7G1p-Yx8opbgxjoTt0g&index=5&t=0s), I began going back to church and started my YouTube channel.

In addition, I've started [writing songs again](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMkEHW0d0Pk&list=PLvEAMZJI1A11NZia9fRouE4Qk3o9IVigB&index=2&t=0s) to provide myself with a better creative outlet than software.

It can be really frustrating to work at companies when they put you in a box and don't allow you to do your best work. ***I was looking for the opportunity for creativity in the wrong places in my life***!

**Thank you for being so supportive** over my journey to find a way to turn my career struggles into guidance for you. ❤️

I just wanted to share my wins and mistakes to provide an honest view of the software development industry - I never thought so many of you struggle with the same issues!

Click below for the entire 51 minute video on YouTube 👇

# [📺 Watch the full video on YouTube](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ie6sSZQkUTM&list=PL32pD389V8xsqw7G1p-Yx8opbgxjoTt0g&index=11&t=0s)

Or listen as a podcast:

[🎧 Podcast Portal](https://healthysoftwaredeveloper.libsyn.com/my-recovery-from-programmer-anger)

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