But I wasn't meant to be a coder ...
Tags: wecoded, choosetochallenge, womenintech
Published: 2021-03-02 19:01:30

I did fairly well at school, right up to my GCSE's * . My A-levels ** however, were another story. I have always had to work hard to get good grades, very little comes naturally to me. While taking my A-Levels, <i>I dropped the ball</i>. So I had no one to blame but myself when I wasn't able to get into university to study psychology 🧠.

But I had to get into university! Everyone in my life; my parents, my teachers, my friends told me university was the only way I was going to get anywhere in life. Now, in retrospect, I am very aware that university is not the be-all and end-all. But at the time, I was <strong>certain</strong> it was. I was a <strong>failure</strong> 😞.

## Pity party ...
I was no longer part of my school. My dad was working overseas and my mum hadn't attended university herself. I didn't know who to turn to. After quite a bit of self-pity. I picked myself up and thought, what am I good at and what did I enjoy as a child? Computers, I'd always had a fascination with tech. Nobody taught me how to use a video player, I just worked it out, and I was the one to ask my dad to get our first computer. Ok, general subject area sorted! Next, I thought about where I'd like to study. Brighton was my favourite UK getaway destination growing up and it was gay 🏳️‍🌈 friendly, bonus! 

## Now what?...
I worked out which course seemed the most appealing to me and called up clearing<small>***</small>. I found out that if I was successful in a foundation degree at Hastings (a sister college of the University of Brighton). I'd be eligible to take a Bachelor's degree 📚 in Brighton.

## Is it just me? ...
It became very clear, very quickly, I was the only one on the course that had no prior coding experience. Granted I had taken I.T. at school and got an A grade. But actual code? Nothing, zilch, nada! All the men and they were men, I was the <strong>only woman</strong> on the course, it seems had taken some form of coding course before starting this degree. So it was a struggle but, I was determined to keep up. I wouldn't <i>drop the ball</i> this time. It was difficult, I had to keep asking for help and going over and over things, breaking and fixing them until something clicked. <strong>Sticking with it is the best advice I can give</strong>, because I did finally get my Foundation Degree and moved on to my Bachelor's, where I was finally joined by a few other women, yay! I've since worked on various parts of the web stack, primarily with JavaScript. Turn's out I'm a pretty good coder 😉!

## Be your own cheerleader...
<strong>Impostor syndrome</strong> is a term that many of us will be familiar with. Even now, nearly a decade into this gig. When I find myself struggling I have to remind myself that, all our journeys are different, we don't all start at the same point. I should only <strong>compare myself, to myself</strong>, and not to others. Also to remind myself of everything I have achieved 🎉. 

But enough about me. How did you get into coding? 💬




<small>* Exams that are taken in the UK usually at age 16.</small>
<small>** Exams that are taken in the UK usually at ages 17 & 18.</small>
<small>*** In the UK when you don't get into the university of choice, this is a service you can call that can aid you with getting into backup choices, etc.</small>