How I'm Feeling (Part 2)
Published: 2021-09-02 04:58:20

In addition to my regular blog posts, I've kept a mini-journal of my day-to-day emotional journey during the HR experience. The point was to have a record to look back on if I chose, but also to have a blog post in the chamber for a day like today when I started thinking about the post way too late and I'm too tired to write anything worthwhile. So it's time for the payoff. This is Part 2. Part 1 is staying in the archives for now.

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Dev.to was acting weirdly, not showing me the latest additions in edit mode. So I'm starting a second file.

8/5 6:57am Feeling alright. Tired this morning. Hope to have a productive day on blog and wrap-up of FEC. I'm actually gonna start the day just reading some React articles that I bookmarked. 8

8/5 10:39pm Not the best day. Got tied up with git - lost some data and am generally experiencing some weirdness. But I've done enough work to be in a goos spot. 7.

8/6 8:02am 7 Had some problems with git last night and hoping they don't carry over to today. Will present out FEC to cohort. Hope to work on blog in evening.

8/6 pm (writing this next morning) - a good reminder that i should write these posts when i remember to. i had the page cued up for a post but thought id do more work before writing the entry. Anyway, after doing out team FEC presentation, I was pretty exhausted. It was a long day shaping up the final pieces and then a team scramble at the end to get all of our components in harmony. But we pulled it off in the end. I started working on the blog project after a day of not working on it and was so tired it was hard to think straight. It took most of the time just to remember where I left off only two days before. 7/8

8/7 8:20am - We have the FEC (mostly) behind us. There's a lot of time today for 'polishing' - I wonder if that's in the interest of making this a portfolio project. But I feel like I have a blank slate again moving into a new project (SDC) next week. I hope to make a lot of good progress on the blog this weekend. 8

8/7 pm - *Writing this monday morning* wrapped up the day with a conversation on entrepreneurship with Corey. We each talked about our current project and I asked him if he would lend his assistance and code a feature. I get fired up thinking and talking about this stuff.

8/9 6:42am - I have a lot to do today. I have to finish up the SA. I think I'll submit the SEIR application, so I have to get that done by 9am. We're starting SDC today. I'm giving my first student presentation and want to prepare for that. A meeting with Zabrian to discuss my idea for the jr-sr partnership resource. And of course, I'd like to make blog progress. 7/8

8/9 9:52pm - Feeling alright. Didn't finish the SA, but planning to do that before 9am tomorrow. Met with Zabrian - he was very receptive to the 'peer resource/subject experts' idea and I was lifted by his response. got started on deployment for the blog and did some redesigning. 7/8.

8/10 1:29pm - Morning has been ok. Didn't finish the SA but did spend a few minutes re-starting it. Realized my list wasn't returning because I wasn't returning from .map() :facepalm:. Anyway, would've given this morning a 7/8.

8/10 10:07pm - Spent a bunch of time tonight trying to run the project on an aws instance but couldn't connect via the ip address. bummer. i'll try tonight. 7/8

8/11 6:22am - 7/8 I have a bunch to do but I think I have the time to do it without being stressed. SDC is going fine. I would really like to get my blog project live. And just add some needed features to the project.

8/11 9:35pm - 7/8 Man enough of these 7/8 days haha. I've gotten a bit stuck again on deployment. Bummer. But I eased into tonight without being preoccupied (*ahem* excessively preoccupied) about what's on my slate. I'm calling it a night. And looking forward to a good, productive day tomorrow.

8/12 6:37am - I think today will be a good, productive day. I do a presentation this afternoon on git workflow - excited for that. Gonna make sure my blog is live on AWS today as well.

8/13 6:51am - Feeling good this morning. 8
8/13 pm - Was a blah day. Had meetings that interrupted my workflow and then got hung up on SSH. Resolved the problem, but it took forever.
 7.

8/14 7:25am - Glad it's Saturday. 7/8
8/14 9:41 pm - My afternoon wasn't productive. But keeping it in perspective, I'm doing fine with the blog project. I'll be able to get good stuff done tomorrow (Sunday). I hate to do another 7/8 but here we are. This one's closer to an 8 tho.

8/16 6:36am - On my agenda. Work this morning on blog project. Then focus through the day on SDC. I might have an SDC assignment to complete first actually - midpoint conversation - so I'll take a look at that. 8.

8/16 pm - Writing this the next morning. I was too wired from the presentation to remember this. Didn't get any non-presentation work done after 4:30pm. Feel good about the presentation but behind on SDC. 7

8/17 6:33am - Need to cover a lot of ground today. But I can do it. 7/8

8/17 pm - Missed this post. Did a presentation today on 'Peer Resources'. Went great. Curious to see what will become of the initiative, and hopeful to cultivate it.

8/18 am - Well, writing this one at 2:06pm. Took it easy this morning. Went to Hugo with Kate for lattes and pastries. It's been a nice and even day. Rainy/stormy all day which has been nice.

8/18pm - Writing this the next morning. I'm a bit out of the groove with these entries. Anyway, feeling better about where I am with SDC. I can see where things are headed with stress testing. If I can do that on the servers and then do load-balancing + horizontal scaling, I'm basically there. Then tweaking (my queries) and (possibly) testing. Oh, and hooking up with the front-end. The actual 'goal' of this project. 7/8

8/19 6:36am - Hoping to move forward a bunch on the above list. Haven't done any blog project in. couple days and hoping I can knock out some code tonight. 7/8

8/19 pm - Another entry missed last night. I've been a 7, and 8, or a 7/8 for each entry. Maybe the consistency there takes away the interest in keeping up the log. If it was more interesting - less predictable, with greater swings in emotion, maybe I'd be more compelled to log. Anyway, yesterday was fine. I didn't work on my blog. But I feel like I'm in a good place moving into the last few days of SDC. 7/8

8/19 am - Feel good. 8.

8/19 am - Delivered a quick presentation last night (this is written morning 8/20). Went well. Easy one on maintaining an eng journal. 8

8/20 9:54am - Last official day of SDC. Hoping to tighten things up on this project and would really like to pick back up with the blog project. I'd like to introduce it in a pres next week and also just work on it in my MVP. 8

8/25 7:29am - Well I missed the last two days completely. As a recap, we spent essentially all of Monday on the Resume sprint - two lectures and two working blocks. Tuesday was day 1 (of two) of the MVP project, but a lot of my attention was diverted to prepping for the final conversation. That went fine, and I got great feedback. But I only got like a third of the way through my talking points in the three minutes we were given. I don't know if that super-succinct three-minute story fits my interview style. Maybe I should change to make it fit. Again, I got great feedback - some good points to chew on.

Today I hope to just grind away at the MVP. I wrote about it in a post last night. 8.

8/25 11:30pm - Haven't been up this late working in a while. Did some good work on MVP today and will be ready for the presentation. I think it's been helpful in shaping my ideas for what the questions-answers section of the project might end up looking like. More responsive, SPA style, and less routing around to different pages. 8

8/26 7:39am - Feel good. MVP is in a good place, so just refining+adding now. 8

8/26 9:43pm 
 Took off early tonight. Went out to dinner with Kate and Jon and jsut got back. Needed the time. Have some things on my plate like toy problems to ctch up on and some google form response I need to submit. Starting Blue Ocean also. Looking forward to that. Anyway, like a 7.

8/27 8:58am - Just finished the form response that put us in the role of a consultant tasked with redesigning the backend of two hypothetical companies. Was more fun than I thought it would be. Glad to have that out of the way. 8.

8/27 pm - Writing this the next day. Got assigned my initial Blue Ocean responsibility -- the animated logo. Did some research and have a rough draft. Was good progress. 8

8/28 pm - 10:45am - Got up early today (earlier than this post) to continue work on logo. Have it in a great place. Need to put finishing touches on it and mount it to the loading screen. Hope/expect to be done with that today. 8

8/31 7:32am - I missed yesterday. That's ok. I'm leaving it.
Today is a 7/8. 7 for the catch-up work I have to do (resume, toy problems). 8 for where I'm at with blue ocean.

9/1 9:52pm - Guess I've been pretty sporadic with these posts. I'm exhausted. It's basically the end of tech learning at HR. Next week is career week and graduation. Blue Ocean has been great. Need to finish up tomorrow and integrate with main branch. 8.