Peter and Wendy
Autor: MT | Publicado: 2012-04-27T23:44:00-07:00


"So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!" — J.M. Barrie (Peter Pan)




I'm Peter and it was just an ordinary night until I get your attention. Somehow you had a calm and a impatiente look, a paradox. You were with one of the lost guys, a random one. I invited you to get into my game, you accepted the challenge.

I showed my world. For many times, i stole your smile with silly jokes, my stupid dance way of dance and a funny kiss. I stole the night from you and we saw the lights of the sun coming. I've never wanted that night to finish.

Back at home, I went to sleep happy for had an amazing night, although, I didn't expected you to search for me. Strangely, when I woke up, you were my first thought. Ok, nothing wrong, after a good night, it's normal. I decided to contact you, just in case, and surpresily, you were in! I couldn't believe. Suddenly, you were in my mind all day, all week - by the way, the longest week in my life. &nbsp;Finally the day, you came gracious and inside I was melting.

I couldn't help my self looking at you. I wanted you kiss, I wanted to hold your body against mine. I was hearing the sound of your voice as a sweet melody, so all I could do was eat and taste each word with pleasure. That desire had to wait until the night, when I would see you again.

I lived the eternity that day, waiting for you and I was scared. "What is happending to me? I'm Peter, the one who can't fall, &nbsp;the one who have to act pretending that don't care. I'm Peter, with many girls in mind and able to love them all. I can't get involved because my Neverland still exists. How can I stop this feelings? How it's possible that she is so pretty? No! Stop thinking about her..." And my confusion was done.
Night comes and you were here. Everything was much more that I was expecting. Gently you showed me how you wanted me. Touching me with your soft skin, with your warm mouth and them, i could say i went to nirvana. One hot coffee for you, a cold one for me. I guess that was when I changed, but I still didn't realized yet.

The old Peter was back. Romantic, impulsive, kind of irresponsible, a little bit crazy. I had no more girls in mind, excepted one. I started to write again, to listening love songs and in my face, I had a stupid smile all the time. I was cheated in my own game. Every night I went to you, to kiss your lips in my own way to do it, every day I was staring at you in my thinking.

I showed you my nude and more, my naked soul. I gave you my feelings and I felt asleep in your arms. I could see you had a sincerily smile, so I let my afraid in other place. It was clear for me, that you were having a good time, I made you smile and forget about your worries. I read each message from you as the most important treasure in the world and I trusted in everything.

A great new was given to me. I was invited to move away from my Neverland, I had already thought about the consequences, as grow up, stop with those little boy stuff, but on the other hand, you were going to the same place. Maybe we could have a chance to make it work, so I could make you happy for a long time.
Time goes. You were not the same and I was still running to you. Once, after being rejected sometimes, I decided to drink a lot, as a way to forget about you a bit. One more stupid boy thing. I was terribly drunk and I still had you in my mind. A miracle happened. You call me, and more than fast, i was in my way to see you,in spite of my situation. I missed you so bad! Long time without your smell, your smile and your kisses. One more night and that's it, you disappeared.

All I could do was fly throw the city, every night, looking for places to have peace. I couldn't fit in my Neverland with my feelings. Your silence was an acid in my heart. I couldn't sleep, or when I could, you were in my dreams. I needed to find a way to bring you back, so I gave you colors to represent my feelings and a black and white letter, to express how I serious are they. I don't know if it was too inocent or ingenuous, but it was the only way to show you that it was not a joke for me.

Do you believe in fairies? &nbsp;You answer was no. I had my wings cut off. I was about to talk to you about the new place, about a real world. I was happy with me and for us. However I couldn't fly anymore, not because I hurt myseld when I felt on the floor with your words, but I was betrayed and I was fragilized, without self confidence. I was used as your way to come back to the real life. I'm one of the lost boys, so the future is not for me, right? I can't blame you.

After a few time, I was able to fly again, life have to keep going. I'm not the same. I'm spending some of my nights flying drunk around, crying a little bit when it is raining, due to the rain can hide my tears. I wish I could bring you back, but your heart doesn't belong to you and I don't want you to be by my side without feelings. Anyway, I'm Peter! The lost boy! I'm just a passenger in people's life, I can fix broken hearts for a while, just to let the people go back to their lifes. I'm the lost boy, that one who will forget about everything one day, after come back to Neverland and just keep the thimble.