Be, what for, why?
Autor: Yuri MONTEZUMA | Publicado: 2016-05-10T07:44:00-07:00

<span title="Ser, Pra quê, Por quê?
">Be, what for, why?
<span title="Ser, Pra quê, Por quê?
"><span title="Yuri Montezuma
">Yuri Montezuma
<span title="Yuri Montezuma
">A
 psychiatric clinic, a divan in the divan bedside a chair in a corner of
 the room there is a bookcase with many books on the opposite wall there
 are small paintings depicting nature, the environment is medium gray, 
lit almost with a small lamp. The floor is rough and very old wood. <span title="Em um dos cantos existe uma porta de entrada.
">In one corner there is a gateway.Ana,
 a psychologist, thin, hair tied with a rubber band, wears a shirt with 
sleeves that cover the entire arm, upturned nose with a certain 
superiority, uses a small glasses that time or another need to adjust in
 the face with the tip of the middle finger. <span title="Calças retro tipo boca de sino e um sapato com solado de madeira que toda vez que anda faz um barulho esquisito no chão.

">retro pants mouth type bell and a shoe with wooden soles that every time walking makes a funny noise on the ground.<span title="Paulo, ator, alto, com cabelo desgrenhado, brincos em ambas as orelhas, blusa amassada e com os botões abertos, barba grande, calças ao estilo próprio, sandálias de dedo, é muito agitado.

">Paul, actor, tall, with shaggy hair, earrings in both ears, wrinkled 
blouse and open buttons, big beard, pants to own style, flip-flops, is 
very busy.<span title="(Paulo, parado na porta observando o ambiente com um pequeno cigarro já ao fim em uma das mãos)

">(Paul, standing in the doorway watching the atmosphere with a small cigarette since the end in one hand)<span title="Ana – (Sentando na cadeira atrás do divã) Bom dia Paulo... Entre, sente-se...
">Ana - (Sitting on the chair behind the couch) Good morning Paul ... Come in, sit ...Paul - (Entering and taking one last drag on his cigarette) The day has nothing good ... Art is shit. <span title="A arte não... A arte ensinada é uma merda.
">Art does not ... The taught art sucks.Ana - (Calm and passive) There, behind the books ... has an ashtray. <span title="Pode pôr seu cigarro lá.
 ">You can put your cigarette there.&nbsp;Paul - Do you smoke? I did not know ... something new. <span title="O estranho é que nunca senti cheiro de cigarro em você.
">The strange thing is that I never felt cigarette smell on you.<span title="Ana – Não fumo...
">Ana - Do not smoke ...<span title="Paulo – (Contando) E pra quê o cinzeiro?
">Paul - (Counting) And for what the ashtray?Ana - This? It's toast to gain the association of psychologists in Brazil. <span title="Eles acham que todos nós somos fumantes e passivos a ter um câncer por excesso de cigarro.
">They think all of us are smokers and liabilities to have a cancer excess cigarette.<span title="Paulo – Ou por excesso de loucura.
">Paul - Or by excessive madness.Ana - The madness is not concerned. <span title="Você não quer sentar?
">You do not want to sit?<span title="Paulo – (Que até aquele instante estava em pé) Sim claro...
">Paul - (that until that moment was standing) Yes of course ...<span title="Ana – Está melhor?
">Ana - Is that better?<span title="Paulo – Estou!
">Paul - I am!<span title="Ana – Como foi à semana?
">Ana - As the week?<span title="Paulo – No geral foi bem... A questão é que sou artista... Ator.
">Paul - Overall it was good ... The point is that I am an artist ... Actor.<span title="Ana – Sei disso... E por sinal aquele espetáculo que você participa é um sucesso...
">Ana - I know ... And by the way that show that you participate is a success ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) Uma merda!
">Paul - (Cutting) Shit!<span title="Ana – Eu gostei...
">Ana - I liked ...Paul
 - (Again cutting) I pity you ... What do not understand ... That does 
not feel ... I do not live ... Just have the option of liking and 
disliking. It's frustrating. <span title="O teatro é mais.
">The theater is more.<span title="Ana – Quer falar sobre isso?
">Ana - You want to talk about it?Paul - (Lying on the couch) study arts or was to study. Already live with the prejudice of being an artist since birth. I remember the first day made a question to the class: What do you want here? I knew what I wanted. Had sat port side, the last chair. The answers started the side windows ... In my room just the right side had windows. It was hellish. The prejudice was great even. The course there was already about four years and still depended on borrowed rooms to study. <span title="Todo dia era uma novela mexicana... Vamos para bloco tal... Agora vamos para outro bloco.
">Every day was a Mexican soap opera ... We're going to block this ... Now we go to another block.<span title="Ana – Isso parece deixar você irritado...
">Ana - This seems to leave you angry ...Paul - (Cutting) was a kick in the ass! There were forty students ... A room with windows only on one side, a fan that made more noise than eased the heat. <span title="Como não ficar irritado, como aguentar isso?
">How not to get angry, to handle this?Ana - And the question? <span title="O que vocês querem aqui?
">What do you want here?Paul - Yes, of course. It was kind of funny ... I kind of laugh inside every answer. A girl said she was there to be able to go to TV, novels ... These things. Everyone gave a little smile of his face ... Ironic corner. <span title="Não nego que também ri... Mas fiz algo por aquela garota que ninguém faria.
">I do not deny that laughs too ... But I did something for the girl that no one would.<span title="Ana – E o que foi?
">Ana - And what is it?<span title="Paulo – Tirei-a da universidade...
">Paul - I took the university ...<span title="Ana – (Cortando) Por quê?
">Ana - (Cutting) Why?Paul - Think me doctor ... That creature did not want that ... She wanted to be an actress. The course would not give it to her. Only showed other ports. Most television actors did other courses or have not made any progress. Only drama school or practicing for a long time. If you want to be an actor certainly do not need university for such a feat. Now if you want to be drama teacher you need to be an actor. Practice theater is essential for anyone who needs or wants to follow and drama teacher. The university does not offer that ... On the contrary ... It offers anything but theater. When my turn came to answer ... Some looked at me as if waiting a long answer or something beautiful. In love. Most knew me and knew what I was doing. <span title="Olhei algumas caras abobalhadas por alguns segundos e disse: Estou aqui pelo diploma!

">I looked abobalhadas some guys for a few seconds and said: I'm here for diploma!Ana - The girl even came out of college? <span title="E qual foi à reação dos colegas com sua resposta.
">And what was the reaction of colleagues with their response.Paul
 - (Sitting on the couch, taking a wallet pocket cigarette chest, pulls a
 cigarette, keep the wallet, looking for a lighter the pockets, has 
trouble finding, Ana takes a little lighter of one of his pockets and 
delivery to Paulo <span title=") Posso fumar?
">) May I smoke?<span title="Ana – (recolhendo o isqueiro que Paulo devolve) Fique a vontade... É costume de meus pacientes querer fumar durante o intervalo de suas falas.
">Ana - (collecting the lighter Paul returns) Feel free ... It is 
customary to my patients want to smoke during the interval of their 
speech.<span title="(Silêncio)
">(Silence)<span title="(Paulo fica por alguns instantes com o olhar no horizonte, vazio, Ana, levanta da cadeira e vai até a estante de livros)

">(Paul is for a moment with his eyes on the horizon, empty, Ana, up from his chair and goes to the bookshelf)Paul - (Rising and going to the door) The girl held up even a month and then left pro Rio de Janeiro. I believe you are trying to get to TV. Already the face of my colleagues is priceless. Yesterday I was having a few beers with some musician friends ... I'm always for various areas of art. I like that. We were at the peak drinking when one of them touched the subject. He said: The guy will spend four years studying music ... You will learn to read music, put the staid notes on paper. But
 when the student of the same guy who will be a teacher says he wants to
 learn to play guitar or anything else, this guy will say it does not 
ring, but it can help the kid to read sheet music. <span title="Isso é ou não é uma merda?
">This is or is not shit?<span title="Ana – Como assim?
">Ana - How so?Paul
 - (Sitting on the chair behind the couch) I do not want to be a 
teacher, but also do not want a guy teach theater without knowing 
theater. <span title="Entende?
">You see?<span title="Ana – (Sentando no divã) A arte não está sendo passada no curso?
">Ana - (Sitting on the couch) Art is not being passed on the course?Paul - Art is not learned ... Or you're born with this gift or not born ... What you learn is technique ... that you learn. You can practice a lot and get to know ... to know your body, act ... But art is not taught. What we can do is to develop what already exists in you. I believe there is an artist within each one ... But you need to develop. Not
 all go to the stage, but can go to lighting, sound, for the rule 
against costumes fucking ... The question is where it fits. One
 more thing is certain ... In college all have to practice theater ... 
Very theater ... If you want to be a teacher of theater ... Why contrary
 case can leave a patient or student with serious problems in the body 
... theater is serious and not a game of jumping jacks ... Damn! <span title="Entende.

">You see.<span title="Ana – Claro que entendo.
">Ana - Of course I understand.Paul - (interpreting a scene without getting up from his chair) These shadows that haunt me in unfocused frames ... dry nights. Here in the darkness of my room, I think what we would accomplish and now proposes death to all of our clan. Damn day that I kissed your mouth and gave you guardhouse. If someone has to die in this house ... we will die impure blood from us. <span title="De esqueleto putrefato de alma podre.

">Of rotting skeleton of rotten soul.<span title="Ana – O que foi isso?
">Ana - What was that?Paul - It's a scene of my next show ... I had to rehearse and decided to try here. <span title="Precisa de uns ajustes cênicos.
">Need a scenic settings.<span title="Ana – Entendo... Mas ganho por hora.
">Ana - I understand ... but gain an hour.<span title="Paulo – É mesmo?
">Paul - Really?<span title="Ana – Sim.
">Ana - Yes.<span title="Paulo – (Pegando o caderno de anotações de Ana que estava ao lado da cadeira) Ana, sempre quis ser psicóloga?
">Paul - (Taking Ana's notebook that was beside the chair) Ana, always wanted to be a psychologist?Ana -. (Lying on the couch) It wanted to be an actress ... I'm jealous every time I watch a show and you on stage. <span title="Sempre sofri uma pressão para seguir a profissão da família.
">Always suffered pressure to follow the family profession.<span title="Paulo – (Tirando os óculos do rosto de Ana e colocando em seu rosto) Profissão da família?
">Paul - (Taking Anna's face and putting glasses on her face) family Job?Ana - is ... I come from a family psychologists. My grandfather was a psychologist who met Freud himself. <span title="Meus tios todos eram psicólogos, meu pai, minha mãe também.
">My uncles were all psychologists, my father, my mother.<span title="Paulo – Essa é uma situação Freud.
">Paul - This is a situation Freud.Ana - was ten years old when I attended a children's play. <span title="Naquele instante decidi que queria ser atriz... Comecei a procurar escolas de teatro, conhecer grupos, atores, diretores.
">At that moment I decided I wanted to be an actress ... I started looking for drama schools, meeting groups, actors, directors.<span title="Paulo – E por que não continuou?
">Paul - And why not continue?<span title="Ana – No começo meus pais acharam que era coisa de criança deslumbrada... Que logo me voltaria para as coisas da família.
">Ana - At first my parents thought it was kid stuff ... that dazzled me soon return to the family things.<span title="Paulo – Coisas da família?
">Paul - family things?Ana
 - The family of the things is to understand the other and try to find 
solutions ... The question that being an artist is not to find solutions
 but problems. I confess I have a soft spot for trouble! <span title="Aqueles que você ensaia, briga com o colega de cena para uma solução, faz e desfaz tudo só por que não se encaixou no contexto da história.
">Those you rehearse, fight with the scene colleague to a solution, does
 and undoes everything just because you did not fit in the context of 
history.<span title="Paulo – (Anotando alguma coisa no caderno) E o que sua família fez pra que você se tornasse psicóloga?
">Paul - (Writing down something in the notebook) And what did your family do for you to become a psychologist?Ana - What all families do when they want their children to do. Long live the dreams of parents and bury her. psychological pressure. <span title="Tentei várias vezes suportar a pressão, mas teve uma hora que não consegui e acabei cedendo.
">I tried several times withstand the pressure, but had a time that I could not and I ended up giving way.<span title="Paulo – E aceitou assim as pressões da família?
">Paul - and thus accepted the family pressures?Ana - At first I thought it was the best for me ... I finished studies and started working. Soon already had a strong list of patients. <span title="Ganho um dinheiro razoável e não tenho que reclamar da profissão, mas não sou feliz com isso.
">Gain a reasonable money and do not have to claim the profession, but I'm not happy about it.<span title="Paulo – E hoje, depois de tudo... Já falou com sua família sobre sua vida?
">Paul - And now, after all ... Have you talked to your family about your life?<span title="Ana – Sim... Conversei com meus pais sobre tudo e sabe o que falaram?
">Ana - Yes ... I talked to my parents about everything and know what they said?<span title="Paulo – Se você não contar não vou saber nunca.
">Paul - If you do not tell I will not ever know.<span title="Ana – Que seria melhor eu ter seguido a carreira de atriz... Que eu seria mais feliz.
">Ana - What would be better I have followed the career of actress ... I would be happier.<span title="Paulo – E o que fez?
">Paul - What did you do?Ana - I spent one year in intensive care. <span title="Ainda vou ao meu psicólogo pra tentar entender.
">I still go to my psychologist to try to understand.<span title="Paulo – Qual a lição que você tira disso tudo?
">Paul - What is the lesson you take it all?<span title="Ana – Não sei...
">Ana - I do not know ...Paul - That we should live our dream and not the other. Including parents. <span title="Se seguir o sonho de outros e não os seus, vai parar no psicólogo como agora.
">If you follow the dream of others and not his, will stop the psychologist as now.<span title="Ana – Agora começo a entender doutor... Doutor?
">Ana - Now I begin to understand Doctor ... Doctor?<span title="Paulo – Sim!
">Paul - Yes!Ana - You are not a psychologist! <span title="A psicóloga aqui sou eu!
">Psychologist here I am!Paul
 - That's true ... The point is that in my next show will do a 
psychologist ... How had never playing anything like ... I had to do a 
lab. And nothing better than using our meetings for such work. <span title="Já sei que vou levar os lados bons e ruins da sua profissão e isso é algo bom não acha?
">I know that I will take the good and bad sides of their profession and this is a good thing is not it?<span title="Ana – Claro que não... Você não tem preparo para tal prática e isso é uma fraude.
">Ana - Of course not ... you have not prepared for this practice and it is a fraud.<span title="Paulo – Sou uma fraude, mas disse tudo sobre suas frustrações e anseios.
">Paul - I'm a fraud, but said everything about their frustrations and anxieties.<span title="Ana – Eu não tinha a intenção... Eu...
">Ana - I did not mean ... I ...<span title="Paulo – Entenda doutora, todos nós somos um pouco psicólogo, um pouco treinador de futebol, um pouco médico, um pouco professor.
">Paul - Understand doctor, we are all a little psychologist, a little football coach, a little doctor, a little teacher.<span title="Ana – E artista?
">Ana - and artist?<span title="Paulo – Artista?
">Paul - Artist?<span title="Ana – Sim... Artista!
">Ana - Yes ... Artist!<span title="Paulo – Só se conseguir enfrentar os pais, os amigos, a sociedade e a arte.
">Paul - only be able to deal with parents, friends, society and art.<span title="Ana – A arte?
">Ana - Art?<span title="Paulo – Sim... A arte.
">Paul - Yes ... Art.<span title="Ana – Pensei que a arte fosse um bem... Um fim para respirarmos.
">Ana - I thought that art was a well ... An end to breathe.Paul - Art is the beginning of breathlessness. <span title="Se você consegue respirar arte então nada consegue abalar seus sonhos.
">If you then can breathe art nothing can shake your dreams.<span title="Ana – E conseguimos conquistar a arte?
">Ana - And you can conquer the art?<span title="Paulo – Isso que é engraçado... A arte nos conquista.
">Paul - This is funny ... Art conquer us.<span title="Ana – Então nossos sonhos podem ser abalados.
">Ana - So our dreams can be shattered.<span title="Paulo – Aquilo que se conquista fácil não tem valor!
">Paul - What is easy conquest has no value!<span title="Ana – Acho que estou conseguindo entender o que quer dizer...
">Ana - I think I'm able to understand what you mean ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) Se não entendesse também não tinha importância... Entender às vezes não é o que importa.
">Paul - (Cutting) If you do not understand also did not matter ... understand sometimes is not what matters.<span title="Ana – Isso é confuso...
">Ana - This is confusing ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) Doutora quanto você ganha por consulta?
">Paul - (Cutting) Doctor how much you earn per query?<span title="Ana – (Sentando no divã) Duzentos por hora...
">Ana - (Sitting on the couch) Two hundred per hour ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) A minha hora as vezes é setenta ou nada... Depende da ocasião.
">Paul - (Cutting) My time is sometimes seventy or anything ... It depends on the occasion.<span title="Ana - Por falar nisso sua hora acabou...
">Ana - Speaking of your time is over ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) Posso voltar na semana que vem?
">Paul - (Cutting) I can come back next week?<span title="Ana – Claro é só marcar um horário com a Rita.
">Ana - Of course just make an appointment with Rita.<span title="Paulo – Quem é Rita?
">Paul - Who is Rita?<span title="Ana – (Entregando um cartão) Minha secretária.
">Ana - (Handing a card) My secretary.Paul - I'll call then. <span title="Obrigado!
">Thank you!<span title="Ana – Tenha uma boa apresentação...
">Ana - Have a good presentation ...<span title="Paulo – (Cortando) Não se fala assim.
">Paul - (Cutting) Do not talk like that.<span title="Ana – E como se fala?
">Ana - And as we speak?<span title="Paulo – Merda
">Paul - Shit<span title="Ana – Então... Merda pra você.
">Ana - So ... Shit for you.<span title="Paulo – Obrigado... (Coloca a mão no bolso e tira um ingresso) Toma... Vai assistir.
">Paul - Thanks ... (puts his hand in his pocket and pulls out a ticket) Take ... Go watch.<span title="Ana – Claro que vou!
">Ana - Of course I will!<span title="Paulo – Tchau doutora (Sai).
">Paul - Bye Doctor (Sai).<span title="Ana – Tchau.
 ">Ana - Bye.&nbsp;(Ana
 goes to the table and puts the ticket in the bag, opens a drawer and 
pulls out a pack of cigarettes smell and throw in the trash, open 
another drawer and takes out a bottle of wine, put a little into a 
glass, keep the bottle closed <span title="as gavetas, vai até a estante de livros com a taça, toma um gole, escolhe um livro, folhei algumas páginas)
">drawers, goes to the bookcase with glass, takes a sip, choose a book, fan your few pages)<span title="Ana – (Colocando a taça de vinho em algum canto da estante) Ser ou não ser... Essa é a questão.
">Ana - (Putting a glass of wine in a corner of the shelf) To be or not to be ... That is the question.<span title="(Fecha o livro e pega a taça de vinho tomando de um só gole)
">(Closes the book and picks up a glass of wine taking in one gulp)Ana - (Looking at the audience with the empty cup in hand) Motherfucker! <span title="Não pagou a consulta.
">Not paid the query.<span title="(A luz vai diminuindo de intensidade até o palco ficar em escuro total)

">(The light fades in intensity to the stage to stay in total darkness)