Meu  filho  predileto ...
Autor: neusa | Publicado: 2014-05-27T06:20:00-07:00

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Acho&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp;&nbsp; todas&nbsp;&nbsp; as&nbsp;&nbsp; mães&nbsp;&nbsp; e&nbsp; todos&nbsp;&nbsp; os&nbsp;&nbsp; pais,&nbsp;&nbsp; tem&nbsp;&nbsp; um&nbsp;&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; SIM;&nbsp;&nbsp; Eu&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; tive,&nbsp;&nbsp; e&nbsp; tenho .&nbsp; Não&nbsp; nego.

Ouvi&nbsp; muito&nbsp; dos&nbsp; meus&nbsp; filhos :
- Que&nbsp;&nbsp; eu&nbsp; preferia&nbsp; um ao&nbsp; outro,
- Que&nbsp; um&nbsp; era&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;o&nbsp; mimadinho ,&nbsp; o&nbsp; santinho,&nbsp; o&nbsp; coitadinho,&nbsp; o&nbsp; queridinho&nbsp; da&nbsp; mamãe .(comumente&nbsp; esse&nbsp; título&nbsp;&nbsp; eles&nbsp; davam&nbsp; ao&nbsp; Igor&nbsp; rs) &nbsp;
Que&nbsp;&nbsp; só&nbsp; um&nbsp;,&nbsp; &nbsp;era&nbsp; cobrado,&nbsp; os&nbsp;&nbsp;outros&nbsp; não&nbsp;....
(comumente&nbsp;&nbsp;a&nbsp; Simone&nbsp; abraçava&nbsp; esse&nbsp; título, rs)&nbsp;
E&nbsp; quantas&nbsp; brigas&nbsp; rolavam&nbsp; entre&nbsp; eles,&nbsp; e&nbsp; comigo &nbsp;por&nbsp; causa&nbsp; desses&nbsp;&nbsp; achismos !! rs
Coisas&nbsp; de&nbsp;&nbsp;irmãos !.&nbsp;
Coisas&nbsp; de&nbsp; filhos !&nbsp;&nbsp; 

Filhos&nbsp;&nbsp;tão &nbsp;amados&nbsp;! , &nbsp; mais&nbsp; que&nbsp; minha&nbsp; própria&nbsp; vida .
Irmãos&nbsp; que&nbsp; mesmo&nbsp; brigando,&nbsp;&nbsp; se&nbsp; adoravam&nbsp; e &nbsp;se &nbsp;adoram.
E&nbsp; dariam&nbsp; a&nbsp; vida&nbsp; um&nbsp; pelo&nbsp; outro.
Só &nbsp;digo &nbsp;aos &nbsp;três:
Primeiro&nbsp;, &nbsp;que&nbsp;&nbsp; vocês&nbsp;&nbsp; três, &nbsp; são &nbsp;meus&nbsp; preferidos e&nbsp; prediletos &nbsp;&nbsp; desde&nbsp; que&nbsp; os&nbsp; concebi.
Mas,&nbsp;&nbsp; eu&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; tive&nbsp;&nbsp; um&nbsp;&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; Sim; &nbsp;
Não&nbsp; posso&nbsp; negar.&nbsp;
&nbsp;E&nbsp; o&nbsp; preferido&nbsp;&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; &nbsp;aquele&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; estivesse&nbsp; doente ,
até&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; ele&nbsp; sarasse ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; saísse&nbsp; à&nbsp; rua,&nbsp;&nbsp; 
ate&nbsp; que&nbsp; ele&nbsp; &nbsp;voltasse&nbsp; pra&nbsp; casa&nbsp;...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; se&nbsp; machucava ,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; fizesse&nbsp; um&nbsp; curativo&nbsp; e&nbsp; visse&nbsp; o&nbsp; &nbsp;bem ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele &nbsp; que&nbsp; chegasse&nbsp; com&nbsp; fome,
até&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; visse&nbsp; alimentado&nbsp;...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; &nbsp;aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; chegasse&nbsp; cansado,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; visse&nbsp; descansado&nbsp; e&nbsp; recuperado ...&nbsp; 
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; &nbsp; que&nbsp;&nbsp;tivesse&nbsp;&nbsp; sede,&nbsp;
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; lhe&nbsp; desse&nbsp; de&nbsp; beber&nbsp; ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp;&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele &nbsp;que&nbsp; estivesse&nbsp; estudando,&nbsp;
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; visse&nbsp; terminar&nbsp; as&nbsp; tarefas&nbsp;&nbsp;do&nbsp; dia &nbsp;...&nbsp; 
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele &nbsp; que&nbsp; estivesse&nbsp; revoltado&nbsp; comigo,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; visse&nbsp; se&nbsp; acalmar ...&nbsp;
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; estivesse&nbsp; na&nbsp; balada,&nbsp;´
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; visse&nbsp; chegar&nbsp; em&nbsp; casa&nbsp; ,&nbsp; e&nbsp; bem ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; não&nbsp; me&nbsp; deixava&nbsp; dormir,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; chegasse&nbsp; em&nbsp; casa,&nbsp; fosse&nbsp; a&nbsp; hora&nbsp; que&nbsp; fosse ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; não&nbsp; trabalhasse,&nbsp;
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; visse&nbsp; empregado ...&nbsp; 
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; &nbsp;aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; estava&nbsp;&nbsp;em&nbsp; perigo,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; visse&nbsp; em&nbsp; segurança ...
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp;&nbsp;será &nbsp;&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; &nbsp;aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; mora longe, 
e&nbsp; que&nbsp; todos&nbsp; os&nbsp; dias&nbsp;&nbsp; eu&nbsp; &nbsp;vibro&nbsp; minha&nbsp; energia&nbsp; de&nbsp; amor&nbsp; para&nbsp; que&nbsp; saiam&nbsp; e&nbsp; cheguem&nbsp; em&nbsp; segurança&nbsp; em&nbsp; suas&nbsp; casas ...

Lembro&nbsp; quando&nbsp; a&nbsp; primeiro&nbsp; a&nbsp; Simone,&nbsp; depois&nbsp; o&nbsp; Igor,&nbsp; depois&nbsp; o&nbsp; Victor&nbsp; foram&nbsp; morar&nbsp; em&nbsp; São&nbsp; Paulo.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
Perdi&nbsp; o&nbsp; chão&nbsp; ao&nbsp; ficar&nbsp; longe&nbsp; deles.&nbsp;&nbsp;
O&nbsp; Igor&nbsp; voltou &nbsp;; &nbsp;a &nbsp;Simone &nbsp;e &nbsp;o &nbsp;Victor &nbsp;ficaram.
São &nbsp;200 km &nbsp;de &nbsp;distância, &nbsp;mas &nbsp;é &nbsp; &nbsp;como&nbsp; se&nbsp; morassem&nbsp; no&nbsp; Japão.&nbsp;
E,&nbsp; o&nbsp; meu&nbsp; predileto,&nbsp; o&nbsp; meu&nbsp; preferido, &nbsp; sempre &nbsp;foi &nbsp; e &nbsp; é, &nbsp; &nbsp;o&nbsp; que&nbsp;&nbsp;morando&nbsp;&nbsp; perto&nbsp; ou&nbsp; longe,&nbsp; &nbsp; se&nbsp; mostrasse &nbsp;distante,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; conseguisse&nbsp; alcança-lo .

Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; estivesse&nbsp; namorando,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; se&nbsp; casasse&nbsp;&nbsp; ....
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; era&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele &nbsp; que&nbsp; se&nbsp; casando,
eu&nbsp; soubesse&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; estava&nbsp; feliz &nbsp;&nbsp; e&nbsp; em&nbsp;&nbsp; PAZ&nbsp; na&nbsp; nova&nbsp; vida. &nbsp;
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp;&nbsp;é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp;&nbsp;tem&nbsp; um&nbsp; filho ou&nbsp; filha&nbsp;,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; veja&nbsp; meus&nbsp; netos&nbsp; &nbsp;criados&nbsp; e&nbsp; formados&nbsp; como&nbsp; pessoas de&nbsp; bem&nbsp; &nbsp;. &nbsp;
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; fez&nbsp; promessas,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; as&nbsp; possa&nbsp; cumprir . &nbsp;
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp;&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; fez&nbsp; divídas,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; as&nbsp; possa&nbsp; pagar .
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; sei&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; chora&nbsp; sózinho, 
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; veja&nbsp; novamente&nbsp; o&nbsp; brilho&nbsp; em&nbsp; seus&nbsp; olhos &nbsp;.
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp; que&nbsp; está&nbsp; triste ,
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; veja&nbsp; sorrindo&nbsp; .
Meu&nbsp; preferido&nbsp; é&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; aquele&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; hoje&nbsp; esta&nbsp; &nbsp;revoltado(a)&nbsp;,&nbsp;
até&nbsp; que&nbsp;&nbsp;eu&nbsp; o&nbsp; veja&nbsp; compreender&nbsp; e&nbsp; serenar &nbsp; o&nbsp; coração .&nbsp; 

Meus&nbsp; filhos&nbsp; &nbsp;preferidos&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; foram&nbsp; aqueles&nbsp; que&nbsp; tantas&nbsp; vezes&nbsp; me&nbsp; deixaram&nbsp; só ,&nbsp; muito&nbsp; só ; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;
até&nbsp; que&nbsp; eu&nbsp; os&nbsp; veja&nbsp; voltar&nbsp; e&nbsp; deitar&nbsp; em&nbsp; meu&nbsp; colo, &nbsp; pra&nbsp;&nbsp;um&nbsp; carinho&nbsp; guardado,&nbsp; e&nbsp; o&nbsp; amor, &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; que&nbsp; lhes&nbsp; pertence.
Que&nbsp; sempre &nbsp;será &nbsp;de &nbsp;vocês .

"O&nbsp; Igor&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; será&nbsp; meu&nbsp; preferido.
A&nbsp; Simone&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; será&nbsp; a&nbsp; minha&nbsp; preferida.
O&nbsp; Victor&nbsp; sempre&nbsp; será&nbsp; o&nbsp; meu&nbsp;&nbsp; preferido".

O&nbsp; Igor&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;nos&nbsp; deixou&nbsp;&nbsp; com&nbsp;&nbsp; um&nbsp; buraco&nbsp;&nbsp; enorme&nbsp; dentro&nbsp; peito.
Uma&nbsp; DOR&nbsp; que&nbsp; não&nbsp; tem&nbsp; nome&nbsp;,&nbsp; nem&nbsp; definição .
A&nbsp; dor&nbsp;&nbsp; do&nbsp;&nbsp; vazio &nbsp;sem &nbsp; fim.
E&nbsp; eu , &nbsp;que&nbsp; tanto&nbsp; queria&nbsp;&nbsp; proteger,&nbsp; cuidar,&nbsp;&nbsp; reter&nbsp; o&nbsp; tempo&nbsp; na&nbsp; infância&nbsp; dos&nbsp; três,&nbsp;&nbsp; para&nbsp; que&nbsp; não&nbsp; saíssem&nbsp; debaixo&nbsp; das&nbsp; minhas&nbsp; asas; &nbsp; hoje&nbsp;&nbsp; preciso&nbsp;&nbsp; me&nbsp; &nbsp; informar &nbsp; todos&nbsp; os&nbsp; dias&nbsp;, &nbsp; de &nbsp;que &nbsp;realmente &nbsp; meu &nbsp;filho &nbsp; faleceu. &nbsp; E, &nbsp;sei &nbsp;que &nbsp; jamais , &nbsp;enquanto &nbsp;eu &nbsp;viver, &nbsp;vou &nbsp;aceitar &nbsp;ou &nbsp;me &nbsp;conformar &nbsp;com &nbsp;isso.
O&nbsp; Igor,&nbsp; voltou&nbsp;&nbsp; para&nbsp; dentro&nbsp; de&nbsp; mim.
Pra &nbsp;dentro &nbsp;do &nbsp; meu &nbsp;coração . . .

Meus &nbsp; queridinhos,&nbsp; meu&nbsp; preferidos !

Vossa &nbsp;mãe.