Autor: Carlos Vaz | Publicado: 2012-09-22T01:32:00-07:00





Beloved &nbsp;(part 1)

or not.





"He will never be able to erase all the pain the end of his relationship brought to his sad life. Even if he still miss those brown eyes, that beautiful skin and those gorgeous hairy legs -It was so thick, coarse 'n' dense, his bum was the same - it isn't worth all those scars his love gave him."

Faced with the problem of identifying the better way to keep moving his relationship, although suspecting he would never take the total control of his feelings about his love, the lover thought he had found out the solution to their problem. To his way of thinking, the solution was just around the corner, it was clear and it had been there for a long time before his understanding.
&nbsp;As it was, being aware that they would have no other choice after their final decision, they've decided to keep following their deeper feelings, consciously or unconsciously, everything was about to happen.
- His love couldn't be safely left on his own, he was a danger for himself- If the stakes had been lower and their need for their own shelter less urgent - among other things, they were being pressed for changes in their life style - they woudn't had gone so far with their agreements about the changes.
Shortly after they reached the place they had arranged to meet each other, the couple had had their last unknown date, upon the gray sky, - the trees were whistling due the heavy wind chill; the strong breeze made their eyes water as if they were already crying - both of them were clad in the kind of sweatshirts and good sneakers worn by rich guys.
&nbsp;The couple was sitting by itself, gazing into each other's eyes on the riverside as if they didn't have anything to care about, as if the world had stopped and they were the left ones there, living a beautiful fairy tale dreamed of for almost all romantic people. It was such a quiet place to snuggle down.
The farewell hug was extremely warm, and their hope couldn't be broken at that moment. As seldom do in love couples can see the truth ahead their eyes, they were pretty sure that their decision was the right one.
Regardless of their close friend's opinion against their decision, they didn't take it seriously.

The big day had just arrived, it was a very gloomy rainy day, the lover was ready to leave home, he was just waiting for his love's call. He had already packed his bag and gotten his stuff ready. As arranged, they had planned to leave home about 8 a.m, to avoid having problems with their family, but, it was already 6 p.m., and his love hadn't called him yet.
The expectation was 'killing' him, he wanted to get a move on and start changing things, - in fact, things were about to change, but not as the lover was planning on - he wasn't able to do that by himself, he was in need of his love's helping hand. It didn't come that day.
The next following day had come. The lover had just woken up when he realized that there was a message on his cellphone, and it was saying something like that:
'Sorry for not calling you yesterday, I really don't want you to get hurt, I don't 'wanna' keep on feeding these illusions, you are not the one I want for the rest of my life. Please, don't call me back. Please, stop running after me! 'Lemme' forget 'u'!'

How could it be possible?! What about the vows of eternal love?! It wasn't happening to him, of course not, he was dreaming of it, no, he wasn't dreaming of it. The lover was overwhelmed by his love's changes, he didn't want to belive that it was happening to him, his 'castle had just collapsed', his heart was broken, he couldn't stop crying, he was hopelessly hopeless, poor lover. He was quite sure that he was loved by his love, and now, he was about to turn into a loveless person, - He was expecting that all the puzzle pieces of life would seem to fit together at first, but in time he'll realize they do, perfectly - he wanted to find out a reson for that, but he couldn't, so, he started accepting that it wasn't going to work out at that time.

Knowing the circumstances were not the best ones, he had to deal with that problem without the help of his friends nor family, he had to deal with that by his own.

Having such a big difficulty in his life, and still trying to forget his unforgettable memories, he decided to keep moving, however, he decided to live for now.
The lover started to believe that everything had a purpose and a reason in our life, it was time to make room for others things, others moments and experiences that were about to come.
A man needs to free its soul, its life, it doesn't have time to be suffering, life is too short &nbsp;to be wasted, we just live once!
What about the lover?! He can be considerably called, for the rest of his life, as an eternal lover, and even for futures generations, he will never be forgotten.- We will never stop loving people -
&nbsp;The lover stopped trying to understand human behavior.
&nbsp;-We must do what we want to- If it wasn't his love's desire to be with the lover for the rest of his life, he is completely right about giving up on him. -On second thought- He could have been a little bit more friendly when he decided to break up with him.
-As seldom do wise men don't forgive people, we are pretty sure that the lover has forgiven his love.-

Regards,
Carlos Vaz.