Autor: Becky Hannah | Publicado: 2016-10-30T04:55:00-07:00

Today is October 30, which means that 3 days ago, while I was at my university, my boyfriend decided to break up with me. I tried to just take it in the beggining, after all, he told me he didn't love me anymore and wanted to concentrate on his career only. that he didn't have time for me and that I wasn't the first or even last thing he thought of on his days. also, that he spent more time thinking of his bosd, Sherry, then on me. he gave me reasons why we couldn't be together: me wanting kids when he didn't, my religion and his lack of faith, his sexual fantasias &nbsp;(une ménage à trois) and my lack of will to do it. other than that, we were perfect together. at least that's what he said. and I tried to believe he was right. the thing is, the days went bye and an emptiness took over my mind and really bad pains crushed my heart. he was nice, always talking to me and being gentle to me. he cares about me. But then I couldn't take it anymore, and yesterday I woke up with this &nbsp;idea, and to me it felt reasonable and made the pain, like 90% of it, go away. My world stated rotating again. I talked to him about us, nstead of having a clean cut, just taking it slowly. get in an open relationship, in which we can count in each other and be intimate, without expectations, though. Something close to the concept of "ficar" that we have in Brazil. He said he would think of it and answer me later. I waited and while waiting, I went through all our texts since we started dating in February. We have been together for almost nine months, and I just havery been assuming he would be the man I would marry, the one for &nbsp;me. &nbsp;And seeing all those messages, him saying I was his forever, he would marry me, we would overcome every challenge and his love for me would never change but increase.. it all felt so right to &nbsp;me. I sent him some messages the sent me in March, telling him that was the sum up of why I wasn't willing to give up, and I wouldn't give up. They were as follows:

《By making due. We will text a whole lot more. And Skype at least once every other day. If not every day. And a few vacations to see you for weeks at a time. I'm not claiming it will be easy. But you and us are totally worth it. Love is what's hard for most people to find. We've found it. I'll take the waiting over never havingredients met you. I'll just be a phone call away. I'll sing you to sleep every night.😘 》&nbsp;




This is what he sent me. this is what I believed back then. this is what never happened, since he got a new job a day was way too busy to be with me. Still, this is what I still believe. And yesterday night, not being able to sleep, thinking about hI'm and me and us, I just figured out I won't let it die this time. he's my 4th boyfriend and of all the others I let go and gave up. But with him, I have this certainty in my heart we can make it work. I feel that if we could only meet again, we would fall in love all over again. So, I'm asking him to give that a try. I'm asking him to fight for us a little more, so we can see how it goes. &nbsp;I am his and I'll never stop loving him the way I do. I don't care if it crushes me. if I can see him happy , &nbsp;that will make me happy. and I really hope he can be happy with me by his side. So, I'm fighting right now. and waiting for his answer. I don't plan on accepting a no. so, just waiting now.&nbsp;



Please, please, please don't give up. I'm praying you wont. I need you, Andrew. You told me I'd be yours, you told me I'd be Rebeca Phillips. you told me we would see the world together and be the happiest. I cherish you. you became my safety rock. So, please, just come back. I love you. Always.



Yours forever,



Honeybear.