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Autor: lethhciags | Publicado: 2012-02-20T08:22:00-08:00

My&nbsp;life is all about&nbsp;crying,&nbsp;just wanted to know&nbsp;how to&nbsp;go back and&nbsp;fix all&nbsp;the mistakes I made, I&nbsp;was not strong&nbsp;enough to&nbsp;change,&nbsp;now I'm&nbsp;alone&nbsp;and I will be&nbsp;forced, because&nbsp;I can not stand&nbsp;to have you&nbsp;away from me.&nbsp;just when I&nbsp;stop crying,&nbsp;hugging&nbsp;people havecome&nbsp;to me&nbsp;asking&nbsp;what happened, and there&nbsp;then I start&nbsp;crying again&nbsp;..&nbsp;I do not&nbsp;have&nbsp;tocry&nbsp;off,&nbsp;to try&nbsp;to&nbsp;prove that&nbsp;suffering,&nbsp;even without wanting to&nbsp;cry,&nbsp;cry because&nbsp;the pain&nbsp;is great and&nbsp;is&nbsp;a lot to me.&nbsp;much to&nbsp;ask&nbsp;God to&nbsp;never&nbsp;let me&nbsp;feel a&nbsp;pain of those&nbsp;again, andnow I'm feeling&nbsp;again,&nbsp;and stronger.&nbsp;I may have&nbsp;thrown&nbsp;it all away&nbsp;for fear of losing&nbsp;you.&nbsp;I do not know&nbsp;what to do, I never knew.&nbsp;My mother tells&nbsp;me not to&nbsp;chase,&nbsp;because it&nbsp;issupposed to be,&nbsp;will&nbsp;be ..&nbsp;but what if&nbsp;I did not try,&nbsp;you will&nbsp;not&nbsp;think&nbsp;to&nbsp;even care&nbsp;that&nbsp;I'm&nbsp;well and&nbsp;strong without you.&nbsp;but it is not&nbsp;true.&nbsp;there is no truth.&nbsp;nobody&nbsp;knows me,&nbsp;nobody everknew me&nbsp;except you.&nbsp;I think&nbsp;that's why&nbsp;I made&nbsp;those&nbsp;mistakes,&nbsp;because maybe&nbsp;after fifteen years,&nbsp;someone came up&nbsp;to&nbsp;point out my&nbsp;mistakes,&nbsp;and it made me&nbsp;well for a while,&nbsp;well&nbsp;..but everything&nbsp;stopped,&nbsp;and I do not&nbsp;know what to&nbsp;improve,&nbsp;I do not seek&nbsp;anyone, and&nbsp;do not&nbsp;want anyone to&nbsp;look me up.&nbsp;I dream of&nbsp;you tonight, and&nbsp;you can imagine&nbsp;how I felt&nbsp;when I woke up&nbsp;and saw&nbsp;that everything that happened&nbsp;unfortunately went&nbsp;a complicated&nbsp;nightmare.&nbsp;my bed,&nbsp;my room, music,&nbsp;wardrobe, like,&nbsp;to&nbsp;mere objects&nbsp;remind me of&nbsp;you.&nbsp;now tell me,&nbsp;what I do&nbsp;and&nbsp;nothingworks&nbsp;for me to&nbsp;forget?&nbsp;you have the answer&nbsp;to&nbsp;this question?&nbsp;no, nobody&nbsp;has.&nbsp;and I&nbsp;do not know&nbsp;where to get&nbsp;on.&nbsp;Now&nbsp;I can only&nbsp;count on God,&nbsp;knelt down and&nbsp;begged&nbsp;for&nbsp;forgiveness and&nbsp;asked&nbsp;him to show me&nbsp;a way out.&nbsp;I dedicated&nbsp;my life&nbsp;to you,&nbsp;with errors,&nbsp;and everything else,&nbsp;but never&nbsp;for evil, I confess,&nbsp;when I&nbsp;betrayed&nbsp;yes, it was&nbsp;worse,&nbsp;it is obvious that&nbsp;was.but not now.&nbsp;He&nbsp;asked&nbsp;for&nbsp;a thousand times,&nbsp;if there was any&nbsp;medicine,&nbsp;but he&nbsp;did not answer me, if&nbsp;I&nbsp;answered&nbsp;very unhappy&nbsp;without faith&nbsp;enough to&nbsp;hear it,&nbsp;I could not.&nbsp;Now&nbsp;I'mhere&nbsp;..&nbsp;reading&nbsp;letters and&nbsp;listening to&nbsp;depressing&nbsp;music,&nbsp;and almost&nbsp;killing&nbsp;my thinking&nbsp;from trying to&nbsp;reach a conclusion;honestly,&nbsp;what I want&nbsp;is to see&nbsp;you,&nbsp;give you&nbsp;a&nbsp;big hug,&nbsp;I could&nbsp;spend hours&nbsp;just&nbsp;hugging&nbsp;you.I just want to&nbsp;get well,&nbsp;and hope&nbsp;you&nbsp;get well,&nbsp;I can not stand&nbsp;cry, cry&nbsp;me&nbsp;a headache,&nbsp;and itta&nbsp;killing me.&nbsp;ta&nbsp;all&nbsp;killing me, I hope&nbsp;in God,&nbsp;he&nbsp;shows us&nbsp;what to do, I&nbsp;do not want to&nbsp;get away from you,&nbsp;but if it&nbsp;is to have&nbsp;that&nbsp;happen, even if&nbsp;you do not know, I'll&nbsp;stay away,hidden,&nbsp;and&nbsp;you&nbsp;care&nbsp;protejendo&nbsp;you,&nbsp;as I always did,&nbsp;and as always&nbsp;will do.