About my trip to Brazil and my feelings...
Autor: Auri, | Publicado: 2010-12-23T07:32:00-08:00

Well, I'll talk about my trip to Brazil, my feelings, etc.When I was on the plane, I was looking forward to getting to Brazil. It was awesome the feeling of being back home. At the airport, I faced some disorganization in line, but it was ok, I was excited to see my family and friends. When I passed the "alfandega's" gate, I saw my mom, dad, uncle and my cute niece waiting for me; now I was really feeling that I was at home. My niece was very excited to see the gifts that I bought for her. She grew up so fast, and of course she was smarter than the last time I saw her. She stayed with me constantly for almost my whole two weeks there, and I had a great time with her - she loved her gifts! My mom cooked lunch, but I was weird, without an appetite, but of course I ate my delicious country's food.During my whole two weeks in Brazil, I was happy, because I could see most of my friends and family, and I could go to my church, but I almost didn't have any rest. I had a lot of things in my mind, and weird feelings that I could barely understand. All that I know is that I was constantly asking God for directions and help to understand my feelings. I felt like a tourist at home, I was comparing everything, and I also missed US. I looked at my country with different eyes now, and I felt worried about it. I also had lot of worries about my Visa, my search for a new host family, and I also got a telegram inviting me to start a job as a teacher in January there, because I got a good score on an exam to work for "Prefeitura Municipal de SP" - lots of worries, but I tried to enjoy my time there as much as I could.I praise the Lord that I got my Visa renewed, and I'm sure He will give me directions to understand which ways to go. For now, I need to find a new host family, but I already miss my current one... I really had a great time with them, and they will be in my heart forever. I've been thinking about changing my Visa at the end of the Au Pair Program, but I'm not sure yet. The only thing that I know now is that I need God's help one more time to tell me what is better for me and what is not. I'm sure I'll find myself....I have a lot of wishes for New Year's that will begin, one of them is to study hard, and try to save some money. I also want to visit Europe - I've been dreaming about that for a while. I believe that all the dreams can come true if we just believe.... this phrase reminds of me my friend Hane...I want to thank everyone who gave me love and friendship during my trip, and let everyone know that I like to keep strong relationships in my heart for my whole life, and the best thing in life is to be around people who we love and love us. I praise  the Lord, because during this almost one year living far away from home, never have I ever had felt alone and helpless, even during some crisis. I knew all the time that God was with me and lot of people were cheering for my success here. I can say that I'm a different person now, with my heart open for life, but I won't ever forget where I came from and all the work that my mom and dad had to do to raise my brother and me.Well, here I'm back to the US and ready to start something new! Thanks, Lord!Hope to have some news soon.By the way, Merry Christmas everyone and Happy New Year!!! Auri