you feel like you are always having to defend yourself and and if you don't then sometimes you feel like you're looked down upon by people that go back to work and so you're just wasting your time at home
You never have to defend yourself because people that go back to work wouldn't dare look down upon you.
mnli hypothesis: You never have to defend yourself because people that go back to work wouldn't dare look down upon you. premise: you feel like you are always having to defend yourself and and if you don't then sometimes you feel like you're looked down upon by people that go back to work and so you're just wasting your time at home