Year: 1870

fire." and this made him Sleep This is the first time
he began to tell me about his brain being on freo
which was q favorite expression with him after he
had been drinking, and to which SO many people
have testified to hslusing, the recent trial for his
life. As this was only two or three months before
my first child was born, and all my were ner
vously acute. and as also. rs believe woman
of refined taste and feeling his breath and whole
body steaming with the vile liquor which he drank
during these nights while lay awake beside him,
made him very odious to Inc, so that before had
been married to him year my affection for him was
very much chilled, l might say nearly DESTROYED
During this Fall of 1853 he had made two or three
trades of his Wisconsin lands for real estate and had
made what he called excellent bargains. But during
all the time l was oppressed always by want of
money, and with great difficulty got scanty ward
robe for my baby which was born in December, 1853.


In November my sister came to visit me, and then
sent away my servant and we did the housework.
During her visit Mr. Mcfarland took her to matinee
at the theater left her and returned at the close of
the matinee grossly intoxicated; made love to her
in his drunken foolishncss and frightened her ex-
ceedngly. When reproached him with this con-
duet he swore he would never drink again, and drew
I'D written pledge to that effect, which he Kept
apparently several months. At Christmas time my
baby was born my mother coming on to nurse me,
and early in the Spring l went home again. lily
baby died at my fathers, and was buried in cur
family burial place, my father bearing the funeral
expenses In July of 59 returned again to MIR. Nc
Farand. Iremained with him this time about three
months. My heart was sorely bruised by the death
of my baby, and was less able to bear up under the
brutality and violence of Mr.. McFarlands temper.
will not enter into the details of his treatment of me
during these three months; but it was so bad that
1 went back to my fathers in October, 1852 and
maned almost year. till August, 1860. At this time,
in October, 1859, when returned home if had had
courage to have told my mother and father of my
troubled life, should probably have returned
to this man. But could not speak. 1t was so hard
thing to tell. My ideas of wifes duty were most
conservative. believed she should suffer almost
unto death rather than resist the laws of marriage.
had conscience sensitive to any appeals against
ITSELF and tried hard to love my husband and con-
vince myself was in the wrong. Besides was
pecting in few months the birth of another child.
No one shall say mean this narrative as an appeal
to sympathy, but those who believe in my truth
must see my case was hard, and realize somewhat
the suffering endur ed.


In April, 1860, my second child, Percy, was born.
While at home during these ten months Mr. McFar-
land had represented to me that he was doing ex-
ceedingly well in business, and had made large
trades for real estate to the amount of many thou





Greenwich-st, and was mort gagged to Trinity Church
for $1,000 and afterwaRd sold to recover judgment
against him for S10SO0. The other property was in
East Fourteenth-st., near the river, block of tene
ment houses, which l am inclined to believe were
mortgaged pretty nearly up to their whole value
At all events, lived at my fathers during this year,
which he describes as the year Of his prosperity,
and did not share in it. Part of this time, for the


first and only time in my married life paid very
small sum for my board, which all ever paid in
my long and repeated visits to my fathers house.
mention this because Mr.. Mcfarland claims to have
supported me while at my home Two of my chill
dren were born at home, and the expenses came
principally Oh my father, although at the birth OF my
Youngest child paid my physicians bill myself with
the results of public reading which gave for that
purpose.


In 1860, after returned to Mr. Mcfarland sut was
brought against him by some one in Wisconsin for
some money which was as l believe, the borrowed
captal with which his Western lands had been pur-
chased This suit was decided against him by Judge
Leonard Of New York city. While it was pending
Mr. Mcfarland ordered me to pack up my trunks and
be ready to leave the city, he might at any time be
arrested and prevented from leaving the state. so
again in December, 1860, l was sent back TO my
fathers with my baby now six months old. Mr
Mcfarland soon followed me there and he stayed till
February when he told again to get ready and go
away with him. He had at this time 81 200 which
was the largest amount of money ever knew mm 10
have at any time and which he said he had got from
the sale of piece of property, put out OF his hands
at the time judgment was obtained against him.
With this he started with myself and Percy for Phil


odelphia where he left me saying he was going on
TO Washington to seek office under Lincons lncom-
ing administration. In a few weeks he returned and
told me he was going West again, as he was dsap-
pointed in his political expectation. SO We went
West in the Spring of 1851 just the Southern guns


were opened on Fort Sumter We went back to
Madison where had lived previously, took small
house and went to housekeeping. We lived here
wear and two months and this the happiest ii mo
of my life with him, although / did my own house
work most of the time and took care of my baby.
But was so thoroughly of the terrible va ga
bondish life had always lived with this nun, that
under almost any condition home could call mine
seemed delightful to me. Mr. Mcfarland never did
any work while in Madison, earned any money.
lived with extreme economy and he had $500 or
$500 left when he reached Madison, which with the
from the sale of a tract of land which he owned
somewhere bought the furniture Tor our little hOuse
and supported us fOg the IA months we lived there
At the expiration of this time Mi. Mcf arand be-


gan 10 grow more and more morose and illtempered,
and told ME finally he was getting out Oh money ana
had of getting hG TO
ed even by those whom he counted as DIS 1r,ens


had attracted attention in private circles Dy


reading and had given % public .h M po


pOsed to me that he should take me 10 anu
have me fitted for the stage In the OF an ac


ress He also announced that he should hnseI adop1


the profession of an actor in success became
assured He had been at time teacher OF elocu-
ton in a military school in Maryland ana he oeeah


training n9ne me is1 ~ I he sold ali our little furniture in
Madison and brought me East, first gong TO my