Year: 1874

was, IN my own estlmatlOn and that of
many of my friends ruined man. I
had money, talent and culture, yet a
terrible sorrow which came to me five
years before, and whose memory had
never departed, had made of me o
nerveless, purposeless misanthrope.
yielding to the solicitations of my
friends, who thought a fit companion
night restore me to the world, I solicit
ed the hand of Eunice Morgan, who
had known me from early childhood,
and she gave not only herself, but
restored to me my own old self, purif-
ed, elevated and strengthened. With
the tact, affection and character of the
ideal woman in whom we all believe.
she made life sweeter to me than the
lost life had bemoaned and the sac
rifice of her noble self which she had
made for me seemed to fill her own
existence with constant joy;


A few years before, while I was
returning from the continental tour
which followed my graduation, I met
and worshiped Anita Lozatos, beauti-
full Cuban. My position in society was
unexceptional, was rich, and Ipressed
my suit with all the ardor of a warm
young heart and fluent tongue. So
was speedily accepted by Anita and her
parents, and we were soon married. In
one of the charming villages near New
York, I built for my bride an exquisite
villa in noble grove of old chestnut
trees, and furnished it with everything
that she could desire. I was still a
student, and an ardent one, but there
we're few hours in the day in which I
did not for a few moments drop nv
books and seek and adore my beautiful,
my glorious wife.


Slowly I learned the sad fact that
Anita's fondness for me was only a
passionate fitful outburst, instead Of a
constant affection. I had never in the
cooler moments of my courtsllip ex-
pected her to sympathize with my
studious tastes, but when I compre-
hended that even my companionship
was distasteful to her, and that I receiv-
ed her smiles only in exchange for such
pleasures as purchased for her, be-
came a very unhappy man. Trying to
gain her affection, if she were capable
of bestowing such a sentiment,
abandoned my studies entirely. ]
devoted my entire time to the duty of
pleasing my wife. I spent without
stint the money which had been left
me by rich father, I filed the house
with company, I purchased city house
in which we passed the winter, and did
all that devoted and anxions heart
could do to win the love of the woman
I held so dear.


And I imagined, poor fool, that T was
succeeding. The painstaking and anx.
iety of several days devoted to pro.
curing her some new pleasure were fully
repaid by the parting of her ripe lips
the light darting into her beautiful eyes
and the clasping of her beautiful arms
which always indicated my successes


The tiresomeness to me of large party
of people who could only dance, drink
and cat, was always relieved when
after the last guest had departed, AMT.
would draw me down to her and kis.
me q dozen times, and tell me that


was a dear, delightful old boy.


At the close of one of the most bril-


liant entertainments I had ever given


strolled restlessly through til,


drawing rooms, the verandas and tn


conservatory, looking for my darling
She had been unusually beautiful tha


evening, and when I had caught he


eye it had been SO full of feeling an,
tenderness that had longed for TIL


moment to arrive when we might b
alone, and I might for the thousandtl
time renew my declarations of affection
She had gone suddenly to her rooms
, the servants said, and had left word sh
> would return in a moment.


I continued my .aimless strolline


when, entering the library, I found O
, the open volume had last been read
, ing slip Of paper bearing line i
Anita's delicate handwriting. 1t read
81 cannot love you, for You are to
great for poor little me. / have foun
i one l can love. God forgive me IN
e bless yor.'


d I fell, and knew 10 more until da,
{ afterward when 1 emerged from the i,
lerium of fever. Against my will