Year: 1869

The following letter, vhie, Va, n;.L.d
up lev days s1nce. and evidently not in
'onuea Tor pu olleation. is given to the
reaoer' om'ttng only tie name. Its
beautiful word-picture Of woman's faith
'al' intense devoted love. alternating with
happiness and misery.


MY Ds.R -Tw61on weary a.
have passed. and vet these eve. have not
been elatd-nei BY the sight of hin, who
Is All the world 20 me. You we're no. an
ery darling. st the words which nv fool
ian tongue bntraved me into at our last
meet'ng-were YOU And vet YOU have
absented yourselftwo whole day.-months
they seem TO me-and have written no
ilne-Sent not one word t. your little
-," 0. darling. you can never
know how deeply. wildly. ps.sionatelv
have loved you have worshippod you
with an iioltary that know wa. sinful
But ah. dear one. if the sin must De pun
ishef. do not you be the instrument
"mv punishment would. indeed. be crea
ter than could bear - have never
wronged vou-nevar, never You NAV
leave me if Won will-lcave me alo ne with
nv dead lov.." and seeking newer. F..
falrer face. YOU may forget her who never
knew what is was to love until you tau ght
her the lesson "a lesson which, alas that
should say it. has had more of the Bit
ter than the sweet to her.


When YOU so absurily charged me
with loving another. (and that other
whom loathe from my very .onl, and
with flashing eye, .cornful lip and words
50 bitter, you taunted me with what you oal-
led my treachery. l was stung to the quick
and may have answered too harshly. For
give me, darling-my very love for you
filled my heart with earerness to .lefend
myself and | was betrayed into a vehem-
ence of language which I confess was un-
called for. O. darlipg-could you have
seen me in my wretchedness, after you
were gone. and the paroxysm of wounded
feeling had passed away. you would for
give me. for PHYS sake


Darling. why do you not pray for
strength t" cast out this demon Of doubt
and suspicion that ever clouds your life
and warps your noble, generous nature ?
Do you know, darling, that at times al
most fear you ! Yes, fear you. nv own
dear one You cannot conceive the anx
iety with which Of late | have watched
your coming. And when heard the
sound of that loved footstep upon the
pavement. (and should recognize i.
among a Thousand } I have looked through
the window to note ifthere was cloud or sun
shine upon your brow and o. if the latter
how eagerly | have flown to meet you
and how very happy was Darling
darling, why cannot the smilo I love 80
well be always there :? I wonder at times
if it will be thu, when VIC are married =
All, darling, it is sad enough now. but
then it would break my heart.


There arc moments when I try to call
my woman's pride TO my aid--try to feel
that l should not love one who puts my
affection to such cruel tests, but in the
contest between love and pride in a wom-
ans heart, love is ever the victor. Do
not chi9e me W hen tell you that, some
times when my heart is very sore. after one
of your dark spells" | cannot help think
ing that it would be better if could die
before you call me wife-and in my de-
spalr pray for death. All. my own.
there is a sad sweetness in the thought
that if were quietly sleeping meath the
daisies. my darling would steal away from
the world. and sitting down by the side
of my grave, mourn for one who loveth
him, o. 80 we'll. You would uot doubt
me. then and wonder how you ever
doubted me. But this may not be, and
while l do live can only give you all my
heart. and pray God to give you faith in
my love But will not weary you Ion
ger-I regret having written thus much ;
but my crushed and bleeding heart must
have broken else If there is anything
in this that is unpleasant. please forgive
it. / would not cause you moments
unhappiness for worlds. Come back tc
me, darling come with your heart freed
from all suspicion aud the sunshine Of
perfect confidence lightning with Smiles
that dear, dear face Will you not p
Come and lift this dark shadow from IN
heart and let me feel, once more, that We
are all in all to each other.


Ever thine own