Year: 1865

fear you may have left Cincinnati, and thus


left this communication the fate of all the
rest have ever written you. However.
will trust to luck, which may favor me on
this occasion more than heretofore. L was
surprised and pleased to hear from you,
after having gone away as you did. / GER
tainly expected to see you again; but was
not SO much disappointed as | might have
been, unedr different circumstances. was
feeling very badly that evening, and could
not have entertained you very agreebly. so
it was probably for the better that pre-
vious engagement should have detained
you. .|i ...


BY the way, 7 saw F-a few minutes ago,
and she had written you yesterday, so our
letters will be received about the same time.
Isupposed you asked me not to chide you,
when write, but to speak rather as a sis
ter would. Do not fear my chidings p0p,
Harry; they would avail but little; and then,
too, suppose, l should not blame you for
what find to be the way of the world. /
think it quite as well to learn the lesson a
little sooner in life than later, for it must
come to all, in the natural course of events,
But then, Harry, truth to tell, would
rather you would not chide me so freely
for what has been no fault of mine. You
speak in rather strong terms, sometimes,
forgetting, | think, that no particle of
blame should be attached to me.
q am not in writing mood to-day, and
fear you will find this'a rather disconnect-
ed and rambling affair; but your kindness,
know, will pardon me.


And so you have written "to clear me
from the engagement that once existed be-
tween u.s." Do you not know that | con-
sidered ii as virtually at an end long since,
by your manifest Indifference to duty that
should have been held sacred? And do
not hold myself to blame for anything that
has transpired, since your silence toward
me, after all you had told me, very natural
ly made me think you had repented of what
might probably have been said merely un-
der the impulse of the moment, and there
fore considered you and myself as no
longer bound by tie which caused you so
very little concern. How much L felt
your neglect, you may never know. Will
you men ever know woman's heart? How
much their pride may be called upon tosuf-
fer by your actions. And, Harry, do you
think there was nothing in your conduct,
after leaving, on the evening of February
lst, and your subsequent negle ect, to call
forth all the pride of my nature? If so, then
our opinions differ very materially on some
matters. But there is little use in talking
of it. / know, man-like, you had ceased to
care for me, and then brought the charge
of faithlessness against me; when / should
have been showing but poor kind of spir-
it, to be faithful to the memory of dream
of very short duration. No other course
was left me than the one chose, and / did
not care to have the world know how L felt
about it. From my manner, fancy they
CLEANED but little. | am not in the habit Of
wearing my heart on my sleeve for davis
4 n, of Il tbarn ,Sr
men in this town who are ever ready to ''sit
in judgment on the actions of any young
girls" | usually find myself capable Of
managing my own affairs, At the same
time, if they find it very much to their
interest to lend helping hand, should
be sorry to deprive them of the pleasure,
am sure. .......r .r.. ......


They have helped you on considerably in
imparting information regarding S.
T; and yet think they have not known
him better than do-short though our ac-
quaintance may have been. Candor is one
of the parts of his good qualities; and have
never yet had occasion to regret havingme
him. You bring up as having much to do
in regard to the relations existing between
you and l at the present time; when in re-
ality, he could have had nothing to do with
it, as you did not even know of his beingin
existence, previous to the time of your last
visit to me. do not know certainly any
thing that will clear you of having neglect
ed me in very great degree; but don't
want to blame ! ou, Harry dear; believe me;
but somehow the words will come if keep
OH writing. l may say more than wish
to, so will close for this time. May re-
tain your friendship? | would be sister
to you if you would make it possible. l
regret having to close so abruptly, without
having thanked you sufficiently for the very
kind words your letter contains. If you
care to write again, 1 shall be glad, indeed,
to hear from you. Hoping that God will
bless you ever, l am your sincere friend,