Year: 1867

little thing; besides, some gain by mar
riage. 1t Is of no use to tell you how i


know there is no power In language TO. de-


scribe the depths of the heart and they
4 who have not would not understand.


AT first she came to see me every week,
walking two miles, because the doctor was
necessarily away with the carriage: But.
unacrustomed to such long walks, she was
obliged to discontinue them, and l went
when could to see her. 8 ,5a es.syeoj
|, Ihave had my dream for Emily, never
for myself. Her home was to be happy
one, all that is expressed intbe word home.


never asked wealth or position for her,
because I knew there wOu be nothing
satisfying TO her in either. But God orders
our ways. - ai 't ~ ~. y & a..a


In less than five years three children
blessed her hungry heart with unthinking
love, and wore away her life by their com
slant demand for the care that she only
could give. Aud this she did give without
stint, never thinking of her own life so
long as she was paid in full in her own love
coin. I watched her with an o!d maids
! Jealous eyes, and knew that this was not all
that made her pale and nervous. and un-
naturally bright-eyed. 1 knew that with
only q young and Inefficient country girl
for help. there was something for her to
do in the matter of supplying the physical
wants only of these healthy, restless, tur-
bulent immortals. I am endowed with a
kind of violent discretion, which. while it
tops my tongue, has no power over my
eyes. and my presence was ANYTHING but
agreeable to the doctor; still L could not
keep away. Perhaps it was not my duty
TO work Ikea poorly paid seanlstress every
moment out of school hours to help elOthe
my little nephew and nieces, but how could
I help it? II q .-s.a4.
There was no compassion in the doctors
face when his eye rested on the delicate
I'll
die and sewed and sang sweet minor tunes
to the wide awake baby who chung to its
mother all day long, and invariably chose
| the most restful hours of the night for
collie and teething spasms. 1t was to him
simply wOman's duty, her destiny which
she could not well escape, and tor which
she needed no pity. Ioverheard one day his
complaint of older sisters who invariably
whined over young mothers with much
pretended sympathy. There vas more in
his tone than written words can express.
l knew what she never dared think-that
she was less than hired servant in her
own house. The man who was generous
among men, was worse than thoughtless
in his own family. Her woman's rights
which she would have demanded for the
sake of her own self respect were never
granted. She was afraid of him, with that
fear which have made him reverence her.


He would, never appreciate the pitiful
economies she practised that herself and
children should be comfortably clothed
with as little aid as possible from him. Her
wedding outfit served for time, and when
that was gone there was no habit of asking
on her part, and none of giving on his to
fall back upon; and there she was wound
ed to the quick. Once only did beard the
lion in his den with II wish you had had
one extravagant wife. DIR. Ferry" and the
lion unmoved replied, "Then 1 should
never have had another" And this man
who would give ten dollars to any friend or
enemy in need, and in every good cause in
church and society, never seemed to f ell
rat she who was always in need aud wholly
dependent had any claim on him.


How well learned to read her in few
months! It was something new to econo-
mize so for children, and so pleasant.
know the thought of asking him for mere
and know too we'll that when she had
counted the cost of every needful article
she always asked him for little less than
would suffice, and blushed for very shame
that she should be-so cowardly, and he
whom she would gladly honor so mean.
Besides, she lived in constant fear of my
discovering this, and thought her little ar
tiices blinded me. -..-.-- ,.,,,r-


One day asked her to 60 with me to the
town, ten miles distant, hoping that change
of air and scene might bring little of the
old color to her cheeks, and restore the lost
appetite: The young country girl, finding
the place hard one, had left, and an old
nurse must be procured to stay with the
babes, and Saturday was my only leisure
day.


The early part of the day was spent with
an old friend, who. shocked at Emily's
chang face and manner, spared no pains
to make her comfortable and to rouse her
from her unnatural, quiet moo1. After


ward we went SHOPPING for an hour or SO,
and I busted about the presents with which
designed to surprise her, and tor the sake
of which had denied myself many COM
tort for weeks past, forgot how weary she
must be, till, turning to look alter her, l
was startled by the strange expression OF
her face. Begging her pardon for any
neglect, l was both surprised and grieved
TO see her burst into tears, and, distressed
at the thought OF scene in SO public
place, hurried her away to the station, and
took an earlier train home than I had in
tended. -rst-


Before reaching the house I decided to
spend the night with her, and reasoned
myself ont of a nervous dread of encoun-
tering the doctor. had new fear added
to those of mental maladyI dared not
think OF. The doctor was absent through
the night, and watched under plea of
taking care of the baby while she slept, if
fearful dreams and sudden awaking, aud
frightened cries ending in sobs, be called
sleep. In the gray light of the Sabbath
morning heard the sound of horses feet,
and hurried to the door that my poor
child might not be disturbed in her own
quiet hour of rest; but instead of the doc
tor, whom dreaded to see, two officers
with q search-warrant confronted me.
I'm sorry to say it, ma'am," said the first
speaker, ''bu5 after you and the other lady
left the store on - street, yesterday,
several pieces of silk were missed" "And,''
added the other, 1.-THE younger lady acted
very queer. We don't like to search the
house, but 1t can't be helped, you see."
But they found nothing? You are wrong.
Fastened within the folds of Emily's dress
was part of roll of flannel, so soft and
comfortable for baby limbs; in the dress
pocket three pairs of little shoes and thr-e
of woolen stockings. That was all, and
the silk must be searched for elsewhere;
but there was sufficient evidence that these
little things were not paid for.


Begging the officers to suppress my sis
ter's name in any report they might make,
1 searched every drawer with the aid of the
doctors private keys, and happily came
upon his purse, which l pressed upon them,
ignorant ofits contents, but wildly wishing
its loss might leave him beggar.


Emily shrieked once when the officers
but when returned she stared at the wall
and motioned me away


| And this was the end OF my dream. 1t
was for this that had lived thirty-eight
years. If the spirit of the patriarch's wife
could then have whispered to me, Curse
1 God and diel I should not have rebuked
/ her with "ShaE we receive good from the
hand of God and not evil ?"


1 If had told YOU at first that when sat