The end is near.

I could end up having to save my employer, or desperately attempt to preserve some of their most profitable offerings in case resources continue to decline into levels considered abnormal. Have already made years of accomplishments to retard multi-million-dollar declines within this particular organizational structure. It would have been better if I had been empowered to build a _team_ of hand-picked high-performance highly-trained individuals stationed across our locations to operate my money-making machines, and was in a position to bring in millions of dollars of additional work instead.

OTOH I could retire or even start my next company, especially in case the clients themselves ultimately end up needing better continuity without anyone being able to exercize my full degree of experience, action & commitment. Alone, just the demand for training upcoming scientists is stronger than ever and some clients would also love a taste of that geared toward their operation without having to be scientists themselves.

I don't know which is worse but wasted effort wil be involved no matter what.

And I've done all of them before.

It would be nice if no disasters had occurred, but I'll still be eligible to draw on retirement savings tax-free and Medicare will kick in, so no plans to start drawing the Social Security retirement I earned yet.

It's something of a safety net though, the not-so-Universal not-quite-Basic hard-earned-Income from Social Security along with the Medicare-for-not-really-all-yet will give me the breathing room to no longer fully rely on a full-time employer for the bulk of medical coverage, and no employer at all for a minimal emergency income, if the situation does eventually come up again.

This should help me make the most appropriate choices, but inaction is not on the agenda. Decisions whether to decelerate, hold steady as possible, or accelerate various scientific & business activities can lead to wildly different eventual directions & outcomes even at this late stage.

Either way looks like over the short term I'll continue designing & building new money-making machines, and providing for reliable operation in order to pay for the research efforts needed to get the most out of the rest of the ones having past, present, or future potential.

But the end is near.

If you've been there before you can just feel it.

The lifelong pressure for exponential growth can provide some incredible opportunities, which can only be realized when you are not otherwise encumbered with risks to the sustainability of your survival activities, or even more financially challenging disaster recovery.

Best case is where I develop increasingly effective solutions to the energy crisis, at least take the most promising approaches I've seen over the last few decades and push them to the max like you don't normally get without using resources that are out of reach until you have some prosperity behind you. I can still herd cats too and willing to do it.

In the middle somewhere I could revamp my entire industry, like I was originally brought in by the international leader to accomplish, and this was before things like personal computers were adopted. But we could always communicate around the world using our Teletypes :) All other top executives now have a lesser background that did not include this transition and it did not go well, but none of them simply remember why. Nor has it nearly been completed satisfactorily, and wiser business practices can no longer be gradually implemented because the dysfunctional systems that were applied have become the ensconced norm. Needs the same old major disruption I first started planning in the early 80's when it first become obvious it would take more than a decade of planning alone before well informed efforts could be wisely expended worldwide, so I got to work right away and never stopped. As a senior insider who did not come from a different industry more recently than 40 years ago, all my vision, overtime, and progress since then could be applied like nothing else. Oh well.

It's all the same amount of work no matter what, and a lot more opportunity for breakthroughs than being an oldies musician or something.

Although it's good to rehearse a bit again and internet radio is coming so stay tuned . . .

So far more musicians are showing interest than others who spent most of their careers as executives in my industry. It may be a little too late now at this point, most recent executives don't think they need enough experience building any one thing for very long, especially not up to its best potential for them to get really good or develop much appreciation for it anyway.