>Hiring is broken. People leave their jobs every 2 years or less. The corporate work culture survives on people's fears. If you don't play by the rules of the people in power, how will you make money, how will you feed your family, how will you contribute to society? It's a viscious cycle perpetuated by our willingness to outsource our values.

I've never worked for someone that didn't love me for anything longer than a weekend gig. Was amazing in school all the way into the #1 ranked grad school for my major and when I got there... I realized even my assigned "mentor" did not care for me. I spilled my soul to her, after experiencing so much contempt and hate, and she had no fucking reaction whatsoever. No advice, no... nothing! These hateful fucks wanted over $60,000 a year to give me no advice, consolation, compassion, NOTHING!

After recovering from that, as a last ditch effort to obtain a career where I could afford a family I tried get a CS degree at the local uni that I could afford.

It's a complete shitshow of no standards and professors would open their lectures with emails from graduates explaining how employers saw a degree from this school as worse than NOTHING. The "weed out" filter test after 2 years was such a fucking joke they gave us 3 hours and I aced it in 10 minutes and then resigned myself to taking a nap for the next 2 hours and 50 minutes until someone asked to leave and was let out so I learned even the bluff about not letting people out early so that they could message people still taking the exam was bullshit, too.

There were over 80 people taking CS in my cohort... I was one of only 3 that seemed competent, top guy, only one that actually stayed in CS was a sociopath who was constantly hacking and stealing from the university and local businesses and expecting to be lauded despite taking his plunder. Then there was a gal who decided to stick with mathematics and give up on the creepy CS department, prolly most of all for the creepy lecturer trying to get a Ph.D. talking about how the only real way to get money he could manage with the knowledge he was teaching us was with his porn sites, and how his personal hero is Howard Stern. After he was already under investigation for gender bias, she decided to stop trying in CS and just focus on math. So during the final exam, this guy realizes that there are only 3 females in this class of about 85 because any female willing and able to learn all this would be accepted and paid to go to far better schools... he's been told that if the grades of the 82+ guys are much better than the 3 gals he will lose his job and Ph.D. spot... and then as he walks the room during the final he walks right to her and sees she hasn't studied and doesn't give a fuck because she finally decided on Math and not CS.

So he panics and starts just outright literally in earshot of the whole room telling her every answer and begging her to write it down on her test.

That's when I decided to nope out of the major. They offered me a job Ph.D. spot and I went back to my janitor job for people who love me.

When they die I have no idea what I'll do. My best friend is someone ten years older than me that I've never been within 2500 miles of, and sometimes he really creeps me out, but I have no one else to voice chat with or watch movies with IRL or online.

At work... lately I mostly think about how I'm drowning in sweat having to wear a mask all the time but also I often feel glad I'm not working on some tech thing I oppose, or having to hear hate speech against me like at school...

The bad thing is not being able to have an IRL relationship, much less family, but that's due to a ton of factors... in the US, it was guaranteed by NSC 68, which reacted to the Soviet, communist goal of full employment of both men and women with trying to keep women in the workforce permanently (for the ultimate purpose of winning an arms race with the USSR) as they had been forced into it during WWII. According to this plan, the US dollar was devalued so that men AND women would have to work an hour each to obtain roughly the same relative purchasing power as one hour of work by a man before.

If someone wanted to keep goosing up the stock market and employment numbers further by various extrapolations upon this theme... anyone see where I'm going?