Philosophically I'm a bit of an anarchist and a stoic. I think firstly it's a choice we make when we try to expand your awareness to a point where maybe we're "seeing" bigger movements happening in the world that are ugly and despairing to us, at the same time, when it comes down to it, this clash is more like "do I wanna be unaware of ugly truths or do I prefer to take in all that and keep working do be able to see it better, maybe act on something?".

I think studying history is very sobering because you see how much of the ugly stuff, injustices, have been present all along(also how many heroes there's always been, going against that). It's also entertaining as fuck as well as educational and makes you think about all kinds of different things.

Some bad things you just gotta be patient and let them consume themselves, e.g.: new-right obscurantism, leaders, it's just something that can't be sustained, it eventually drops because it's rotten... Other stuff have different qualities that make them stay. Anarchism is an example of this to me.

I've also stopped identifying myself with the whole. Some people are like "oh why are we like this" as if everything must move together as a single unit, as if we and the actual rulers are the same, fuck that. Everyone can act wherever they are and tip things, there's a lot of stuff that can be done(I think it's amazing really how many counter-economic things are possible, planting, cooking, for example), it only does not seem so when people think like the whole must move together in perfect harmony.

I've quit my bullshit job at the start of the year, some friends of mine, one of which is also somewhat anarchic and a damn genius engineer started a startup that's related to electric vehicles, I'm working there. I think a lot about "direct economic action" and such, doing stuff that'll let people own their lives again etc, we frequently talk about ideas like that.

On the inwards part, I do yoga, I skateboard, calisthenics. Well my suggestion is to just take care of the body and mind, practice sports, be strong, get to the level your body was designed to work on, if your body is weak you feel weak and vice-versa. The same for the mind, I'm listening to "the mind illuminated", about meditation, I'm always reading and studying interesting stuff on philosophy, history, religion. Seek nature, immerse in nature, remote areas where people live peacefully without anxiety, all that artificial stuff we try to feed on are shit, we've always had it in ourselves, I think, a healthy mind and a healthy body is not so complicated. Also as you see deep into ugly stuff, you can also look deep into beautiful stuff, music, exercising, sex, hashish, all good things! Skateboarding, for example, is awesome because it's so damn impossible, all the physics and coordination and balance involved, fuck, it shouldn't even exist, but it do!

Stoicism is also great because it's a very solid mindset, an antique philosophical mindset. If you want to put weight on this side and perspective of things, then prepare, work for it, pick fights, act etc, then it starts feeling like a big adventure. You have to make the choice sometime, I've made mine to make my own path and say it screw it to the linkedin, corporate drones running exclusively the mainstream program. I want to walk my own path and have good laughs at the blind idiots banging their heads. And I'm actually currently in a cool startup, I'm still a damn good software guy with a big project on my lap, plenty others to pursue then(secret tip: I remain interested and sharp because I don't learn, think, reflect on Software and other large things for them, I do it for myself, to be able to materialize the stuff I wanna do, to be capable of seeing what stuff stuff actually is, etc. Never had a problem getting a job, most I actually despise, the damned souls over there still love me anyway), so, I have purpose.