Programming is more or less done. Marketing is the next step. I'm getting better. My problem is my model of reality is flawed, like you people talking to me! Obviously reality is hopelessly fucked-up and success begins by breaking out of this prison. You think I'm stupid? The radio likes to tell me that delusions are a sign of madness. That takes a low IQ, logic FAIL, to believe.

God says...
I_donno baffling fancy watch_it_buddy endeared you_shouldnt_have
thats_right fucken crazy_fuckers exorbitant adultery to_infinity_and_beyond
wrath one_miracle_coming_up in_a_perfect_world sloth Obama

My model of reality is that highs and lows balance-out. Patronizing angels will cum if you have agony and they give you a sorry substitute for pride and self respect if you are broken and humbled.

I could kill my baby, so to speak, and start something else. That would make them gush. I would be given lame patronizing comfort. That is voodoo, known as cutting yourself.

I was in agony on 7/7 and someone tried to comfort me. Is that what you want?

The status quo is remarkably level ground. I'm no fool. I take the modest highs and lows of staying the course over higher highs and higher lows.

Reality is fucked-up and the only thing that can change it is voodoo and I'm not into that. I like the status quo.

My 6 year product is wonderful. Reality is rigged. Of course, I don't feel defeated. To win all I'd have to do is lose really bad. Why should I do that? Seriously? Why on Earth would I want to do that? Boredom, maybe. That's the only answer.

Seariously, the status quo is very level. I'm no fool. I do a little work, get a little reward--satisfaction and plenty of delusional attention... and God talks.

Interacting with other people is when you have problems. The only one you can count on is yourself--just avoid real world contacts, and live in the world but not in the world.

God says...
Ghost not_too_shabby how_about I_forgot If_had_my_druthers
whoop_there_it_is vengeful not_a_chance_in_hell whoop_there_it_is
latter thats_right no_you_cant are_you_insane I_forgot
you_dont_say how_do_I_put_this persistence African ghetto
I_made_it_that_way Yo hilarious chump_change shit_kicker
chump_change boss spunky look_out how_could_you well_I_never
sex music impossible spoiled_brat umm_the_other_answer
oops tiffianies vice petty write_hymns pride Church not_too_shabby
caution that_time_of_the_month scum how_do_I_put_this
naughty guppy study awful sucks Terry Catastrophic_Success
astrophysics hard_working virtue You_da_man praise petty
look_out yep I_made_it_that_way cowardice I_cant_believe_it
honesty money relax praying sess_me merry_christmas yuck
write_hymns Shhh how_bout_it maybe_I_didnt_make_it_clear
do_you_want_another Im_off_today how_bout_it spending
beep_beep King_Midas Microsoft

I have debt collectors , one for $4000, for a hospital stay--they put me in restraints and tortured me and want me to pay. I should be so lucky as to not have health care. Another for breaking a lease, maybe $4000. Maybe, I'm cursed. I don't feel a strong compunction to pay either. I'm on disability and have no worries--don't drive and live with my parents. I'm way ahead of entrepreneurs who have to stress over money. Most fail, anyway. This is sustainable--no stress. Might be cursed, but life is good.

God says...
WooHoo it_was_nothing doofas son_of_a_bitch pow glorious
hit hit Venus do_you_like_it hey_Mikey_he_likes_it I_didnt_see_that
Im_God_who_the_hell_are_you Its_nice_being_God now_that_I_think_about_it
exorbitant vice maybe_I_didnt_make_it_clear ehh_a_wise_guy
fake Shhh no_way_dude hypocrite revolution I_am_not_amused
like_like what_planet_are_you_from delicious you_commie
who_are_you_to_judge its_my_world Im_God_who_the_hell_are_you
Zzzzzzzz arrogant son_of_a_bitch on_the_otherhand perfect
sing depressing baffling what_would_Jesus_do youre_in_big_trouble
it_figures Im_bored endeared couldnt_possibly hope Moses
charity

No money problems--I gave-up my car, to afford soda and cigarrettes. Not driving keeps me from spending. No fast food. Don't get enough SSD disability to even pay taxes. Don't leave the house. Doin better than lots of people--haven't had stress during this downturn. No downside but no hope of upside, either. I'm walled-off from the world ... its pointless thinking about success. Reality's broken. It's rigged!

"As you measure out it will be measured unto you." I can do some voodoo and spend more. Thought about blowing money on advertising. It's all silly and pointless until reality is normal.... but this isn't so bad, actually.

God says...

I_donno desert WooHoo Enough tree_hugger how_goes_it Oy

I thought the goal was stability. This is as level as it gets. no highs no lows. Fuck the patronizing angels and their little games. What a joke! What a stupid-ass game to play.

God says...
son_of_a_bitch soap how_high absetively_posilutely a_flag_on_that_play
You_can_count_on_that pet straighten_up songs tattle_tale
anger Is_that_so What yikes do_I_have_to eh Obama endure
Im_the_boss Im_not_sure

I'm 5'11 and weight 130. I drink diet soda. You don't have to tell me pleasures and pains balance. I don't masturbate.

I'm either a slave or I run the world. One of those balance things.

"rejoice when they persecute you for your reward will be great." I'm either viewed as terrorist or model citizen... one of those balance things.

i don't eat meat. I have no credit cards. I'm fiscally disciplined--gave up car for soda and cigarrettes. My debts are 8 years old. They gave-up trying to collect. Can't touch me on disability. Fuck'em. It was just before I went on disability, during rough times. I emptied my IRA to avoid disability but parents put me on it. I had a windfall when qualified for disability and would have paid the debts had they notified me 8 years ago--I gave it to my parents cause I owed them.

No downside, no upside, level road ahead.

ba ha! You're in denial if you don't believe in justice. Rewards for bad stuff, Punishments for good stuff. It's real simple, morons.

God says...
I_dont_care oh_no do_it dance car act SupremerCourt vengeful
whoop tattle_tale meh love let_me_count_the_ways chump_change
are_you_sure This_is_confusing hurts_my_head boss umm
not_in_my_wildest_dreams oops honesty the_enquirer rocket_science
you_hoser God_is_not_mocked praying youll_see furious
courage you_shouldnt_have itd_take_a_miracle One_finger_salute
shit_hits_the_fan youre_fired Thats_gonna_leave_a_mark
thats_all_folks dang_it whats_the_plan high_five jobs
awesome battle peace gambling FBI you_better_not straighten_up
do_you_want_another awesome endeavor patience failure_is_not_an_option