And , most importantly , I might find a reason to live . Now that sounds more depressing than it 's intended to be , and I mean it exactly how I put it . I just feel like I ' m at a dead end , here in the Netherlands , as I ' m getting nowhere with my education . I have n't gained a single fucking thing in the last seven or so years in highschool , as I only got the lowest degree and I do n't intend to use it .

Question: Why is the person describing things in this self admittedly depressing way ?
Answer: None of the above choices .They want the reader to understand what their current emotional landscape is likeThey want the reader to feel sorry for them as they are attention hungryThey hope that if they seem sad , the reader will send donations