When I asked him to explain what he meant , he started to bring lots of moments we had together and all the time he was pointing the fact that I was doing things in order to have his approval . Which , is true . It 's hard for him to understand that I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP ! ! ! And it 's harder for me to accept it .

Question: What may happen after trying to explain what i meant ?
Answer: I would ramble on and on about nothing important .I would start to talk about the past .I would ask if she knew what i was talking about .I would ask if she had anything to talk about ?