Soon , I can accomplish nothing but cataloging my failures . It is difficult to right myself once this has begun , or even realize that it is happening . Once I do realized what I am doing to myself , I tend to hit the " paul is broken " motif which is a dead end . The ironic thing is that they are solvable problems . By me alone even . Case in point : I should have " the man " paid off by tuesday . It took me sitting down and sorting my finances and looking for the way to succeed , and then making it happen .

Question: What has the narrator been focusing on lately ?
Answer: Money owed to them by their friend Paul .Their money .Their design motif .None of the above choices .