She now found herself using it simply to attain her normal unemotional state . That , too , was illogical . It was to those under her command that she should always appear firm , confident and strong . It was her commanding officer she should go to with her problems and complaints .

Question: Why did the narrator always go to her officer ?
Answer: In order to appear confident .In order to appear firm .In order to conceal it from others .In order to appear strong .