So I was going without internet at home so that I 'd do other things at home , than sit all day online . I ended up having to get it for work , which of course I never used it for because they laid me off before I used it for them . But now I have the net , and I ' m doing what I feared ! I could be cleaning , reading , puttering , all kinds of useful things at home rather than sitting in front of my computer .

Question: Why do I fear what I fear ?
Answer: Cleaning scares me because I 'm lazy .I do n't want to get lazy and sit in front of my computer all day .Reading scares me because I do n't like books .Works scares me because I do n't like working .