People seem to keep me distant & are very aloof to me like they can sense i have a lot of problems ... how do i handle this behaviour ? its like from my perception no one wants to get involved with me , like iam a condemed person which people are disturbed by or whatever . its not like i have never tried with people either , in the past i have even acted out of character to try and be overly friendly and nice to be accepted and still , people have kept their distance but been civil to me , almost like making it evident they do nt want to know me .

Question: Why was the narrator surprised when people are n't nice to them ?
Answer: The narrator tried to be a lover .The narrator tried to be a peacemaker .The narrator tried to be a gift bearer .The narrator tried to be overly nice .