I want this experience and I want to provide , and it 's not the actual job I am afraid of ; it 's leaving home . No matter which way I look at it , essentially I am going to be living the majority of my life somewhere else , which makes what is currently my home , a temporary pit - stop . I ' m afraid of disappointing people and not being the best I can be , I ' m afraid the ache in my heart for my family will suck the life out of me and I ' m afraid of losing my friends .

Question: Why am I afraid of losing my friends ?
Answer: Because I care a lot about my friendships .Because I want this experience .Because it 's not the actual job I 'm afraid of .Because I want to provide .