Now the messier part , I discovered , is n't the actual break up . It is the aftermath . The after - getting over the break up that is dirty . After a month or so of nothing but absolute silence , I broke what was left of it ... I beeped ( shut up ) .

Question: What might I have meant when I spoke of " absolute silence " ?
Answer: It meant I was sometimes do n't hear because I have a hearing defect .It meant I only listen when I am not doing anything else .I just meant that I needed to listen a lot more carefully when people talk .I meant I had not heard a word from the person I am no longer with .