I just did n't want to admit to myself that things were going downhill . Even though I know he does n't like her like she likes him , I do believe she played a big part in the ending to our relationship . I gave it everything I had basically because I missed him . Honestly , completely , utterly missed him . But then I sat down & thought about it & honestly , thought about what it was actually worth .

Question: What am I finally realizing after all this time ?
Answer: I gave him everything and got nothing , he will pay for this eventually .Our bond was starting to crack even before she came along .Things were not going downhill , she came along and caused it .I was wrong to let him go , I should have made her sorry she interfered .