So I made the choice of cutting this short and maybe have her pay for my education when I get out to see how much she likes that . Nah , I can not do that to her nor myself . I think I am done flying out fragments from my miniature explosion that woke me up . First post and more to come .

Question: Why is the narrator so dependent and kind to the female subject ?
Answer: The narrator is looking for money for a book .The narrator is looking for money for a house .The narrator is looking for money for school .The narrator is looking for money for a car .