This is all I ' ve got . " It was harder then to feel alone than I had ever imagined . Maybe it was the shock . Everything had been good just a few moments before . Everything had been great , and now .

Question: Why do you think that it hurt to be alone then ?
Answer: I was used to having people around and because I was feeling bad , being alone felt additionally badI did not enjoy being alone because I wanted to cook and entertain and had no one to join meI had a lot of work to do and needed help but being alone I could not get that helpI was bored and being alone meant I stayed bored