* sigh * It does n't help that she passed a week before my birthday . I do n't feel right being happy on that day , and I do n't feel right being so sad on that day when my family tries to make it a nice day . * sigh * In happier news I received a Birthday card today . It was lovely , with flowers like a garden across it .

Question: What happened that makes it seem that it is n't right that I be happy on that day ?
Answer: I made a vow of silence .I am just starting a new job .I am becoming a monk .A close friend or relative has just died and I am sad .