But the thing is , I forgave and forgot a while ago . I ' m not bitter anymore . I just genuinely do n't want to go back to that church . I could n't get the balls to tell her that ...

Question: Why would n't I have the balls to tell her that ?
Answer: I am not a man and I ca n't tell her those things to her face .I am afraid of that church and I would feel less manly if I told her .None of the above choices .It is her favorite church and I do n't want to hurt her feelings .