Why had he done this to me ? I had taken a belt and wrapped my wrists with it , just to show him how much I trusted him not to hurt me , and then he went and did this to me . Why ?

Question: Why did I do what I did to myself ?
Answer: I did n't know what else to do except mess with the belt .There was nothing else to do except to play with the belt .I was playing with the belt because I was bored .I tied myself up because I trust him to not hurt me .