We ' ve chatted properly twice recently whereas we had n't spoken in a non - quick few emails sort of format for some time before . I do n't know ; it all sounds like crap but it all feels much more positive and like we 're sort of getting back to an even - keel sort of place . The best bit was that I was n't even that disappointed because I had primed myself for it - I KNEW I would n't be there this weekend and I wo n't allow myself to think that I ' m actually going next weekend until I ' m sat on the train .

Question: Why might I be feeling better about our relationship ?
Answer: I am being more reasonable about us which keeps everything more calm .I am enjoying the train travel which I used to dislike so it is a good sign .I am traveling there every weekend so we are not apart for too long .I no longer feel disappointment because I do n't want to travel by train .