I did a choice that i might regret very very much that will end up me being very miserable . But in the first place there never was a choice that are easy without getting yourself hurt . I find myself pushing my friends away from my life even more , The more they show how much they care for me and really want to help me the more i get frighten , it probably what happen in the past has left me scar in my heart .

Question: Why causes you to run away when your friends show you kindness ?
Answer: I do n't want to have to be kind and act like a good person all the timeMy fear of having to be open and vulnerable with people scares meMy fear of having to be friendly makes me scaredI do n't want to have to reciprocate their good will