I find myself better off alone. Not able to develop a good friend.But still there is some jealousy while I see people enjoying. Is that normal? I have a very good reputation among my friends (both boys & girls). They think I am very good boy. But I have watched porn a few times. I see good looking girls sometimes and then avoid looking and I tell myself that it's not good manners to stare. But am I bad because I am getting the thoughts initially?