What if I've had the same music teacher for five years and it feels like I am learning nothing? I REALLY want to go to Juilliard One day I feel very confident and the next day I am very depressed. I'm only 24 and do not have a job yet. I have no idea what I did in the last 8 years. I am not passionate about anything. Most times I feel like my existence is worth nothing. I want to get out of this. What do I do?