The great theologians do not take the position that one may pick and choose whether one will recognize a pope or not.  If they did, they would not be great, or theologians.  I am glad you are consulting doctors, however.  I hope that goes well.  I do not understand why modernists and progressives continue to believe they, not God, chooses the leader of the One True and Infallible Catholic Church.  If one is not in agreement with the Pope, one is wrong, not the Pope.  The failure to understand that simple Fact is the foundation of the Protestant religions.