U.C.:  You obviously have faith and, for you, that's an important part of your life.  I think we have a conflict regarding the difference between "know" and "feel" or "believe."  ...that's where faith come in.  You say you "know", I would say you have a strong belief or faith.  I have no desire to challenge your faith.  It's important to you and to your life.  I wish you well.  Gary Crum