I understand where you are coming from. However, I remain in the Church, despite all its warts, for deeper reasons. I believe that evolution is directed towards some terminal "Omega Point", that humanity stands in the front line of this directed evolution, that the Christian phenomenon--led by the Catholic Church--is in the very vanguard of this directed phenomenon. I cling to the Church, even though I am distressed at its reactionary leadership, because I trust that the Lord is using it as an important vehicle in drawing creation to its intended consummation where "God may be all in all" (1 Cor 15:28). I want to collaborate with that plan of God, albeit in the most modest of ways. Of course, this is all a matter of faith. Hopefully, I am not entirely deluded!