In all my time away from the Catholic Church I did not try to deceive myself that I was a Catholic. My criticisms of Catholics who, rather than stay "and live out their Faith," as you put it, actually reject it yet cling on to the notion that they can do this and still remain members of the Church are perfectly legitimate. I am only applying the same criteria to them as I applied to myself.
Your analogy re: the Prodigal Son is way off the mark, my situation doesn't resemble that parable one iota.
Also your 'judgement' of me not having a "humble and contrite heart" is laughable when one looks at your 'humble and heartily contrite' comments on this website: knocking people's teeth out whom you perceive to have humiliated you, dragging Cardinal Burke around strapped to a commode, etc.
Nice try.