Ray, I'm not going back because the church has become a fascist political party.  They were complicit in the election of one of the most immoral men who has ever lived.  All of us have been aware of Trump's vulgarity and cruelty for 30 years.  This is the man the church helped become POTUS.  I have reached my limit with the church: clerical abuse scandals and the cover up, demanding that the laity pay for their depravity by stealing our parishes and using the proceeds to pay for lawyers and fund right-wing political causes, the disappearance of the clergy retirement fund when Cardinal Law escaped to Rome, the corrosive misogyny, the investigation of the nuns, etc., etc., etc.  The Mafia seems tame compared to this bunch of goons in lacy dresses who think they are superior to everybody.  The curtain has finally come down on them and we see them as the nest of vipers that they actually are.  Yeah, I'm bitter and am not in a forgiving mood.