Youngsters who thought they could take on the whole army and win , the ones who laughed loudly , jocked around and looked sheepish when an officer came to complain about the noise . Ratchet had seen them start fighting seriously , he had seen some of them die on the battlefield and later in the Medbay because it was too late . He had seen them dying in the hallways because they had been deemed doomed by the people in charge of triage . Oh , how he hated that ... Those that survived ... he had seen their optics becoming harder , their faces becoming blank , he had seen the jokes die on their lips .

Based on the preceding passage, answer the following question What might Ratchet be trying to reconcile in the story ?
How those same young men were so carefree were then dying and injured soon after .