Jayber jokes that God reckoned I needed one final lesson in letting go of control which has been something of a theme over these 2 years . I have no doubt that particular lesson is not over yet , but maybe there has been the tiniest hint of progress , . At least this time I did n't throw things , eh ? The keys were found , I sat down and wept .

Based on the preceding passage, answer the following question How may I be feeling right now ?
Sad