IN: For one I did not over - react in FRONT of anyone , I was in the car after my appointment in severe distress . I feel now I ca n't allow myself to feel distress or fear or panic . I ca n't react to situations or reach out and ask for support because then I am being childish and acting out . I needed help badly the other day before I did something dangerous and all I get now is my wrist slapped like a naughty child .
Why might the person have been panicking in their car ?

OUT: They did not want to show anyone that they were panicking in public

IN: I do n't have to pack an extra lunch the night before , I do n't have to pay for it and I am usually the one that gets to pick where we eat most of the time ! I have been thinking about and have been making little steps to invest more time into my family . This is a VERY difficult thing for me to do ( those of you who know me and know a little about my past and my family situation would understand ) .
Why is the narrator looking for extra time ?

OUT: To spend more time with people they care about .

IN: The car beside me hit its brakes ( softly and safely ) immediately upon realizing the mistake . All 's good . Let 's go take on the day . Then the car that had been delayed ever so slightly passed by in front of us with the rear passenger flashing the angriest obscene gesture I ' ve seen in a while . And not just with one finger . He did the unfake double handed gesture for emphasis . Sheesh . At that moment I had the life force sucked out of me .
Why in the world did the passenger in the car that passed the author give an obscene gesture ?

OUT:
Because they had to stop suddenly due to the sudden braking of the cars in front , and apparently that just ruined their moment .