I did not want to Shirk my duty to her as a husband ... But every time I found her with another man , I hoped from the bottom of my heart that he would steal her away . Evenutally one of them did . And I got to live in my big house , alone . Except for the servants ... One of Whom I had Begun to believe was watching me .

Why did the speaker hope that the one of the men would eventually take his wife away for good ?
He wanted out of the marriage but he did n't want to take responsibility for ending it