finding myself in the oddest of situations has led me tocrave self - destruction and self - inflicted problems . only knowing myself when i am down has turned me intoa miserable prick who craves disaster . i truly am myown worst critic , and i am aware of the damage i am imposing on those around me . i am not aware of whyi refuse to change , i am fully conscious my intake hascaused me to become anything but immune to illness , i have no doubt that i search for pain wherever i go .

A: Why would this person be craving unhappy events in their life .

Aaron gave her a quick squeeze , giving her comfort where it was needed ; Cassandra smiled before poking him in the stomach and heading out of the alleyway . Aaron followed her , as he knew he would always do . Hell , the whole reason he was with her now was because he had followed her out of the hospital when she had run .

A: Why is Aaron so excited and thrilled ?

Plus I asked my co - workers and none of them thought I looked tired . Mainly I was pissed because she made a comment about my physical appearance and it made me paranoid . On Saturday my co worker was serving a man who very obviously smelled of weed .

A: Why is the narrator upset at their customer ?

Note : comments are off , I just do n't know how to make them not appear in my footer . Alright . So my posting every day thing for 30 days was a pipe dream . I have been blogging every day , I just have n't created a finished product every day . The point is that lots of posts are in the works . This takes precedence . My best friend from forever , Emily , has sent me a request .

A:
Am I still hopeful , despite the setback ?