The letter with George 's own name lay furthest from them and he could n't even look at it . But he looked up at lee , watched him run his thumb over the ink . " I ' m here . Always will be here . "

OPTIONS: -The letter is under his hand so it ca n't be seen -He is blind and can not see the letter -He does n't want to think about what 's in it -None of the above choices .
Answer the following question: Why ca n't George look at the letter with his own name on it ?
He does n't want to think about what 's in it