Problem: Not too long ago she never would have thought she would be attracted to a career military soldier like John . And a pilot who loved to go fast , no less . All her life the path to romantic companionship had meant doctors , professors , academics , and even politicians and diplomats .

Why are some surprised with her partner ?

A: They have a different lifestyle than past mates .

Problem: But then we turned a corner and she got better and we ( trainer & I ) were talking about showing her again in Dressage . I wish I knew what to do with her . Right now , I ca n't justify putting her down because she 's still eating , maintaining weight ( actually putting on ) and her eyes are bright . If it 's going to happen , I wish it just would ... but I know like with Roma , it is going to happen suddenly and I 'll be left with this gaping hole in my heart and agony in my soul of euthanizing my partner of 10 + years . Sancho : Ride Sancho in Angel 's Dressage bridle with her Loose Ring , French Link bit .

What may be the decision I am agonizing over making ?

A: I will have to make the decision of when to put down my beloved horse .

Problem: When I went to clean his cage out , I picked him up . He was not as warm as he usually is , and he was sluggish . I just knew he was dying .

What could the narrator be referring to ?

A:
They are referring to an animal .