question: Alcohol just never seemed to be an intoxicating substance for him . He could drink extensively , the strongest liquor available ( and in fact his chosen beverage was Absinthe ) , but still remain completely sober . Marijuana acted much like an energy drink would to someone else .
Q: Why is their friend able to drink so much ?

answer: They are used to the effects of alcohol .

question: So , do I follow my gut ( the same gut that led me to take single sessions of fencing and improv and to briefly involve myself with varying volunteer commitments ? ) or sit on the fence a little while longer and perhaps look at taking a Wicca 101 class or scouring a dozen more books on my lunch hours ? The problem is that there is no real way to know if I fit without actually jumping in . And it 's just uncouth to poke around at the fringes for eternity .
Q: What is causing so much self doubt in the narrator ?

answer: They have to pick between fencing and wicca .

question: It could have been everything , and it could have been nothing . I think I was past caring . I walked , because there was nothing else for me to do . My chest still felt tight , like a coil wound .
Q: Why would someone feel that the narrator is being difficult ?

answer:
The narrator is feeling overwhelmed and is showing it .