So yeah ... That 's it , season done , game over , good - bye . I watched that last game in traditional me fashion : Flipping away when it got too hairy , screaming at the bullpen , cheering wildly as that apple rose for what could very well be the last time . I cheered as Ryan Church 's final out flew into the outfield . Almost like it was the wind itself , my words knocked that ball into Cameron Maybin 's glove .

A: What game is being played ?

I have n't felt like this in a while ... yearning to be non existing that is . So many things are wrong and have been wrong . I ' ve struggled and lost 84 pounds so far ; however , I ca n't even tell the difference because all I see is a fat tub - o - lard ugly girl who no one would rather be with .

A: What is true about me ?

Which was gay and decided to go to Taco Bell . And ha , guess who I ran into ... it 's funny how I told Stephanie the big news and there 's the person who could of ruined my life . I talked to him and his friend for a while and it was just weird ... Later on , Jack drops me off and I ' m trying to convince my dad to let me have like 4 people over , but dad is still paranoid from the night I had the two parties . So whatever , that did n't work .

A: Why do you think his father was too paranoid to allow four friends to come over ?

I am just done with all this drama with his mother . We are the only ones in the family who are any good to her and she does this to us all the time . I told Joe I m not going out there again , and that if I do nt go , Nina does nt go . Joe said he would discuss this with me when I was more rational .

A:
What may be the reason for him not wanting to discuss things now ?