And everyday , it just boiled down to this , ' YOU LAZY VAGABOND ! YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING1 YOU HUNCH BACK ! ' Besides , i was younger and still retained my silly childhood admiration for my sister so my mothers words din affect our relationship much . In fact , we grew closer and to say the truth , i took my sister 's side .

A: Why did he / she took his sister 's side ?

i know books wo n't save me and neither will talking to people but so what if that 's true then everything negates everything else and , you can guess the equation . i have been alarmingly successful at staving off existentialist panic moments , moments you 'd presume to be freeing by definition , or , at least calming , during times of pure life . you know that kind that is really window shop glory , the time spent unlocking locks , blindly paging novels , acknowledging colors before instinct or before retina .

A: How may I be feeling right now ?

She did and agreed - sounded like asthma . Matt has had a milder cough for about the same time period . His cough is less dry and wheezy and he 's been congested . I thought it was a summer cold .

A: What if it was what it sounded like ?

I wish there was a time machine but I ca nt go back in time . I can only look at the future . I lost a very good man . He explained everything clearly to me and now I know I lost for good .

A:
Why would I want to travel back to the past ?