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And it is eleven thirty at night and I ' m not asleep , which I usually am by now and ...... I am happy . Do I dare to think that this one could be easy on me ? YES , I ' m daring , let 's say I think this one is going to be a lot better than the last one . Time will tell , every good day I 'll accept for sure , and not question it .

What is meant by " this one " ?
My new significant other .