I feel horrible . James dosent need me anymore and it hurts . It hurt him needing me but it hurts even more that he is n't attached to me . I do n't know why but it does . I keep thinking about old habits and i m going to start them up again because those things were the only things that kept me sane and i m doing so much worse now than I was back then . Smoking and drinking just are n't me .

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If things do n't change what will you start doing again ?