It took for forever to realize why but I figured it out . When this guy left me , he took a part of me with him . Honestly , I never thought I could find love again the way I did with him .

A: Why does the narrator have such a pessimistic attitude ?

It just so happened that the book I had chosen was of a spiritual nature and it was talking about how God is always there for you , but sometimes you just do n't let Him in . It came to me at that moment that He is the bright shining sun and my sins and my selfishness are the dirt on the window that keep him out . He 's always there , ready to warm me up , I just need to clean my windows to let Him in . Happy Lent .

A: What type of faith does the narrator have ?

I went to the room for about an hour while Ricardo and Steve - oh and Ruben jammed . We got pretty baked and I can dig their stuff . Went over to Chase and Chelsie 's , smoked , watched Chase play Too Human for TOO long , Dustin came over , we played GH3 ... then I went home around 2 am or so . Woke up , ran around for a while . Bought some random things I needed [ yogurt , a picture frame , makeup remover , etc . ]

A: Why do I dig their stuff ?

He said he no one had . I asked him if I could . He said " lol please do " ( because this was done over facebook ) I was excited ! I talked to him more , and we settled that we would get together once school started and I would share Jesus with him .

A:
Why is the narrator looking to see her old friend ?