question: dinner and training at sensei 's house . 1st came coffee and water . then came karate practice . then came dinner ( or a feast fit to be 1 of those fancy inn dinner ) , where i fit in like an adopted member .
Q: What may I do after the dinner ?

answer: Take a shower

question: maybe i could be professional props maker . hah . after sp night on sat i cabbed home could nt be bothered alr 20 bucks . then i showered and KO - ed from 3 am - sunday 7 pm i think my mom thought i died or smth .
Q: What may happen after the shower ?

answer: I went to bed .

question: For the rest of my life , I will regret killing you . I did it to save my own life , but I still hate myself for it . It 's just another thing I ' m going to have to live with and another part of my soul I ' m never , ever getting back . And I hate you for that . " She drew a deep , shaky breath .
Q: Why does the narrator carry such overwhelming guilt and shame ?

answer:
They murdered someone .