Of which just happens to be the last violin shop job I turned down . At that time , my life was in shambles and if I made it through the day it was a good day . After I had to turn that job down I felt like a total failure all over again . I felt like I had failed my professor .

Generate a question about the above context.
Why is the narrator so down on themselves ?
Choices:
[-] None of the above choices .
[-] They cursed out their professor .
[-] They are not fulfilling their professor 's expectations .
[-] They broke their violin .