What happens next?

How to come to terms with feeling ugly
Confront beauty standards.
The way you see yourself is shaped by forces that have very little to do with reality. Beauty standards are contradictory and ever-changing.
They tend to reflect imbalances of power-racism, ageism, ableism, sexism. When you have a negative thought about your own looks, ask: what is making me feel this way? Am i holding myself up to a standard that is destructive? Watching a lot of television makes most people wish they looked different.