i just want to be rid of the pain which torments my soul to no end . and just when i think the worst is over he does something else to pull the strings on my heart tighter .

A: What is the OP likely suffering from ?

I have such a bad gag reflex and definitely finding hair in my food would have set it off . I somehow got past it and finished my breakfast but I am not sure if I could eat at that restaurant again . Even now typing this up makes me want to upchuck . Danika took me out to do groceries after then I came home and played on the computer . That is twice now that she has taken me to do groceries and I am very grateful to her for it .

A: Why would the narrator boycott the restaurant ?

but i will be happy to leave . i will tattoo a maple leaf somewhere ( because my mother is always right ) and cry every wednesday night for months and happily embrace the turmoil of feeling shocked and displaced all over again ... in the one place that i want to stay forever , and the only place that will ever be home . so anyway , since i made myself really homesick and citysick with all of that thinking , i counted my pistachio mixer fund .

A: What may happen after feeling homesick ?

Pretty much packed . This angmoh lady wearing a straw hat ended up turning around and talking to me for quite some time . She was telling me about how her 57 year old husband suddenly took interest in taking part in triathlons a year ago and she was speaking of him with that really incredible sparkle in her eyes .

A:
What does the writer mean by " sparkle in her eyes " in this passage ?