I miss her so much . Yesterday when I was at the doctor 's office , I truly thought that she was going to walk in at any moment . She 'd usually meet up with me at the dr 's if I was ill , and each time the door opened I expected to see her face . I almost cried when those thoughts came crashing down on me .

A: Why did she expect to see her ?

What happened ? ! That about catches us up here . Oh yeah , Sunday Mom and I went to a church , and five minutes before services , a countdown came up on the projection screens .

A: Why is the narrator 's mother happy with her ?

Our budget allowed us laminate or carpet tiles , the laminate actually looks great with the dark beams etc so yeah , we went for that . We also pained the whole place from top to bottom with about 4 -5 coats of matte white paint which helped to give a sense of bigger space . ( the window is now filled ) if you look at the left of that pic where all the stuff is ; that is a concrete plinth that the previous tennant laid so he could have a furnace in there , that he never installed ! so we have a plinth that were gon na use to stick cabs and what not on !

A: What is the narrator putting down ?

But the thing is , I forgave and forgot a while ago . I ' m not bitter anymore . I just genuinely do n't want to go back to that church . I could n't get the balls to tell her that ...

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Why would n't I have the balls to tell her that ?