I need to write , i need to ge this shit out of my head , and in the open once and for all . Oh , by the way , happy birthday dad . you would have been ... 48 ?

Options are: i. The narrator is struggling with an over - active mind . ii. None of the above choices . iii. The narrator seems to be relaxing . iv. The narrator seems to be void of current thought .
Q: Why does the narrator seem to be so on edge ?
i.