There was not a sense of holding onto them - rather surprise that they 'd ever been mine and an ease of letting them go . If anything , I was more concerned that they were my children 's legacy and were now gone . But this was entirely about material things associated with my former life and marriage , and the caretaker even showed me a designer - decorated series of bathroom stalls - or how they used to be , as this was almost a Ghost of Christmas Past kind of viewing - that no longer have that designer look but that I ' ve remade into my own .

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Why did the narrator not want to completely clear house ?