What I was not searching for would be friends or lovers . No , I needed to keep myself distanced and removed from these people , lest my emotions compromise the choices that would need to be made . Oh , I knew them-- better than they knew themselves in some cases . I committed their names and histories to memory , kept myself familiar with their abilities and strengths and monitored their weaknesses .

Give answer the following question using evidence from the above passage: What may be the reason for their feelings ?
They want to focus on themselves .