My nephew , Matthew called today . He was at his grandma 's house and wanted to know if any of his cousins wanted to come swim in the pool with him . Jake was the only one not otherwise occupied , and since it was a sunny and hot day today , was more than happy to go cool off with Matthew .

A: What did Matthew do after swimming ?

That was a scare . B was pissed and now she was coming into town . But I talked to her and she said she was just coming in to see a friend of hers . Well , I took that opportunity to cover my own tracks and tell her I was going to Austin with some guys .

A: What is the reason I"m going to Austin with some of the guys ?

There definitely is a weakness of the body which reflects in various ailments but it is compounded by a lack of urgency . I am not sure whether its a general way of thinking or not but so far I have never heard anyone reminding me of death . Should nt we be talking more about it ?

A: What will happen if you do n't seek help ?

I have often struggled to put thoughts down on paper lately , mostly because I have been away from home so much . ( when i say paper , i mean LJ ) .

A:
Why might being away home make me struggle to write my thoughts down ?