And , most importantly , I might find a reason to live . Now that sounds more depressing than it 's intended to be , and I mean it exactly how I put it . I just feel like I ' m at a dead end , here in the Netherlands , as I ' m getting nowhere with my education . I have n't gained a single fucking thing in the last seven or so years in highschool , as I only got the lowest degree and I do n't intend to use it .

A: Why is the person describing things in this self admittedly depressing way ?

Apparently I have weak butt muscles . ( ermmmm okay ) So I have to do these exercises with this green rubber band thingy . And because we figured out that the pain on my middle left is muscle pain , where the muscles on my left side are stretched around the curved spine , and the lower right is joint pain , where the bones are all compressed , I was also given a back strengthening exercise on top of everything else . It 's not that I mind doing all these exercises but they leave me feeling winded and tired afterwards and maybe I just have n't reached the next level yet .

A: Who may have given them exercises to do at home ?

i do nt know who i am anymore.i do nt know who i want to be . This is the scariest thing ever.i will be the first to admit that Ben changed me . But he changed me in a good way and i realized what was important in my life because of him . i realized what i wanted out of life and i was looking forward to the rest of my life because i was positive i would be spending it with him .

A: Why was she looking forward to the rest of her life ?

I have been in love with the subject of houses in art lately . I recently did an etsy treasury with all kinds of houses . I have pondered several different types of media to make houses and this is the one I came up with for the moment . I call them the Funky House Ornament Series .

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What may be a fact about this person ?