Every single day . Living a lie . Misery and oppression . Ordinary and pathetic . I do n't know if you ' ve ever gone through this , but sometimes I find myself with girls I do n't like . I think I ' m with them in the first place because I 'd rather spend a moment with a girls arms around me , hugging me back on purpose , than another night alone in a cold , dark room .

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Why does this person seem so downcast in their narrative ?