IN: I do n't know why , maybe its because I want a reason to tell myself that we will eventually be together , but I keep telling myself that If only they were to meet me , that it would change everything . But , maybe its just wishful thinking , and the fact that I am blinded by love . Yes , I did actually say love , which is odd , because we really have not talked at all , at least not one on one , which I really wish we could , because I want to get to know her so bad . It 's not even right .
Why have I probably not talked to her ?

OUT: I am too scared

IN: I learned to play Canasta by watching . Or at least I think I learned how to play it . When I got home , I decided to look on OkCupid for this girl Hil told me Josh met who Marc and I were n't convinced was a real person . Well I think I found her .
Why would the narrator decide to go on OkCupid ?

OUT: The narrator is doing some spying .

IN: That 's going to be a whole 5 - 10 cuts I wo n't get to : ) Then there was the raccoon problems last week . Drilling holes and spreading repellent by the doors seems to have flushed them out . The mother ran off with one of the babies while I was using the camera , and the next morning the other baby was gone . I have n't heard from them since .
What may have happened to the other baby ?

OUT:
The mother may have come back and gotten it .