Answer the question about text:

It hit me then that my parents have now been divorced for as long as they were married . As much as I tried to stop the tears , I could n't . For the people we were then , for the person I was then , for the reality of my situation , for the pills I take every morning .

Why does the speaker feel that their parent 's divorce has changed them as a person ?
The death of a marriage is something that has lasting repercussions and ripples out to all parties