Answer the question about text:

He claimed the time was right for both . Upon learning of his abandonment , John went insane with rage and ran to the only open arms he could find . A desperate , ultra conservative base that had rejected him so long ago , but who John felt really loved him deep down inside . They only beat him when he deserved it . However , John , still smitten with Barack , could n't bear to live without him .

What may be the reason for someone taking such abuse ?
They want to be loved so desperately .