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I just sort of think of the good times we had and the girl I remember and that 's what I miss . I mean there is a little of this and that so far as unresolved stuff goes and a hint of bitterness or hurt but nothing really overwhelming or deep . I just think about her for some reason and I do n't know why . I even thought about calling her the other day but I decided against it at least for now .
Why is the narrator feeling resistant to reaching out ?