IN: finding myself in the oddest of situations has led me tocrave self - destruction and self - inflicted problems . only knowing myself when i am down has turned me intoa miserable prick who craves disaster . i truly am myown worst critic , and i am aware of the damage i am imposing on those around me . i am not aware of whyi refuse to change , i am fully conscious my intake hascaused me to become anything but immune to illness , i have no doubt that i search for pain wherever i go .
Why would this person be craving unhappy events in their life .

OUT: The narrator is experiencing self - loathing traits .

IN: The long weekend started out right ... I had dinner with friends from law school Friday night . Then I spent 7 hours studying Saturday a Starbucks with a couple pals from my MBA program and then picked up some clothes for my trip . Yah ... it started out good ... Then Sunday , I slept until almost noon and read the paper and did a ton of laundry in preparation for my trip and then went to a BBQ with Deb .
What may I be going to school for ?

OUT: Business

IN: I thought I would break this into bite size morsels ... haha hoo - hoo etc , Bitesize - ' Cakes ' . I -AM- hilarity personified ... Oh yes sir ... So , we 'd agreed Saturday to be our next meeting and that if it was fine weather we would go for a walk on Devils Dyke near Reach and if not to mine to watch Dvds of his bringing . As it turns out the weather , as so often it is in dear blighty , was neither here nor there .
Why was he bringing the DVD 's ?

OUT:
To have something to do .