Sadly , though the BIG Green Tree in our Great Room is up and has the lights on it , I just ca n't muster up the desire to decorate it . This is my first Xmas without my Mom and it is a struggle to just get through the day without crying . My Mom always decorated the stair bannisters and wreaths for my doors as well as help me do the tree . This year my bannisters are n't decorated and I got my white wreaths at Target !

Q with options: Give answer the following question using evidence from the above passage: why does he say it is the first xmas without his mom ?
Select from:
a). his mom is not present.
b). None of the above choices ..
c). his mom does not want to celebrate with him.
d). his mom is too busy decorating her own wreaths.
a).