"but the problem wo n't just disappear now that i 'm over garrett . i realize that now . this is n't about him ; it 's something deeper than that . it 's about who i am with him . with anyone . what happens with the next guy ? i 'm going to want to be loved by someone else one day ; i 'm going to long for him the same way i did for _ ..." What is the word in the blank space (_)? The answer is
garrett