i may die at any moment . but i want it to be with a light heart and happiness not with worry and anger or sadness . i want to sing and dance , i want to make him smile and laugh so hard he has to stop and grab that damn inhaler , because , steve has the asthma :( lol .

Give answer the following question using evidence from the above passage: Why might I want to die with happiness when I could die at any moment ?
Because I understand my passing would be devastating to those who love me .