IN: Even though I tried to give this fire oxygen and let the fire begin I pushed it to the limit of regret . I fed the fire with everything I had turning it againts me and I let it burn me . Still thank you for being a friend for me , and am thinking of the times when I told you how I felt and I now tell you i feel lost with no way and like the doors are closing in together . This time it really is hurting to say good bye , and deep inside am loosing grip of who I have been ... this time i m feeling like even tho it cuts me in like a knife there wo n't be much to let out .
What kind of medicine would help me the most ?

OUT: Prozac

IN: I had planned to spend Yule with my mum and family down south , but obviously I ca nt leave him like this when he needs so much looking after and I would just be worried about him , so I ' m in York for mid - winter . I was worried that I would be on my own ( Aaron and Barney will be with Aaron 's mum in Luton , Ellen and Luke will spend Christmas day with Ellen 's family ) with only a crippled cat for company . Luckily there were penguins to the rescue ! Baz and Gemma very nobly agreed to join me in York , and very grateful I am for it .
What holiday is the narrator getting ready for ?

OUT: They are celebrating the December 25th holiday .

IN: I ' m back home once again . Ah , back to the mundane . I 'm still severely jetlagged . I suppose it did n't help that my family let me sleep until just past noon today . They 're throwing me a big party tomorrow which should be fun .
Where might the OP have traveled from to experience this feeling ?

OUT:
From a different country