I hate waking up with the feeling , you know the one that makes you wanna cry , the feeling inside your chest that presses down not letting you breathe , the feeling of being alone even when surrounded by people , the same feeling that eats your heart with every beat , that feeling which has stayed with me it chokes me at times and makes me feel so insecure . I do n't want to blame anyone but my self and at the same time I want to blame every and anyone who 's ever got close to me . Why ca n't I brush things off like I used to ?

Answer the following question: Why am I feeling the way I 'm feeling ?
I 'm miserable because I am alone , unloved , and there is nothing I can do about it .