Bad Dreams Good Dreams
Subtitle: A Vajrayani Writes While Learning English
By: Anadish Pal.
Edition: First
Publisher: Yisheng Informaction
Published: 1996
Place of publication: Delhi, INDIA
Language: eng
Number of pages: 175
Subjects: Poetry
First sentence: All my life I had been a learner. I could not study. There had been a great urge to pick up your pen and write. You would laugh, if I say, the Muses took hold of me. But that’s very nearly true. My grandmother hailed from a village called Vajrayogini: Centuries ago from there came the Vajrayani scholar Atish Dipankar. They say, my grandmother’s mother was fed with a small portion of the kite’s flesh. And she turned mad. I think, I’m not mad enough not to write all this. But Vajrayan for me is a strange admixture of confidence and confusion, curiosity and vanity.
Description: A collection of Indo-Anglian poetry. Written over a decade, from 1985 to 1995. The first collection of poetry by the poet.
Notes: Playing Marbles 									4
Man 											6
Nutcracker’s Song of a Unicorn 							8
No Edit 										10
Reason and Truth 									12
Reflections on the Road 								13
I Waited for You 									14
A Story for God 									15
The Butterfly 										16
Pyotr Mobick 										18
8th Evening 										20
Short Poem 										21
Delhi 											22
Ever Transcendental 									25
The Ramblings of Imre Bloch 							26
The Words Playing 									28
Futility 										30
Harry’s World 									31
I and You 										32
Virtue 											33
Dreams 										34
Depression 										36
Beauty and Respectability 								38
Words 											39
Reading and Writing 									40
A Poet at Work 									42
Ashantri										44
I’m a Child Again									46
Just Sitting 										47
In Lockup 										50
Hapless Circle 									53
Contemplating 									54
Rhyme in Time 									56
Odd-Jobman 										58
The Red Tub 										60
The Fossil-Making of Desire 								61
The Story of My Telling of a Poem for a Stone in English 				62
Somnambulism 									64
Untitled 										65
The Poor Girl’s Face 									66
The Programme 									68
Meaning 										73
Time and Existence 									74
Naturalist’s Notebook 								76
Let Me Stoop Low 									78
Mainstay 										80
Confusion 										81
Vanishing Act 									82
Of a Nondescript Hope 								84
Jacaranda 										85
Making You Unhappy 								86
Stoning to Death 									87
Limitation 										88
Beauty											91
The Moment 										92
Labels on Moulded Luggage 								93
Harangue and the Beautiful								95
Hi Fi 											96
The Path of Stone 									98
The Embrace 										99
Ghosts That Walk 									100
A Visit 										101
Chick in Boots 									102
The Man Beast 									104
Eternity 										106
Cowrie Shells 										107
Juan 											108
Poems 											110
Babbling 										112
Ye Little Snail 									114
Crying the Only Pastime 								115
Comments 										118
15-2 -92 										119
The Girl of Bylane 									120
Patience 										123
Anger 											124
Mock 											125
The Giant Lizard 									126
Poetry 											128
What to Understand 									129
A Story 										130
Dissatisfied  Partners 									132
To Feel Happy										134
Sylvia											136
Attraction 										137
The Statement										138
Crystal Bal1										140
Émilie’s Window									141
Slipping Past 										142
The Turmoil 										144
Untitled										145
India											146
Dreaming Darjeeling Tea								148
Great Writing										151
Lonely Man										152
Births and Deaths									154
Wait Till I am Dead									155
Desire and Hate									156
The Moral										157	
A Song Not in a Song									160
Being											162
Cobblestones										163
Ballad of Winter in Hell								164
One											166
Corkscrew										167
Short of Cash										168
Finally Settling for Death								170
A Visit to a Citadel of Torture							172
A Midnight Out									175
Table of contents: title: Prologue; title: Poems; title: Epilogue