Motherhood reimagined
Subtitle: when becoming a mother doesn't go as planned : a memoir
By: Sarah Kowalski
Publisher: She Writes Press
Published: 2017
Language: eng
Number of pages: 257
ISBN-13: 9781631522727
Subjects: Alternative treatment; First pregnancy; Pregnancy in middle age; Middle-aged women; Single women; Biography; Female Infertility
Other titles: When becoming a mother doesn't go as planned
Description: At the age of thirty-nine, Sarah Kowalski heard her biological clock ticking, loudly. A single woman harboring a deep ambivalence about motherhood, she needed to decide: Did she want a baby if it meant doing it alone? Once she revised her idea of motherhood--from an experience she would share with a partner to a journey she would embark upon alone--the answer proved to be a resounding Yes. She chose to conceive using a sperm donor, but her plan stopped short when a doctor declared her infertile. How far would she go to become a mother?  Sarah catapulted herself into a diligent regimen of herbs, Qigong, meditation, acupuncture, and more, in a quest to improve her fertility. Along the way, she delved deep into spiritual healing practices, facing down demons of self-doubt and self-hatred, and once again revising her vision of motherhood. A story of personal triumph and unconditional love that reveals what happens when we release what's expected and embrace what's possible.
Table of contents: title: Remembering. I always knew; title: Forgetting; title: A dramatic shift; title: Resurfacing the question; title: Dating at 39; title: Trying to decide; title: Frozen eggs and embryos; title: They said it couldn't happen; title: Maybe a sperm donor isn't so bad; title: There are no guarantees in life; title: Struggling. The hard truth; title: Spermland; title: Logistics of the first IUI; title: Babies are dukkha; title: More disappointment; title: Happiness despite the outcomes; title: Ending self hatred: doing the best I can; title: Losing faith; title: A stream of questions; title: The last-ditch effort: medical intervention; title: Nothing except love makes sense; title: Arriving. Clarity; title: Plan C; title: An unlikely offer; title: The sperm challenge; title: The shot; title: Vacation, baby; title: Blue light; title: Disbelief; title: Gathering support; title: Facing motherhood; title: Surrender; title: Epilogue.