Today I have brought you a very special guest to talk about opiate addiction with draw as well as recovery So make sure that you stay tuned What is up everybody? This is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel My channel is all about mental health as well as addiction recovery So if you're into that kind of stuff make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell So yes, I am brought a very special guest Roberta will introduce to you and just a little a little bit a little bit just hang with me one second So I just want to give you some backstory on how I know Roberta and why she's doing a club with me So like starting out on YouTube and even still to this day I just look around at like different like addiction and mental health stuff for those of you who don't know me I am a recovering opiate addict myself. I just celebrated six years in June and you know like when I was when I was you know Smaller than I am now like you know I was really like reaching out and talking to people and just watching other people and seeing what their videos were like and I'm like Roberta and I we talked a little bit like in her comments and you know she would come over to my channel We talked a little bit and I was just watching her with these ups and downs ups and downs Like I saw she had some withdrawal videos some like sober videos some withdrawal videos some sober videos And I was just watching and I am not a high-pressure person, you know I was taught when I got clean that we don't do that. We don't try to force anybody into doing this But like I talk about on my channel like unsolicited device and interventions and and all of that And they just came a point where I was like, you know Roberta how about you try this, you know, and it was just I I felt like I I needed to say something right and I'm gonna shut up and I'll come back at the end of this video But like I want Roberta to share a little bit of her experience of you know What was going on in her life and what she's been doing to stay clean for the last few months someone recently asked me What my resistance was to joining AA Or NA My drug of choice is opiates prescription painkillers I had a drinking problem I never really considered myself an alcoholic but definitely a pain pill addict for sure I guess for me I had been in and out of the rooms in AA and AA NA and AA for Several times in my life and 43 years old when I became first became actively addictive to painkillers I was in my early 20s And life goes on things happen in and out of the rooms of AA and NA and I guess I just never really wanted to commit Um, I knew that if I stayed there in those rooms that I would Have to do the work and I always felt like especially in my younger years. I always felt like There was more living that I had to do I felt like Living meant Keep doing the things that I questioned that were harming me at the time I guess and so I just resisted There's a squirrel back there chasing me Um Years later I started a channel um On YouTube Racken Roberta and I was getting off the maintenance medication called Suboxone and I wanted to document it so people could see what the withdrawal was like because there wasn't a lot online that That I found very helpful some some some channels helped but I wanted people to see what the withdrawal was like daily So I documented that Well when I got off Suboxone I really thought I was cured because when I got on Suboxone I didn't crave anymore and I thought I was cured Did a little bit of counseling especially in the beginning. I was on Suboxone for three years But I when I got off Suboxone It was like all of a sudden I had to face reality again and I just I kept slipping up and relapsing and I didn't go back into active addiction but I didn't want to and I on my channel. I was crying and I said I need help and One of my subscribers Nicole Nicole Plurde she Was always on me to get into the program get into the program and Actually several of my subscribers were always on my butt to do it And I was just always resistant toward it and then the rewired soul came on one of my subscribers And he was like why haven't why aren't you going to meetings and I thought to myself as I'm laying there crying After a slip-up of doing oxy for how many ever days I was like why why am I not so I got my butt into AA the the thing I did differently this time was I got a sponsor right away and so I just finished my fourth step Um, I like being in the program. It's definitely work and but at this point in my life I'm ready to do the work I had to admit that I had a problem and I had to ask for help and So I finally finally at this stage of my life. I was able to do that and so It's difficult. It's challenging changing my life is challenging. I'm new to recovery. It's only been a few months, but You know, I'm doing it and it I know it's I know it's worth it. I know it's worth it to take care of myself. I've had a had a rough life Some of it was bestowed upon me and some a lot of it I did to myself and I'm just ready for ready for the change. So All right, you see this big old smile on my face. Do you see this smile on my face? So I was actually talking to Tristan about this because I was like I was watching where bruda and where bruda is just been killing it killing it for the last few months. I was talking to Tristan I'm like man like I want to have a bruda come over and just like share a little bit of her experience But I don't want to come off like oh look. I helped somebody right and Tristan I talked about it and again, I always tell you guys like check your motives check your motives check your motives And like my motive was like I just wanted her bruda to share like what a lot of us go through and you know to To kind of you know go back like I I'm nothing I'm nothing special. I did not I did not you know do anything out of the ordinary I didn't do anything and nobody did for me and Everything that were brudas done is 1000% her you know But like we need to support each other and whether it's addiction or mental health like the other day I talked about something called an informal intervention and that's pretty much just what I did That's all I did on brudas were brudas saying like on her video like when she was talking about how she was like crying and you know all that Like I was watching and I felt that pain because I know about real I felt that pain That was just like brudas. I'm like why don't you just try going to some meetings, you know like I do not try to strong arm Anybody into going into any meetings, but at a certain point we have to have somebody come in and tell us what we need to hear And not what we want to hear and I can definitely relate to brudas like I tried to do this thing my own way For many years for many years. I was trying to do things my own way. I'm like I'm gonna quit when I want to I'm gonna do this I'm gonna do that all these other things right and none of it ever worked And it wasn't until the point like where I said you know what maybe I don't know what's best for me Maybe I need to try something new maybe I need to do something different and like Roberta I bounced in and out of the rooms too, but I never put in the work. I never put in the work I've mentioned this in very old videos like going to you know The rooms or even going to therapy and not doing what the people suggest It's like getting up prescription and not taking the medicine You know what I mean? So it's crazy. It just it blows my mind It blows my mind how many people are resistant to this thing like I was But then as soon as they like oh, okay, well, I'm actually doing what you said and things are going pretty well now And like it's just like it's just like clockwork like I see it happen over and over again So I really want to Roberta to come over here and share her experience about how that helped her you know and and like It's crazy like she is I can say this She she seems to be doing a lot better than I was when I was my first few months Like she talked about how when she jumped in there like she immediately got a sponsor and she's been clean for a few months It took me three months took me three months. I just sat there and I was like nope. Nope. This is all stupid Uh-uh not doing anything. I don't want anybody telling me what to do And not only as she got a sponsor, but she's like actually putting in the work too All right, and like that is absolutely phenomenal I mean, I realized she finished her four-step, but now I want to talk to her about it Uh, see how that's been going. Anyways Roberta has an entire channel and like she documents a lot and I know some of you came here for addiction recovery stuff And like I know I kind of dive into all sorts of different mental health topics Like if you want to follow someone's addiction recovery journey whether you are in recovery whether you're trying to get clean Or if you ever loved one who's uh in addiction or trying to get clean like check out Roberta's channel I will have links down in the description up in the info card It will also be at the end, but what Roberta makes like videos a ton like a lot of videos and she talks about her journey And she talks about her struggles and her successes and everything all right So make sure that you go check out Roberta, but let me let me hear from all of you And I know some of you watching this you know you're you don't have a problem with drugs You're alcohol or anything like that, but let me know down in the comments below like Have you ever been really resistant to something that might help you? Then you finally did it and it actually helped like let me know down in the comments Like it's just really interesting to me how stubborn we can all be sometimes, all right Anyways, that's all I got for you with this video if you liked this video Please give it a thumbs up if you're new make sure to subscribe and ring that notification bell and ask Palmas there is a link right there click a tab Subscribe to Roberta. She's amazing. She's awesome. Go check out her channel out. Subscribe. ring the notification bell Thank you so much for Roberta for coming over and sharing your story. I'll see you all next time