Okay, I wasn't going to do a video for you today because I feel very sick and I realised after someone pointing out yesterday I threw up a bit in my mouth whilst I was filming my video. I apologise for that but I am very sick and as much as I want to have fun and stuff I also really wanted to raise awareness with this vlog and show the reality of cancer as it is especially for me is a male and someone who's quite determined to survive something that I'm told is not survivable but today I just really want to quickly share something with you. I received a little note through the door that said sorry we missed you and that note meant I had to go to the post office with my mum which I did today and picked something up and I had this box which is from America from Michigan and it's from some lovely people at Love Soes Ministry. Love Soes Ministry are a dedicated group of volunteers in Holland, Michigan who make quilts and it may seem like a simple thing a quilt you're thinking but it's more than just a quilt because it's a community-made quilt and at the bottom here it says enjoy this quilt and know that you are not alone in your journey and that means a massive it means a massive amount of like I don't know love and everything and like a sense of community from people as well and at the bottom here it says love Soes Mission is to make and provide custom quilts to those facing challenging life circumstances in hopes of creating strength, hope and a little bit of joy for the recipients. Now they sent that across to me along with a card here and a quilt. The card was signed by everyone who made the quilt and that needs to be framed because that is awesome and that that is heartwarming but the quilt here is just amazing brightly coloured and eccentric just like me and he's awesome and I can't thank you guys enough and yeah it's beautiful what you do for people and the amount of joy that you bring to other people with these beautiful quilts and it will go with me when I go for chemo and it will go with me when I go to other places and I have to be in rubbish time so feeling very unwell and it's comforting something to hold and it's comforting so yeah and like I said the other day comfort is key when you feel really unwell comfort is key because if you're not comfortable and you feel really unwell you tend to get angry, had you tated, upset and you feel worse and it's important to be comfortable when you feel really unwell and yeah I just I'm just amazed by it it's amazing it really has brightened up my day it's so brilliant but yeah thank you guys and I'll see everyone hopefully tomorrow I'll try and update everyone with what's going on tomorrow and yeah I'll pop a link to these guys in the in the thing below they haven't asked me to do this I just just amazing and I just wanted to show everyone but yeah it's brightened up my day so thank you and I'll see you everyone later see you later at the talk bye bye