I didn't really want to do this video because quite frankly it makes me look bad that I failed my A levels and I had to retake a year but because I know some of you guys will be feeling as aimless and possibly as lonely Lonely As I did I thought you know what I have to step up mate So, welcome guys and indeed welcome to small tujana and yes like I said pardon me oh sorry about that that's a bit of the omelette sign which coming out there right now I've set the tone for the video let's see let's see where it goes I didn't get the grades that I needed for uni so naturally I had to restart the year and that was a big problem because there was a lot of pressure on me academically I'm the only child my father passed away and I was one blah blah blah violins are you okay are you alright I didn't want to let my mom down so obviously it was a nice especially when I knew you hand on heart like some of you guys watching you need to ask yourself did I revise as much as I should have or did I waste time yeah if you did waste time then just doing a door hard the night before and then not getting the grades that you need it's not Allah's fault you know I'm saying but I know at that age you're just looking for someone to blame and obviously because you don't have a response from Allah it's easy you know I'm saying you say boy god oh yeah doing it's on us but in reality you know you know why I did a year again and then at the end of the year I'll humblery la all my grades improved by one but this time I genuinely thought I did work hard yeah I did I made my notes and everything but if you're not good at something you're not good yeah but I was comfortable and I could say I worked hard but the problem was one of my subjects let me down yeah I needed three grades to be a certain grade to get into the university one of them was less than expected now I remember when I found that out and I was on my way home I had my bicycle with me and I still decided to walk the whole way I was questioning everything and I was like what's going to happen what am I going to do I'm going to say to mom I was a madness absolute madness it was really disappointing but one thing that I can say is I didn't say or do anything stupid yeah sometimes we say stuff that's borderline you know shirk stuff you know when you start blaming a law and saying some mad stuff you know I'm saying but think about it if your relationship with a law is based upon your A level result what a weak relationship that is yeah because the relationship of just take take take but then what was interesting was when I got home and I checked my university you cast in those days I don't know what the system is now and then I saw that I had been accepted that despite that one grade being off I humbly love was still accepted yeah and then that's when I turned and I was like humbly love but then now obviously a lot of things have happened since then you know you need and you know work and everything and now when I look back I'm able to look back and use that as a story to help other people you know I'm saying so it's become a distant memory distant blur and the thing is I guess what I'm trying to say guys is the same will happen to you yeah I know now it seems like you're being surrounded that this is all that exists but when you when you go out into the big bad world you realize that you know I'm saying this was nothing I'm not gonna lie I did feel alone I did feel let down by myself possibly even having thoughts that you know Allah has let me down or whatnot but you know I'm saying just remember wahua wa yata wa la solihane Allah is the guardian of the righteous if you are righteous yeah just realize sometimes the biggest lesson to be learned is through failure wah this is a brilliant lesson for you to learn that you know you can't be you can't be revising with stuff being played in the background and Netflix and going out with your friends or whatever would you signalling and not turning up to your lessons don't worry inshallah in the end things work out as long as you keep your connection with Allah strong let's leave it there guys until next time