Hi. What's your name? Karen. Karen. Yes. Nice to see you. Nice to see you. You meet you. Yeah. How are you? Pretty good. Good. So my question is, when Maharaji told you you needed to come back to America, how does one make this transition from being in India for so long? It must have been pretty tough. Well, it wasn't. It wasn't. First of all, I was so full of blessings and so full of, I couldn't take anymore. I was up to here. I kind of knew that I wanted to come back in a way and to spend some of that energy. I was just walking like a robot. I just had so much juice and it wasn't really passing through in retrospect. I mean, at the time, I don't think I saw it that way. But looking back, I could see that. I was just, there was so much attachment in me and so much desire and so much crazy and aerotic stuff, but the energy wasn't really passing through. And of course, he knew that. And he's also saw what I had to do in my life and what I needed to do in order to free myself from what desires needed to be satisfied, what stuff needed to be lived through. And he just saw, you know, he knew I had to come back to the West because I couldn't do it in India. So that's why he sent me. And also, I think he sent me to protect me from being there when he was going to leave the body because that would have been, because I wouldn't have, if I had been in India, when he left the body, I don't know what I would have done. I was already really sick physically. I'd had hepatitis. I had really bad parasites and maybe dysentery. I had all kinds of stuff going on. And if I had been in India when he left the body, I would have just probably tried to disappear somewhere up into the mountains and some little kutti and gotten really sick. And being very stubborn, I probably wouldn't have found me till after I died. So he sent me back. Yeah, it was very hard, but I was also happy. It felt like a kid in a candy store. Because I'd been celibate for two and a half years in India while I was with him. And now, you know, hi. Welcome to America. You know, I was like, yeah, great. So it was still difficult. But also on that end, I just thought, okay, I'm here for a little while. I'm going to run back to him. So how bad could it be? Yeah, I'll just have a good time and I'll go back to him. Because then he died. That was difficult. Yeah. That was hard. Then having to live without him in the body to go back to that took a long time, very long time. And you didn't want to choose to go back to India to stay in live or? I did go back quite often to visit with the old devotees. But it wasn't the same. It was good. And I would go back every year, maybe sometimes twice a year, just to get the hit. Because I wasn't able to stay above water here. But as time went on, that kind of changed, too. Then I was able to. I didn't need to go there for resuscitation every time. I was able to kind of stay in the flow, so to speak. And you feel comfortable living here in the West? Yeah, it still doesn't feel like home. It feels like home. But I don't think I'd want to live in India now at this point full-time. I don't know. I don't really think about it much. I just kind of do what I have to do. And it's good for changes. You're changes? I guess that's a good thing. This young Baba, I know, he said, oh, just come stay here. We'll chat together and when you're done, I'll build a little sobadi for you. And I said, OK, OK. You don't have TV. I'm not coming. So. But I think it's good to be here. It's good to share this practice with people. And just kind of share that little bit of light that was shown to us in the old days. Should I try to live in that light? No. Well, thank you for sharing it with me and everybody. Thank you. Anything else? I think that's it. Yeah, where do you live? I live in New York. New York City. New York City from Long Island. Long Island? Yeah. Where? I'm playing due. Playing due? My mom taught it playing due. She didn't. You wouldn't have been third grade in the 80s, would you? No. All right. My mother just teach third grade at what was it called? Right off the free. Right off the Long Island Expressway. It is a little elementary school and playing due to the strict partway. Yes. I didn't go to that one. Oh, okay. You didn't have my mother. I was at the other side. Okay. Good. All right. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you. Thanks for coming. Yeah. Thank you. Thank you.