You're all probably thinking how are you coping with this? I'll be perfectly honest, it's been a long time coming. But I knew it would one day. Now, I've been throwing a bit of a potential lifeline. I have an email today of one of the worlds leading people in this. I'm going to risk my life in the next coming weeks to potentially save my life. Now, the reason I was told to enjoy the next two weeks is because they think I'll rapidly decline. My mum's quicker job so she can look after me. It's not easy to show how sick I really am on these vlogs because I'm always up-beat and I'm always silly. But hopefully with my mum around as well, we'll be able to show you another side of everything. We've made preparations today to go on holiday on Friday as a family, which everyone in my family is going to come and we're going to go on holiday. But as for me, I'm still going to fight. And there's still a huge amount of cancer in me. And it won't be long before I succumb to it. And that's not through a lack of trying. I've tried everything I've physically come. Spoken to as many people as I can in the world, world leaders in this field. But you can't always win. But I don't want anyone's pity. I don't want anyone to worry about me. I can deal with this. I can cope with this. It's the others around me and my family and other people who will find it harder than I am. And that's real life. That's real life right there. So it's day one. Day one after I've been told that everything's inoperable and there's nothing they can do. Can we accept this information? No. So let's go fight. I'm in the car with my mother. She's there. There you are, my mum. I am here. How are you feeling today, mum? A bit. So faced out with things but not going to let it get to me. Going to focus on positives. Look at what we can do and go from there, really. That's it. Very nice. She also has quit her job so she can spend more time with me. Yes, I did. I'm starting today. She is starting today from her job to spend time with me. So we can go on holiday and enjoy the next couple of weeks and stuff. And I want to make it clear, don't pity me. Don't pity me. There's no reason to pity me. I'm going to fight everything that I can. I'm going to fight as much as I can at the end of this video or somewhere in this video. I'm going to try to figure out a picture of what's happened and why they can't treat it anymore. We're looking at options with like chemo but I have to weigh those options up of whether I want to go through it all. And it's very serious and they think I'll deteriorate very quickly over the next couple of weeks. And it's potentially now straight upwards and stuff. They can, well, I can feel it and everyone else can feel it all in the back of my neck and stuff. It's just sad. It's a pain in the ass but you've got to fight it. Pain in the neck. Pain in the neck. Oh, we're still making jokes even though it's shit. Love it. Right. Let's go do some stuff with the day. I found my dad's. They're going. How do you feel, Dad? It's thrilled. No, no. I don't know, really. It's so much to process. Damn, just gutted, I think. Really? Is there enough? You've got to go to hospital to yourself now. Yeah, yeah. I'm going to check where I've got a brain between there and there. And see whether these are connected to those. Nice. It's like that. Great fun. Cool. And you're there, aren't you, Mum? No, I'm not a hospital, no. No, I'm saying you're there. I'm the camera. Yeah, I'm there in body, if not in mind, you know. I think I've completely lost it now. Oh, but there you go. But there you go. The weather has decided to go horrific and really nasty. Look. It's not playing ball. It's not playing ball at all. Also, where I film everything in the park, they're chopping down the trees. Here we see the Linda Thomas trying to make preparations for things and my dad stunk the toilet out, disgusting. How is it possible to do that smelly something ever? Your face is like, I'm disgusted. I am disgusted. I am not, I'm just disappointed. I'm disappointed. Here we see Linda Thomas pressing three to get more information. Well, she's trying to organise things so as we can go where the weekend. That's what she's doing, lovely. If you can't have fun with what you've got, what's the point in living? No, I'm saying. No, I'm saying. Look, he's just turned up with his fake Ray Bands. Ray Bands. Not fake bands, they're Ray Favans. They're a Favans. You're a Leeserman. Look at my stupid timeline. Look at that timeline. That's ridiculous. Is it making you feel on it? Yes, it's making you feel uncomfortable. It's making you feel uncomfortable. Don't follow me. Here we have a Benjamin Thomas getting uncomfortable on camera. He's a bit of a weird guy. David Attenborough. Sir, David Attenborough. Yeah. Ben, you can look at the camera, you know. I can't, I don't. You've got glasses on. No one will see where you're looking. This is true. Yeah, this is true. Follow me around. I'm not following you around. Look at that dog. Look at that dog. Lovely. Okay, we're talking about you. So, how did you feel? Ben upset? Yeah. Down. Yeah. We did out that you knew where I was. Yeah, I did know where you were. Which was kind of weird. Keep the track on you. Yeah, I gathered. For safety. Yeah, for safety, Ben. For safety reasons. Safety reasons. With the faith bands. With your faith bands. Right, I'm bored of you now. See you later. Bye. I can't help but take a look. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I mean, there's just been no dust. Fine, I mean, it's like for the moment, isn't it? You're checking yourself out, JC. Yeah, well, I mean, it's like, we're such a weather. You can't do what you're haired. Yeah. It's crafty as all of us. My mind's just poking out of this cat. It's not smart, I know. You know. It's good, but. It's a sun-wraithful white. Sun is beautiful today. I know. It's beautiful sun. It's a bloody brain. Oh, that. It's cold today, actually. It's a bloody cold, I know. I know. I know. I know. Oh, yeah. It's struggling out of perfect. She's worried and. Oh, oh. Oh. Are you seeing your dad? Oh, you're looking at me. I'm looking at you. I'm looking at you. That's what you did. You know, they'll get it. You can take it. That's what you did. You know, they'll get it. You can take it. Oh, you did it. You did it. You did it. You did it. So it's the end of the day. Where are we at? No, we're further with anything. We're trying to figure out a holiday for me and my family. We've got till, like, Tuesday, Wednesday to be back. And then hopefully something will happen to try and slow this whole process down. Right now we've still got no options. But yeah, I'll see you tomorrow and hopefully we'll have something fun to do tomorrow. Because I like to have fun. I'm not all about doom and gloom. And as I said before, don't pity me. Don't feel sorry for me. I knew this would happen. So it's all about how we save lives in the future. And how we make things better for people in the future. And hopefully we can all learn from this. And it's important that it's documented. So yeah, have a good day and sleep well. Tatar, later. See you. Tatar. Bye bye. Thank you. Bye. You