So I stepped aside for a second to talk to you guys. Excuse the messy look. That doesn't matter. I was gonna wait till we do the live Q&A to talk about this, but I feel it appropriate right now to talk about it right now. Sometimes we don't show all of the bad. We do show some of it. We try to keep as positive as possible around here to keep a light of spirits boosted and help them through and make his life a little bit better. Make his life a little bit more joyful. And in conversation today, it really hurts. I'm just saying this really hurts and I am so vulnerable and being transparent to you guys. Right now that I'm gonna be open to conversations that we have with Elijah. And I want you guys to know that some of these conversations are truly hard that a parent should never have. You should never have this conversation with your child. He tells me he asks God every day to take away his pain and his cancer. Because he says he can't do this anymore. He can't be in pain anymore. And he says, Mom, why isn't it working? You have to know that my faith in God, our faith in God, had been so strong back in the day. We were very, I would say, quote, unquote, religious people back in the day. And it is so hard to even believe right now. When God doesn't even listen to my own sense prayers. And it breaks my heart that why? Why? And this has nothing to do with whether you believe in God or not. That is nothing to do whether you believe God or not. But we do. We believe in, um, you could believe whatever you want, Angel. But there is nothing to do with either here or there right now. But it hurts because we've done nothing wrong to deserve this type of stuff happen to us. We've been good people. And for this to be allowed. And for him to not listen to my son's begging and pleading to stop the pain. It's very hard to believe. It's very hard to believe. We don't believe that God gave cancer. We don't believe that God put you through things to test you or test your faith. I don't believe that. However, I don't believe that. Supposedly he listened to your prayers and I just don't get why he's not listening to Elijah's prayers. And in all honesty, I did tell Elijah that maybe he'll feel better in heaven. What else are you supposed to say? What are you supposed to respond with? How come my prayers are not working? How do you respond with that? They said, well maybe your healing's up in heaven. You'll feel a whole lot better in heaven. It makes me so angry right now. Just so angry. You ask yourself, how does one believe in somebody that allows this to happen? How do you let yourself believe? I'm going to tell you the number one answer. I continue to believe because if my son goes to heaven, I want to be there with him when it's my turn to go. I want to meet him in heaven and I want to see him again in heaven. So if there is a God and he's taking my son, I'm not going to stop believing because if there is that big, that chance that I'll be able to go and see him again. I'll definitely keep believing. This was a very hard night and I please do not argue in the comments below. Do not argue in the comments below whether you think God exists or doesn't. That doesn't matter. To me it doesn't matter. Don't argue with other people. Let them believe. Let them not believe. But to me, I'll continue to believe because I wanted to see my son again in heaven. When that time comes, it was a very hard day guys. To watch my son beg and plead to feel better. These are the moments that I have a hard time getting on YouTube and wanting to do anything. But I'm opening up right now to you guys. I want you guys to know the experiences that parents go through with this kind of thing. Thank you for watching. I appreciate you guys. If anybody wants to argue, your comments will be deleted. Just say it. It's not the time or place to do it. Just keep it to yourself. Other than that, all we care about is your support and your love and your prayers. His suffering's got to end soon. We can't handle it anymore. We're exhausted and tired. Love you.