Your childhood, it strikes me, would be a hit documentary on Netflix and people would not believe it. If they had filmed it, your childhood, I don't think people would believe how difficult it was and I don't think you fully acknowledged that. Sometimes when I talk to a bunch of people. I don't, somebody said recently you've experienced as much sadness as a hardship as anyone I know and I was like, I don't think, because you just... I was thinking about it recently because I watched the beginning of that, it was like a cult documentary. And I went, oh, Neil was how to worst childhood than that. So talk us through the, it gives the beats for anyone that hasn't seen it, the beats of your childhood. Childhood father was a violent alcoholic. He would drink. That's already a movie. Yeah, this voice life. This voice life, yeah. That's kind of the main thing. Like my father was violent and at that point you're all, you don't know where the violence is coming from. Why? How often? And it creates kind of a state of care. Psychotherapy about where you were born. Like I'm a middle kid. So my mother had all the anxiety around the first kid and then the second kid she was able to be more relaxed. And you feel that you're more relaxed as a second kid. You were born where in the secret? 10th. Yeah, they don't have a theory on that because there's not enough of them. There's no theory. There's no book about well, if you're the 10th kid, you'll be Neil Brennan. My mother was in labor for 45 minutes. I mean, literally walked out. Yeah, yeah. I was, she looked over and I was walking next to her. Yeah. With an umbilical cord. So no love from your father? Dad, no. And man, it's self-admitted. I did not love you. And on his deathbed, which part of the deathbed took me, wrote me out of his will? Yes, disinherited. Yeah. And it consciously, I had to lost his mind, consciously disinherited and told you that he didn't love you. Yeah. It's pretty heartbreaking to be your friend sometimes because you, you, I can film. I'm like tearing up. It's, it's awful. It's just awful. And then I look at your relationship with your mother and the, I'm privy to a lot of the list of rules, which you sort of name check in. Yeah. I name a few of them. Bunch of TV rules. Like a lot of laundry rules, a lot of sandwich rules. You guys probably all had sandwich rules, right? I'm so obsessed by that. You had a list of rules that were put up by your mother that are again, heartbreak upon heartbreak, like the food, the laundry, the rules, the lack of warmth. No, she was weirdly warm in her own way. And in her defense, she did stuff that was like incredibly thawful. Like every night she would warm the plates up for dinner. She made dinner, warm the plates up. We all have, it's like a nice thawful thing to do. For instance, I and I, I'm more, I just spent time with my mom. Just as a straw there. I can almost reach the warm plate. No love in your childhood in any, in any way that anyone else would understand. No, no real empathy. But a warm plate. So that's something. If you're thinking about having kids, it's not as tough as your thought. Warm a plate, that'll do. I mean, it really feels like that's... I could say the same about yours, buddy, for real. Yeah, but let's... No, I got it. But I'm just saying, like that's why I don't have a ton of... You've got no self-pity, which is remarkable. And also a giant amount of self-pity. Like, I spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself in my life. And then at a certain point, I had a story in blocks that you told me to cut. And I didn't for a while. And then I did when I taped it. Because I was like, I don't... I can't keep harping on this. It was a story about shitting my pants. Like, either disobeying my father or shitting my pants. And I chose to, you guessed it, shit my pants. The self-pity pull in my, in my spirit kind of went... I just stopped two, three years ago. I think we talked about this. Because JK Rowling had a great line on it, which is, it's tough love at its toughest. We go, we have to have a statue of limitations. On childhood grievances. I don't know what age it is. Because it's definitely not 18. If someone comes to you at 18, it says, I had that childhood, you go, oh man, you okay, you need a hug. You'll be okay. If someone comes to you at 25 and says, I don't really tough childhood. But you can't be meeting some Peter at the gates going... My dad was a dick. Did you see? Yeah, my dad was a dick. Yeah, but you had 40 years. You come on. You have to get... That's about the calculation for me. It's around late 40s. I was like, I guess, not. I gotta just stop doing this because I don't... A lot of that, before that, was a lot of anger at my dad and my mom. And I was happy to talk about it. In fact, three mics was written as a... The dad part was written for revenge. At a certain point, I was like, can I give him... I don't want to just go slag him on stage. So I made it more... I put some empathy in it. Of like, what did I owe him and what was his life like? Yes, I mean, his life was... I mean, you grew up in the depression. Who even knows? But I think you wanted to correct that as a parent. I would agree. Yeah, I mean... What's the line in blocks? Both my parents were born during the Great Depression. They were nice enough to bring it with them. That was the Derek Delgado audio line, the director. Yeah. And... Again, you're obsession with fairness. It's a line in your special. It's a great line. You give the credit to the guy that gave you the line. It's like... Do you remember what I used to do for a liver? Yeah. But it's interesting that thing of like your... The grievances, which is your first big block. Holding... I mean, I thought the next special, if you just did, you could call it Grudge Match. And it's just all of the things where... That's the other Great Line in Blocks we go... I got to be the only person who has ever asked a question. Would you rather be right? Would you rather be happy? And I was like, oh... And knowing you, I go, well, that's bullshit. You'd rather be right. I mean, like the idea, like your bullshit in the audience might... Oh, it was a tough decision for me. I bet that we got the same amount of life. You're right, we're right, we're right. Right. Right. Yeah, that would have gotten... Let's move on. Hey, did you like that? Did you like that? Yeah, did you like it though? You want more? You don't want to work? Would rather watch videos of me, grab assing? With people? First, I'll go up here to subscribe. And then go up here to watch more clips. This is like one of the weatherman's. There's high-pressors that come in and... a little amount of really used to the green screen.