Sometimes I wish people would leave me the fuck alone. Sometimes I wish people would just let me be numb. Sometimes I wish I knew what the fuck was wrong. Sometimes I wish I could just heal it with a song. Sometimes I wish the world would just fuck off. Let me be an emotional wreck and don't watch me being soft. Sometimes I wish I could just fucking cry. Sometimes I feel like I put on a fake smile. Sometimes I wonder what it's like to feel alive. And then I feel the cold air on my skin at night. Sometimes I pretend that everything is alright. Sometimes I'm vulnerable and it makes me want to fight. Sometimes I wish people would just leave me be. But I also wish that they'd stay and just love me. Sometimes I wear a happy smiley mask. But behind it I'm crying and nobody should know that. So I put on a smile and say things are fine for a while until I break down alone. And while I'm hugging myself and lying to everyone else. I wish this could just be done.