What's up guys, it's Justin back with another video Me and Dad? Okay, as you can tell by the title, it's probably not gonna be the most upbeat fun video, but it is um, it does need to I don't really need it in a fuck Okay, I'm having a really hard time being in front of the camera and even thinking about talking about what I'm gonna talk about I've never really, I guess talked about it I love that I'm trying out the series video and my dog is going crazy Free-good morning, um, yeah, we're gonna be talking about some touchy subjects Holding me back along and I don't want it to anymore I want to live my life so I guess I just want to talk to you guys about why I've been gone for so long Basically, fella, the face of the planet Let's uh, I guess get into the video, I don't really know what to say I guess a big question is about a few months ago It's been a while now, but I had a pretty bad concussion Yeah, um, the only explanation I think we ever gave to you guys is that I fell in my head I really took me a long time to come to the conclusion of what I had actually done And I ran dealing with a lot with flashbacks Oh fuck I didn't think I tried to spread it with a video Fuck! I guess the easiest way to put it is that I did it on purpose And I don't know why I don't know how to explain the feeling I feel like everything is basically a dream I don't know Nothing feels 100% real or right I don't know how to like live in it Sometimes we're all just dumb I guess blacked out I don't know how else to explain it Then everything's completely numb It takes me a good while to remember what happened when I blacked out I always just stand up for no reason and pace back and forth before something happens And then the blackout hits and something happens and then it comes to you And something hurts My drinking question I woke up on the floor My entire body was completely numb and I couldn't move And you're like really fucked up No It isn't my really fucked up and I couldn't say anything other than just Cougher Tyler I told him Did I mad? Really hard And I just can't But still I guess freaking out The only thing that hurt at the time was my neck The bump formed in singing fast My nose was bleeding I was super dizzy And I went to go check my pupils Once I calmed down a little bit And realized that I really just smashed my face into concrete floor And I was out checking my pupils Everything went black I don't know how to fucking talk about this I didn't know if I should go to the hospital Because when things like this happened I don't know how to tell anyone So I didn't go to a hospital I just was terrified to sleep The next morning I woke up with two bruises in the corner of my eye Google everything possible To watch for every side effect To see if I was on time This is not my first concussion either And I know that concussions do more and more damage on your brain Obviously the more you have them This one is probably my most intense concussion I actually probably right up here on my forehead And the swelling went all the way down to here by the first night You couldn't even see the bridge of my nose Because my eyes were so swollen I thought I was dying I went to the hospital And I was expecting a CT scan Well almost right away And make sure there's no bleeding in your brain And they didn't do that Four or five weeks For the bruising to go away My camera can't stop sporting But anyway I want you all to know Just me And not to try to hide from the internet When I'm not feeling okay anymore I'm gonna go All my social media is always Dumbledore I'm not trying to share more of my life with you I don't know, I'll see you soon Peace out