My first paddle, that 800 kilometers. My body was in so much pain. My emotions, f***ing crippled. Made out I was a chef and I'd become like a f*** head chef I've been Italy because of it. Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. Tell me more, how did that happen? In my life, I've slowed pretty out of control. And that's it. This is a life I've always wanted to live.