Okay, so in my last video I talked about why I stopped hooking up with strangers and I ended it on a cliffhanger Where I ended up feeling really weird after having a sexual encounter with a girl However, I will not be saving you from that cliffhanger today In fact, I want to save you from this other cliff that I put you on last time story about My ex see if we were wind a little bit. I said this But I can't say what she did at me crying in a hallway at To him in the morning So Yeah, we're gonna be a whole now. So yeah, let's explore that trauma trust me It's an essay to get you off of this cliff. I we gotta get you all that one All right, but before I continue to tell you about my poor decision making sales I gotta talk to you about your potential poor smelling good picking skills I make sense and I'll you'll see in a second because according to the whole bible if you want to be a hoe the number one thing you have to do is like Not stink. 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Yeah, kind of speaks for itself You know so after we broke up, you know that should have been it, you know bond voyage, but why do that when we could just cause More problems for ourselves see here's the thing about loneliness that I didn't put together when you break up with someone Even if it wasn't a good match, there's always this hole So when you knew personally who knew you for the person you are is out there like living and whatnot And although my first instinct is to kill them for knowing too much about me I'll enough you missed that connection having that closeness with someone even if it didn't work out You still have that deep familiar and I don't want to lose that Which is very stupid way of thinking it's like being hungry and then looking in your fridge and finding like Eight-week old like walk a moly in there and thinking yo at least we have some food like no you might die It is a net positive to go hungry right now then to eat this guac like don't Do it yeah, well that has passed me so we continue to talk to each other after some time of texting each other We kind of figured hey, maybe we should try again Maybe we didn't do enough this definitely isn't just lonely All right, so first couple days back into college is about our sophomore semester We and somebody's are at this housewarming party because you know it's back to school We're all sad that we're doing this again And I tell the girl that chant me name that I'd like her to come because we're definitely on that level I don't know Maybe I just wanted to prove something to myself that we are friends and I have no emotional attachment I was like hey, why don't you come because you know old relationships and alcohol always go well Now I'm going to this party with some really good buzz of mine And I tell my people and a good friend of mine we're calling Tim to not let me sleep with her or do anything Because you know alcohol is involved and my rule is now back in motion if you weren't paying attention to the last video I have a personal rule but I won't do anything Outside of a relationship and we are no longer in that so that it does not fly anymore It's a no fly zone you can't zip down my my fly It's no we can't they say for show Tim especially cool. Thank you guys. You're good buddies Yeah, so the party goes on and I Get like gone. Oh like so gone You know we're drinking having a good time and as the party progresses She drags me into a room and like very anime style What's the cocky of on when they put the the arm on the thing she does that to me like so I'm a good time What is what has happened? I should fuck right now That was a quick thing from a hello um now like I said alcohol is involved so russia now Not the best but despite all that I still said no wild I know so we leave the room and I'm like man Good for you, Karate you done the right thing. We're so proud of you. What is she doing all of a sudden She starts walking over to Tim and getting a little more friendly with him goes over to him Sits in his lap starts grinding on him. Yo whoa like okay, um man never have I felt like a piece of meat before I thought it'd be a lot cooler, but no this is Huh a genuine replacement that hurt in fact she even kisses him on the cheek right I know I said don't let me sleep with her, but you feel like bro code insists that you also But you know, it's cool. It's fine. It's fine. It's not like anything crazy would happen It's cool. I'm I'm solving the entire time. You know nothing will go wrong. It's no big deal She's technically single. You know she can do what you want. So you know, it is what it is now the party finishes up in the room Empty and I'm spending the night this but I am too drunk to leave. I can't do it I'm going to room because I am dawn. I get in a bed and I start to close my eyes thinking about how wild that night was Would she did but you know things could have been worse? I start to close my eyes. I Here's something That voice What what the That voice sounds Familiar it's it was coming from the wall across from the bed out sleeping in so I went closer put my ear up on the wall Open what I heard isn't when I think it was because across from that room was where I knew Tim was sleeping Hmm But that wasn't Tim's voice That was a voice I knew a little too well Hmm It's Tim and the girl who won't be named having sex One million thoughts are raising through my head. I could pound on the wall scream whatever But I just didn't have the energy then go to sleep here and that I thought about what I could do Like a do's for hopeless obviously. I couldn't sleep so I left the apartment and went out To the hallway of the complex and just sat in the corner and started crying no the term cry yourself to sleep I didn't know that was like some real Shit until you I actually did it. I ended up crying myself until I fell asleep there in the hallway I woke up about two hours later. It's maybe like four or five And I walk back hoping this man does not have this level stamina dear god that would really be unfortunate And I go back in the room and I'm there anything anymore My heart doesn't feel anything anymore either so it ends a cop out The next day I heard a knock on the door in the room when I was sleeping on It was her ready to apologize saying I'm sorry, but I couldn't I just totally me alone because I was hurt and I was broken we were trying we were trying again And this happened I didn't know what to do and that's when I realized if she was gonna sleep with whoever Then I was too. I want to do what she did to me because it's only right. It's only fair That is my whole Origins toy like a fucking super villain dear god, but as we all know that didn't lead to the best results In fact led to me Probably messing my life up more than I did before That's for next time Oh, what's up y'all? Yo, uh, I'm dying so this will be a very quick outro What's good? 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