Alright so I might need some help and to understand why I gotta tell you a story real quick. Okay so cut to New York about a month ago. I'm standing in the middle of 368 you know Casey Neistat's Creative Studio 368. Kind of freaking out. So I'm talking to this group of people that I don't know. My friends are doing what they seem to always do when we meet new people. My friend asked if they want to see something interesting about Kurt and then he pulls out his phone. Oh god here we go. I kind of cringe and bag away of from the group. And naturally these girls are confused. What is it that's so bad that it would make Kurt remove himself from the situation? And then they look at the phone and all of a sudden it makes a lot more sense. And they all look at me with genuine regret. I think that my friends were dying. See what they were looking at was this. My channel. The channel that you're watching this video on. You're probably thinking show me your channel can't be that big of a deal. See that's the thing. Mine doesn't exactly show me in the best light. See my channel is high key ruining my relationships. Say that's the name of the video. And somewhere to that scenario has happened with girls I wanted to get to know better, a personal relationship. Even business. Don't ask me how but I hire up a liberty mutual has definitely seen my videos and I haven't heard of them since. And naturally you probably think I'm crazy. Why am I putting myself in this position and ruining my relationships? And what aside from the masochism it's because to me it's really important for me. By the turn to light skin levels up real high here for a second so bear with me. My 23 years here I've learned a lot in life. One of the most important lessons I learned is that there's more than one way to look at things. I just thought myself a little narrow-minded in the past. Especially when it came to things like my flaws and negatives. But nothing really stuck. It didn't feel real to like started talking about it. At least the things I actually figured out. And that's when I kind of realized that this is something that helped me. So the whole point of this channel is to change perspectives and to push the norm. Because in my lifetime it's what's helped me change as a person. It's like I have things differently. And then writing out these crazy opinions or writing out these like life flaws I've went through has all helped make it real and kind of helped me mental health wise. And it became something that was important to me. Sharing these stories and these crazy opinions. Stories where I changed where I learned something from something that was kind of dark. When I do that it helps me. And I think it helps other people. I've gotten so many comments of people saying that they related to what I was saying related to being in this place, being concerned and knowing that there was someone else that helped. And I didn't have enough of that growing up. I don't think. And to be that for someone else it's cool. Honestly. So despite the stigma I think these stories are worth sharing for my personal growth at least. And to me that's more important than scaring off a girl because of one video. You got it. You got to watch. But there is one caveat to this whole thing. Like it's a concession over. Now I'm not stupid. I know ruining my reputation probably isn't the best for me in the long run. But what's helped balance this scale is that I got to make a living while doing it. I got to help me and other people while being able to feed myself. So it's been fine. Because I know without these things I'm probably just digging myself in a ditch. Like I get it. And as a late that's been kind of tough because YouTube doesn't really fuck me like that. A lot of the videos I put out get demonetized or get limited reach because of things I say sometimes being too polarizing or being too adult of a top. And I see that. I brought a lot of some reach for centering that fact right there. See there it is again. I'm like I'm already cut this video. I don't even know if I can say that. So I've had to do something. Something I didn't really want to do. And even less now because this video's become so personal already. Like I really don't feel right like talking about it now. So it's free. If this is all you're here for you are excused from the video. Thank you for coming. More of the story being no matter what as long as I can. I'm gonna keep doing what I'm doing because it's important to me that my mental health and hopefully other people out there. And that's enough for me. Well, almost enough. So thanks for watching. And for the rest of you guys. I really don't like having a ton. So I'm launching a Patreon because I need your help to help me ruin my life more. Alright, no, seriously. I know I know I know another Patreon pitch, but I really felt it was something I needed to do to keep what I was doing. Well, I guess logical. And to keep sharing the things I've learned in these new perspectives with you guys. Besides, I don't know what you guys would do without me giving you very morally questionable advice. So welcome to the Kurt Richie Poor Decisions Patreon. Inspired by the theme of the channel for decisions. I've been hustling on this Patreon for a while and I've tried my best to not only let it be a way for you guys to help me out, but for you guys to actually get something extra out of it too. Besides my eternal gratitude. This isn't me like homeless asking for money. This is me homeless asking for money. But I'll give you like, like a Senate candle in return. But the Senate candles are actually pretty dope. Like here, let me talk about the Senate candles real quick. I've got five tiers based off of bad decisions I've talked about in videos from not wanting a hot spouse to saying the N word in a waffle house bars by joining at the lowest level, which is only about $2. This is $2 a month. It gets you access to the Patreon chat in VC in my Discord server, which we were in and was like a seriously fun time, like a really fun time. Does you get early access to the videos 12 to 24 hours before and behind the scenes? Like, oh, don't you want to see my ongoing commentary series I have on the Patreon? As I comment over the most infamous testimonials, we've already got Domics, Emery Shoes, Tabs, already up there and there's more to come, including the frugalesthetic MJ and imaginary ambition ones. They're coming. Here's a clue. Because I don't drink a lot. But it's not like fun. I really drink a lot. I like the fucking turtle. On higher levels, you can even get a character of you featured in the credits. And on my Patreon wall, which is like right above my bed. So you have the satisfaction of knowing that if it falls while I'm sleeping, you killed me. And I think that's like a pretty good park. I really, the thing is not on sturdy. I'm kind of scared. But you know, it's worth it for your support. Not only that, but I've added some new bonus Kurt Richie content, like my new mini Patreon only podcast. Here's a clip. A lot more like sucking a box and getting your back. I was like, ah, you know what? That makes sense. I'm like, that's not a good term. And of course, a bonus one minute true Kurt Richie edited like me also bad decisions like me a video. A Patreon exclusive. I talk about usual current hot topics that are made in one day. Here's another clip. Ever since my last birthday, I've kind of been like, okay, this whole aging thing needs this stuff. And for the people who really show me love, you can even get a character of you in the videos. A shout out to my dude authorize patrol for making it into the last video. And some even get a one-on-one call with me for at least 30 minutes once a month to talk about your own YouTube journey. Or our feelings. It literally can be whatever. I was just watching a dude play league for half an hour and it was like an awesome time. Show out, man. Ah, ah, ah, ah. And even better, you can get a line in a video. Words to my patrons lost and brand in a y'all got anything to say. Is this Mike working? Wait, we're doing that now? Hello. Jack, check it. Okay, we're going to work on that. But yeah, with more money, not only I'll be able to keep this hellhole running, but also improve the quality of the show. Want to see more stills of me, and videos in the looping six? I got you. Want to see some actual drawn scenes and assets in the videos like this one? Yo, I got you. And I want to do it because I love the show. And I want to be able to put more into it. So all in all, this channel is really important to me. And I want to make it worthwhile. So thank you all for helping me and trying to make this really, really stupid dream work. Allow me to be open and honest with you about the lessons I've learned that I'm still learning. To grow personally and hold myself accountable, all while sharing the polarized ideas that might have helped me grow as a person, we might even help you. I don't know. You're just laugh at it. I don't know. You've just finally. And no matter what happens to me any day, it's been a ride. So much love. Thank you guys.