this morning I took two clear blue tests one with the digital screen and one of just like the regular ones um and you put my favorite song on i put my feet up and we just sing along and i can't help but feel it just loving this moment can we stay here forever if i can stop the time don't you know that i would because i just loving this moment can we stay here forever hey guys so excuse my appearance my hair is doing something weird i'm not really sure what's going on but this is kind of a nerve wrecking video to make um i took a pregnancy test the other morning um i'm in feeling kind of off and i was like feeling like i was p-messing and then all of a sudden i feel like it wasn't and like when i p-mess i'm very irritated and um i don't know just like different than how i feel right now and so i took a dollar store pregnancy test um and it looks positive to me but it's very very faint oops so i took another one and then the other one i took it's also very faint i don't even think you guys are going to be able to see what i just took two more dollar store ones and they both have a line everything one of these has a line just very very faint so i'm in the pregnant um that's really weird saying it loud and i bought one more pregnancy test i got a clear blue one there's a digital one and just a regular one in here i went to wait a few days to take this and see if i'm actually pregnant because i feel like all three of these wouldn't have a line if i wasn't but they're so faint that i don't want to say i am i'm not gonna tell Cole until i know for sure and i want to do something cool to tell him and keep the last time with Noah i got a little onesie that said love on him we still have it and gave him that with a card and he eat more which is his favorite chocolate bar and so i told him the next time i get pregnant that's what i'll do is give him an eat more but i'd want to do something more special i would like to find a little onesie that says big brother and put it on Noah but i can't seem to find them anymore so i might have to like make shift one but yeah um if you're seeing this you're seeing it because i am probably 12 or 13 weeks i'm not gonna obviously upload this until i am at that point just in case anything were to happen but i'll go ahead and show you guys the tests i took i don't think you're gonna be able to see them this one is kind of like scratched so you can't really see through the screen but i'll just go ahead and show you i don't think you guys can even see it but it's right there and then this one also has one but the screen is kind of scratched and it is so faint but it's also right there and this one i think it's too light in here but i'm not sure if you guys can see that but it's right there you might be having baby number two hey guys so today is February 4th 2021 and this morning i took two clear blue tests one with the digital screen and one of just like the regular ones um and i'm pregnant says right there pregnant one to two one to two weeks i don't know if you guys can see there and i am so nervous to tell Cole i have about four hours before i can go pick them up from work and like i don't want to tell them in the car because we can't really like i don't know take it all in in the car it'll be kind of not a good place to tell them so um i was gonna find like i said one Z that said big brother but all i could find was little brother ones for some reason so i made shifted one of Noah's like white ones and just like rode on it and put it underneath what he's wearing i don't know what i'm gonna do exactly i might get cold to you changes diaper ask him to take his outfit off because it's too hot or while he's in the shower i'll take it off of him and then when he comes out he'll see it not really sure what i'm not sure but i am gonna tell you guys one thing i will probably not gonna film his reaction just because i kind of want to take it all in together without a camera in front of our faces so he probably won't get to see his reaction but um i am definitely going to show you right now what i'm gonna do for that so he's wearing a little Rudolph onesie yes i know it's not Christmas anymore but we still have christmas onesies that fit him so you're gonna mirror them i want to show them buddy are you gonna be a big bride there are you too excited you're gonna be a big brother buddy you have no idea what that means huh this is really hard to do well in holding the camera so i wrote big brother 2021 on his little white ones the underneath oh my god i'm so nervous uh mommy's so nervous are we gonna tell daddy today and then y'all like after he sees that i'll bring out the pregnancy test to show him you