Yes, I was Wayne I Still say to this day. That's the best relationship I have ever been in With certain things We was still beef about how much we make Because I always I'm like yeah, I make more than you I let him be on as high as four while and and Wayne is so competitive I'm like okay, and first it was cool. It was cute. I'm like okay. I got it. It's like okay challenging. All right cool We wanted to go into it together. It was gonna be called best of both worlds. You know, he's a clean comic I'm dirty. I'm raw. I'm bottom. Oh, I'm he's church. He's bill Cosby Well before the charges, you know I'm like no Omni birdie Mac every harsh commit richer I'll say anything This nigga was like all right. We can go headline at all you do you you head line I head line. I'm like, okay cool He like but I gotta get X amount I'm like Why? He's just like Just for one I'm the man and then two is you're my woman. No, that's not what we're doing Because you see I Sell out shows I put asses and seats I could if I could see if I was just starting now I could see if I wasn't just I'm just Shows that you don't sell out I sell out And he sells out but What the fuck are we talking about we gonna do 50 50 or anything he couldn't deal with that No, and also this nigga was like yo and I love in the depth still we're still good friends This nigga was like he know I say this he was like Well in a few years. I don't need want you to be torn and doing I want you to be you want me to do what Stay home And you want to take care of me That sounds great to a certain type of female I'm a worker. I'm always work. I don't even know what the fuck retirement even gonna look like cuz I ain't gonna never do it Niggas if I could I would be a hundred on stage because that's what I love. That's what I want to do I'd be a hundred on stage talk about myself Still making my fuckers laugh no teeth all dentures. Oh Niggas I'm gonna do it. I'm now I'm a worker and I still would love to be a wife I want to have more kids. I still I still want I need I this is why I need for someone to understand that like it's okay I It's okay. It's okay for me To be a successful business woman And still be a housewife. I can still do that. I'm not gonna ever sit down Not for no man I'm gonna fuck how much you make you can make more than me. I'm not gonna rely on your money After rely on mine and maybe I gotta get better with that man. I cannot let nobody take care of me Cuz then they hold it over your head Jay. I just I've been in so many situations where it's like yo I think it will do this for me. I thought I did this for them. I never throw in your face this But you want to throw my face this? Chagof yes, I did you know Hate that no, it's unfortunate because Not been in relation for five years and like I've seen some of Like my flaws I had to look in the mirror and It's unfortunate because like we And that's like I try to get away from the relationship talk because all the days nowadays is like a constant blame or who's who's the blame? Yeah, yeah, but hearing you talk Just I'm gonna hold account me for the men. I think it's hard to love somebody else in general when you don't know how to love you So right, I know a sound cliche, but I'm unable to love you With you being able to make more than me be the bread want to make all this money going to roll not be a housewife I can't love you because I can't love you to the full of capacity of my love because I don't love myself and what does that look like? I can't accept that not because I don't want to accept it because the world don't accept it Right because what we hear we see so I had to get over this I'm not gonna lie. We hear the conversation of 50 50 rent, right? It makes a man feel bad because everybody is talking about it in a negative way So because I don't have the love enough for myself is like reading the comments like you said Yeah, I just you said I just started to not be a really good because I love that you have for yourself Yeah, to understand is nobody is nothing nobody can say here That's going to change why I'm saying what who we are as people. I can't love that about you because I See it online that if a woman makes more than me that I'm less of a man If I love myself I understand that What makes me a man is what I do for my family and how I how I'm able to love you Because at the end of the day we are different and if what makes you happy if something makes you happy It's supposed to make me happy and it's supposed to make us happy But it's easy. I can say that it's hard like it's easier said and done because I'm just like we humans Yeah, and we live in this reality But I do want to I want to see a point where you can be love so you can give somebody your four capacity love right? I want to be able to love a woman where I can't untap her for capacity You can untap my for capacity, but again what happens is That trauma right? It's shit that we saw when you was loving somebody when you was given yeah, it's somebody throwing your face Did you ever go get did you ever get therapy for that? What did you think about it? No, and to be honest with you That's one thing I'm gonna be very open with you about y'all like a lot of us try to self Council