I think I'm just going to bust the club and we have a really good time. It was boring. December 2017, 23 year old Mercedes-Grabowski, a rising star in the adult entertainment industry who goes by the stage name August Ames, with draws from an upcoming pornographic scene she is due to performant when she learns that the co-star is a man who has appeared in gay pornography and has not been tested for sexually transmitted diseases. I think that she should be able to decide and say like yes you know there's something I want to take in or no I don't. She sends out a tweet which draws a lot of criticism and abuse from social media users. A handful of who are her peers in the porn industry including Jackson Wheeler, a pansexual performer who demands that Ames apologize or take a cyanide pill. Two days later August will be found dead in the park in Camarillo, California. Porn star August Ames was found dead she committed suicide apparently. Her death is ruled a suicide due to a sphixia by hanging by the Ventura County Medical Examiner's office. The industry mourns her loss but questions soon begin to emerge about the motivation for her suicide. August's husband, adult film director Kevin Moore, focuses his attention on the cyberbullying aspects while others close to August including our brother James point the finger at a number of people around Ames including her husband suggesting that they contributed to the poor mental state that led to her death. Kevin Moore gives an emotional speech at the avian awards in January of 2018 where he encourages performers to carry on August's legacy and not be ashamed of the choices they make for themselves in their personal and professional lives. What really triggered August's suicide? Was it a combination of the cyberbullying compounded with a history of mental illness that led to her tragic death or was it more than that? The porn industry raised upon people who were already damaged so they can damage them more. I was that girl. They promised me fame, fortune, attention, they promised me I would be the next biggest hottest porn star and they promised me that would be kept safe. In 2017 at least five adult industry performers died by suicide or drug overdose in a seven-month period. There are many more who suffer from mental illness. What can the industry do to prevent the loss of its greatest asset, the performers? Will it learn from its mistakes or will August and others like her have died in vain? To the haters in high school? Okay first of all a fuck you. A fuck you.