Hey, what's up? I'm Rachel Star and for those who are just finding this video and you're like, what? Who are you? I'm a schizophrenic. Yeah, a schizophrenic extraordinaire, I like to say. Anyway, but a lot of people had asked me to talk about delusions and Rachel, you never really let me talk about delusions in your videos. So first of all, let me explain the difference between a hallucination and a delusion because a lot of people get confused about those two things and confuse them. So if like right now, I suddenly saw a pink elephant fly around the room. All right, that would be a hallucination. Now, a delusion is when you believe like a belief that might be not not true. So for instance, if I believe, let's say the CIA is out to kill me and has my entire house bugged. All right, so I believe that versus hallucination is seeing or let's say hearing voices, things like that that kind of manifest and you think they're real. The thing is these two kind of blend together a lot. So it's like if I have a delusion that the CIA is taping me and let's say has recorders all over my house, then I start maybe having a hallucination that goes along with the delusion of let's say hearing people talking. Maybe I see a bunch of coincidence, it's suddenly happening in my head and I put it together as that's with the CIA. So they kind of are interconnected. So delusions. If you're a friend or family out there and you have a loved one with mental disorders who has a delusion, it's not like you can just tell them you can't rationalize with them. You can't rationalize with someone who believes something like that. Telling them know the CIA is not here. You can't rationalize it. You can't sit them down and be like let's go through your house. Let's find the recorders because they'll get it to the point where they're like oh well you know the camera is in this sticky note. The camera is in this pin and they could take it apart and it'll they'll still figure it out. If someone has a delusion and it's dangerous to them, they need to get help. Period. If it's a risk of putting themselves in danger or putting other people in danger by them having this delusion, then they absolutely need to get help. Okay. And as a friend or family like I said, you can't convince them otherwise. When my grandfather had Alzheimer's, you cannot rationalize with someone with Alzheimer's. If he you know gets he would get things in his head. He would get obsessed over like really bizarre things. He got upset once that no one could turn the lights on outside and it was nighttime. You know he meant the sun but things were all messed up and it didn't matter if you explained him. Okay you're talking about the sun. I can't turn the sun on at you know when I am. It's not possible. Like there is no way of explaining this better. You just kind of have to deal with it and kind of help the person through those delusions. Now again, if it's a delusion that's not putting anyone at risk. Okay. So for instance grandpa, all right I don't need to call the cops because grandpa thinks of suns you know not on. You know we just kind of help them. It past things like that. But let's say if it was he needs to go out and kill somebody then that is definitely something you need to look into because when people have delusions, it's not just like they kind of believe it. It's like they absolutely believe this thing is happening. Luckily most delusions, especially with schizophrenia, are not violent. I know the TV movies and all that make them out like that's the only kind of hallucinations and stuff you have believe me. That's such a small small percentage. Most schizophrenia would never hurt anybody. They schizophrenia makes you withdraw inside your cell. So you're actually not very likely to burst out at anger people at all. So first thing takeaway, if you know somebody in their risk or putting other people at risk, you do need to like call 911, call the hospital, have them admitted. Something like that if anyone is in danger in any way. Now so my delusions, I don't know. I've been told by psychiatrists before that I have delusions. However, I'm looking back I'm still like well I think that really happens so you can go yourself. We won't get into that. I find myself along odd thinking patterns a lot. I'll get things stuck in my head and my thoughts I'll become very obsessive about things. I believe in a lot of ways. I don't know and I remember telling someone once this I mean call like call a delusion said I don't really know how to explain it what it is but it works for me so why should it matter. But I do remember telling people this once and they were just like okay and I'm like hey you asked don't ask if you can't handle the answer. I always get the feeling there's three entities in me kind of that are always at work. I guess it's kind of like why I don't ever worry about things because whenever things get bad one of the other other entities kind of takes over but they're all me there's Rachel that's me. I was up like the basic me then there's a version of me with my face cut off and that's like the sick version. The sick insane crazy one that does crazy stuff and is completely out of control and warped and everything you can possibly imagine and then there's something what I call the godlike version and I guess the godlike version is whenever I'm when something really bad happens it's always who I account the when I hear voices is Rachel you know it never really says much other than my name but I sometimes when I'm in a really bad situation it's the thing that can kind of like grab me and be like you need to go do that you know and that puts those thoughts in my head's audibly I've always ever heard it say Rachel kind of to snap me out of things and to focus and that's what I I call the godlike version I know we're right but I believe this you know these are just different things when I get really really sick you know one of those two come out and neither I would say like the sick version even though it's called sick I don't think it's necessarily a bad version it's just a different way of handling things and whenever yes stress gets really bad one of those kind of comes into play it's not like you know I'm possessed or something and people take me over but it's like I it's like they're there with me and they're kind of always are but sometimes they're just sitting in the back quiet and just kind of hanging out in yeah so I guess I guess that would be really the only like constant delusion I have yeah so delusions they don't hurt anybody I guess they're okay just keep them in check that's all I got rocking my sweet green ranger beanie