And I got to tell you what I was doing, the passion during one of the hardest parts. When my head got crushed into the ground, I looked over to Mother Mary and I said, Lu and me, behold Mother, Khudah Khadash, I make all things new. But that shot that about five times on the fifth one. I was so broken. I just turned to Jesus and I, in the heavens and I said, I don't want them to see me. I only want them to see you.