I once had a thing where I was at a family get together and one of my my arms had like this and like this very young He would have been like my cousin like my much younger cousin and at one point like like I was just I was just sort of You know how you know when there's like a very high-pranked kid just kind of playing around with them You know making sure they're in state and stuff at one point he was surprisingly strong He kind of pushed me onto the floor got a pillow and sat on my face and I couldn't breathe And I don't think anyone really notices and they were and I was trying to get him off of me And it took me a good like 20 25 seconds to get off while I just had to halt my breath That's some of the closest I've come to the dying because nobody like noticed that something was going wrong and I think he was just being really loud and so when I was like I didn't like the pyrophone tf2 I was like Nobody heard, you know and so eventually I just kind of managed to throw him off of me but still kind of Sad like how many times I've come close to dying Like because you mentioned I remember another time when I was in In a bathhouse in one of the swimming pools and I did and there was and you know how in some of the more shallow pools They have these like float of floating things like like mattresses that people like people can play on on and whatnot And they had one that was Super wide and I was just diving And seeing how far I could swim and whatnot Because I was like, trying to see how far I could go like I decided to go up like when I'm just like okay I'm running in a mirror So I'm up to surface I hit my head I am under like square in the middle underneath one of those giant floaties and I cannot surface because I'm stuck underneath that And naturally I start to panic and instead of swimming out from underneath I try to keep it going up through the thing and it doesn't work because somebody is sitting on it That's so scary And I don't remember exactly what happened But I remember eventually being able to surface in if it just like floated far enough or if they just somebody moved it out of the way I was close to passing out I'm like I've almost died so many times It's kind of scary That means that it's your fate is to live Your destiny is to keep living It's not your time I guess not It's not your time