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No and it would be it would be stupid for mental health to be taboo at this point because I feel like especially in this industry a lot of people were we suffer in silence because I think this industry a track I don't want to say it attracts like mentally unstable people but it's definitely a good industry for people who would not work well in like a regular work environment. Like me for example. That's true. I just knew that school and then like a 9-5 job was never gonna work out for me like I'm too restless. I'm too anxious. I don't have the attention span. Right. And you know I do suffer from a couple disorders mentally but you know it doesn't affect porn for me if anything porn makes it easier to manage those things because it gives me time to myself not constantly focusing on work and you know when you do something that you genuinely enjoy it just brings happiness to your life that's beyond like you know having hobbies. It's like when you really enjoy your job the thing that makes you money it's like a different kind of happiness. And it gives you like freedom and independence and I'm really glad that you say that because you know so many people equate any kind of mental health problem with the fact that you're in the porn industry like oh you have anxiety it must be because you're important. Oh you're depressed it must be because you're important. You know like all of these things ignoring the fact that accountants have anxiety and depression and you know it's pervasive in every single industry. So you started a private kind of message group with other girls in the industries that right? Yeah so I had been in the month of April I was going through a really bad period of depression. I don't want to say really bad but it was worse than I had in a while. I just felt really like unmotivated and hopeless and down when I wasn't working I was just like in bed and at the time like none of my friends were really like available like I know that sounds fucked up on their part but like we all go through things internally and like I don't expect everyone to like be there all the time but I felt like a little loss because I just felt like I couldn't really turn to anyone and trust anyone and open up about my issues. Yeah so I in the moment I just said like what if we had like a group DM with a bunch of girls from the industry who all suffer from like either different or the same issues mental health wise and we can all just like talk to each other about it and vent and give each other advice and then hype each other up and I didn't expect it to pop off so much to the point where the group got filled and then we did another one and yeah I mean I'm happy that it could help anybody like I'm humbled that you know people like thought that I was like some great person for doing that but it was really for like selfish purposes to be honest like I wanted a place where I could feel comfortable opening up but that led me to think that maybe other people would also benefit from that and that's why I you know made the tweet and I think also helping other people helps you with your own issues as well because you feel a sense of purpose and you feel useful like I'm in you know I'm a recovering alcoholic and I am in the 12-step program and the last step is about helping other alcoholics and like a big part of staying sober is having your purpose is having a purpose and helping other people to achieve sobriety because not only does it make you feel better about you know help about yourself helping other people but it also keeps you in the program and it keeps you like involved and it keeps you from distancing yourself from other people because I think one of the biggest issues that we have these days and I've said the so many times what is what you know a social media and the internet and everything is how like distant we've grown to each other as people we've become so isolated and so you know anxiety is like skyrocketing like issues of depression and mental health has gotten so much worse yeah definitely social media has made depression and anxiety worse like for me I would say if I see someone tweet something and like let's say they're my friend and I think that like maybe the tweet could be about me like that's gonna bother me all day when really like I should just call the person or text them and be like hey like what's up and talk to them but instead a tweet is all this passive aggressive exactly it's passive aggressiveness and people just not being like real and their true selves and hiding behind and then also to like sometimes you're wrong sometimes somebody's not tweeting about yeah but it's my my anxiety words but your brain automatically goes like oh that's about me I do the same thing yeah I'm like oh they're talking about me they must be because everything's about me yeah exactly and it's it's narcissism yeah social media has definitely triggered narcissism that I didn't even know existed in me and other people too I mean I'm more confident but I'm also more narcissistic so I'm not afraid to admit like there's goods and bads but definitely I would say we need to be careful about like letting it take over our lives and stuff yeah absolutely and also like depending on the validation of a bunch of strangers yeah that's so bad or the opposite letting a bunch of strangers tell us how we should feel about ourselves and who we are as people people have never met us yeah never and I try to like I try so hard when I see a negative comment I really just picture like an ugly loser in their basement in the dark like eating hot cheetos just like surfing the web watching porn and like commenting on girls bodies yeah I picture that because I don't really see how somebody who is like happy with their lives and secure with themselves can go around like doing stuff like that yeah trolls are generally people who have too much time on their hands and have you know a lot of like they're very unsatisfied with their own lives yeah the thing is like the way people treat you has is so much more telling about how people are as themselves and it has anything to do with you I've so had to like come to that conclusion and burn that into my brain yeah because like otherwise you're gonna be so unhappy with all the comments that I mean luckily I don't see many negative comments I think I just have a lot of accounts like muted and blocked but you know like when I see negativity I like to go if it's on Twitter I like to go on their page and look at all their tweets oh yeah that it's usually it's all negative and all just hating on girls and I'm just like what is your life like like genuinely like when you turn off your phone or close your computer screen like what do you do yeah what is going on up there that is causing you to lash out at people who are just trying to live their life and actually you reminded me of something when when you said that you're an alcoholic synonymous that my mom she's in overeaters anonymous so she it's an eating disorder and she sent me this quote one time because during April when I was struggling I told her you know I don't know what to do I'm really struggling mentally and she sent me this quote it says true or words were never spoken lack of acceptance has been the cause of all our problems according to the alcoholics anonymous big book all my relationships changed the day started accepting people exactly as they are occasionally I forget and revert to my old ways critical judgmental but when I remember to control my instinctive reactions and feel compassion and acceptance for the person rather than ridicule and rejection I feel better and then the end of that quote is like it was it just spoke to me it was like just be compassionate because we are all trying to get by in an often unforgiving world and poorly equipped to do so Manscaped is here to up your body grooming game their lawnmower 3.0 is a revolutionary electric trimmer that will not only not nick or snag your nuts but can also be used on your chest hair if you get it in the perfect package 3.0 it will come with a bunch of liquid formulas to keep you feeling and smelling fresh all day and for a limited time you can also get a free travel 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