Hello my dudes. It's been a while since I've recorded a video so you can tell why the video is growing back. I'm still there and I'm receding Caroline at the back. I'm currently in the Star from a Work. I don't know what you're thinking. You're thinking did he buy a not-unexpensive small tripod just for work and the answer is yes yes I did because I'm always here at this three o'clock in the morning so I thought I would do a ramble video. Now this is the first and what I'm hoping becomes a series but we all know what I'm like. Where I talk about mental health and stuff like that. Soba and this isn't something I've done before. This isn't some I've done before. Well I think I have but most of the time when I do my mental health updates I'm just marriage. Most of the time I do any kind of whispers. So I want to talk today about sobriety. I have now been sober for I was two in the morning. Three in the morning well. Today would be 14 days. The last night I had a beer was on that livestream we did for the charity which was raised on track by a point so it's pretty good. The traffic's quite busy for three o'clock now. Does his camera is a trucker? You can tell. These are the things with someone's over. So I wanted to talk about what's been like. What I've done it. I really sure it's not a bad place to do it then. What the plan is. So I planned to go sober in September and I've been meaning to go sober for a while. My drinking got to the extent of I was just defining it. I'd say I wouldn't do it on school days but then when I was working like seven to seven during the day I wouldn't have any beer at night because I'd work a seven next day but when I did seven to seven at night I'd go my half seven buys and beer. Drink to about a week day and go to work at seven because you can see Kruna dinner and just define that to myself being drunk half a living in the morning maybe we can't go. So I did that livestream. I was intending that to be because there's no way I was doing that so I was intending that to be the last time I drink for and it's been pretty easy if I'm being honest and that sounds weird because I've wanted to stop so much and just didn't but I just seem to my head this is gone right he's stopped and drinking for now and I'm going to go for a while I'm not going to it's not going to be a permanent thing maybe but at the moment I want to talk about what kind of happens and stuff. I have gotten which surprises me because I thought I would know physical withdrawal with withdrawal from drinking not drinking to the point where I didn't get the shakes I didn't get that you know low sleep wasn't affected I don't think it was I don't actually were well anyway I'll say that you know that kind of thing but I will say one thing I'm dealing with which is surprising me is emotions like my emotions are just rocketed my emotions are just like I know when my borderline personality anyway they're heightened but I just I'm so angry and it's really weird because you know I was looking up at it and I've looked at it and anger he's often associated with drinking but I was never angry when drunk but like I'm just so angry and not at oh what was me the world's unfair to me stuff like that I am angry at the world but not in oh you know like some fair you know what your money and stuff like that I'm on top of stuff like this but it's just the world is making me so angry but I'm getting pissed off with people and their opinions and like so you know the Queen's dead okay but okay I'm an anti-weilist you know but you know someone who's been arrested for free speech you know they call Prince Andrew a nonce because he is but you know it's timing you know it's questionable you know when the Queen's body has been moved up to Edinburgh all right okay it's but he got arrested for it and charged it's not for speech and that's my angry oh screen-charting I'm ready so I'll have that that's the thumbnail I'm just so angry and everything like you know the kind of the cost of living crisis like and just people accepting it but yeah just things are just maybe it'll calm down after a while maybe I've been you know using the booze to stop the emotions to ignore the emotions because if I was hung over I didn't think about them or I was drunk I didn't think about them but it's just yeah I just want to try and I don't know it's really weird to say this but I want to kind of help the world and stuff I don't know how and I've just I'm an asshole it's making me an asshole on Facebook you know not support you know like some of my work I've got no I'm just arguing with everyone everyone on Facebook I've lost at least 10 well I've been unfriended by at least 10 people who they are apparently they weren't important enough for me to know too they were after some of the numbers go down but yeah that's it two weeks over and agree I really thought I'd want to talk about this one maybe that's why I made these in drunk because I could just run and run but yeah okay I feel like I should make this longer but there's gonna be a lot of these videos I'm quite active with YouTube again I'm quite happy making videos so my channel turns nine next week so I've sold enough of Prince Andrew goodbye