I'm back. I'm a banga. Banga. Banga. Banga. Buzz-Buzz. Okay. Oh, I didn't know a lot of cuz sometimes I had to pick your last time. It's actually really bad. I need to stop doing that. What's up gang? It's your girl Tosin. Happy New Year. From the title, you know what about to get into some things. It's been a while since I've been on YouTube, but just want to say, Happy New Year first of all, I know you guys want to fight. So I'm going to need you to keep your fighting hands and turn them into like, praying hands because I'm sorry. You guys can see the name change before I get into the name change. I just want to start off like giving like a little life update. What's been great on from 2022 till now. And then we can talk about why there's a name change. And like why I'm changing my name and like what does it mean? And all that other stuff. Okay. I hate opening up. So last year was a very challenging year for me, which is why I wasn't really online as much. And I was really in my mystery girl ever. I just wanted to talk about that because the last time I did a live update, I was still kind of going through the motion, so I couldn't really express myself because I wasn't ready to at that time. And I think now I'm more prepared to like speak on days and like talk about certain things before being forward. So I started hearing about it on their high. I was very excited. I just got into my final year. I just also like was part of the YouTube class of 2022. The first video I dropped was just like for normal. And I had so much high hopes for the year. But it was one of the most challenging years that I've ever had. Till date. My mental health was really bad last year. Like it was really bad last year. I was like 18, my school. I'm not a highly functional person when it comes to when I express my SEO depression. He actually impedes my functionality. So my functionalization is from maybe like 100 to is 0 to complete 0 to complete stock. And like I have to basically gradually like start walking against, I'll run it again before I can get to like this point where I am in front of you. And I can talk and I can express myself and I can just be you know vulnerable. And emotionally like I was just going through the motions. So ended up not being able to gradually last year. And for me that was like a gut punch because my uni journey has been like a very long one for me. Especially through like the ups and downs like so many things like. There's been so many things so many things so many things so many things. But I thought like oh like by me June like I'll be done. I'll be over and I still had I just had one more course. And of course I did not pass it and it felt like. And because of how challenging like the semester was and everything I had to take. Step away from the thing that makes me happy which is YouTube. I initially started my channel in 2019 and I'll do I would love to see I started because. Yeah like I just wanted to like show you guys like who I am double blah. I started the channel to escape my reality like I just wanted to travel in my head to different space. Which is why I created my channel just to express myself to how my creative skills to just talk to laugh, to get good to vibe. There was so many things in my personal life that I don't think I'm going to share. And especially not right now but knowing this video that I just wanted to escape from. And it was also helping me manage like being in school at the same time. And I had to kind of give up the thing that was taking me through the journey which was like recording video and making YouTube content. Because like that was what was making me was keeping me sane through this woman. So when I had to stop that I had to kind of like face the reality of things. And like face the fact that like I'm extremely tired. Because if I'm not doing this or if I'm not on camera like I'm in school. If I'm going to school like I'm on camera. Like there's no point where I'm just resting or just being or just like having time with the people that I love and care about. Always busy but I was always exhausted at the same time and I was drained. I was just disoriented. I tried to create content that I best I could but if I'm going to be honest myself like the videos I made last year I was creating it from my head and not from my heart. The things I put out I always put out from my heart like I put my everything into it the best I can. Because I value your time and I value your detail and I value your energy and I knew that like. So all of you should just stop take out time also if you think just to watch my videos I watch my content and even see what I'm watching. That's why like I'll be off and on and off and on and I just wouldn't just be online as all because I was going through like a healing journey. And there were a lot of these changing a lot of these changing my personal life. Losing friends, losing relations, losing opportunities, losing sleep sometimes. And just like being in this space of isolation where it's just me and God and I have to kind of face myself. And it was a real journey. It was a very real fear. I'm not going to lie I was very real fear. I'm just extremely happy that I made it. And I think it's even funnier when I look at the videos I made and they were just only traveling and like being out of the country like having a good time. And it just goes to sure that like sometimes when people are like having a good time doesn't mean they don't quit your travel that's trevillacious because baby when I'm talking like the storms were hit it they were hit it. I made it out on the other side of it though. I kind of figured out myself and like for some reason like coming back to this channel it was a bit scary. My anxiety was very like high because I had to kind of face my self. And what I mean by that is I'm facing the 90 year old me that had a dream. And I'm seeing to her. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I had to confront whether I was going to make I was going to quit on her or I was going to get up and try again. And this is me trying. I can't. I don't know what it was. Oh, ciao. Starting over with experience. So let's take two. And this is for anyone that's going through like motions especially with anxiety. In general, just not feeling like your best or no one seems to do anything or one doesn't show up for yourself. And you feel like it's time has passed and you feel like your movement has gone and you feel like you've missed everything up and you feel like everything can. It's not the same. I think we girl get up and try again. I'm here to get it up and try again. And I'm here to tell you that you can get up and try again. Anyways, I can see the name change. What am I rebranding and changing my name? Okay, so I really need to change my name since 2021. Initially, I was going to change my name to BGT. I really like BGT. But the problem was when I search on Google when you search on YouTube, if you type in BGT, the first thing that's going to pop off is British Got Talent. Which means it would affect my SEO and my search history and people would try to find me. So I decided to use my action name which is Twisted Victoria. Victoria is my middle name. I know y'all are shocked. Yeah. And the reason why I decided to just change my name is to find something unique and simple is because my name is always going to stay the same. But I'm always going to change and evolve. So yeah, everything BGT production like at your big age, which is my show that I started in 2021. That early made like three episodes but they were so good. Like you should go watch that. I only pause for now mainly because the logistics of doing that consistently is not realistic. You guys are still BGT gang because I still love the name BGT. I don't want to say I'm still going to keep that name. I don't know what like you guys even want to play with the new name but you guys want to still keep your BGT gang. Let me know in the comments section how you guys feel about that. What's explain 22-3 just me showing up. That's it. Just expect me showing up. And be open and receptive to the new things I'm doing and then if you mess with it, really engage in the comments section. And if you do also engage as well because I feel like I make better content when I know what you guys are thinking, what you guys like that is aligned with me as well. And we can like collaborate. Where is this BGT-16? Like whenever it's Wednesday, it's like a video from me. That's my promise to you guys from now on. I just want to give a big big shout out. Thank you guys so much for always bullying me on the internet. It's a comeback on YouTube just so you guys do watch and engage my content. It's really encouraging especially as a creator. Because sometimes you may get in your head and know I do. Yeah, I'll see you guys later. Hope you guys have a beautiful day. Love you loads. Kisses and bye.