I hope you guys are looking back to my channel if you're new here. Hi, hello. I'm Lila. Today, I thought I brought you a little bit about what it's like to change psychiatric medication. I have been on a lot of different variations of psych med, of antidepressants and psychotics. I'm actually considering starting a mood stabiliser. So I'm looking at that and I am also looking at changing from quit-type and to something else. Mainly because the weight gain that I've had from the quit-type is a lot. You know, it's getting harder and harder to manage, which ain't the best. Let me take you back to the beginning when I started medication. So the first medication I ever went under my mental health was Lithia. I took Lithia when I was 13 years old and I reacted really badly to it. I struggle with dehydration at the best of time. There were any medication that makes me more dehydrated that I do struggle with. Unfortunately, that as a side effect I have on all my medication. Physical health and mental health. I came up with Lithia, got discharged from calms and then years later I got re-centive calms, which is children in my health and mental health services. The second time I got referred to calms, I was started on fluoroxity. In case you're wondering, I was under calms when I was 60 and I put the calms you up to age 18 in Telford. My experience with them, so fluoroxity and me don't mix. I can't take it and I also can't take any that have similar ingredients. I'm actually allergic to fluoroxity and I lasted a year until I live a week before calms started to stop taking it. I then stopped taking medication for a bit because I was too afraid to go on something else. And then the next summer, so I had been 17. I was started on to sitala brown. He didn't do anything and I got put on the high days of it. Nothing, so that got stuck and then switched to surgery and which... surgery and I couldn't eat. I just didn't feel hungry at all. I couldn't eat. I throw away and because of that time I was also struggling with re-indusodding. I was also re-indusodging. So then we go on to metasophen, which helped me to leave, begin with and then it just didn't do anything. There are changes in medication. There has always been two weeks between each medication that I've changed because that is the requirement under the British guidelines with antidepressants and especially SSRIs because of the thing called serotonin syndrome, which if you want, I'll make a video on that. It's a bronchotasophen. And I said it didn't do anything, so that got stopped. And then I got put on surgery and which didn't work at all. And then I got started on to vent the faxian, extended relief, which is what I am still taking to this day. In terms of antidepressants that switching over, it was so hard, like the withdrawal process is real. Like even now, if I miss a dose of my vent the faxian, I can... I physically start shaking and I can't manage. I get really shaky at jumpy and I can't cope if I miss a dose. Maybe a good thing, because it reminds me to take it and I do have a bad habit of forgetting to take meds. It's not the best. So, yeah, taking vent the faxian has helped a bit. So now that it's gone to anti-psychotics, so I've taken a few. I have taken... Well, I've taken a lens of peon, where it hated, lasted a wee body, didn't respond well to it. I got switched to quit-type peon, which I'm still on. I take around 300 milligrams a day now, but earlier this year I actually got started on halopyridol at the same time as quit-type peon, as kind of a support and don't. I reacted to the halopyridol, and really badly, really badly. Every time I've ever had that, I've reacted horribly. And... I left for experience, because when I was in hospital in January, I actually did get injected with it because I had an episode and... Yeah. But shenan's psychotic was a... It is a long process, because you can't just jump off a high-dose, decrease it very slowly, otherwise, you've run the risk of so many health issues, that it's literally not worth trying to just come off it. I really not advise that. I have gone for a tier here on medication. Main one being quit-type peon, I did try and stop taking it. Door-bound was round, the other being. But back on the subject of withdrawal from anti-psychotics. Going for a tier-key is the worst thing you can do. Do not do that under any circumstances. At all, every doctor ever will advise against it. So when you take medication, you can't ever just decide, oh yeah, I'm not taking it anymore, because that's not how. However, I do want to talk about this, remember that. The biggest thing with the amount of health that helps with anxiety, helps with sleep, and helps with countless other things. I've been to the other opinions. And every time I've mentioned this, spoken about this, I have gotten so much hate. I am very pro-medication. I haven't definitely experienced therapy, but I don't have any good experiences with therapy, so I don't talk about it. And I take flanazarpam, at this point, I take it three times a day, two zero point five tablets in the daytime, and then I have one milligram at night. For me, it would be an age-game changer. I've used misconception that everyone who takes time is going to become an addict or dependent. And I think if you, if you know how to manage medication and do it right and follow the instructions by the professional, you are a lot less likely to become addicted. Now, I have taken different variations of unsurpassed ASMRs for nearly two years now, and I still forget to take it. I'm actually the worst person when it comes to through and rings hate medication. And I can tell you, from switching from lorazarpam to lorazarpam, it made all the difference, because lorazarpam is very short, too. Clanazarpam is the longer term benzodiazepine that you can take for longer than others. And me and my consultant are both in agreement that I cope with things better on that medication, and we have no intention of stopping it. And that's the dream agreement between me and my consultant. Big thing in that is I am very, very honest about how I feel. Been very open with them about my past with drug abuse. Anyway, it doesn't make me, I used to use cocaine two years ago, and I haven't used it in over a year, which is a big deal for me. I wouldn't ever do it again, because it didn't kill me. My best advice for medication change is one no-your-man's understanding how they work. Or if you don't want to be on a medication, tell them why and explain your worries. And, you know, if before you start medication, ask to know what the expected side effects are, because that is within your right. Medication is swings and roundabouts, and I'm not going to lie, there is always trial and error in everything. There is no pitch-of-perfect way to know what medication will work for you. So yeah, there's a chance you will learn to find a medication that makes you ill. There is a chance that medication won't work. There is a chance of adverse effects. I take medication to co-to survive, and to want to exist. There is nothing more than that in what I do. And I said I finally do have a medication routine that I believe anyway works for me. And I honestly, because the channel would not have continued on, who also would support the you guys have given. And I will not do you. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for standing by me. Stay safe, stay strong. And in light of what's going on at the moment, stay home or stay two meters away. I'm going to sit in the car on my own for a bit. So yeah. Bye.