I am so nervous. I don't know why this is so hard for me to say this. Maybe because I've waited practically 10 years to say it. I didn't know how I would ever say something to you. Okay, well as best it is for me to try and figure out a way to explain this to you. This little he won't leave me alone. Can you just move please? I wanted to share something with you that has been bothering me for a really really long time. And I feel like I'm scared to tell you. I don't know why I honestly feel like maybe I'm making a bigger deal of it than it actually would be to you. I'm just nervous. I don't know what you guys are going to think and I feel bad. Like I feel bad because I don't want you guys to be disappointed in me. But what happened was a little out of my control. I'm going to get into it in one second. But before I do I just want to say that in the course of me deciding to finally make this video. I got news that my uncle passed away and um I he lived a great life. He was 85 years old and I'm only telling you this because it had me thinking more that like if I died tomorrow would I be satisfied with my life not being able to reveal the the me. Me in my entirety would I be satisfied and I don't know if I would be. So it just helped me push to be like just go for it just make this video whatever happens happens and it's not that big of a deal. It's really not. So with that being said I wanted to share with you that this sounds so weird and it's hard for me to say oddly but my real name is Jen. My name is not Gina. Um it's Jennifer and this has been something that I really wanted you guys to know for so long. The reason I started on YouTube as Gina was because at the time that I was making videos back then I was in school to be a teacher and I was going to be a health and physical teacher. They really dug it deep with us. They they scared us and they're like you can't be on social media. They were so against any kind of social media stuff and at the time the YouTube channel was just growing and growing and growing. In the very beginning I didn't even have a name on YouTube. It came to a point where you guys were wondering who the hell am I. So I had to have this name and I was like okay I can't say I'm I can't say I'm Jen and I wanted to and it sucked so bad. I had to create a name that I felt safe enough saying that if you guys were ever to get it mixed up with Jen that's why I spelled it with a J. That's why I spelled Gina the way it's me. It was very strategic in a way but I'm not satisfied and I haven't been. To be honest with you I don't like the name Gina and I never did and for me to be called Gina for all these years and not even liking the name and it's something that I created for these like reasons that I felt obligated to has been hard for me. I never wanted to tell you guys because I didn't want to disappoint you and I know it's just my name. I don't even know why I'm getting upset because honestly it's just like finally I finally said it and it feels good because I'm tired of like I feel like I've been hiding and I wanted you guys to know this for so long. I feel like it's been holding me back. Holding me back with my success. Holding me back for moving forward in life. I think it's just time I'm ready. I'm ready. I'm ready. I just want you to know that nothing has changed. Obviously I'm still the same person. I'm still cool. I'm down to earth and I'm fun loving caring nothing about me has changed. It's just that I want you to know my real name. I really do and in the videos if you guys are comfortable calling me Gina that's okay. I'm still Gina. I'm still the way you know me but I want you to be a part of my life the way that my life is supposed to be and that's me. I feel like it's just been a struggle. There have been so many times when I've had to edit out my name. When someone either friends or family somebody says Jen and I'm editing and it's like the really crappy feeling to have to edit out Jen constantly and I've done that for years and years and years and it always sucked. I never liked that feeling. From now on if someone says my name in the videos I'm going to leave it in there. It's going to be Jen. I've had to tell friends like no no no it's Gina. Say Gina on camera. Sometimes when I meet new people they even get confused about what my name is and they'll call me like Jay and I'm like it's funny because I know why they're doing that. They're doing it because they don't really know my name. It's her name Jen or is it Gina and they just get confused and just I'm just so done with it. I'm so done with it. I'm happy that you guys finally know and I hope that for you it doesn't really change anything. I wanted to be honest with you but when this became a thing it was for a reason because my goals and my ambitions were to become a teacher and I wouldn't have been able to do it with the way that the YouTube channel was rapidly growing. Ultimately I feel like with you not knowing my name is Jen it's been holding me back in more ways than not and like I mentioned to you before I'm creating a new series on the channel. I already filmed a couple episodes but I was holding back posting these videos because I didn't have a name for the series and I wanted it to be original and thanks to you guys you you guys gave me so many suggestions and comments about what we should title it. I decided I'm going to title it Jen you in talk and I'm going to spell it Jay like my name Jen you in talk. I've done extensive research and spent a really really long time trying to get the name right and I'm satisfied this is like original. I hope you guys like it basically I'm excited for this. I'm really excited for this. It's something new. The idea behind it is to just talk about real genuine topics and get into like a deep discussion about it so I may have guests on from time to time if any of you happen to be a YouTuber or are interested in being on this series then let me know reach out to me because I'm definitely looking to collaborate with people and have people on and I think it'd be interesting for you guys to see the behind the scenes of things that you don't necessarily see in an individual's videos. But I truly want to thank you so much for your support it really means so much to me it's just something that I really wanted to do but not having told you my name. I felt like it was one of the biggest setbacks that I've had for the longest time and I wasn't able to be myself and grow so I love you guys and I'm going to leave you with this. The only thing holding you back is you so go for it what do you have to lose. 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