I think you just have to go out and do it. Like there's like when I was driving from St. Louis out here, like I had these moments creep in and we're like, what am I doing? Like what, what have I done? And so you just have to go through and you have to feel it. You have to feel the fear and then you have to work through that and realize like the next day like, oh it was okay. I'm Julian from Travel Nurse Adventures and I just met up with Chris and G here in a parking lot in Tucson, Arizona. I have a new van that I bought. It's a road track. It's a 2003. It's a Dodge. I picked it up in St. Louis. I had no idea that I was going to get it and then I ended up meeting this elderly couple that gave me a deal. And now I'm on my way out to California to work. And so I'm trying to learn all about my van. This is my first trip with it. So this is Canyon. He's my travel companion. I got my bikes on the back or got a bike in his dog crate. It's just a double platform bike rack. And then I got my mountain bike and then I got his dog crate. But I try to bike quite a bit when I'm out in California. I can just swing this up and it's kind of annoying getting the bike off right now with the rack. But otherwise it's pretty easy to deal with this kind of rack is. The only thing I don't like about this rack is that it doesn't swing out. I've had the swing away racks. So I think I'll probably just transition to that in the future. So then I got my spare tire and then this is just my gas and my LP tank. And then my propane's up underneath this way. So to turn my propane on it's like up underneath here. And then I have my electrical hook up in my gray water, black water dump tank here. I haven't de-winnerized the system yet. I'm still learning how to do it all. It's going to be a work in progress. Right, Chris? This is where my potable water goes. And this is my fuse box, like my fuse axis. I'm not going to pop that off yet. I might break it. I woke up my very first night. I woke up at three in the morning and my carbon monoxide alarm was going off. And I freaked out and I took the dog outside. And I read about it and it was just a low battery alarm. And I left the button on wrong. And then like the next morning I was fine and I was on my way again. And I was in this beautiful park in the middle of North Texas. And I was like, this is amazing. But at the time it was the end of the world. It was the end of the world and I was thought I was just like so down there and like turn that button off. I didn't know what I was doing and thought that there was actual carbon monoxide in here. And it was just a low battery alarm. OK, so this is the inside of the van. There is a lot of McConcranies. Like it's more spacious than I imagined. So like this little area here has all kinds of just like my shoes and my camping gear and stuff. I have a little closet right here. Where all my bathroom stuff is. I have a, this is kind of neat. It's an entire drawer. I just keep like my special drawer of my scarves and just the Nicknacky stuff. Poncho, if I need to grab a poncho up here. I have my bear spray. I have a machete. Just like stuff I can just grab and access real fast. Like a flashlight. This chair swings around as does this one. So if I'm like parked and want some more space, I can swing both of these around and hang out. And I can also set up a table right here. Since it's a 2003, so there's just a CD player and a radio and a CD player actually is like broken. So I just have a little bows. But I'm going to get a little moundable. They have these like, I think they have a McCosco. These, it's like a magnetic mounting thing that I can mount my phone and then also my speaker up there just so it's not sliding around. So I use my bike light as one of my flashlights. I can hook it up as well. And if I don't want to pull from another lighting source. And so I always just charge that stuff as I'm driving down the road. So my organization, I'm still getting a system down. I'm pretty lacking. But just for the ease of access, I have my bike helmet just like latch to my sink and then underneath my sink. Because so I haven't really used my propane stove yet a whole lot. Like when I've been traveling out here, I've just been using my camp stove to cook in the different campgrounds. So I have all my like, my fuel sources underneath here. And then just a bunch of water bottles, my cutting board. I have some food storage here and I'm about to get some velcro that kind of, just a, a whole this in place. Moving down, just some drawers, some silverware and stuff there. And then underneath here, I have just more storage and my hot water tank is underneath here. I keep all my coffee and my microwave. So all my little French press up here, just more storage where I keep some cups and some paper towels. Got my three-way fridge down here, which I've also yet to start using. But I'm gonna take the leap and and use it here tonight. It's got some random stuff in it right now that we'll keep in the moment. And I have some clothes. This is all my clothes up here. I've tried to somewhat organize them with just some like zipper bags. Goes all the way back. This is where the old TV used to be. So I have just some books and then this slides out. Kind of messy at the moment, but just some books for work and then my work stuff here. I have like a plug up under here. So if I'm plugged in, I can plug my laptop in and just work from there. And then when I actually drive down the road, I have Canyon's bed. This is his throne. I always look back and he's just like perched. This is where he stays when I drive and then when I actually sleep, I put his dog bed up front or on the ground. And then my AC is right here. I've yet to need that or use it. And then just more clothing storage up here like my rain gear and just some other jackets are up there. And then this is the bathroom. Jowars in the middle and this is just used for storage right now. Just some towels. And then Canyon's food goes here. Then when I actually get more settled out in California, I'll actually de-winnerize it and try to attempt to use the toilet more often. I think my biggest fear is that I'm going to mess the system up in the van. I'm going to break the whole water system or just break the van. So you do not scare the black people? So I'm actually not. Because I've been traveling for the last two years. So actual fears of being on my own. Not so much. I try to watch what areas I go to and watch my surroundings. So we'll see that. It's when I'm living the life that other people dream of when I was just in the middle of this state park. And it was just gorgeous. Like watching the sunset. Like New Mexico and Arizona border. Hardly anyone was there. And I met, I was parked. And the nicest couple from Vermont was next to me who also had a 2002, 2003 road track. And they came up to me and they were like, man, isn't it beautiful weather right now? And I just like cooked this amazing dinner and was just relaxing. And it was just like right there in the moment where the reason why I do, like the reason why I'm doing this. And after this, you're heading to Joshua Tree. So you're just visiting Tucson for the day heading down the Joshua Tree. Yeah. And then I think I'm going to stop at these other dunes along the way. Just a couple hours from here. And then so the moments of fear are definitely counterbalanced by the beauty that you see in the world. Absolutely. So next time we see you, because you're going to be working in California? Yeah, working in California. Travel nursing. Yeah, till the end of April. I'm going to be testing out the van to see if I actually can do it and like it. And the goal is Alaska. Yeah, and then I'm going to go. And he's in Alaska two years ago. I'm going to go back here beginning of, I think, May. I hope you're still in the van. I hope so too. I think I will. I think you will too. Thanks for your time.