I just want to let you know that I'm not interested in hurting him back. When you hear some of his fan sing, she must have done something to make him do this. He hadn't done this before. How do you react? It's ignorance. I can say that because even if I hit him first, that makes it okay for him to do that to me, they kind of give an excuse for what he did. Did you hit him? Did you ever say to yourself, well, that was my fault. No. Did not hit him. It was an argument. A verbal argument. A verbal. Was there alcohol involved? Was it drunk? Were you drunk? No. No. You weren't drunk. You weren't even drunk. How did you think it was going to end? That's all I kept thinking all the time. When is it going to stop? When is it going to stop? When people can hear me screaming when he's parked in a neighborhood and we're right front of somebody's house, he kept saying stop screaming. Of course, but I kept screaming and eventually someone didn't come out. They just called the cops for me and said, I was better. I was bleeding. I was swollen in my face. So there was no way of me getting home except for my next option was to get out the car and walk, start walking in a gown and a bloody face. So I really don't know what was my plan. I didn't have a plan. A whole night was not part of my plan. How do you done it before? No. But we told her we had read another police document which cites too earlier incidents. Once when he bashed in the windshield of her SUV and another time when they argued and he repeatedly shoved you into a wall, another and a sudden he suddenly shoved me into a wall. What happened? He shoved me into the wall. And that isn't it happening? Is that a way? When I said it didn't happen, I mean it's never been. I've never bled, swole up, black eyed, bruised. It wasn't. It was not a fight. Oops, you chute!うんうんうんうんうんうんうんうんうんうんうんうん Ribbonalek! 7,804 appliedStudio Yeah, I'm numerous accounts. It was... It was like, I don't want to say normal, but it wasn't a surprise when it happened. Like, I just always anticipated it happening that's why I knew I wouldn't want to sleep because I was too afraid that it would happen. I just would pull her away, I would be beating on my dad's leg the whole time, just trying to stand in the middle, breaking glass bottles so that they could hear something else and snap out of it. Was she taken to the hospital, to the doctors? That severe? No, she never went to the hospital, but... He broke her nose one time, but she would never go to the hospital. Domestic violence is not something that people want anybody to know, so she just would hide it in the house. I always said to myself, I'm never gonna do somebody that my dad never, I always said that. Her fans were stunned by what Chris Brown had done to her, and even more shocked by what she did next. But we had it wrong, she says right after the incident, she was just like so many other abused women, filled with confused and conflicted about where to go and what to do. Point blank denial is you start lying to yourself. Minute, the physical wounds go away, you want this thing to go away. This is a memory you don't want to have ever again. So the minute the physical wounds go away, you try to put it in the back of your head and you start lying to yourself subconsciously. Lying saying it wasn't as bad as I thought it was, lying saying you just changed what lies. Initially you start thinking, why could I possibly have said to make him hit me and do this? You repeat that in your head and eventually you're like, you know, stop, stop. I just, I didn't talk about it to anyone, to no one. Not my friends, not my family, I don't want people looking at me and feeling sorry for me, like there goes the victim. So I felt really lonely, I felt really lonely. And I'm like, if I feel this depressed and what is he going through again, lying to yourself, I had to protect him. The whole world hits him, no, his fans, his career, he just, he lost me. I just didn't tell him not to do anything stupid. He thought he might, he might actually try to kill himself. I just, everything was going through my head because I didn't, I know he's never had to deal with something like this. I'm not saying that's an excuse for me to go back, but this is why I was thinking about it. But go back to him is exactly what she did. March 1st, just three weeks after the incident, she flew to be with Chris Brown in Miami. Her fans were thrown. Do you think that was it you were going to be back together again? I actually didn't know, I actually did not know. I went through a host of emotions. Did you tell him you forgave him? No, it was confusing for me. I was still attached by love, but I wasn't thinking about the reality of the situation. I felt like I built this empire and the mind that I love beat me and because I'm going back, I'm going to lose it. No. And even then, you see, sorry, I learned to yourself again. And...