Hey, what's up? I'm Rachel Star. So a question I get a lot from just people in general in real life actually more so than the internet is What does it like to be schizophrenic if I could sum it up into one word? One word it would be confusion Um, I think a lot people you know hear me talk about hallucinations and stuff and go oh they must be like really scary Like you're always living in a horror movie or or like it's a bad dream and I always go back to know I can usually tell my hallucinations aren't real um, great example the other day. I was at work and this person was talking and These days when I can describe the hallucination was it was like someone had like cut the person's face off and then like put it back on They're like not very well. It's like if I Just not trying to trigger anyone here, but yeah, like literally they'd like taken it off and then put it back on But just sloppily So I'm like sitting there and I know that's not I know this person doesn't have a face like this But I'm sitting there and I'm looking at it and I was obsessed with like looking at the lines of where it was connected around the scalp and to me that that's exactly what it looked like um And even though I know I was seeing it wrong. This wasn't correct. There's something messed up here I couldn't stop myself from seeing that and it was very confusing to me I get kind of what's real and what's not confused a lot I kind of joke like I'll say something into someone like hey, didn't I see you yesterday? Didn't I know I made that up? I made that up right? Okay, and I like joking and I'll joke it off um But it happens all the time where I ask someone didn't you tell me this happened and they'll be like no I'm like right. Okay, sorry. I made that up. I'm confusing you with something else because yeah, like it's like the wires get all crossed and tangled um I don't get a situation where I'm thinking did this really happen or or not and sometimes I kind of like I don't kind of ask random questions to people being like hey, did we meet recently? No, that was somewhere in my head. I don't know where I'm getting this thought from. It's not like I dreamed it It's like it's like the thoughts just kind of there with the question mark like did we go out to lunch last week? Question mark for some reason I'm thinking this person told me something that maybe they didn't or something like that So I think overall confusion um Again, I've talked about how I hear a lot of like ticking and noises and like there's there's a radio left on in another room And it is it's confusing because it's like is that really there? Is that a real thing? um Yeah So overall, I think confusion would be the best word to sum up skits of writing on what it's like to experience it yourself Not really horror, not really like scary Obviously, there's scary parts to it, especially you know At nighttime, I think it's a lot scarier to be a skits of panic than in the daytime because for me at least my hallucinations play more in the dark They're playing the light too, but I feel like the dark they can just kind of create whatever they want Whereas the light they kind of have things to work with So yeah If you're a skits of panic and you could describe skits of fronia to someone who has no clue what it's like in one to five words What would you say? Comment in the uh the comments below comment in the comments below Lord So for me confusion You Okay, so I'm back all right So as always definitely check out the mental health playlist popping up somewhere on the screen screen Screen and other related mental health videos popping up and little broken star Uh my book I wrote about skits of fronia in comic form so definitely Check that out link in amazon. It's on amazon.com in kindolf So please check out a little broken star super easy to read book for children or adults Dealing with skits of fronia. I'm Rachel star One word to describe skits of fronia from skits of fronics