Hey Marcus Conti, accidental whistleblower incidental journalist. Plaintiff and Conti vs DSNY. So what is it's December 12, 2017? This morning I did a piece on the tort of outrage and I'm really trying to you know talk about the you know what the damage is in a in a situation like this. That's what I'm trying to zero in on. Okay so you know it's two years later right and am I in immediate you know am I installing the same condition when I was fired and when I was under you know attack from these people? No I've kind of I've grown you know I've you know because I'm healthy and and I've worked on my my sense of sanity and my my sense of dignity you know I just you know the but I want to talk about like the first year you know it was difficult. I wrote down about I think the biggest one was the the helplessness and the hopelessness that that that here I was here I was reaching out and and and rather than be lifted up and given a trophy I was I was attacked this early and mocked and harassed and falsely written up slanted and libeled and I think the and you know also the all of this is me by the way you know there's no so team of lawyers you know me hours I mean you know probably thousands of hours and preparing papers style you know in in having to relive the horrific events and the horrific treatment over and over again to have to look at it you know face a team of lying lawyers right and have to have to constantly be be lied about and drag through the mud and okay look I have a little town right I have the ability to you know to come come forward and and the innovativeness to speak up on YouTube right but what if I didn't I would just be like you know I'd be roadkill it would be no hope whatsoever you know any people have have have gone the way of the no hope all right but you know so there's that degrading this and having to keep really living the events and you know the the uniliation I don't you know I used to weep I it was very devastating I mean I suffered from anxiety attacks while I was at DSM live and I cried a couple of time weep the couple of times in the car you know once definitely when I was fired I remember how almost feel like I was having a heart attack on the train though you know I wasn't even given a I wasn't even given a box or bag to put my you know whole years worth of uniforms and and contents of a locker nothing just goodbye give us just the most concerned with getting this stuff and me oh I think we just crashed so I was saying so you know that disorders the sleeplessness you know I didn't eat much you know in the beginning I lost a lot of weight what else happened I kind of had to be a cry baby I'm just trying to put it on the record you know what what exactly was the the feeling of degraded and depressed loss and enjoyment of living that was a big one I'm I'm still you know I'm still suffering from that you know you know I don't all my videos are made very early in the morning because I don't really after this I don't really have a social life I'm kind of fearful of public places I'm definitely paranoid I I look four or five different ways before I cross the street and in Brooklyn you know why why am I doing a proof of life video think about that I do proof of life videos to prove that DSNY or the people that they operate with haven't killed me yet I mean that that right there speaks volumes right I have to do a proof of life video that rates you know fear paranoia you know let's talk about poverty I got poverty it food stamps you know I couldn't work for the first year I you know fighting and and and writing and you know and now this is almost a daily a daily a daily event for me almost two years later because if I don't fight who's gonna fight for me no one's gonna stand up for it no one's gonna stand up for me I just think about it you know anger I'm still angry for the most part there is there is there is there is hope you know I I'm very hopeful that having done this that through this appeals process and putting everything out on the table and making this public record that's not gonna go away I need to anyone can retrieve it forever and ever you know where it leads I I don't know I don't know that's not my that's not my concern you know and and you know it wasn't my concern coming into this my my concern was restitution for harm done clear my name I don't want to pull it sir I don't want to you know I don't want to be you know the guy who who who who took down the quota and cost us you know stop the city from stealing millions of dollars in fraudulent quota money from people you know I don't want to be that guy but I guess I am that guy right so I guess I'll take that but that's you know I don't know that's all I I just wanted to I like I said I said last week I want to do I want to start talking about the damages because because it's hard to define and I'm not a fan of doctors I don't go to doctors but I'm certainly not the person I was when I started that's for sure you know I was a very peaceful very very I was very contented you know about being who I was I was very sure of who I was and then having having had the city agency experience of absurd levels of corruption and anger and fear and racism and discrimination it it changed me it really rattled me and and I think that I think that with restitution I think that with a positive outcome that will be you know that that'll that'll that'll help you know you say well what is what what is compensation for harm done well there's a laundry list like I just I read off some of them you know some of the things but that's all okay so I don't want to walk today this is this is Diker Heights right golf course in Brooklyn it's beautiful big huge golf course in Brooklyn real estate value that big money so so thank you for letting me share if you're still watching any of this if you're still following this story if you're still following the story of this guy you know you're you're a red pill you want to see you're you're interested in seeing the how deep the rabbit hole goes you know and you'll also start to realize that this this this effort to study is is has a direct influence on policy we change city policy this this event change is it was was earth shaking to the DSM what we stopped the quarry completely changed the dynamic the the you know complete I'm still paralyzed you know someone comes up behind me but completely changed the dynamic of of the city agency and and now you're seeing you know with that Thomas Painting that's not coincidence the Thomas Pain article about the Cuomo being investigated by the FBI for ghost employees it's not by chance now it's not by chance trust him it's not by chance so I want to thank that you know the people you know who you are people this there's a lot of people out there that that have been helping feeding you know kindling the fire you know putting wood on the fire and professional and for some people you know who you are but it's not over yet you know I'm still out here by myself you know I'm still I'm still a we have to win this thing we have to win this right you have to win it you got it they got it you know the DS and why right now is it army lawyers they're they're revving up the engines who knows what kind of response they're gonna put in they're gonna stabilize you know by enough politicians by enough judges who hell knows powerful powerful agency no one is coming to the rescue deal deal I you know attorney generals office where are they nobody I'm not here by myself totally out here by myself you know in terms of political might at least on at least on the surface that's a lot have a good day