First Time (Star Trek: TOS zine)/Issues 41-50

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==Issue 41==
First Time 41 was published in February 1995 and contains 194 pages.
 
The art is by art by Shelley Butler, DEW, and Chris Soto.
From the editorial: 
* Chrysalis by Kay Wells ("Crash landing on a water world, Spock forces Kirk to let him drown when their escape pod is trapped underwater, with the idea that Kirk will be able to revive him once they reach the surface.") (4)
* The Heart Has Reasons by Rebekah Lyons ("Spock retreats from Kirk ʻs love, convinced that it was only the Drellaʼs interference, a creature that feeds on love, that brought them together.") (30)
* The Blessing by Kitty Berman ("Sybok realizes the hidden love Kirk and Spock have for each other, and at his death sends Kirk the message that Spock wonʼt say no if Kirk approaches him.") (50)
* Dry Season, poem by Natasha Solten (69)
* The Last Word by Karla Kelly ("After a blow to the head, “Jim” is the only understandable word Spock can say, and through stranded with the landing party until the ship returns, Kirk and Spock make their feelings known for each other.") (70)
* Letter from an Editor, poem by Karla Kelly (73)
* Magic Heart by Elizabeth Kay ("At the sound of his name, Spock looked up and felt the years tumble back into place. The slightly blonde hair had grown chestnut, short and curling, the same frank, expressive eyes were staring at him. All at once it seemed like nothing had ever come between them. They were clearly just as in synch with one another as they had ever been; even after two years of strict Kohlinar disciplines on his part, and a failed marriage on Kirk's.") (74)
* Starlight Guy, poem by Natasha Solten (inside back cover)
Image:firsttime41-1.jpg|from issue #41, Shelley Butler
Image:firsttime41-2.jpg|from issue #41, Chris Soto
Image:firsttime41-3.jpg|from issue #41, DEW
Image:firsttime41-4.jpg|from issue #41, DEW
Image:firsttime41-5.jpg|from issue #41, Chris Soto
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 41===
==Issue 42==
First Time 42 was published in June 1995 and contains 160 pages. 
It has art by Shelley Butler, Chris Soto, Terri Rett, and Lori Lee.
* The Picnic by Kate Sheridan ("While on a visit to Kirkʼs home, Spock is introduced to the custom of bidding on prepared lunch baskets as a means to a date when he and Kirk go with Kirkʼs mother to a town fair.") (4)
* The Cookie Jar by Carol Turner (20)
* Fling the Snowflake, poem by H.R. Radei (25)
* Perfection by Karla Kelly ("Spock is uncomfortable with Kirkʼs declarations of Spockʼs perfection until his captain hits on the one thing they both think is.") (26)
* Time Marches On, poem (29)
* Champagne Wishes by Cordelia Smith ("Spock waits at the bar picked by McCoy to meet, and is pleasantly surprised when his captain shows up.") (This story has the same title as the back cover of the zine by Shelley Butler, but has an interior art piece with the same name by a different artist named Terri Rett.) (30)
* “The Diver” by Carolyn Spencer (won a 1995 STIFfie Award) ("Visions that Spock had while at Gol are discovered to be shared when he rejoins Kirk to defeat VʼGer.") (38)
* The Diver, poem by Robin Hood (63a)
* A Beach to Walk On by J S Cavalcante (64)
* Say My Name by Shelley Butler ("Spock is forced to confess his feelings for Kirk while both are held by Gary Mitchellʼs power.") (132)
File:Firsttime42second.jpg| cover of issue #42, second edition
File:firsttime42-1.jpg| from issue #42, Lori Lee for "The Cookie Jar"
File:firsttime42-2.jpg| from issue #42, title page for "The Picnic," sample text
File:firsttime42-3.jpg| from issue #42, Shelley Butler for "Perfection" - titled A Stolen Kiss
File:firsttime42-4.jpg| from issue #42, poem, sample page, machine-made calligraphy
File:firsttime42-5.jpg| from issue #42, Terri Rett for "Champagne Wishes" (for the story of the same name; the back cover of this zine is also titled "Champaign Wishes" but is by a different artist) -- "Nice drawing—lots of black and in that style rather like an etching—of Kirk and Spock kissing, against the backdrop of the observation deck port. More accurately, Spock seems just in the act of capturing Kirk's mouth, and that is a beautiful moment. The drawing is dynamic, a nice sense of movement and tension." from Come Together #20 "This is a very nicely done pen and ink drawing of Kirk and Spock kissing in front of what appears to be a large port window. The cross-hatching, if that's what it's called, is well-executed. I especially like the symbolic representation of stars in the background, and the white outline. The tilt of their heads, especially Spock's, is lovely, A warm and loving drawing." from Come Together #22
File:firsttime42-6.jpg| from issue #42, Chris Soto for "The Diver," a glorious long-haired Spock -- "Oh! Long, lean, graceful, strong, naked long-haired Spock. No bangs—beautiful forehead; teasing hint of penis. Gorgeous light and shadow. Exquisite." from Come Together #20 "A simply beautiful rendition of an unclothed warrior Spock, complete with long hair and spear. Took my breath away, expert use of light and dark. I particularly like how the leather thongs on the spear echo the gentle curves of Spock's hair, I can almost feel the wind." from Come Together #21
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 42===
==Issue 43==
First Time 43 was published in December 1995 and contains 178 pages. It has art by Chris Soto, Anne Marie Smith, and Erica Bulsara.
From the editorial: 
* Stranger than Fiction by "Shelley Butler/Kathy Stanis" ("Two crewwomen share a passion for watching Kirk and Spock and are so sure that they are lovers, they begin writing stories about them.") (4)
* The Storyteller by Kate Sheridan ("Kirk slugs McCoy when, after a night of drinking, McCoy taunts him about his love for Spock, and the next day McCoy demands that Kirk tell Spock or he will press charges.") (34)
* Love Song by Karla Kelly (52)
* Dance of the Le Matya by Erica Bulsara ("Spock wins a planetary contest and unknowingly picks Kirk as his prize for the night.") (56)
* Desolate, poem by Dovya Blacque, inspired by the cover of First Time #41
* Words by Penny Wise ("Spock goes into a type of trance when he tries to remove his feelings for Kirk.") (78)
* Scaling the Heights, poem by Imya Brata (89)
* "Secret Admirer" by Ciana Mitchell ("Just as Kirk and Spock begin a love affair, Kirk begins receiving gifts from a secret admirer.") (90)
* Follow the Star, uncredited poem (177)
File:firsttime43-1.jpg| from issue #43, Chris Soto for "Storyteller" --"So many beautiful pieces in this zine from this extraordinary artist to comment on. First of all, the seductive Kirk in blue jeans on page 44. With that "come-hither" look, my heart just melts (or is that race?). Great pose, perfectly done with grace and style." 
File:firsttime43-2.jpg| from issue #43, Anne Marie Smith for "Secret Admirer " -- "What a fascinating, gorgeous Spock. First, it's a unique setting, and very nicely done—the observation window and the globe of Earth that Spock is leaning on; and a good balance with empty space. His clothes are absolutely great—just the sort of thing such a Vulcan gentleman in the know would wear—everyday elegance, understated. That's our Mr. Spock. This is a very unusual Spock but it doesn't feel out of character to me. The relaxed stance is what's so unusual, and it's just beautiful- It makes me think he's been learning some new body language from spending time in bed with Kirk. I also like his slight paunch—maybe he's been learning about eating for pleasure too." 
File:firsttime43-3.jpg| from issue #43, Chris Soto for "Words" -- "Then there's the beauty on page 82. Spock looking out, filled with the purity of innocence and Kirk giving him one of "those" looks. I adore this piece. Soto creates such a mood with the most delicate of touches.
File:firsttime43-4.jpg| from issue #43, Erica Bulsara for "Dance of the Le Matya"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 43===
==Issue 44==
First Time 44 was published in June 1996 and contains 168 pages. 
Cover art by Shelley Butler. Interior art by Chris Soto. The second edition, which was published sans art, is letter-sized with comb binding.
* Captain's Log: Vaia by Kathy Stanis ("Kirk and Spock beam down on a planet survey only to be taken unaware by the female inhabitants, and a drugged Kirk is forced to service the women.") (4)
* I am Left Mourning by Kathy Stanis (poem) (67)
* "November Sunshine" by Kitty Berman ("After getting the Enterprise back, Kirk learns just how badly he and Spock were taken in when Kirk, confessing his loneliness and depression while Spock was gone, is told by Spock what Lori Ciani told him that made him leave.") (67)
* Pon Farr by Erato (poem) (110)
* Stalking Stars by H.R. Raidel (poem) (111)
* Correspondence by Karla Kelly ("Spock and Amandaʼs correspondence to each other are affected by the arrival of Kirk as the new captain of the Enterprise.")
* The Kiss by Erato (poem) (120)
* The World Cries by Sue Cameron (poem) (121)
* The Doctor's Indiscretion by Erica Bulsara ("McCoy confesses to Kirk that he secretly observed Kirk and Spock making love.") (122)
* Time Marches On by Mccoy (poem) (133)
* Their Hearts' Revenge by Shelley Butler ("After TʼPring kills Stonn, she frees a Vulcan criminal in order to secure his aid in destroying Kirk and Spock, who she realizes, love each other.") (134)
File:firsttime44-1.jpg| from issue #44, sample poem
File:firsttime44-2.jpg| from issue #44, Chris Soto for "November Sunshine"
File:firsttime44-3.jpg| from issue #44, sample text, first page of "November Sunshine"
File:firsttime44-4.jpg| from issue #44, Shelley Butler for "The Doctor's Indiscretion" - titled Embrace
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 44===
 
==Issue 45==
First Time 45 was published in December 1996 and contains 178 pages. The art is by Chris Soto and Kathy Stanis.
The editor includes her email address with the note: "If you're not on, why not???"
* When Rain Comes by Andi Lenor ("Kirk and Spock are drawn closer together as the 5 year mission continues, but when Kirk almost dies when the command chair explodes during a battle, Spock realizes that they could have a future together.") (It was the winner of a Philon Award.) (4)
* Male Bonding by Katie O'Doul ("Spock agrees to go camping with Kirk and McCoy after overhearing Kirk make mention of “male-bonding”.") (46)
* On Which to Build by Rosemarie Heaton ("On a diplomatic mission, Spock is raped when he and Kirk are attacked by a roving band of thugs and later, Spock is taken to Vulcan where he has no contact with Kirk until VʼGer.") (64)
* Star Scar, poem by H.R. Radei (91)
* Baby by Michele Arvizu ("Spock is called to Vulcan to answer questions regarding his plans for his next pon farr while he and Kirk decide if their own future will be apart or together.") (92)
* The Tree, poem by H.R. Radei (140)
* Sky Walker, poem by H.R. Radei (141)
* Quirk of Fate by Kathy Stanis ("While on shoreleave, Spock has visits from Q, who wants Spock to confess and become lovers with Kirk so that, in the future, Q can use them as an example to convince Picard to become his lover.") (crossover with Star Trek: TNG) (142)
* Letter from an Editor, poem by Karla Kelly (inside back cover)
File:firsttime45-1.jpg| from issue #45, sample title page and text
File:firsttime45-2.jpg| from issue #45, sample poem and clip art
File:firsttime45-3.jpg| from issue #45, art by Kathy Stanis on page 9, Wondering for the story When Rain Comes: "Wow! I really love this portrait of Spock. Perfectly executed, it captures that wonderful look of consternation that comes over our Vulcan’s face when he is trying to figure out some human idiosyncrasy or has some other equally weighty problem to solve. I can almost see the wheels spinning fast and furiously in that elegant head! Beautifully done! " from The K/S Press #7 "Strength and character. One of the best Spock's ever." from The K/S Press #7 (1998) 
File:firsttime45-4.jpg|inside page from issue #45, Chris Soto, for "Baby"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 45===
==Issue 46==
First Time 46 was published in 1997 and contains 166 pages. The first edition is perfect bound with glossy front and back covers by Shelley Butler and interior art by Nefertari and Chris Soto.
The front cover won a 1997 STIFfie/1997_Awards.
From the editorial: 
The editor notes that this zine was coming out shortly before Shore Leave, but she makes no mention of the recent passing of Chris Soto.
* The Power of Suggestion, a Star Trek: TOS story by Dana Austin Marsh ("After rejecting the advances of a stranger, Kirk returns to his and Spockʼs hotel room and during the night, somehow is made to erroneously believe that he and Spock are lovers.") (4)
* Once Broken by Robin Hood (poem) (21)
* Egyptian Dreams by Nefertari (art by Nefertari) ("Kirk dreams of a pharaoh with pointed ears.") (22)
* A Doctor's Tale by Corey Fauer ("McCoy notices that Kirk is jealous when a visiting female diplomat start paying too much attention to Spock.") (25)
* Together by Sharon Travis (poem) (59)
* The Deltan Dilemma by Karin Porter (art by Shelley Butler) ("Ordered to transport a delegation of Deltans, including two just reaching sexual maturity, Spock strengthens the link he and Kirk already have in order to help Kirk control his reaction to the Deltan pheromones.") (29)
* Wondering, poem by Sharon Travis (59a)
* After the Rain by Paris Vautrain ("After a bad landing party experience, McCoy orders Kirk and Spock to take shore-leave together in order to deal with Kirkʼs lingering anger toward Spockʼs part in dealing with Gary Mitchell.") (60)
* Reaching Eden by Kathy Stanis, art by Shelley Butler ("Spock is accidentally given a mind-altering drug that causes him to go to Kirkʼs cabin in order to confess his feelings for him.") (80)
* Medical Treatment, poem by Sharon Travis (95)
* Fascinating Art by Nefertari ("A two-pager with Kirk and Spock discussing zines, gay love and K/S.") (96)
* On Being a Starship Captain, poem by Sharon Travis (97)
* Fruits And Nuts by Jenna Hilary Sinclair ("Kirk and Spock come together over shared nuts.")
* Just Desserts by Scott Hunter (art by Chris Soto]] ("Kirk and McCoy try to keep Spock in the dark about an award he is about to receive by telling him that they are on their way to Vulcan so McCoy can be presented an award.") (98)
* The Doctor's Problem by Robin Hood (poem) (123)
* Need by Erato (poem) (123)
* Into the Light by Cordelia Naismith ("As they wait to be rescued from a pit, Spock thinks back on the last time he and Kirk were in a similar situation and discovers that things werenʼt quite as he remembers them.") (124)
* Dreams by Erato (poem) (133)
* Untouched by Shelley Butler (art by Chris Soto) ("When Kirk and Gary Mitchell are posted to the Enterprise, Spock realizes that Mitchell was his last client as a prostitute while at the Academy and though Mitchell now wants to resume a relationship, Spock finds himself falling in love with Kirk.") (134)
File:firsttime46-1.jpg|from issue #46, Shelley Butler, see comments about Star Dreamer (mistakenly attributed to Chris Soto in the table of contents) 
Image:firsttime46-3.jpg|from issue #46, Shelley Butler
Image:firsttime46-4.jpg|from issue #46, Chris Soto 
File:Star trek firstime46 int by chris soto.jpg| from issue #46, Chris Soto - from a fan: "So fine. An about-to-be kiss frozen in time. A promise not yet kept. The faces are perfect. Not like a photograph. Better than a photograph. Kirk's especially holds more feeling that a camera can usually manage to show. Certainly a vision on which to expend long moments absorbing the love and devotion and daydreaming to your heart's content." from The K/S Press #10 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 46===
==Issue 47==
First Time 47 was published in 1998 and contains 167 pages.
* Getting What You Wished For by Dana Austin Marsh ("Unable to go through with the farce of being with “Kirk” on the shoreleave planet, Spock returns to the ship determined to tell Kirk of his love after watching the construct of his captain die.") (4)
* Impossible by Nefertari (PWP) (18)
* The Watcher by Paris Vautrain ("Spock stays on the sidelines, waiting for Kirk to finally realize what it is he really feels for his first officer.") (20)
* Risk Worth Taking by Deanna Gray ("After Spock almost dies when retrieving information on the giant “amoeba,” Kirk finally gets the courage to confess his feelings to him.") (40)
* Carnival Night by Corey Fauer ("McCoy is sure that the carnival taking place on the Enterprise is the perfect time to pull a prank on the captain and first officer.") (56)
* From The Heart by Jenna Hilary Sinclair ("After VʼGer, Kirk struggles with the realization of what he feels for Spock and how to go about telling his friend of them.") (68)
* Control by Nefertari (p. 78-80) (PWP) (78)
* Kaliffee by Ray Newton and Fiona James ("Spock takes refuge in the desert rather than force a bond on Kirk when the two of them and a security guard are on a survey mission.") (82)
* Don Juan Kirk by Heidi M. ("Kirkʼs fantasies on Valentineʼs Day.") (98)
* Song of the Lea by Karen Dates ("Kirk is presumed dead when the shuttle he is piloting crashes onto a water world and his bond to Spock is blocked.") (102)
* From Rags To Riches by Dana Austin Marsh / Phaedra Morgan ("Kirk sues the scandal sheet that has been running stories with a slightly slanted take on the Enterpriseʼs missions, which all inply that he is using the ship to further his sexual conquests.") (154)
 
File:firsttime47-1.jpg| from issue #47, Linda Wan -- "Wow! Linda, I didn't know you were an artist. A new artist -- yeah! You know we want more. This is a lovely Spock in tuxedo, from the thigh up. What a handsome, dashing figure he is. So easy to imagine a K/S scenario with this. (I don't know if the drawing fits into the story it's printed in; I haven't read it yet.) A fine drawing, beautiful dark pencil work, with lovely texture and lighting. And I love the way he's got his hand in his pocket. (Can't resist: Is that your hand in your pocket or....?)" from The K/S Press #22 
File:firsttime47-2.jpg| from issue #47, Chris Soto -- "Chris Soto has a Kirk and Spock on page 28a. It's dated '94 and is only faces with Kirk looking to the left and Spock to the right. Kirk is better captured and his expression is wistfully sad or regretful. Very nice — especially the Kirk. [The editor responds: "As a tribute to Chris—in the past, she and I would often discuss titles of her artwork — I'd like to name her untitled art. So "Together" is what this piece said to me."] from The K/S Press #7 However, when this illustration won a Philon Award, it was titled "Looking Outward".
File:firsttime47-3.jpg| from issue #47, Shelley Butler -- see comments for Concern
File:firsttime47-4.jpg| from issue #47: "cheesy magicians" from the story "Carnival Night" -- "I don't like computer art, or clip art, or whatever it's called. It's distracting, silly, and gives the zines using it a decided amateurish look—in my humble opinion. FT47 has lovely covers and some good interior art so it hardly needs "artisic parsley". I can see perhaps having something garnish the titles, but that's it. The puzzle with "Kalifee" isn't obnoxious, but interrupting the stories with these supposedly artistic ink blobs, is. The nadir for me were the cheesy magicians for "Carnival Night". I know the story is intentionally silly, but I resented the graphics which do not enlighten the story and only serve to waste space." from The K/S Press #24
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 47===
==Issue 48==
thumb|front cover #48, DEW|left
First Time 48 was published in 1998 and contains 162 pages. It has interior art by by Shelley Butler, Susan Sicafoosh, and Pat Horowitz.
* Paradise Regained by Taliesine ("Kirk discovers his desire for Spock when he see him about to make love to Leila on Omicron Ceti 3 and does whatever it takes to stop him.")
* Life's Rich Pallette, poem by H.R. Radei (29)
* Fascinating Art Deux by Nefertari ("A two-pager with Kirk and Spock discussing zines, gay love and K/S." A sequel to Fascinating Art in issue #46) (30)
* Games by T'Rhys ("Tired of waiting for his lover to “go all the way”, Spock decides to take matters in his own hands and seduce Kirk into it.") (32)
* The Topic by Nefertari ("In and Out” [the movie] revisited.) (36)
* Hear Ye, Here Ye!, poem by Robin Hood (47)
* Soul Keeper by Deanna Gray ("While Spock is away with the young Saavik, Kirk fights his resentment for Spock leaving again so soon after Gol and VʼGer, something they then have to deal with when Spock returns.") (48)
* Down and Out and Under the Table by Jenna Hilary Sinclair ("After a party on board ship, a drunken McCoy sees Kirk and Spock kiss and almost make love as he lies under the table.") (left out of the table of contents) (64)
* The Lone Helmsman, poem by Mary Garrett (78)
* The Visitor, poem by Mary Garrett (79)
* Clueless by Karen Dates ("On a diplomatic mission with Sarek and Amanda, Kirk is subjected to unwanted advances by the overbearing inhabitants, which helps to create a smokescreen for Kirkʼs real mission.") (80)
* The Confession by Malia Torm ("After VʼGer, Kirk and Spock confess to the unhappiness both felt during their years apart.") (100)
* First Time, poem by Susan Sicafoosh (left out of the table of contents) (107)
* Starscraper Soul by Susan Sicafoosh ("Spock allows Kirk to read an old log entry from his academy days in hopes that it will be the catalyst that brings them together as lovers.") (108)
* The Bloom, uncredited poem (left out of the table of contents) (116)
* McCoy's Lament, uncredited poem (left out of the table of contents) (117)
* The Ultimate Vulcan by Kathy Stanis ("After the debacle with M5, Spock sets up a shore leave for himself and Kirk at an isolated cabin with plans to make Kirk his lover.") (118)
* Emotions, poem by Mary Garrett (135)
* The Portrait, the Sandals, and the Secret by Scott Hunter ("A native of a new contact planet recalls how Kirk and Spockʼs visit to his planet became the stuff of legend.") (136)
* The Secret, poem by Robin Hood (162)
* Through the Rushes, poem by Susan Sicafoosh (referred to as "inside back cover" in the the table of contents) (163)
File:firsttime48-1.jpg| from issue #48, illo by Pat Horowitz
File:firsttime48-2.jpg| from issue #48, sample text and illo, illo by Susan Sicafoosh
File:firsttime48-3.jpg| from issue #48, Shelley Butler - see comments for Spock in Ropes
File:firsttime48-4.jpg| from issue #48, sample text
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 48===
==Issue 49==
 
First Time 49 was published in January 1999 and contains 172 pages. Covers by Shelley Butler. Interior art by Terri Rett, Kathy Stanis, and KWATA.
* In Name Only by Dana Austin Marsh (winner of a Silver Philon Award) ("In order to keep Spock from being transferred, Kirk talks him into getting married “in name only”, unaware that Spock is in love with him.") (4)
* My Kinda Guy, poem by Robin Hood (37)
* Dust and Sadness by C. Joy (reviewed in the letterzine K/S Press, here ) ("After McCoy realizes the depth of Kirkʼs loneliness and despair even with Spockʼs return from Gol, he prods Spock into going to Kirk and telling him of his love.") (38)
* Off-Scent by Karin Porter ("Spock is avoiding Kirk after they beam up from the Rome-like “Earth” and Kirk finally realizes that itʼs Drusillaʼs scent on him that upset the Vulcan.") (56)
* One Last Voyage by Rosemarie Heaton ("Kirk looks for Spock after driving him away when his frustration over their not becoming lovers again after VʼGer erupts into anger.") (66)
* Humanizing Influences by T'rhys (70)
* Let Me Show You by Rosemarie Heaton, art by Terri Rett ("Before returning to Genesis for Spockʼs body, Kirk watches a disc recorded by Spock the night after Kirk seduced him only to beam down to Flintʼs planet and fall for Rayna.") (72)
* The Beamdown, poem by Robin Hood, with art by Kathy Stanis (85)
* Butterfly Morning by Malia Storm (86)
* The Deep End Of Emotion by Dana Austin Marsh ("After Kirk help Spock thru pon farr they decide to go back to a platonic relationship, only to have their mutual love for each other gradually draw them together.") (88)
* Sighs, poem (109)
* Intermission by Cordelia Naismith ("Spock runs into Kirk during intermission while at a concert and an understanding is reached between then in time for them to leave before the concert restarts.") (110)
* How Far Apart, poem by Tevye (123)
* The Unlucky Birthday by Fiona James ("Kirkʼs mother thinks it unlucky that he was born on Sunday, but events, and Spock, eventually prove her wrong.") (124)
* Transparent by Deanna Gray ("Spock becomes invisible when caught in an explosion during at a lab experiment and is blackmailed by Intelligence to stay with them by threatening Kirkʼs career.") (130)
File:firsttime49-1.jpg| from issue #49, poem by Robin Hood, art by Kathy Stanis, titled Men in Tights -- "Ah, Errand of Mercy! And those glorious outfits. Ms. Stanis captures them in soft tones of gray, evoking thoughts of a memory treasured. When you read the words of Robin's poem it all becomes clear. For once Kirk did not see Spock as an officer, but as a man. And, she says, "The definition was desire." Very provocative thoughts to accompany a dreamy image." from The K/S Press #33 "This is an early piece of artwork by Kathy. And even though it reproduced a little pale, it still shows the skill and quality that she puts into all of her artwork. I love those Organian outfits and how they stand close and look at each other. Also another good example of how background adds to a drawing and I love how Kirk’s hand rests lightly on the table." from The K/S Press #33 "Paired with a Robin Hood poem, this is an early piece of artwork by Kathy. And even though it reproduced a little pale, it still shows the skill and quality that she puts into all of her artwork. I love those Organian outfits and how they stand close and look at each other. Also another good example of how background adds to a drawing and I love how Kirk’s hand rests lightly on the table. And the most perfect title!" from The K/S Press #33 
File:firsttime49-2.jpg| from issue #49, title page, sample text
File:firsttime49-3.jpg| from issue #49, Terri Rett for "Let Me Show You" -- "These are in Terri's striking, rich ink work—really nice. She does good body language, too. Very expressive figures. This is ST4 times or thereabouts, that wonderful red cross-over tunic of Kirk's. He and Spock are walking the corridor of the ship. An off-duty casual air, very much just the two of them. They seem so tuned in to each other, Kirk talking about something knowing Spock is really hearing him...and it seems Spock has an almost-smile." from The K/S Press #32 "I just love this pen and ink drawing of Kirk and Spock from Star Trek VI as they walk down the corridor together. Kirk’s gesture of his hands in his pockets is so perfect and Spock looks outward in his regal manner. But I especially like how the drawing is fully realized—with the entire environment shown. Really nice." from The K/S Press #33 "This is a lovely rendition of Kirk and Spock walking down the corridor of Deck 5, on their way to their joint quarters for a night of passion perhaps? Kirk, hands in pockets, is relaxed, intently saying something to Spock who has turned his head to listen. Done in pen and ink, this technique of...is it cross-hatching?...looks to be extremely difficult and painstakingly intricate to do. It’s amazing how much texture the artist has managed to achieve; the shine of Spock’s hair, the thickness of the uniforms, the crisp folds of Kirk’s shirt. All are done very well. Nice work, Terri. I want more!" from The K/S Press #35 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 49===
 
==Issue 50==
[[File:firsttime50.jpg|thumb| left|front cover #50 -- "The covers to FT 50 are a collage of covers of older issues, highlighted by a new color piece by long time GREAT artist Caren Parnes. Well, maybe it's not new, but I haven't seen it before. I can't read the date on it. It's a color Kirk and Spock that anyone would love to own a print of. It's gen, but who cares? On the front, the former covers celebrated are from First Time 1--[Gayle F]; FT 27--Marilyn Cole; FT 42--Shelley Butler; and FT 45--the late great Chris Soto." from The K/S Press #42 "First Time 50 features a truly lovely collection of eight previous First Time covers (by Butler, Cole, Deeb, DEW, [Gayle F], Parnes, and Soto), reduced from their original size and attractively arranged on both the front and back covers. The front cover also includes a wonderful new color portrait by Caren Parnes. This is a great opportunity to compare and admire the various artists’ styles and to enjoy some of the very best K/S art all in one place. Also, it’s fun to see the familiar portraits juxtaposed with one another and to reinterpret them in their new` context. On the back cover, for example, there is a DEW portrait of a young, smiling Kirk, looking about as he would have when he first took over command of the Enterprise. Right next to it there is a Butler portrait of Spock from a time period perhaps a year or two later. Spock is turned toward the young Kirk, so it’s easy to imagine that he’s looking back in time, remembering what Kirk looked like the very first time he saw him." from The K/S Press #42 "Caren Parnes, another classic Trek zine artist. Color pencil art showing a barechested Kirk sitting with his shirt draped over his shoulders, and Spock (fully-dressed) seated behind him, a hand reaching to touch his captain's back. I like to imagine they're in the locker room and just got dressed after taking a post-workout joint shower :-D The rendition of Kirk is one of the absolute best I've seen; I am especially fascinated by the smoothness of his skin and the velvety texture of his shirt. Spock is not quite as defined, as if he was a bit out-focus , but still beautifully drawn." Master List of K/S Favorites, Mary Monroe]]
First Time 50 was published in December 1999 and contains 227 pages. It has a cover by Caren Parnes. Other art by Shelley Butler, G.E. Mills, GOS, Liz Woledge, Nefertari, Chris Soto and I.M. Mueller. 
The editor notes that it cost between $700 and $800 to produce.
The second edition without the art was published in March 2001.
From the editorial: 
* Welcome Home by S.R. Benjamin Art by Chris Soto. ("Scotty decides to leave the Enterprise after accidentally discovering that Kirk and Spock are lovers." Prequel: Officerʼs Row.) (4)
* Dreams and Reality, poem by Heidi Manzone (9)
* Tomorrow Never Comes by Rosemarie Heaton ("After their run in with the giant “amoeba”, Kirk and Spock become lovers, though Spock is unable to give himself totally at this time.") (10)
* Before and After, poem by Wan Ling (20)
* Interview by Karla Kelly. ("Spockʼs answers to an interview are different from his thoughts.") (21)
* Things That Go Bump by Corey Fauer (Spock and McCoy accompany Kirk to check out the old house Kirk has inherited and get a few surprises while there.") (22)
* Personal Endeavor by Amanda Fox (novella) (a complete novel). Art by Nefertari and [IM Mueller] ("After confessing their feelings for each other as they reunite from the separation caused by Kirkʼs fear and anger, Spockʼs mind is attacked during a Romulan raid.") (30)
* Magic, poem by Tevye (128)
* Star Colt, poem by Robin Hood (129)
* Lonely, poem by Tevye (131)
* You and I, poem by Tevye (132)
* Shore Leave Greetings by Mary Ellen Fisher. Art by GOS. ("Kirk writes a note to Spock while he is on shoreleave, a note he fears he will probably never have the courage to send.") (130)
* Travelog by Karla Kelly ("Two reporters on the tourist beat try to get an interview fron Kirk and Spock who are staying together in one of the luxury suites at a starbase.") (132)
* Q&A, poem by Heidi Manzone (135)
* Secrets by Mary Ellen Fisher. Art by Liz. ("While on shoreleave, Kirk has a holograph commissioned of a nude Spock, to be kept hidden as is his desire for Spock.") (136)
* The Unexpected Gift by Heidi M.. Art by Shelley Butler. ("Spock accompanies Uhura on a shopping expedition but when each has a package delivered to the ship, the accidental switching of them gives Spock what he has most desired.") (148)
* The Return, poem by Anonymous (153)
* Ghosts by C. Joy. ("Kirk and the landing party are captured after beaming down to a planet dressed to fit into the cultural castes there and Kirk is drugged and forced to relive his fears and his “truths”.") (154)
* Into the Light, poem by Tevye (177)
* Too Late, poem by Tevye (177)
* Forget by Kathy Stanis. Art by G.E. Mills. ("On shoreleave together, Spock finally confesses to Kirk about the memories he removed of Rayna.") (178)
* Our Garden, poem by Tevye (193)
* The Bounds of Friendship by Elizabeth Scott. Art by Liz. ("Kirk accompanies Spock as Spock acquires a paid companion for pon farr, but knowing that itʼs him Spock really wants, Kirk finally decides that he is willing to pay the price for the friend he loves.") (194)
* World's Embrace by S.R. Benjamin. Art by GOS. ("Kirk is at a captainʼs conference when Spock, going into pon farr, comes to his bondmate.") (202)
* A Star Guide To Her, poem by Robin Hood (209)
* Atlantis Stars by Deanna Gray. Art by [IM Mueller] ("Kirk and Spock visit an underwater installation where Kirk realizes his desire for Spock after accidentally seeing the commander of the base with his male lover.") (210)
* Deep Water by Jenna Hilary Sinclair. Art by Shelley Butler ("While going through Starfleetʼs new medical process to combat the Klingon mindsifter, Kirk begins to realize that he and Spock have been under mental control for the last weeks.") (240)
* In the Face of Gol, poem by Tevye (275)
* Wrong Enough, poem by Tevye (275)
* Needs, poem by Tevye (275)
* Night Song, poem by J.H. Sinclair (inside back cover)
File:firsttime50-1.jpg| from issue #50, Nefertari for "Personal Endeavor" -- "Extremely dark Spock I am assuming this is a color drawing poorly reproduced. If it were lightened up, it'd be a really nice piece of art. Perhaps it's meant to be at night (I haven't read the story), but even so, it should be lighter. I am totally prejudiced against dark pieces like this. Not even my favorite artist could pull this trick off for me. Plus I am a Kirkie so I don't tend to get turned on by Spock art." from The K/S Press #42 "This is one picture where I would love to see the original, I bet it is gorgeous. The picture is a rendition of Spock holding a phaser, with his gaze directed upwards to who knows what. Very nicely done, with the shading being everything. I stand in awe of how artists can convey so much just by the different pressure and direction they put to their pencils. Really nice! I like it." from The K/S Press #43 "We mostly know Nefertari from her short stories and poems, but here she does beautifully as an artist. It’s Spock in uniform, holding a phaser in ready. He’s on alert and looking up. I really like Spock’s face, first of all, it’s very well done with light and dark. I especially like her use of light and shadow—it’s not easy to do and she employs the light from behind Spock, gleaming off his hand, arm, shoulder and face, very nicely. I also like the shadow his hand makes on his uniform. This woman is multi-talented!" from The K/S Press #47
File:firsttime50-2.jpg| from issue #50, I.M. Mueller for "Personal Endeavor" -- "Very nice K/S piece of Kirk and Spock together in bed, faces and tops of chests. I wouldn't mind owning this." from The K/S Press #42 "Opposite page 126 there is a lovely portrait of Kirk and Spock embracing in bed. The likenesses are good and the details are great: I love the way that stray lock of hair has slipped down over Kirk’s forehead, just as we all know it must when he’s making love to our favorite Vulcan. The expression on Kirk’s face is soft and loving and he looks as if he’s just about to lean down and kiss Spock. Spock’s head is resting against Kirk’s chest and shoulder. The Vulcan’s mouth is turned down just a bit at the corner (he’s in profile so we don’t see his entire mouth), his shoulder is lifted off the bed just a little, and his hand is resting on Kirk’s chest, staying just clear of the nipple. This really feels like a first-time encounter: Kirk looks a little awestruck, as if he can’t quite believe what’s happening, and Spock seems a little tense and maybe a bit uncertain about letting his fingers stray to that nipple. But we all know that when Kirk leans down for that kiss, Spock is going to forget all about those Vulcan inhibitions." from The K/S Press #44 "Another favorite is the drawing of Spock and Kirk embracing drawn for the story "Personal Endeavor" by Amanda Fox opposite page 126. The drawing is so elegant that it has an almost photographic quality to it and it is tender and sensual without being explicit. I could look at it forever. Why, oh why can't one put such images up and display in one's home? No, unfortunately, I'm not that brave, (rueful sigh)." from The K/S Press #50 "It’s at the very end of “Personal Endeavor” and it’s a beauty. This piece is absolutely gorgeous. Ms. Mueller is such a good artist and this knocks my proverbial socks off. It’s a close up of Kirk and Spock in bed and Kirk is leaning over Spock and gently kissing his forehead and softly stroking his hair. Wow. The Spock face is beautifully done and the Kirk face is melting. The light and shade are so strong which this artist excels at. The hands, also, are wonderful." from The K/S Press #47 
File:firsttime50-5.jpg| from issue #50, Liz for "The Bounds of Friendship" -- "And yet, my favorite art in this zine is probably one by Liz, even though artistically it might not be as perfect as [IM Mueller]'s two drawings that I've mentioned. I think I love it so much because of one obvious thing—we get to see a pair of very beautiful, tight buns of one Mr. Spock, but to be perfectly honest, it isn't the only reason I love this drawing so much. I love it so much because it has a rather melancholy air to it. And it goes so well with the story it's attached to. The image I'm talking about is opposite page 196 and Spock is standing with his back to the reader, his hands in his pockets, and it's simply gorgeous. Simple, absolutely non-explicit, but it's got such emotion in it. Although Spock's head seems a little small for his body to me, it is a wonderful piece of art. Another very attractive thing about this drawing is that Spock isn't wearing his uniform, but is dressed in a white, shirt and a form-fitting pair of trousers that might be jeans. Mmm…." from The K/S Press #50 "Oh, seductive, mysterious Spock! What an alluring picture, not to mention Vulcan. Here a youngish-looking Spock is standing, leaning his left shoulder against a doorway. He’s wearing a long-sleeved, white flowing shirt (we see him mostly from the back), and crisp trousers. Love the detail of the seam on the back of the pants, it is just enough to draw our attention unerring to that lovely Vulcan ass. His hands are casually thrust in his pants pockets. But best of all, Spock has a small, knowing smile on his face as he looks down and to the right, as if he alone knows some wonderful secret joke. Or perhaps he is contemplating joy to come? Does he know that we, and perhaps a starship captain, are looking at him? Another unusual picture that makes this zine special." from The K/S Press #43 
File:firsttime50-4.jpg| from issue #50, Shelley Butler for "The Unexpected Gift" -- "A gen Kirk and Spock with a great Kirk and a Spock that misses the mark. This is also a little dark, making me wonder if it's a color pencil poorly reproduced. Kirk's face is very nicely highlighted and done. It just screams Shatner at you." from The K/S Press #42 
File:firsttime50-3.jpg| from issue #50, Liz for "Secrets"
File:firsttime50-6.jpg| from issue #50, sample title page, "Atlantis Stars"
File:firsttime50-7.jpg| from issue #50, I.M. Mueller for "Atlantis Stars" -- "A clothed but very sexy Kirk and Spock. WONDERFUL Kirk. I wouldn't mind a print of this. Makes me want to read the story by Deanna Gray that it illos. (Pardon me, I'm panting and it's hard to type.)" from The K/S Press #42 "I don’t really understand this picture, although technically it is impressive. Are Kirk and Spock standing in water? I think so. Kirk is unclothed, Spock has on his blue uniform and black pants, but he looks really muscular, almost forbidding. Kirk has a vacant sort of look on his face, as if he were mesmerized. So what is going I don’t know. Good to look at, but I can’t quite figure out what emotion the picture is trying to evoke." from The K/S Press #44 "My favorite of [IM Mueller]'s contributions to the zine was the drawing for "Atlantis Stars" by Deanna Gray opposite page 227—it is absolutely beautiful. I love the strength of Spock's hand, holding Kirk back on that picture. [IM Mueller] also has a special way of drawing Kirk that makes him look rather young and vulnerable, that's kind of appealing to me. This piece is gorgeous and goes so well with a very, very powerful moment in the story it is drawn for." from The K/S Press #50 
File:firsttime50-8.jpg| from issue #50, I.M. Mueller for "Atlantis Stars" --"This is a full length nude Spock and Kirk in bed that does nothing for me. I only mention this because the former two pieces of hers I really really liked. The faces are good. It's just that the piece seems rather static to me. The bodies just take up space and add nothing to the piece IMHSO (in my highly subjective opinion)." from The K/S Press #42 "What a lovely picture! Kirk and Spock are in bed together (where they belong!) with Spock resting against the pillow. Kirk’s over/next to him, one hand entangled in the dark hair. Their faces are very close, and there’s a wonderful look of almost anguished worship/love on Kirk’s face. Lots of emotion in this picture, and my guess it is reproduced well." from The K/S Press #43 
File:firsttime50-9.jpg| from issue #50, Shelley Butler for "Deep Water" -- Ah, another one of Shelley’s flower pictures! Very nice! This picture just happens to accompany a story that I wrote, and I think it illustrates a particular scene very well. Kirk, with a hint of a STI type uniform on, is thinking of Spock, who is naked. (Of course, you could also argue that it is the other way around, that Spock is thinking of Kirk, but for my purposes....) I love the way the picture is “unfinished” around the edges, the way the lines are drawn up from Kirk’s head and Spock’s hairline draws the viewer’s gaze upward, and imparts a sort of dynamic motion to a picture that otherwise might be more static. Very nice! from The K/S Press #43 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 50===
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