As I Do Thee/Issues 1-10

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==Issue 1==
As I Do Thee 1 was published in 1984 and contains 178 pages. Front cover by Gayle F. 
From the table of contents: "Due to reduction, this zine is 178 pages not 300 as originally stated."
* Thoughts by Patt (inside front cover)
* After So Long, vignette by Alayne Gelfand (4)
* And Our Tomorrows by Cynthia Drake (art by Barbara P. Gordon) ("After Sarpedion, Kirk confronts Spock over his desire to stay in the past, only returning to save McCoy.) (5)
* Seaside Rendezvous—An Interlude by Sharon F (Kirk and McCoy sneak Spock out of the hospital when McCoy tells Kirk that the shoreleave they had all planned would help Spock more than staying in the hospital away from his lover. An exploration of McCoy's reactions to the sexual relationship of his two best friends.") (18)
* Infinite Barriers, poem by Renda Vick, art by Ann M. Crouch (30)
* Love Instructor by A.T. Bush ("Young Jim Kirk is sent to a academy for sexual instructions.") (31)
* Locus, poem by Alayne Gelfand (42)
* This One's for You by Tere Ann Roderick, art by Virginia Lee Smith ("Shows a whole Spock who fully accepts both sides of his heritage - human and Vulcan." Another summary: "Admiral Kirk gets a summons to Vulcan from its Ambassador, only to be confronted by Spock who left him four years earlier.") (44)
* Royal Flush by Ann M. Crouch, art by Virginia Lee Smith (64)
* Corundrum, poem by Gene S. Delapenia, art by Stefanie Hawks (66)
* Secrets by Jo Scott-Ross ("A seventeen-year old Spock is picked up by a space trader and taken under his wing." Sequel: When I Was Seventeen.) (67)
* Haven, poem by J. March Fox (74)
* Control by Wendy Rathbone, art by Ann M. Crouch (Non-K/S story) (75)
* Just the Right Thing, poem by Alayne Gelfand, art by by Caro Hedge (86)
* Coming to Terms by Devery Helm ("Another story of McCoy's awkwardness in accepting the Kirk/Spock relationship and in finding his place in the relationship. Kirk and Spock have invited McCoy on a leave to try to resolve the conflict, hoping their time together will help McCoy get over his feelings of being left out since learning of Kirk and Spock's bonding.") (87)
* The Edge of Certainty (online here on AO3) by Alayne Gelfand, art by Merle Decker ("This is an a/u post episode story. It takes place in a universe where Spock did not regain his sight after OPERATION ANNIHILATE. Spock has not recovered his sight after Deneva. We share McCoy's guilt and his efforts to use new methods to restore the Vulcan's sight.") This story may have been the story that was the subject of the The Great Australian Radio Show Fiasco. The story was excerpted and read on the radio was either the "Edge of Certainty" in "As I Do Thee #1" OR "From the Fields" in "As I Do Thee #2. (92)
* At Meditation, poem by Gene S. Delapenia, art by Caro Hedge (118)
* A Small Piece of The Action by S. Meek ("After Ionia, Spock questions his lover's unorthodox agreement with the natives after noticing the film Kirk had been watching before they visited the planet.") (119)
* Favors by Lenore D. Williams, art by Bonnie Reitz ("After Genesis, Kirk is unable to accept Spock's death and McCoy sheds light on why that might be.") (124)
* I-Witness by J. March Fox (art by Eric) ("Kirk is afraid he has lost Spock's friendship and any chance for more after Omicron Ceti Three.) (128)
* Possession, poem by Patt, art by Caro Hedge) (134)
* From the Dark into the Light by Vivian Gates (art by Paula Mathai), winner of a 1985 K/Star Award (135)
* I'll See You in My Dreams by Tere Ann Roderick, art by Maureen B. (A/U: "After leaving the Genesis planet, Kirk is informed by Sarek that Spock is still alive, and while taking the Ambassador there discovers he is linked to Spock." Sequel: Now It Begins. The editor writes in As I Do Thee #2: "I'd like to apologize for the fact that the sequel to Tere Ann Roderick's "I'll See You In My Dreams" does not appear in AIDT #2. To the best of my knowledge, it will appear in T'HY'LA 5. There's no reason for this other than the author chose to submit it to T'HY'LA. I'm sorry for the inconvenience to those of you who were looking forward to reading the sequel here.") (156)
* An Instigation to Relate by Patt, art by Caro Hedge (167)
* Pas Fini, poem by Leslie Fish, art by Barbara Gordon (178)
===Patt's Poem===
Patt's poem appears on the inside cover and somewhat drolly invites the reader to join her in her admiration of the zine they both have just purchased.
Thoughts by Patt
: Yesterday I got my new fanzine.
: The cover was indecently keen.
: In black and white, portrayed by Gayle F Sadly, this redacted name here kinda ruins the rhyme ...
: Outlined was my heart's desire.
: The content page was a delightful dish
: With a lovely poem by Leslie Fish.
: The other poems were not much cleana,
: Some of them by Gene Delapenia.
: Barbara Gordon had some illos
: Of Kirk and Spock without their clothes.
: Wendy Rathbone was new to me
: But she writes decadently.
: Decker sketches, though not explicit,
: You caught her meaning, couldn't miss it.
: Ann C.'s drawings were nice and neat,
: Her Kirk with Spock was quite a treat.
: Then a tale that kept me awake
: Written and typed by Cynthia Drake.
: Of all the things I've ever seen,
: The most beautiful was that new fanzine.
Image:asidothe31caro.jpg|poem by Patt, art by Caro Hedge
File:asidothee1art1.jpg| from issue #1, Paula Mathai
File:Asidothee1art2.jpg| from issue #1, Virginia Lee Smith
File:As_I_Do_Thee_1_interior_art.JPG| from issue #1, Merle Decker
File:asidothee1art3.jpg| from issue #1, Virginia Lee Smith
File:asidothee1art4.jpg| from issue #1, Stefanie Hawks
File:asidothee1art5.jpg| from issue #1, ERIC
File:asidothee1art12.jpg| from issue #1, Barbara P. Gordon (page 7)
File:asidothee1art6.jpg| from issue #1, Barbara P. Gordon (page 14)
File:asidothee1art7.jpg| from issue #1, Paula Mathai
File:asidothee1art10.jpg| from issue #1, Maureen B.
File:asidothee1art9.jpg| from issue #1, Merle Decker
File:asidothee1art8.jpg| from issue #1, Maureen B.
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 1===
==Issue 2==
 
 
As I Do Thee 2 was published in 1984 and contains 160 pages. Front cover by Merle Decker. Back cover by Pendragon. Other art is by Gayle F, Virginia Lee Smith, Caren Parnes, Paula Mathai, Pendragon, Merle Decker, Alayne, Maureen B, and Caro Hedge.
From the editorial: about content: 
From the editorial: about feedback: 
* Portrait of a Tired Head by Wendy Rathbone (inside front cover)
* Second Chance by Toni Cardinal-Price ("McCoy reflects on the price Kirk has paid to retrieve his bondmate's body and return Spock to Vulcan for the fal tor pan. We join McCoy and Kirk in the sickbay of the Bird of Prey as they watch over Spock. It is easy to feel the depth of their friendship and their love for Spock.") (4)
* Back There! by Robin Hood (7)
* Tempted by Wendy Rathbone, art by Virginia Lee Smith (9)
* The Land of Tears by Debbie Parsons ("Spock finally rescues Kirk after his bondmate has been held in prison for three months on a planet at war, and finds that he had been beaten and sexually abused. "You must realize, Commander Spock, that no one but the eight of us who were there can truly comprehend what it was like... or what we are feeling now. Everyday we lived only for the hope of tomorrow. Such shame. Such humiliation. How quickly civilized men can revert to barbarians. How easily we lose our pride." "He lost his pride?" "Oh, he held on to it longer than the rest of us. He tried to hang on to ours, too, but some things even Jim Kirk could not do.") (10)
* The Changeling 2 -- Kirk by Cynthia Drake (25)
* On the Way to Gol by Alayne Gelfand, art by Caren Parnes (27)
* Anniversary Waltz by Tere Ann Roderick (28) ("All of Kirk and Spock's friends and relatives are there for their 25th anniversary.") (28)
* I Like... by Patt, art by Pendragon (36)
* Reunion/The Nobelest Part by Cheryl Resnick (37)
* The Stars Far Away by Faris Vincent ("Non-K/S story, it is the end of the five year mission. McCoy, about to leave for Georgia, has come to Kirk to try to heal the rift that developed when Kirk accepted the ground assignment. Kirk needs to know that McCoy will not desert him as he feels Spock has done.") (38)
* Persistence by Patt, art by Virginia Lee Smith (47)
* Upon a Star by Alayne Gelfand (48)
* The Rumor by Natasha Solten - Art: by Paula Mathai ("When they are summoned to Nogura's office, Kirk and Spock are shocked to hear that Starfleet, and most everyone else, thinks they are lovers. "Nogura cocked his head to one side. "You two are rather unusual men. The specific question here is the consequences of splitting you two up. Though none of this is from official sources, the rumors have been flying around Starfleet since before the end of your five-year mission. It is known, or I should say, assumed unofficially, that the two of you have a relationship - as lovers - and more." Blood rushed to Kirk's face. Spock's eyes darted to meet his. They stared shocked horror at each other.") (49)
* Shining by Robin Hood (60)
* Greater Than the Sum of the Parts by Alled Navesih (61)
* From the Fields by Dovya Blacque - Art: by Merle Decker ("Spock declares his love for his captain while under the spore's influence and then leaves the Enterprise, even though Kirk has admitted to feeling the same way. "James Kirk ran a weary hand through his damp hair. He didn't care that the entire hellish chain of events were about to replay in his mind... that it wouldn't change a single thing, that he'd still be trapped here on Earth and Spock would still be in self-induced isolation on Vulcan... nothing else was real...") (rewritten and reprinted in Thunder & Lightning) (64)
* Silence by Alayne Gelfand, art by Alayne (92)
* Enjoyment by Patt, art by Pendragon (93)
* Wild Fantasy by Wendy Rathbone, art by Caren Parnes (95)
* Control of Destiny by Toni Cardinal-Price ("McCoy tries to explain to Spock how both he and Kirk deal with their feelings for each other when, after a fight, Spock believes that Kirk wishes to leave him. Spock's anger and fear over Kirk's reckless behavior disturbs him to the point where he is considering leaving the ship. It is McCoy's council that helps the Vulcan understand his feelings.") (also in Twin Destiny #2) (96)
* Noticing the Wind by Wendy Rathbone (100)
* Reborn by B.L. Barr, art by Alayne (101)
* Sea-Lure by Natasha Solten, art by Gayle F (103)
* The Reward by Debi - Art: by Maureen B. (A Sequel to THE PRIZE by Ray Newton) A/U: "Injured while rescuing a caravan, Kirk is saved by McCoy, the slave given to Spock by the grateful caravan owner. Prequel: The Prize. "The human was hit in the chest and fell from his mount. One of the warriors dismounted hurriedly to get to his fallen companion. "He'll bleed to death in a few minutes." The doctor dropped to the ground beside them. "I think I can prevent that if you let me." The wounded man groaned. "Spock?" "I am here, Jim. This man says he is a healer and can help you, and by all the gods, he'd better.")
* Tears of Freedom by Robin Hood ("Under the control of the Dolman's tears, Kirk finds an antidote when he and Spock declare their love for one another.")
* When I Was Seventeen by Jo Scott-Ross ("Spock ends up in jail for an offense from his youth." Prequel: Secrets. Sequel: Starlight on Shadows.) (124)
* Shore Leave Lover by Wendy Rathbone (121)
File:Asidothee2insideart3.jpg| from issue #2, Merle Decker, included in The K/S Art Project
File:asidothee2art1.jpg| from issue #2, an example of the integration of illo (Alayne) and poetry (B.L. Barr)
File:asidothee2art2.jpg| from issue #2, Paula Mathai
File:asidothee2art3.jpg| from issue #2, Maureen B.
File:AS I DO THEE NO. 2 interior.jpg| from issue #2, Caren Parnes
File:asidothee2art6.jpg| from issue #2, Gayle F, Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
File:asidothee2art7.jpg| from issue #2, Virginia Lee Smith, Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 2===
==Issue 3==
As I Do Thee 3 was published in 1985 and contains 188 pages. Art: by Pendragon, Vel Jaeger, Merle Decker, Marilyn Cole, Maureen B, Caro Hedge.
The editor leaves her name off this issue and references The Great Australian Radio Show Fiasco: "Due to unwanted publicity "Down Under" (and elsewhere), this name is being withheld to protect the...uh...innocent?"
The editorial addresses the zine's content policy: 
* The Prodigal Vulcan by Liz Clark, art by Marilyn Cole (5)
* Seasons, poem by Alexis Fegan Black (24)
* Before the Dawn, by Natasha Solten (25)
* Before the Dawn by Natasha Solten (25)
* In Paradise/In Paradise by Vivian Gates ("Ensign Kirk is stranded while on a survival course and is found by Spock, a cadet also stranded 5 years earlier. "Spock, too, had been top of his class at Starfleet Academy. He, too, had been sent on the survival mission... he, too, had had a malfunctioning capsule... no one had arrived to pick him up at the end of two weeks. Two weeks was the specified length of a survival course. Spock had been alone for five years...") (27)
* Teamwork, poem by Natasha Solten (42)
* Home from the Sea, poem by Faris Vincent (43)
* Dreams, poem by Rachel Abbot (44)
* Many a Tear Has to Fall by Robin Hood ("After Spock cries for V'Ger, Kirk decides he wants an answer as to why Spock left to begin with.") (45)
* Antinous, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (52)
* What We Have Written by Tere Ann Roderick, art by Marilyn Cole ("When Spock returns from a mission after V'Ger, Kirk writes him a letter, trying to regain his friendship without revealing his deeper feelings.") (53)
* Home, poem by Patt (60)
* Untitled, poem by Rachel Abbot (61)
* Sheet Music, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (62)
* A Kirk by Any Other Name by Carol A. Pierce, art by Marilyn Cole ("Kirk and a crewman are beamed up and a female copy is created of both, causing problems when Spock is attracted to the female Kirk. "Kirk stepped off the transporter platform... he shuddered when his eyes locked onto the expressions of the two men... there was nothing wrong with him... he turned around. Adams was standing speechless. Beside him stood a female... a female James T. Kirk!") (63)
* Aftermath, poem by Dovya Blacque (93)
* Hard Silence, poem by Natasha Solten (94)
* All Forms of Love by Natasha Solten ("While sunbathing on a beach during shore leave, Kirk confesses his love to Spock. "You're looking at me that way again, Spock," Kirk accused. Spock dropped his gaze and heard Kirk take a deep breath. "It's all right. I think you look good, too... it's normal to look, Spock. Even compare with yourself." "I was not comparing you with anyone." "I was just 'logically and scientifically curious' as to what you were thinking," Kirk said. Quietly, Spock replied, "I do not know.") (95)
* Blind, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (104)
* Echoes by Dovya Blacque, art by Merle Decker ("After the Fal Tor Pan, Kirk fears for both his friends and for his future with Spock. "The days had been long, more like weeks, since the Fal Tor Pan... the nights had been longer. Kirk felt useless, which drove his mind into self-doubts and rounds of guilt. Sarek seemed to share his misgivings; neither could find much confidence in the reassurances of the healers...") (Kirk, McCoy and Spock are on Vulcan following the Fal Tor Pan. They are trying to recover from the experience and re-establish some type of relationship. McCoy is experiencing the lingering effects of Spock's presence in his mind and it appears that Spock and McCoy are going to be inseparable for some time to come and Spock begins to realize that he and McCoy are very much alike.") (rewritten and reprinted in Thunder & Lightning) (105)
* Against the Stars, poem by Faris Vincent (125)
* Night-Fall, poem by Dovya Blacque (126)
* Late, poem by Patt (128)
* A Caring Hand by Jenny Starr ("McCoy and Spock accompany Kirk to Iowa where he runs into Ruth, who, unaware that Kirk is bonded to Spock, tries to make a play for him.") (128)
* Tender Harvest, poem by Jenny Starr (154)
* Gambit, poem by Dovya Blacque (155)
* Haunts, poem by Robin Hood (157)
* Fire, poem by Kathy Resch (158)
* Draw an Angel Down, poem by Robin Heart (161)
* Of Private Dreams by Joann Marek ("Spock and Kirk have admitted their love for each other to themselves, but not to each other. Separately they seek out McCoy far his guidance.") (162)
* Study in Dust, poem by Natasha Solten (167)
* In the Nick of Time by Faille (A/U: "Kirk and his crew return to Earth after Spock's Fal Tor Pan to face charges from Star Fleet.") (169)
* Not Passion's Slave, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (186)
* No Time, poem by Patt (187)
* Stormbound, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside back cover)
File:Asidothee3art2.jpg| from issue #3, by Marilyn Cole for the story, What We Have Written 
File:asidothee3art4.jpg| from issue #3, by Vel Jaeger
File:Asidothee3artbyvel.jpg| from issue #3, by Vel Jaeger
File:Asidothee3art6.jpg| from issue #3, by Merle Decker
File:asidothee3art5.jpg| from issue #3, by Maureen B
File:asidothee3art7.jpg| from issue #3, an example of how the poetry and art were an integrated fanwork—poem by Dovya Blacque, art by Caro Hedge
File:Asidothee3art8.jpg| from issue #3, by Marilyn Cole for the story, A Kirk by Any Other Name
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 3===
==Issue 4==
As I Do Thee 4 was published in 1986 and contains 222 pages. It has art by Maureen B., Marilyn Cole, Chiya, Merle Decker, Caro Hedge, Vel Jaeger, Pendragon and Gayle F.
From the editorial: 
* Duel, poem by Kathy Resch (4)
* Outside of Time by Robin Hood ("Amanda talks Kirk into going to Spock and confessing has love for him after the fal tor pan.") (5)
* A Worthy Choice by Joann Marek ("Sarek thinks about Spock's choice of Admiral Kirk as his bondmate and of earlier meetings he had with Kirk.") (23)
* Apologia, poem by Shellie Whild (37)
* Silent Pose, art by Natasha Solten (38)
* Rebirth, poem by Theresa Hernandez (40)
* Binary, poem by Jenny Starr (40)
* Inward Looking Out, poem by Robin Hood (40)
* Frozen Stiff by Marie Surah ("A mission on the glacier of a cold planet becomes dangerous as Kirk, Spock and McCoy are trapped in a crevasse. It is a time of danger, shared memories and affection as they uait for rescue.") (41)
* Where the Ice Breaks by Faris Vincent ("Kirk has just learned of McCoy's approaching death. He seeks out Spock while trying to imagine life without McCoy or what life would be if it were Spock who were dying.") (57)
* Rain, poem by Faris Vincent (58)
* Ally by Ray Newton (M/U: "Kirk and Spock journey to Vulcan to be bonded but Sarek, pretending to approve, has Kirk abducted and imprisoned in order to facilitate his death. "In the harsh world of the Empire, trust and loyalty are early casualties. Love dies new-born, for it demands faith in another; and who, being unable to give such, will expect to receive? Sometimes, there are those who sense the hunger for the prize... of those who hunger, perhaps one will hazard all... or two.") (59)
* Speechless in Shadows, poem by Natasha Solten (83)
* Lullabye #1 and #2, poem by Dovya Blacque (84)
* Grey Bay, poem by Robin Hood (85)
* Beds, poem by Jenny Starr (86)
* Runner, poem by Kathy Resch (88)
* When Tradition Fades by Faris Vincent ("While visiting Vulcan for Spock's clan meeting, Kirk meets a cousin of Spockʼs who helps him realize what his and Spock's true relationship is. Prequel: Yes. "Jim, I've been looking for you." "I've been outside with your cousin." An eyebrow rose. "Really? Which one?" "Jasch." "And did you find him interesting?" "Very. He told me to talk to you, tell you what we spoke of. He wants to meet me again, speak to me about something." "That is Jasch; charming, fair, honest, humorous, and nearly always in trouble.") (89)
* T'hy'la Eclipsed, poem by Cyrni Asher (109)
* Letter #?/Waiting, poem by Andrea Arat (110)
* Starlight on Shadows by Jo Scott-Ross ("Spock is contacted by a friend from his past who wishes to meet with him and Kirk. Prequel: When I Was Seventeen. "Kirk haphazardly pushed the empty glasses aside and seated himself at the table. Spock remained standing. "Jim, this table is a mess." "That's typical. Sit down." "Haven't changed one damn bit." The new voice caused Spock to turn abruptly. Kirk looked up, eyes narrowed. "Thomas...," Spock said quietly.") (111)
* Endymion by Tere Ann Roderick ("Spock contemplates Jim's beauty as he watches his lover sleep.") (141)
* Phantom, poem by Robin Hood (142)
* A Creature in the Night, poem by Faris Vincent (143)
* Darkness Before the Dawn, poem by Theresa Hernandez (144)
* Late-Night Grumbles, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (146)
* "Little Sorrows" (Parts 1 & 2) by Dovya Blacque ("After a close friend dies, Kirk starts having sleeping problems and Spock discovers that there was a mental link between the two men. To keep Kirk alive, Spock replaces the broken link in Kirk's mind with one from his own. "He's asleep!" McCoy pressured the hypo into Kirk's carotid artery. "What is it?" Kirk rubbed sleep from his eyes. Spock's too-quiet voice answer his question. "It is now 11:37, Captain." "What?" "You... uh... overslept, Jim," McCoy offered. "Overslept? I don't oversleep.") (rewritten and reprinted in Thunder & Lightning) (147)
* Endings and Beginnings by Carol A. Pierce (190)
* Chess, poem by Patt (190)
* Prince of Dreams/Fantasy, poem by Natasha Solten (192)
* The Light of a New Way, poem by Dovya Blacque (193)
* For J.T.K., poem by Cyrni Asher (194)
* Watcher, poem by Dovya Blacquw (195)
* Under the Twin Moons by Angel C. Soie ("While visiting a new colony, Kirk is thrown from a moving vehicle, and combining his longing for Spock with the American Indian colonists, Kirk dreams of himself and Spock as Indian warrior lovers.") (196)
* Shower Fantasies, poem by Natasha Solten
* Provocation, poem by Patt
* Now, poem by Patt
* Contrasts, poem by Gene S. Delapenia
* Exchanged, poem by Robin Hood
* A Private Little War, poem by Andrea Arat (inside back cover)
File:asidothee4inside1.jpg| from issue #4, Maureen B. for When Tradition Fades
File:asidothee4inside2.jpg| from issue #4, Maureen B. for When Tradition Fades
File:asido4-5.jpg| from issue #4, Maureen B. for When Tradition Fades
File:asido4-3.jpg| from issue #4, Marilyn Cole for "Silent Pose" - "I can't get enough of this gorgeous, half-naked, wistful-eyed Kirk. He's there to illustrate a poem of Natasha Solten's, "Silent Pose." He is posed to dress/yet frozen/caught in some memory/lost to years, and the silence/of his thoughts/..." And Marilyn Cole has caught that look exactly: Kirk is seated, a sheet casual thrown over his naked lower body, shoulders slightly lumped, his whole posture and features expressing loneliness and longing, Yet, at the same time, the lovingly detailed muscular chest and arms give him a look of strong-willed strength and, need I say it, sexiness. Especially since the sheet doesn't so much conceal as draw attention to a certain part of his lover body... (After all, concealment is what sexiness is all about, no?)" from Come Together #26 
File:asido4-4.jpg| from issue #4, example of two poems
File:asido4-6.jpg| from issue #4, Jacqueline Zoost for "Starlight on Shadows"
File:asido4-7.jpg| from issue #4, sample text, title page for Little Sorrows
File:asido4-8.jpg| from issue #4, Merle Decker for Little Sorrows
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 4===
 
==Issue 5==
 
As I Do Thee 5 was published in 1986 and contains 215 pages. 
Artwork by Marilyn Cole, Caro Hedge, Chris Soto, Jacquelyn Zoost, Maureen B., Alayne, Shellie Whild, Ann Mara Crouch, and Gayle F.
From the editorial: 
* Editorial, art by Caro Hedge (3)
* Fear of Falling by Natasha Solten, art by Caro Hedge (4)
* Twix't Night and 'Morrow by Robin Hood, art by Chris Soto ("A long talk and a soak in a hot spring together after the events in STAR TREK III reveal more to Kirk and Spock about themselves and each other than either could ever have suspected.") (5)
* Cities by Natasha Solten (17)
* Stalemate by Faris Vincent, art by Caro Hedge (18)
* Time Passage by Charla Menke ("Kirk, presumed dead in a battle with an alien vessel, suddenly finds himself 13 years in the future where he encounters a much changed Spock and a fiery red-head who is a catalyst in putting Time and History to rights once more.") (19)
* Coming to His Senses by Marie Surah ("A bump on the head switches realities on Spock. Is it only his imagination telling him that he and Kirk are lovers? Or is it true?") (39)
* Jade by Pam Smith, art by Shellie Whild (59)
* A Motionless Army by Natasha Solten, art by Jacquelyn Zoost (61)
* Cruising by Tere Ann Roderick, art by Caro Hedge (62)
* The Air is the Air the last-ever written story by Vivian Gates(re-printed by permission, also printed in Alien Brothers without permission. The story also appeared as a separate "hand out" with an issue of "Act Five" when it was first published.) (63)
* Firewatch by Natasha Solten, art by Caro Hedge
* Compensation by Dovya Blacque, art by Maureen B. ("The sequel that Vivian Gates invited someone to write at the end of her story "The Air Is The Air." Having convinced himself that he has come to terms with the newly discovered facts about Spock, Kirk sets out to enjoy his shore leave... only to run into Spock and his companion. The unexpected results lead Kirk to rethink his decision regarding his first officer.") (77)
* A Few Too Many by A.L. Hughes, art by Alayne ("Spurred on by McCoy's drunken inquiries into the private lives of Vulcans, the captain and first officer of the ENTERPRISE spend a long evening together, probing and discovering many new aspects about each other... and themselves.") (117)
* Awakening by Natasha Solten (126)
* Burning Blue by Dovya Blacque, art by Caro Hedge (127)
* Shadow Land by Pam Smith, art by Shellie Whild (129)
* Here and Gone by Faris Vincent, art by Caro Hedge (130)
* The Thought That Counts by Jenny Starr ("Spock is unsure of what to get Kirk, his lover of two weeks, for his birthday until he overhears Kirk tell McCoy that he wished Spock would take the dominate role in their lovemaking.") (131)
* War-Fire by Tere Ann Roderick (151)
* Sky Hunter by Lisa Joas, art by Shellie Whild (153)
* The Tails of Comets by Dovya Blacque, art by Jacquelyn Zoost (155)
* Cold by Faris Vincent/Warmth by Faris Vincent, art by Caro Hedge (156)
* Setting the Magic Free by Roberta, art by Alayne ("After V'ger, after reconciliation, after settling back into the routine on the ENTERPRISE, the question of why Spock left the ship—and his captain—still remains. Spock's answer, Kirk's discoveries and revelations, and McCoy's interventions prove to one and all that the more things change, the more they remain the same.") (157)
* A Sudden Freedom by Roberta (214)
* Reflections of a Prophet by Tere Ann Roderick, art by Caro Hedge (215)
* Contest (art by Gayle F) (218)
File:asidothee5-6.jpg| from issue #5, Gayle F, "contest winner" Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
File:asidothee5inside.jpg| from issue #5, Maureen B. for Compensation
File:asidothee5insideart2.jpg| from issue #5, Shellie Whild for "Sky Hunter"
File:asidothee5-1.jpg| from issue #5, Chris Soto for Twix't Night and 'Morrow
File:asidothee5-2.jpg| from issue #5, Jacqueline Zoost for "A Motionless Army"
File:asidothee5-3.jpg| from issue #5, title page for The Air is the Air
File:asidothee5-4.jpg| from issue #5, Shellie Whild for "Shadow Land"
File:asidothee5-5.jpg| from issue #5, Alayne for A Few Too Many
File:asidothee5-7.jpg| from issue #5, poem, sample
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 5===
==Issue 6==
As I Do Thee 6 was published in 1987 and contains 172 pages. It includes contest winners. It has art by Ann M. Crouch, Shellie Whild, Caro Hedge, Gayle F, Chiya, and Jacquelyn Zoost.
* Notes on Burning by Natasha Solten ("While Spock fights the early stages of Pon Farr, a small pocket recorder quietly takes in all his thoughts, his frustrations, his fears, his dreams.") (15)
* The Source by Natasha Solten (15)
* Take the Haunt, Eidolon by DeAnn Winter (16)
* Walk the Battlements, Revenaut by DeAnn Winter (17)
* The Phoenix by Sue Cameron (18)
* Nolo Contendere by Addison Reed ("As Kirk and Spock take their leave of Sarek in the UFP Council chamber, Leonard McCoy has a chat with Gillian Taylor about the facts of living in the 23rd century.") (19)
* Evocation by Shellie Whild (21)
* Night Thoughts by D.A. Martin (22)
* The Bridesmaid by Roberta ("Overhearing a conversation she wasn't meant to, Christine Chapel learns a secret she wonders if she can live with.") (23)
* First Move by Bonita Kale (32)
* Contest Winners, art by Gayle F (writers were asked to interpret an illo by Gayle F) (33)
* Rites by Jenny Starr (first place contest winner) ("After he and Spock become lovers, Kirk accompanies him to Vulcan to celebrate the kaswan of Spock's young cousin who wishes to be a starship captain and does not what the bond his parents have set up.") (34)
* Denial by Bonita Kale (77)
* March Hare by Tere Ann Roderick (78)
* Aftermath of the Intruder by Marie Surah (second place contest winner) ("An epidemic is raging as the Enterprise reaches the Benecia colony with Janice Lester adding problems for Kirk who is suffering after effects from the transference and entering a new relationship with Spock?") (79)
* Spock's Promise by Tere Ann Roderick (124)
* Dreams of Sand by Sandee Maxwell (125)
* Feathered Things by Faris Vincent (127)
* Lovesick by Tere Ann Roderick (128)
* So Close and Yet So Far by A. L. Hughes (third place contest winner) ("Stranded, holed up in a cave, Kirk suffering from fever due to injury, Spock finds his mind, his desires wandering in directions he had never before considered.") (129)
* Expressions by D.A. Martin (144)
* Flying High by Karn Wills (honorable mention contest winner) ("Kirk and Spock join the "Mile High Club"!") (145)
* The Art Within by Ann Mara Crouch (honorable mention contest winner) ("Spock holds his secrets close and hidden.") (159)
* In Lonely Hours by Sandee Maxwell (160)
* A Beach to Walk On by Mara-Lyn Cade (honorable mention contest winner) ("Drink may not be the answer to Kirk's problems, but it's certainly a conduit for his escalating emotions for his first officer.") (161)
* Short and Sweet by Roberta (honorable mention contest winner) ("McCoy keeps having dreams of Kirk and Spock making love and finally realizes that they are using a meld while they make love and that he is picking it up while he sleeps.") (169)
File:asidothee6-3.jpg| from issue #6, the art by Gayle F that was to be interpreted for the contest, Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
 
File:asidothee6-1.jpg| from issue #6, poem by DeAnn Winter, art by Ann Mara Crouch
File:asidothee6-2.jpg| from issue #6, Shellie Whild for The Bridesmaid
File:asidothee6-4.jpg| from issue #6, Shellie Whild for Rites
File:asidothee6-5.jpg| from issue #6, Gayle F for "Feathered Things" (This the black and white version of Royal Spock)
File:asidothee6-6.jpg| from issue #6, Jacquelyn Zoost for So Close and Yet So Far
File:asidothee6-7.jpg| from issue #6, title page for Rites
File:asidothee6-8.jpg| from issue #6, Jacquelyn Zoost for A Beach to Walk On
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 6===
 
==Issue 7==
As I Do Thee 7 was published in 1987 and contains 170 pages. * Art: by Chris Kemmerling, Chris Soto, Shellie Whild, Jacquelyn Zoost, Gayle F., Dragon
* Flight of Fancy, poem by Sue Cameron (4)
* A Rare Storm by Dovya Blacque ("On shoreleave together, Kirk makes known his contentment when he's with Spock, and his need to finally give himself to one person.") (5)
* Revolution, poem by Laura Thomas (25)
* A Very Private Fire by D.A. Martin ("Dissatisfied with the Ruth replicant, Kirk beams back to the ship and persuades Spock to go back with him to the planet, resolved to finally tell him how he feels about him.") (26)
* Pathway to Pon Farr, poem by Sandee Maxwell (38)
* That Makes the Man by Yvonne DeChine ("After their run-in with V'Ger, Kirk finally decides to confess his feelings to Spock after he is hurt while on duty.") (39)
* Bond-Brothers by K.L. Fidelius ("Having turned to one another for many things after being stranded on a class M planet, Kirk and Spock discuss Vulcan legend... and Vulcan reality." ) (65)
* Once and Again, poem by D.A. Martin (77)
* Passion in the Touch of a Friend by Tere Ann Roderick ("On a very cold planet, with Spock suddenly coming of age, the command team of the ENTERPRISE learns much more about one another than either had ever suspected.") (78)
* Irony, poem by Sandee Maxwell (87)
* To Face the Music by Greta Foulard ("After the fal tor pan, Kirk wait for Spock to remember their relationship and love.") (88)
* Some Dream, poem by D.A. Martin (94)
* The Sweetest Sound by Roberta ("Having beamed down to where Spock is heading a scientific landing party, Kirk finally asks the question that has been burning in his mind and heart for some time... then beams up before Spock can even form an answer.") (95)
* Burden Not Our Remembrances by David Alexander ("Staying in a house that belongs to a friend of Kirk's, Kirk struggles over Spock's lost memories of their love affair since the fal tor pan.") (107)
* Future Haunts, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (123)
* Impasse by Addison Reed ("Kirk and Spock are forced apart while a Starfleet investigation occurs dealing with ship relationships on the Enterprise.") (124)
* The Valley of the Blue Sun by Robin Hood ("On a planet with suddenly hostile inhabitants, Kirk and Spock find themselves fleeing further and further into the hostile terrain of the bitterly cold mountains... to the most impossibly beautiful valley amid the snow, a valley with inhabitants who have forgotten how to feel.") (139)
* Dark Dreamer, poem by Sandee Maxwell (169)
* Open Flight, poem by Robin Hood (170)
File:asidothee7art1.jpg| from issue #7, Dragon for The Sweetest Sound
File:asidothee7-3.jpg| from issue #7, Dragon for The Sweetest Sound
File:asidothee7art2.jpg| from issue #7, Chris Soto for The Valley of the Blue Sun
File:asidothee7-6.jpg| from issue #7, title page for The Valley of the Blue Sun
File:asidothee7-1.jpg| from issue #7, Jacqueline Zoost for "Revolution"
File:asidothee7-2.jpg| from issue #7, Sara B. Leonard for "Once and Again"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 7===
==Issue 8==
As I Do Thee 8 was published in 1987 and contains 178 pages.
The artwork is by Merle Decker, The Southern Cross, Ann Mara Crouch, Jacquelyn Zoost, Caro Hedge, and Shellie Whild.
Regarding the story "Odd Man Out": 
The editorial also addresses being "right" and "wrong" in fandom: 
* Wastelands, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside front cover)
* Second "AIDT" Writing Contest (art by The Southern Cross used as the cover of issue #6 is the prompt) (6)
* The Richest of Men, poem by Shellie Whild (6)
* Tight Spaces by Alexis Fegan Black ("Trapped in a tunnel, different and unexpected pressures come into play for Kirk and Spock, causing each to undergo his own type of metamorphosis... leading to a confrontation neither had ever expected.") (also in Speed of Light) (7)
* On Having and Wanting, poem by D.A. Martin (42)
* Is the Honeymoon Over? by A.L. Hughes ("Kirk is taking Spock for granted, so Spock takes McCoy's advise and starts ignoring his lover.") (43)
* The Spell/Resurrection, poem by Cybel (61)
* First Contact, poem by D.A. Martin (62)
* Call Me Jim, art by Bonita Kale (64)
* By Dawn's Light by Addison Reed ("Kirk's mother returns earlier than expected knowing that her son has come home to visit.") (65)
* Convalescing by Charlotte Frost ("Stricken by a rare and debilitating type of Vulcan flu, Spock is helpless while Kirk deals with the disappearance of their bond, a lieutenant with a crush on Spock, and the not-so-simple ins and outs of nursing a very ill Vulcan.") (67)
* Hidden Truths, poem by Bonita Kale (112)
* Integration, poem by D.A. Martin (113)
* Chrysalis/Shadow, poem by Sandee Maxwell (114)
* Journey by Kate Lloyd ("What happened after the end of Journey To Babel? This is one possibility.") (115)
* Door, poem by Kate Lloyd (115)
* Caverns of Wind, poem by Jane Fury (126)
* Odd Man Out by Lynn Shomei ("Spock has waited a long time for Kirk to come to him, to admit his feelings. It's been a long, difficult wait... during which the Vulcan has turned to another friend for comfort and understanding. Now it's time to leave that comfort, to say goodby to one friend and hello to another. Non K/S story.) (It is a truly loving, caring relationship far both men, but they knew from the beginning that it would end when Kirk realized his love for the Vulcan. That time has come and Spock plans for one last very special night with the doctor.") (127)
* Rex, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (135)
* Vulcan Ice, poem by Ann Fitzgibbons (136)
* Collision Course by Addison Reed ("There has been a misunderstanding between Kirk and Spock and neither one is ready to confront the other. Meanwhile, an adventure develops involving a non-member planet that has suddenly asked for UFP assistance. The ENTERPRISE responds only to find a trap waiting.") (137)
* Voyager, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside back cover)
 File:asidothee8inside.jpg| from issue #8, Jacqueline Zoost
 File:asidothee8-1inside.jpg| from issue #8, sample text
 File:asidothee8-2inside.jpg| from issue #8, Ann Mara Crouch
 File:asidothee8-3inside.jpg| from issue #8, inside back cover
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 8===
==Issue 9==
As I Do Thee 9 was published in 1987 and contains 152 pages.
The art is by Chiya, Arleen Geller, The Southern Cross, Leigh Wyatt, Virginia Lee Smith, Chris Soto and Jacquelyn Zoost.
This issue includes fiction contest winners; fans were to write a story interpreting an illo by The Southern Cross—that illo was used on the front of "As I Do Thee" #6, see that issue above.
* Voice of Smoke, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside front cover)
* Touchstone by Robin Hood (4)
* Just for Old Times' Sake by Addison Reed. (Humor: "After Kirk and Spock retire, McCoy makes a surprise visit to their home on Vulcan.") (5)
* Disorderly Passions, poem by Linda Frankel (12)
* Barely Blue by Robin Hood ("When Spock is unable to decelerate after their run-in with the Scalosians, Kirk recelerates to be with him while hoping to find a solution before Spock dies.") (13)
* Uncharted Worlds, poem by Ellen Morris (31)
* First Place: Out of the Rock by Martha Selena Brown ("After V'ger, Spock has difficulty dealing with the lessons learned from the probe. For Kirk, a new understanding of his friend and of himself leads him to help Spock acclimate to his new-found self.") (33)
* I Am the Captain, poem by C. Evan Wood (50)
* Second Place: In His Image by Charlotte Frost ("The transport of a rare and precious collection of sculptures opens new images to Kirk's mind. And after meeting the eccentric Vulcan recipient of the shipment, both Kirk and Spock discover they have a lot to think about.") (51)
* Sunrise/Nightfall, poem by Ellen Morris (71)
* Defense, poem by Martha Selena Brown (73)
* For Me, poem by C. Evan Wood (74)
* Third Place: Lion Heart by Tess Aigner ("Unknown aliens choose Spock as the target of their experiment to test human limitations. This particular test: to judge and measure the length humans will go to for the ones they love.") (75)
* Time Colors, poem by Lonetta Ives (82)
* Honorable Mention: Anchorage by Addison Reed (One summary: "The Klingon Bird of Prey floats in San Francisco Bay. The crew watches with held breath for the whales to emerge from the hold where they were trapped. Time slips by and the whales do not appear... and neither does Admiral Kirk." Another summary: "Kirk almost drowns while releasing the whales from the bird-of-prey but is drawn back from near death by his bond with Spock which also releases the rest of Spock's memories of their life together as bondmates.") (83)
* Spirit Wind by Greggia Seta ("Back on Earth after Spock's refusion, Kirk finds a letter delivered before Spock's death predicting the events leading to that death and what followed.") (99)
* Love Storm, poem by Linda Frankel (108)
* It Can Always Get Worse by Ursula Tulle ("Kirk begins having nightmares of losing his ship shortly before the fateful cadet cruise that will take Spock's life.") (109)
* Let Me Stay, poem by Cybel Harper (115)
* New Light, poem by Dovya Blacque (117)
* Perfect Pain, poem by Robin Hood (118)
* Secrets in Stone by D.A. Martin ("Hearing rumors that Kirk and Spock are lovers, an artist friend of McCoy's creates a statue of them, but after McCoy sees it he tries to hide it from them, unaware that the rumors are true.") (119)
* Orbit, poem by Natasha Solten (137)
* Reunited, poem by Faris Vincent (reprinted from "As I Do Thee" #1) (138)
* Waiting for the Sun by Faris Vincent ("Spock seems unable to let go of his unemotional way of life after V'Ger and Kirk finds it harder and harder to let things continue as they are.v) (139)
* With You, poem by Cybel Harper (149)
* Only You, poem by Rhea Gowan (151)
* From Your Dreams, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside back cover)
 
File:asidothee9-1.jpg| from issue #9, Leigh Wyatt
File:asidothee9-2.jpg| from issue #9, sample text
File:asidothee9-3.jpg| from issue #9, Virginia Lee Smith
File:asidothee9-4.jpg| from issue #9, Virginia Lee Smith
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 9===
==Issue 10==
As I Do Thee 10 was published in 1988 and contains 172 pages. It has art by Marilyn Cole, Ellen Morris, Dragon, Virginia Lee Smith, Kay Wells and Shellie Whild, and story borders by Caro Hedge.
The zine's dedication: "This is dedicated to STAR TREK… in its only original and immortal form…"
From the editorial: 
* A Gift from the Past by Cybel Harper ("Wandering around San Francisco, Spock comes upon an art gallery in which he discovers a most unusual piece of art... and piece of his lover's past.") (5)
* Duet, poem by Robin Hood (10)
* A Small Glitch in the System by Martha Selena Brown ("Everything was running smoothly aboard the USS ENTERPRISE, everything that is except the usually legendary rapport between her command officer and his first officer. Ever since NOMAD, nothing had quite been the same.") (11)
* Deliverance, poem by Shellie A. Whild (31)
* Heaven or Hell, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (32)
* A Sudden Waking by Dana Austin Marsh ("Kirk is confronted by Spock's bisexuality when he runs into Spock and his payed companion - a Kirk lookalike, causing Kirk to withdraw from Spock until he can come to terms with his own feelings.") (33)
* Reaffirmation by Elizabeth Scott ("Different planets breed different cultures, different desires... Established lovers, Kirk and Spock learn to adapt to and deal with their many vast dissimilarities.") (57)
* Red Fog, poem by Robin Hood (62)
* Green Fog, poem by Robin Hood (63)
* Distant Thunder, poem by Linda Frankel (64)
* Thief of Dreams by Robin Hood ("In his dreams, James T. Kirk is chased by a nightmare vision that, even upon waking, he can't quite seem to shake. With the help of his first officer, he faces the reality brought to him by those visions in times of slumber.") (65)
* No Power, poem by Cybel Harper (86)
* Icons by Zoey Brook ("A Vulcan female who has rejected the ways of Vulcan causes problems for Spock.") (87)
* The Night Men, poem by Robin Hood (117)
* Your Lightning Smile, poem by Linda Frankel (119)
* Creation, poem by Cybel Harper (120)
* Fog by Dovya Blacque ("Kirk takes shelter in a doorway when he becomes lost in the fog during a storm and meets, and has an intimate encounter with, an unseen stranger who reminds him a lot of Spock.") (also in Shadows in the Rain) (121)
* Lost Souls by Kay Wells ("Plagued by dreams haunted by visions of his unspoken love for his first officer, Kirk takes steps to 'work it out of his system' by visiting a very special pleasure house, not knowing that Spock has similar plans.") (139)
* Home Early, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (inside back cover)
File:asidothee10inside.jpg| from issue #10, Dragon for A Small Glitch in the System
File:AS I DO THEE 10 inside.jpg|inside front cover from issue #10, Kay Wells
File:asidothee10-1.jpg| from issue #10, Shellie Whild for A Gift from the Past
File:asidothee10-2.jpg| from issue #10, Dragon for A Small Glitch in the System
File:asidothee10-3.jpg| from issue #10, title page for A Sudden Waking
File:asidothee10-4.jpg| from issue #10, Kay Wells for Reaffirmation
File:asidothee10-5.jpg| from issue #10, unclear, but probably Virginia Lee Smith for "Your Lightning Smile"
File:asidothee10-6.jpg| from issue #10, Kay Wells for Lost Souls
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 10===
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