I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams

"I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams" is a b-side recorded by Weezer during sessions for the band's sophomore album, Pinkerton. It was originally released on the single/EP releases of "The Good Life," and later appeared as the fifteenth track on Pinkerton's Deluxe Edition. On the song's handwritten lyric sheet, the song is titled simply "Love of my Dreams."
===Appearances===
*"The Good Life" (single; Europe, Japan) (1996)
*The Good Life (Australian "OZ EP" CD) (1996)
*Pinkerton (Deluxe Edition) (2010)
*Alone IV: The Blue-Pinkerton Years (2020)
==Overview==
According to The Pinkerton Diaries, "I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams" was originally written as a musical sketch titled "My Dream Love" by Rivers Cuomo on January 13, 1995.Cuomo, Rivers. The Pinkerton Diaries. 2011 According to the Recording History, the song was recorded (sans female vocals) during the first Pinkerton sessions in September of that year, with the final version being recorded in the Summer of 1996. According to Karl Koch, Rachel Haden came in one night at Sunset Sound Recorders and nailed "I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams" on her first take. In a Facebook post in December of 2016, Haden remarked that she was not paid for her work on the song.Facebook. December 2016. :File:Rachelhadenmattrivers2016.jpg
The song is unique as the only song originally conceived for the aborted Songs from the Black Hole concept album to receive a full-band studio recording. In the narrative of the story, point-of-view character Laurel (Rachel Haden), sings about rejecting her shipmate, Jonas (Cuomo), despite being in love with him. The original demo, featuring vocals by Cuomo, leaked online through Cuomo's website in early November 2020, before being sold as part of the demo compilation Alone IV: The Blue-Pinkerton Years on November 22. 
In 2022, the song began trending on the video hosting app TikTok, with over 30,000 videos using it. On May 17, Rivers Cuomo joined the trend by posting his own video dancing to the song. This led to a major increase in streaming numbers for the song.
===Live performances===
"I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams" was performed at a soundcheck while Weezer toured with That Dog. During the soundcheck, Rachel Haden sang lead vocals. Additionally, Haden sang lead vocals on Superfriend at a soundcheck in 1995.Weezer Recording History - Page 7
When the Rentals re-formed in 2006 with Rachel Haden as a touring member of the band, the band performed the song live with Haden on lead vocals several times on their tour throughout 2006 and 2007.
During the Memories Tour at a concert in Las Vegas, NV on January 21, 2011, Weezer invited Haden to perform the song as an encore. The song continued to be performed sporadically over the next few years with Cuomo on lead vocals.
Weezer resumed performing the song (with Cuomo on lead vocals) after the song became popular on TikTok and streaming platforms in 2022 (entering the band's top 10 most-streamed songs on Spotify). On the Indie Rock Road Trip tour, beginning on June 8, 2023, Etta Friedman and Allegra Weingarten of opening act Momma joined Weezer to sing the song.
==Personnel==
*Rivers Cuomo – lead guitar, backup vocals 
*Rachel Haden - lead vocals
*Brian Bell - rhythm guitar 
*Matt Sharp - bass guitar
*Patrick Wilson - percussion
==Audio==
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==Lyrics==
I'm so tall, can't get over me 
I'm so low, can't get under me 
I must be all these things 
For I just threw out the love of my dreams 
He's in my eyes, he is in my ears 
He's in my blood, he is in my tears 
I breathe love and see him every day 
Even though my love is a world away
Oh, he's got me wondering 
My righteousness is crumbling 
Never before have I felt this way 
Know what is right, but want for him to stay 
I must be made of steel 
For I just threw out the love of my dreams 
He's in my eyes, he is in my ears 
He's in my blood, he is in my tears 
I breathe love and see him every day 
Even though my love is a world away
Oh, he's got me wondering
My righteousness is crumbling
Oh, he's got me wondering
My righteousness is crumbling
And I see him everyday
Even though my love is a world away
He's in my eyes, he is in my ears
He's in my blood, he is my tears
I must be made of steel
For I just threw out the love of my dreams
==Known recordings==
==See also==
*List of Weezer songs
*List of Rivers Cuomo songs
*List of Weezer B-sides and bonus tracks
==References==
Category:Songs from the Black Hole
Category:Rivers Cuomo songs
Category:Weezer songs
Category:Songs that appeared on the 4 and 5 Star Demos of Rivers Cuomo list
Category:Songs on Alone IV: The Blue-Pinkerton Years
Category:B-sides
Category:Featured song
Category:Known recordings table