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==Issue 11==
As I Do Thee 11 was published in 1988 and contains 164 pages. Art by Merle Decker, Dragon, Gayle F, Sara B. Leonard, Virginia Lee Smith, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild, and Jacquelyn Zoost.
From the editorial, a change in content policy, along with an early use of warning as we use it today: 
Also from the editorial: 
* Sand-Blind, poem by Dovya Blacque (inside front cover)
* Beg the Lightning to Strike by Addison Reed (On the verge of admitting the true game they have been playing every night over chess, Kirk and Spock are interrupted by a mission to the planet Gamma Trianguli where events only serve to deepen their as yet unspoken commitment to one another...) (5)
* Us, poem by Cybel Harper (16)
* He Who Loves Last by Elizabeth Scott (Spock takes a male lover while temporarily assigned to set up a planetary computer system, a situation that causes surprising jealousy in Kirk when he arrives to help with the planet's military structure.) (17)
* Compulsion, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (39)
* Less Than a Ghost, poem by Cassla Williams (40)
* The Bet by Drea Leigh (The old Queen of Thieves saw no reason to help the Starfleet officers in their goal to regain possession of a much needed drug... until she thought of the bargain, the bargain that would lead Kirk to agree to the terms of the strangest bet of his life...) (41)
* Dripping Dawn, poem by Cassla Williams (57)
* I Love Dreaming, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (59)
* Dancing, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (60)
* Waiting by Charlotte Frost (Awaiting Spock's return to Earth, Kirk attends an official Starfleet affair and bumps into Gillian Taylor... who has 'heard' a few things about the admiral and his 'ditzy' friend since arriving in the 23rd century...) (61)
* Feast for a Time of Famine, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (73)
* Midnight Fire, poem by Robin Hood (74)
* And Yet Afraid by Addison Reed (After a very strange yet wonderful evening ashore with his captain, Spock begins to look at their friendship in a new light, only to be lead into insecurity and confusion by an overheard conversation and the intervention of the Tholians...) (75)
* Forbidden Touch, poem by Amy Gray (107)
* Self-Made Purgatory, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (108)
* Together, You and I by Marilyn Lansford (Breaking up the monotony of Starship duty for his friend and lover is a true challenge, a challenge worthy of a Vulcan's full attention, a challenge Spock cannot bear to pass up...) (109)
* Impotence, poem by Robin Hood (121)
* A Philosophy, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (122)
* He Was He And I Was I by Emily Adams (The last thing Kirk expected to be doing on shore leave was searching the inside of a mountain for an escape route from a complex cave system while his first officer's life hung in the balance...) (123)
* Yours, poem by Cybel Harper (163)
* At First Sight, poem by Sharon Eldon (164)
* Hawk's Mate, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (inside back cover)
File:asidothee11inside3.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Dragon for "Compulsion"
File:asidothee11inside2.jpg| inside page from issue #11, Dragon for Together, You and I
File:asidothee11inside1.jpg| inside page from issue #11, DEW for "Forbidden Touch"
File:asidothee11-1.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Sara B. Leonard for Beg the Lightning to Strike
File:asidothee11-2.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Gayle F for He Who Loves Last
File:asidothee11-3.jpg|inside page from issue #11, example of a poem
File:asidothee11-4.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Virginia Lee Smith for The Bet
File:asidothee11-5.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Judy for "I Love Dreaming"
File:asidothee11-6.jpg|inside page from issue #11, title page for Waiting
File:asidothee11-7.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Jacqueline Zoost for And Yet Afraid
File:asidothee11-8.jpg|inside page from issue #11, Virginia Lee Smith for "Impotence"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 11===
==Issue 12==
As I Do Thee 12 was published in 1989 (sometime before February) and contains 192 pages. Artwork by Pat Horowitz (front cover and interior), Shellie Whild, Deeb, Kay Wells, Caro Hedge, Virginia Lee Smith, and Sara B. Leonard.
In the zine: "This issue is dedicated to: LOYALTY & CONTINUITY."
From the editorial: 
* Till He Smiled, poem by Robin Hood (4)
* Accidents Do Happen by D.A. Marsh & J.A. Barnett (It shouldn't take the awkward clumsiness of an ensign enamored of Spock to point out to Kirk his own feelings about his first officer... but it does...) (5)
* Black Hole, poem by Rachel Cavendish (31)
* Noble Gesture, poem by Linda Frankel (33)
* A Dangerous Vision, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (34)
* Love at Last by Jean Gabriel (Kirk and Spock's entries into their logs detailing their discovery of love for each other and their ultimate coming together.) (35)
* Harbor Lights, poem by Rachel Cavendish (46)
* Regrets, poem by D.A. Marsh (47)
* Masquer Unmasked, poem by Cybel Harper (48)
* What's Love Got to Do With It? by Cybel Harper (That's what Kirk asks himself the morning after Spock's pon farr ends... Spock's answer remains to be heard...) (49)
* The Iceman, poem by Robin Hood (55)
* Learning/What You Do to Me, poem by Amy (56)
* A World of Possibilities by Marie Surah (It's quite a revelation to Kirk when he realizes his true feelings for his first officer... but not quite as big a revelation as it is when Spock finds out...) (57)
* Contrasts, poem by D.A. Marsh (109)
* Tears of Steel, poem by Robin Hood (111)
* Vulcan, Post-"City", poem by Tere Ann Roderick (112)
* The Aftermath by Debbie Cummins (Kirk's musings and, finally, his grief over the loss of Spock are shared by a confused and sorrowful McCoy amid the splendor of the stars through which the ENTERPRISE travels...) (113)
* Scraps, poem by Rachel Cavendish (128)
* Ready, poem by Amy (129)
* The Three, poem by D.A. Marsh (131)
* Gossamer Words, poem by Linda Frankel (132)
* Moon-Bright Day by Robin Hood (On a planet where the sunshine is no brighter than a moon-lit Terran night, Kirk finds himself stumbling through a jungle with a half-alert Spock in tow, followed by natives who have anything but his best interests in mind...) (133)
* Do Not Grieve, poem by Rachel Cavendish (153)
* Labels, poem by D.A. Marsh (154)
* Sunburst, poem by Robin Hood (155)
* A Beginning, poem by D.A. Marsh (156)
* When Johnny Comes Marching Home by Addison Reed (An invitation to be guest of honor at a school reunion in his home town has Kirk regretting his absentmindedness in not refusing the 'honor'... and has Spock in his own type of turmoil over the prospect of facing his bondmate's old friends... But it's not only Kirk and Spock who are surprised by events in Iowa... ) (157)
* Shattered Sweet, poem by Martha Selena Brown (191)
* Argus, poem by Dovya Blacque (192)
File:asidothee12-5.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Virginia Lee Smith. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
File:asidothee12-6.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Virginia Lee Smith. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
File:asidothee12-1.jpg|inside page from issue #12, poem by Robin Hood, illo by Shellie Whild
File:asidothee12-2.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Deeb
File:asidothee12-3.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Deeb
File:asidothee12-4.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Virginia Lee Smith
File:asidothee12-7.jpg|inside page from issue #12, DEW
File:asidothee12-8.jpg|inside page from issue #12, Deeb
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 12===
==Issue 13==
As I Do Thee 13 was published in 1989 and contains 134 pages. The art is by Sara B. Leonard, Shellie Whild, Jacquelyn Zoost, Alayne Gelfand, Pat Horowitz, Virginia Lee Smith, Kay Wells, The Southern Cross.
From the editorial: 
* Floodgate, poem by Rachel Cavendish (4)
* Night of the Furious Vulcan by Rachel & Cassandra (Tired of Kirk's perpetual talent to get himself into dangerous situations, Spock finally lays down a few rules...) (5)
* Words, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (18)
* Retrospect by Addison Reed (A letter from one friend to another recounts the good times and the bad times in the lives of James Kirk and Spock of Vulcan during the period between ST:TMP and ST:TVH...) (19)
* Afterglow, poem by Rachel Cavendish (29)
* And Then There Were Two, poem by Shellie Whild (30)
* Sorrow of the Gods by Robin Hood (After their encounter with Apollo, Kirk does some re-thinking of his life, his needs... his wants...) (31)
* Acceptance, poem by Cybel Harper (41)
* The Power of Love, poem by Linda Frankel (42)
* Beneath the Sands of Gri'Alon by Dovya Blacque (also in Splendor) (With Spock stationed on Vulcan with his cadets, Admiral Kirk contrives an excuse to join his friend on his homeworld... only to find himself more involved with the Vulcan's life than he'd ever expected...) (45)
* Night's Lonely Longing, poem by Shellie Whild (69)
* New Habits, poem by Amy (71)
* Telling, poem by A.M. Berman (72)
* Empathy, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (73)
* Domestication, poem by Linda Frankel (74)
* First Conflict by Emily Adams (Why is Kirk angry with Spock? That's the question the Vulcan is asking himself... with very little success at arriving at an answer...) (75)
* Fire Sprite, poem by Robin Hood (82)
* Endings and Beginnings by Jean Gabriel (Kirk and Spock's relationship is extremely close and intimate but Spock will not address the subject of the bond... and Kirk finally discovers why...) (83)
* Empty House, poem by Rachel Cavendish (99)
* Crumbs, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (100)
* The Hand of Fate by Sharon St. James (Unknown to Spock, a gypsy woman grants him the power to effect his best friend's life... which he does in some most unusual ways...) (101)
File:asidothee13inside1.jpg|inside page from issue #13, Jacqueline Zoost
File:asidothee13inside2.jpg|inside page from #13, Jacqueline Zoost
File:asidothee13inside4.jpg|inside page from issue #13, illo (Jacqueline Zoost) with poem
File:asidothee13inside5.jpg|inside page from issue #13, Jacqueline Zoost
File:asidothee13inside6.jpg|inside page from issue #13, Kay Wells
File:asidothee13inside7.jpg|inside page from issue #13, Pat Horowitz
File:asidothee13inside8.jpg| inside page from issue #13, Virginia Lee Smith. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 13===
==Issue 14==
As I Do Thee 14 was published in 1989 and contains 168 pages. The back cover is blank. It has art by Shellie Whild, Kay Wells, Sherry Veltkamp, and Gene Delapenia.
* Editorial (consists entirely of the lyrics of "Chain Lightning" by Don McClean)
* The Beginning, poem by Amy (4)
* Unacceptable Risk by Addison Reed (Kirk's near-disastrous climb up El Capitain spurs feelings within Spock he is not quite ready to handle—feelings associated with the fact that the healers told him he and Kirk were bonded, a fact he does not remember...) (5)
* Touch Me, poem by Cybel Harper (19)
* Sounds, poem by Rachel Cavendish (20)
* Soul-Crossed Lovers by Jean Gabriel (Kirk must deal with the unexpected attentions of a Vulcan scientist toward his lover... who is completely oblivious to any undercurrents in the air...) (21)
* Dark Star, poem by Bonita Kale (61)
* A Lousy Assignment, poem by Jane Mailander (62)
* Unveiled, poem by Faris Vincent (64)
* In Dreams, poem by Rachel Cavendish (65)
* I Don't Want You, poem by Cybel Harper (66)
* When Logic Fails by Marilyn Lansford (During a battle, Kirk is seriously injured. It takes all McCoy's skills and the love of his Vulcan friend to help him recover completely...) (67)
* One Simple Wish, poem by Amy (113)
* Yosemite Dawn: Spock, poem by Faris Vincent (114)
* Yosemite Dawn: Kirk by Faris Vincent (115)
* Geography, poem by Rachel Cavendish (116)
* Crime and Bunishment by Sharon St. James (After getting a severe rash on his ass after nearly anonymous sex on Shore Leave with a woman named Jane, Kirk learns a lesson about enjoying anonymous tussles in the bushes of alien planets... and about the deviousness of his doctor friend...) (117)
* Though Unspoken by Dovya Blacque (Back in Yosemite, Kirk finally decides to speak of his feelings to Spock... but finds it easier to do so in a letter... then he must deal with the Vulcan's reaction to his words...) (148)
* All Things End, poem by Cybel Harper (168)
File:asidothee14inside1.jpg| from issue #14, Shellie Whild
File:asidothee14inside2.jpg| from issue #14, Sherry Veltkamp
File:asidothee14inside3.jpg| from issue #14, Sherry Veltkamp
File:asidothee14inside4.jpg| from issue #14, sample poem and illo
File:asidothee14inside5.jpg| from issue #14, sample text
Image:Asidothee14-6.jpg|from issue #14, Kay Wells for Though Unspoken - "This is one of the best portraits I've seen of Kirk in a long time. It's so life like and poignant, a true representation of the phrase "A picture is worth a thousand words." I wonder which came first — the illo or the accompanying story. from The LOC Connection #14 (1990) 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 14===
==Issue 15==
As I Do Thee 15 was published in 1990 and contains 208 pages. It has art by Gene Delapenia, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild, and Dragon.
* At Peace with the Night, poem by Cybel Harper (4)
* Nothing a Little Pill Won't Cure by Kay Wells (The dissatisfaction Kirk feels in his relationship with Spock seems unfair until he forces Spock into a confrontation that changes the pitch of their relationship forever...) (5)
* Analogy, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (31)
* Noble Faces by Natasha Barry (When the artist swore to Kirk that the statue she was making of him would never be seen in public, he believed her... until Spock came back aboard ship to say circumstances were different...) (33)
* A Moment's Thought, poem by Amy (60)
* Acceptance by Jane Mailander (A ni var for two different realities) In a departure from AIDT's usual "no death" policy, we see how Kirk and Spock would survive the death of his lover...) (61) (This has a warning, something the editor calls "A definate departure from AIDT's 'no death' policy!")
* Gathering Data, poem by Dana Austin Marsh (68)
* Reunion by A.T. Bush (Spock still doesn't remember the relationship he had with Kirk before Genesis. Now, after their encounter with Sybok, Kirk deals with his needs... and brings out hidden memories in his bondmate...) (69)
* The Power, poem by Dovya Blacque (78)
* The Two of Us by Jean Gabriel (When McCoy suggested to Spock that he try to find out what's bothering their captain, he didn't mean that Spock take the steps he does when he discovers the source of Kirk's unhappiness...) (79)
* Burning by Natasha Barry (Though Kirk and Spock have admitted their love for each other, regulations and Kirk's own personal code of ethics prohibit them from taking steps to become closer... and they're not the only couple acting unusually aboard the ENTERPRISE...) (117)
* Acknowledgment, poem by Bonita Kale (176)
* One Great Use of Words by Gena Moretti (Two problems face James Kirk: first, Starfleet codes have been broken by the enemy for the 3rd time in a month; second, he's been offered a solution to his desire for a permanent relationship. The first problem is solved by McCoy; the solution to the second problem has been offered by Spock...) (177)
* My Alien Love, poem by Jo Ann Sides (208)
File:asidothee15inside1.jpg|inside page from issue #15, Shellie Whild for Noble Faces
File:asidothee15inside2.jpg|inside page from issue #15, Kay Wells for Nothing a Little Pill Won't Cure
File:asidothee15-1.jpg|inside page from issue #15, Dragon for Burning
File:asidothee15-2.jpg|inside page from issue #15, Dragon for Burning
File:asidothee15-3.jpg|inside page from issue #15, the first page of the ni var, Acceptance
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 15===
==Issue 16==
As I Do Thee 16 was published in 1990 and contains 152 pages. Chris Soto is the front cover artist and the back cover is blank.
* This Can't Be Love by Jean Gabriel (Just as Kirk and Spock begin to understand the depth of their feelings toward one another, an assignment comes along that could force Kirk into a situation which could end any hopes of a future with his first officer forever...)
* Fyn'D'Ln Aftermath by Monica Voile (Kirk and Spock had planned on spending their shore leave together, but that was not to be. Spock soon has good cause to regret his insistence that Kirk proceed with shore leave without him.... or does he?)
* Everything by Dana Austin Marsh (At the end of the first five-year mission, the captain of the ENTERPRISE makes some highly unusual plans for his three-month shore leave... plans which leave him feeling worse than ever about his unspoken love for his Vulcan friend...)
* One Winged Angels by Gena Moretti (Okay, so something on the planet had changed the members of the landing party into the opposite sex... all but Spock... and now they have to face the reality of men who are now women, women who are now men. They're all sophisticated members of Starfleet, they can handle it. Can't they?)
* Poetry: by Amy and Dovya Blacque
* Art: by Deeb and Chris Soto (front cover)
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 16===
==Issue 17==
As I Do Thee 17 was published in 1991 and contains 152 pages. The front cover is by Deeb, and it was inspired by Part two the Jane Mailander poem in AIDT #15, "Acceptance." The back cover is blank. Interior art is by DEW, and Anja Gruber.
From the editorial: 
* Red Giant, poem by Faris Vincent (4)
* Yesterday & Tomorrow by Angel C. Soie (Prophetic dreams, precarious missions and a perfect shore leave combine to bring James Kirk to some startling revelations…) (5)
* Beloved Relatives by Gena Moretti (To thwart his mother's and aunt's constant urging toward his marrying, Kirk comes up with a surprise guest to bring along on his visit home…) (51)
* What He Did for Love by Jean Gabriel (Spock is to be the leader of the Vulcan Brotherhood and, as such, must have an appropriate bondmate. But that bondmate must come to him of his own accord…) (68)
* Nocturne #1, poem by Dallance McCasland (99)
* Nocturne #2, poem by Dallance McCasland (100)
* Alternate Babel by Karla Kelly (Captain Kirk is not looking forward to ferrying a boat-load of diplomats to Babel... until he sees the Vulcan ambassador's assistant…) (101)
* Thy Brother's Keeper by Kay Wells (Guilt haunts Kirk after Spock is brutally attacked while on shore leave. For some reason, the captain feels he should have been able to protect his friends…) (121)
* Oceans of Night by Dovya Blacque (also in Splendor) (The events of ST:5 are over. Kirk, Spock and McCoy have returned to Yosemite. And Spock's memory begins to fill in the final blanks left after his resurrection on Mount Seleya…) (140)
File:asidothee17inside.jpg|inside page from issue #17, DEW for Thy Brother's Keeper
File:asidothee17-4.jpg|sample inside page from issue #17, title page
File:asidothee17-2.jpg|sample inside page from issue #17, Anja Gruber for Oceans of Night
File:asidothee17-3.jpg|sample inside page from issue #17, poem
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 17===
==Issue 18==
As I Do Thee 18 was published in 1992 and contains 185 pages.
The art is by Kay Wells, Anja Gruber, and Deeb.
From the editorial: 
* In the Beginning, poem by Donna Rose Vanderlaan (4)
* The Human Factor by Kay Wells ("The crew could believe the rumor if it had been about Kirk... but the rumor isn't about Kirk, it's about Spock!") (5)
* Into The Night by Carleen Brown ("The events surrounding his aborted marriage have left Spock in an emotional turmoil he is ill equipped to handle.") (25)
* I Watched Him, poem by Jackie Meadows (34)
* Contribution by Greta Foulard ("T'Pau has blackmailed Spock into contributing to Vulcan's genetic banks before allowing the ENTERPRISE to leave Vulcan orbit... but the task is easier promised than achieved...") (35)
* Not Again, poem by Patt (83)
* Why Did We Come Back For You? Well.., poem by Bonita Kale (84)
* For Now by Karla Kelly ("Spock's arrest in a same-sex bordello causes an interesting discussion to take place.") (85)
* I Love You, poem by Jackie Meadows (94)
* Alone No More by Jean Gabriel ("Why did Spock kidnap Captain Pike? What loyalties caused him to betray Kirk and risk his own life? Kirk wants to know... and he wants to know now!") (95)
* Sharing, poem by Patt (115)
* For My Sake, poem by Jackie Meadows (116)
* Perfect Picture by Karla Kelly ("What would the ENTERPRISE look like if she were a sentient being? Kirk and Spock have their own ideas.") (117)
* Once More, poem by Patt (124)
* Remembering by Marie Surah (Seeing the rare sight of an Eritykon brings back memories of Kirk's childhood, memories which start him thinking in strange and unexpected directions about his first officer.)
 
File:asitothee18inside1.jpg|inside art from issue #18
File:asidothee18inside2.jpg|inside art from issue #18
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 18===
==Issue 19==
As I Do Thee 19 was published in November 1992 and contains 159 pages. Back cover is blank.
The art is by by Anja Gruber, Pendragon, Chris Soto, and Alayne.
It is dedicated to "Jimmye, a friend too soon absent."
The zine's editorial mentions that the publisher of this zine is going to take six months off of zine-work after this issue.
* Alien Fear, poem by Kathy Stanis (4)
* Family Secrets by Ida Vega ("Peter Kirk is graduating from Starfleet Academy and his uncle tries desperately to conceal a long-hidden truth... or is it such a secret after all?") (5)
* Waiting, poem by Patt (33)
* Surrendering the Game by J S Cavalcante ("During one of many late-night chess games, emotions hidden even from Kirk himself reveal themselves at the brush of Spock's hand...") (35)
* Brother of the Heart, poem by Heidi Bloebaum (43)
* United Souls, poem by Jackie Meadows (44)
* Gaia Revisited by Kathy Stanis ("A living planet brings its own insights into the unique relationship between Kirk and Spock.") (45)
* Seduction, poem by Patt (61)
* The First Time, poem by Kathy Stanis (62)
* Enough by Karla Kelly ("A temporary separation comes at the absolute worst of times for Kirk and Spock.") (63)
* Human Touch by Ida Vega ("Spock's unfounded jealousy over Kirk's relationship with Ensign Garrovick sparks previously unrevealed depths in his relationship to his captain.") (71)
* Emancipation, poem by Patt (93)
* Observations, poem by Jackie Meadows (94)
* Old Friends by Taylor Lang ("While attempting to enjoy a quiet shore leave together, Kirk and Spock's efforts at isolation are thwarted by two old flames.") (95)
* Your Hands, poem by Kathy Stanis (103)
* Fire and Ice, poem by Heidi Bloebaum (104)
* Night of the Le-Matya by J S Cavalcante ("An ancient legend lends itself to Spock's purposes in revealing himself to his dearest friend.") (105)
* Afterwards, poem by Kate Singer (124)
* Tenants to the Heart by Carleen Brown ("An attempt to ease his captain's pain following the ENTERPRISE's encounter with Flint, brings Spock a little bit closer to Kirk.") (125)
* Hello Earth by Dovya Blacque (also in Splendor) ("Stationed on Earth following the events of ST:6, Kirk finds new meaning to life in the face of an old friend...") (135)
 File:asidothee19inside.jpg| from issue #19, Chris Soto
File:asidothee19-1.jpg| from issue #19, Anja Gruber
File:asidothee19-2.jpg| from issue #19, Pendragon
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 19===
==Issue 20==
As I Do Thee 20 was published in August 1993 and contains 168 pages. The back cover is blank and there is no interior art.
From the editorial: 
* A Proper Vulcan, poem by Khylara (4)
* About Time by JS Cavalcante ("One thing in particular," Kirk confessed. "I -- Bones, I haven't really been keeping it from you on purpose..." "Before you two drive me completely crazy, would you please just answer this one question? What exactly are you trying so hard not to tell me?") (5)
* Winning, poem by Patt (13)
* Hidden Assets, poem by Jackie Meadows (14)
* Loving Jim, poem by Ida Vega (15)
* Consuming Passion, poem by Patt (16)
* Leap of Faith by Time Dahlquist (also in Splendor) ("I know I'm being emotional about the whole thing. I want Spock's view of the situation... before I make any moves." McCoy grinned. "I'm still right about you two." "What now?" "You're too intertwined to work at top form on your own. Either of you..." "You are nuts." "Bet?") (17)
* I Wait, poem by Patt (35)
* Homecoming, poem by JS Cavalcante (36)
* The Bonding by Ida Vega (Spock was very much aware of his bondmate's state of arousal. The smell of Kirk's sweat, the longing look on his beautiful face, the feel of his swollen genitals through the robe he wore... "I won't stay long. Please, Spock, just one kiss?"... Spock weakened at the sight and sound of his t'hy'la begging for a kiss... "All right, just one," he told him, shifting his grip on Kirk's shoulders to pull him close.) (37)
* Roleplay, poem by Khylara (68)
* Just Another Night on the Enterprise by Ida Vega (Spock records a “normal” day in his personal log, ending with him and Kirk in bed sleeping, content in their bond after a trying day.) (69)
* The Sun, poem by Jackie Meadows (73)
* Coloring, poem by JS Cavalcante (74)
* The Risk by Chris Hoch ("I'm sorry, Jim." McCoy was the first to break the silence. "It wasn't your fault. I didn't have to take your advice. I could have kept my big mouth shut." Kirk got up and walked over to the fireplace. "No. You were right to speak up. And my advice was right, too. It's just you never know how Spock will react to things." McCoy shook his head. "I've never seen him run away before. I wouldn't have thought he'd do something like that.") (75)
* Sand Roses, poem by JS Cavalcante (104)
* Finnegan's Folly by Jehanna Hunter ("Miss, if you wouldn't mind getting off me, please," Kirk suggested... to Finnegan's weapon... "Leaving now would be your best bet," Spock offered. She glanced at the Vulcan, turned back to Kirk. "It's not true what they say... about you and him, is it?") (105)
* Emotion, poem by Khylara (135)
* Forever Young, poem by Khylara (136)
* Two Ships Passing by Dovya Blacque (also in Splendor and Legends #2) ("I learned so many things during my stay at Gol and during my encounter with V'ger... I no longer am simply 'Spock'. I am your friend. That is who I am..." "I'm honored, Spock. And I feel the same. But is it practical to need each other so much? I mean, is it even healthy?" "That is the question, isn't it?") (137)
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 20===
==Issue 21==
As I Do Thee 21 was published in June 1994 and contains 156 pages. 
The back cover is blank. 
The art is by Shelley Butler, Anja Gruber, and Virginia Lee Smith.
* Behind the Wall, poem by Chris Hoch (3)
* Living in Hell, poem by Bonnie Chenowith (4)
* The Wedding by Chris Hoch ("On Vulcan, a wedding is about to take place. Not the best moment for Kirk to ask Spock for a moment of his time.") (5)
* In Sickness and in Health by Ida Vega ("As Spock struggles to overcome the effects of a mysterious disease, his relationship with his bondmate undergoes some very serious thought.") (13)
* The Game, poem by L.A. Lee (56)
* Ablaze, poem by Bonnie Chenowith (59)
* Thoughts, poem by Past (60)
* A Question of Love by Chris Hoch ("Spock's decision to return to Vulcan after the 5-year mission wasn't accepted with much grace on Kirk's part. But now that Spock is back on board the USS ENTERPRISE, the old friends find themselves facing some truths that had been far too unacceptable to admit at the time of their parting.") (61)
* After Genesis, poem by Ida Vega (74)
* The Heat by Dovya Blacque (also in Splendor) ("Spock's re-education following his death and the fal tor pan isn't going as the healers and Sarek would prefer. Spock has many unanswered, not to mention unaskable, questions—questions only Jim Kirk can help him answer.") (77)
* Your Alien Heart, poem by Bonnie Chenowith (1010
* Silent Longing, poem by Lisa Curtis (102)
* Undone, poem by Chris Hoch (103)
* Heart Beat, poem by Bonnie Chenowith (104)
* Interlude by Ida Vega ("A slightly A/U story! On Tarsus IV, a young Jim Kirk meets and falls in love with a gifted Vulcan musician. After a brief time together, Kirk is unexpectedly called away... only to return to Tarsus seven years later as captain of the USS ENTERPRISE at the request of the Vulcan ambassador to help rescue as many non-Tarsians, including his musician son, from the planet as possible before Governor Kodos can put them all to death.") (105)
File:asidothee21-1.jpg| from issue #21, Shelley Butler -- "I love this view of Spock from over Kirk's shoulder, we don't get to see Kirk's face, but from the look on Spock's my imagination tells me he is smiling. Head barely tilted, eyes gleaming with a suppressed smile, Spock has that slightly smug look I adore, and the artist has captured him two seconds before that elegant eyebrow soars. This one's going up in The Shrine, (aka my closet).from Come Together #20 "Wonderful drawing. The look on Spock's face is so fascinating. Very unique and special. A sweet, perhaps vulnerable moment. There is lots for the imagination here."from Come Together #9 
File:asidothee21-2.jpg| from issue #21, Virginia Lee Smith
File:asidothee21-3.jpg| from issue #21, Virginia Lee Smith
File:asidothee21-4.jpg| from issue #21, sample text
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