Beside Myself

Beside Myself is a slash Star Trek: TOS anthology. 
From Media Monitor: "A well-illustrated anthology zine exclusively written by Robin Hood and her assorted pen names." 
 
Note: Hood uses both "Carole Turner" and Carol Turner."
==Issue 1==
 
Beside Myself 1 was published in June 1989 and contains 171 pages. The covers are by The Southern Cross. The interior art is by Caro Hedge, Chris Soto, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild, Jackie Zoost.
From the editorial: 
* The Night Men by Carol Turner ("As Kirk takes command of the Enterprise, he has an immediate attraction to his Vulcan science officer.") (1)
* Shadows Stand, poem by Cassla Williams (9)
* Beside Myself I by Robin Hood ("When Kirk is split by the transporter, he finds his strength only when in contact with his other self.") (10
* Stone Cold, poem by Robin Hood (22)
* The Dark and I, poem by Robin Hood (23)
* Curse, poem by Robin Hood (23)
* Night Folds, poem by Robin hood (25)
* Cloud Dragons by Carolyn McTarrell ("Kirk and Spock are sent to investigate a planet where the last scout party returned nude, and unable to remember anything but intense pleasure.") (26)
* The Sixth Happiness by Pam Smith ("After seeing a letter from Spockʼs mother, Kirk asks him about his childhood which causes an unexpected reaction.") (36)
* Time Burns, poem by Pam Smith (49)
* Dragon Slayer by Kathy Tipton ("Kirk tries to apologise to Spock for what he said to him in order to drive out the spores of Omicron Ceti Three.") (50)
* Suspicious Eyes, poem by Carol Turner (63)
* Whistling by Sue Cameron ("Kirk flees into a deep cavern after being bitten by a venomous animal, and talks to himself about his feelings for Spock in order to keep awake after coming to his senses so that he can be found.") (64)
*Willow Bend, poem by Robin Hood (80)
* Wild Garden, poem by Robin Hood (81)
* Autumn Longing by Kathy Tipton ("Spock ponders their lives together as he waits for Admiral Kirk to return to their home at the end of the day.") (82)
* The Hour is Fire, poem by Jane Fury (85)
* The Careful Stranger by Jane Fury ("While Kirk is on Earth for shoreleave, Spock flees to Vulcan when he enters pon farr.") (86)
* Legend's Rest by Ellen Thacher ("After the fal tor pan, Spock discovers that Kirk suffers through nightmares of Spockʼs death every night.") (156)
* Legend's Rest, poem by Robin Hood (169)
* Golden Boy, poem by Sara Rodale (170)
 
Image:besidemyself1interior1.jpg| from issue #1, Jackie Zoost
Image:besidemyself1interior2.jpg| from issue #1, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself1interior3.jpg| from issue #1, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself1interior4.jpg| from issue #1, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself1interior5.jpg| from issue #1, Shellie Whild
Image:besidemyself1interior6.jpg| from issue #1, Chris Soto
Image:besidemyself1interior7.jpg| from issue #1, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself1interior8.jpg| from issue #1, sample poem
Image:besidemyself1interior9.jpg| from issue #1, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself1interior10.jpg| from issue #1, Shellie Whild
Image:besidemyself1interior11.jpg| from issue #1, sample text
Image:besidemyself1interior12.jpg| from issue #1, sample poems 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 1===
==Issue 2==
Beside Myself 2 was published in June 1990 and contains 157 pages. The covers are by DEW. The interior art is by Dragon, Kay Wells, Chris Soto, Shellie Whild, SBL, Carol Hedge, Susan Dundas.
From the editorial: 
* To Bell the Cat by Lisa Joas ("Kirk discovers that, not only did Sylvia rape Spock by morphing into a large male, but that she has invaded the Vulcanʼs body and is now fighting for control of it.") (4)
* Ice & Fire, poem by Robin Hood (21a)
* Dreams Within Dreams by Cassla Williams ("After Kirk and Spockʼs minds are unintentionally invaded by aliens, the after-effects are dreams of each other as their buried desires are given life.") (22)
* Lost Lamb, poem by Robin Hood (43)
* The Sleeper Wakes by Pam Smith ("Spock remains in a coma weeks after being injured in a collapsed building, even though he is totally healed.") (44)
* The Soul of Dreams, poem by Cassla Williams (56)
* Springtime & Tears, poem by Robin Hood (57)
* Butterfly Wings by Karn Wills ("Thinking their captain is asleep, McCoy is able to get Spock to confess his feelings for Kirk as they explore a new life form on a pleasant planet.") (58)
* Fire Sprite, poem by Robin Hood (67)
* Beside Myself II: To Those Who Wait by Robin Hood ("Spock journeys to the M/U to discover the reason for Kirkʼs anger and depression since returning from there.") (68)
* Trea'ath by Kathy Tipton ("Sarek comforts Amanda as they watch Spock, just reborn after the fal tor pan, remember Kirk.") (96)
* Vulcan Baiting by Carolyn McTarrell ("Kirk finally decides to use his body to try to seduce Spock.") (100)
* Tinder, poem by Robin Hood (105)
* Black Rain by Chris Waken ("Stranded with an injured Spock, Kirk unknowingly releases his soul to the planet and enters a coma they are unable to pull him from when he and Spock are rescued.") (106)
* IDIC, poem by Pam Smith (141)
* Morning Star by Ellen Thacher ("Spock teases his lover out of sleep, his need for his bondmate reflected back by the now awakened Kirk.") (142)
* Brighteyes, poem (155)
Image:besidemyself2interior1.jpg| from issue #2, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself2interiortwo.jpg| from issue #2, SBL
Image:besidemyself2interior3.jpg| from issue #2, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself2interior4.jpg| from issue #2, Chris Soto
Image:besidemyself2interior5.jpg| from issue #2, Kay Wells
Image:besidemyself2interior6.jpg| from issue #2, Shellie Whild 
Image:besidemyself2interior7.jpg| from issue #2, Dragon portrays young Spock and a sehlat
Image:besidemyself2interior9.jpg| from issue #2, sample poem
Image:besidemyself2interior10.jpg| from issue #2, Susan K. Dundas - "This scene from STIII:TSFS has been done numerous times before, but I've never before seen it depicted with so much texture. The expressions on all three characters look very alive and real. Sarek is particularly well portrayed." from The LOC Connection #19 (1990) 
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 2===
==Issue 3==
Beside Myself 3 was published in 1992 and contains 148 pages.
* The Morning Moon by Wheaton Buckly ("Walking together between negotiation meetings on a forest planet, Kirk and Spock accept their love for each other.")
* The Jaws of Night by Kathy Tipton (M/U: "After their run-in with Janice Lester, Kirk recognizes his need for Spock.")
* Crystal Wall by Kathy Tipton ("Spock dreams of three Kirks who all die, causing an emotional upheaval that McCoy must help him work out, and Kirk must help him work through.")
* Star God by Carol Turner (A/U: "Kirk lands on a backwater planet, and is aided by a Vulcan who comes to mean a great deal to him as they fix Kirkʼs ship and grow closer.")
* The Color Green by Carol Turner (M/U: "After meeting the Kirk of this universe, Spock is unable to resist his own. Mirror universe S & M story, with Mirror Kirk taunting and sexually threatening Mirror Spock, who finds it arousing.")
* Dear Devil by Susan Delon ("After he rescues a marooned Spock, Kirk finds the courage to confide his feelings after talking to one of the inhabitants who befriended the Vulcan." Another description: "Spock is stranded on a planet where he becomes their pet, honored, beloved devil. When Kirk finally finds him, one of the aliens encourages the captain to declare himself to the Spock. He does, and is received joyfully. Fade out...")
* Beside Myself III by Robin Hood ("Another transporter split, but this time it's Spock who's torn in two: a Vulcan and a Human. And it is the Vulcan that Kirk is most drawn to.")
* COVERS by DEW.
* ART by Cat, Deeb, Dragon, Elizabeth Kay
Image:beside3toc.jpg|TOC for issue #3
Image:beside3interior1.jpg| from issue #3, Deeb
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 3===
==Issue 4==
Beside Myself 4 was published in May 1996 and contains 149 pages. 
Stories and Poetry by: Robin Hood, writing as Kathy Tipton, Sue Cameron and others. Artwork by: Fiona Graves, Kathy Stanis, and Chris Soto.
From the editorial: 
* Amber Lanterns by Sue Cameron ("Kirk follows Spock to another dimension, where the inhabitants of the planet Spock was surveying plan to keep the Vulcan.") (4)
* To Alfalfa, With Love... by Ellen Thacher ("After everything is finally settled between them, Kirk writes a love letter to Spock.") (26)
* The Nettles by Carol Turner ("In the middle of the night, Spock goes to Kirkʼs cabin when vague feelings of unease disturb his sleep.") (32)
* Touch the Masterpiece by Sue Cameron ("After meeting once on Vulcan as youths, Kirk is interested in more than friendship when Spock welcomes him as the new captain of the Enterprise.") (40)
* Always in Mourning by Carol Turner (A/U: "Awakened by the arrival of Terrans to his planet, Spock finds that, during his long sleep as a vampire, all life on Vulcan has died and that his only hope is the young, fair-haired member of the expedition.") (52)
* Dance in the Shade by Kathy Tipton ("After Kirkʼs “death” in the Nexus, Spock travels to an alternate universe to enlist the aid of his bondmateʼs counterpart to save their galaxy.") (70)
* Shall We Dance by J. Mercedes ("At a diplomatic function, Spock takes the initiative and picks Kirk as his dance partner during a “blind” dance.") (90)
* Beside Myself IV: Ruby Sands by Robin Hood ("Kirk and Spock travel to Vulcanʼs past to clear up the mystery of why close variants of their names, Spʼock and Jamʼes, exist in that time.") (98)
 
Image:Beside4interior.jpg|from issue #4 by Chris Soto for "Shall We Dance?"-- "Chris Soto drew an elegant Spock in cape and tuxedo (one of my favorite things). His expression is noble yet there's an openness to it. Of course I imagine he's looking at Kirk from across the room." from Come Together #32 
Image:besidemyself4-1.jpg| from issue #4, Susan K. Dundas for "The Nettles"
Image:besidemyself4-2.jpg| from issue #4, Fiona Graves for "Touch the Masterpiece" -- "Fiona Graves did a gorgeous portrait of Kirk with an intricate and beautiful border." from Come Together #32 
Image:besidemyself4-3.jpg| from issue #4, sample title page
Image:besidemyself4-4.jpg| from issue #4, Kathy Stanis for "Touch the Masterpiece" --"Kathy Stanis graces us with Spock with a wondrous expression as Kirk lifts his uniform tunic..mysterious and sensual as we only see the back of Kirk's head. And what an expression on Spock! Kathy beautifully captured a truly sublime moment." from Come Together #32 
Image:besidemyself4-5.jpg| from issue #4, sample title page
Image:besidemyself4-6.jpg| from issue #4, sample poem and illo
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 4===
==References==
 
 
Category:Star Trek TOS Slash Zines
Category:1989 ZinesCategory:1990s