Стихи англ

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Was it ever meant to make sense
Were we destined to jump the fense
The question’s weight hard to condense
To face head on the farce, pretense
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Ignoring all logic, accepting the deal-
Searching for something most think isn't real.
Chaos that rages inside of your head...
Clinging to thoughts that you're better off dead.
Wanting some peace, always in need of rest,
To lie in bed, like a bird in its nest.
How many people have told you to stop
Climbing these steps, never reaching the top.
Now with the knowlege you've fought for so long
What do you see? That you're nothing but wrong.
The problems you thought you had solved long ago
Reappear in your mind and you know what they show-
Life is a secret that you'll never know.
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From within born
The theories we’ve forged and cut in stone
Allegiance sworn
To dreams into reality we’ve sown
Same paths we’ve tread
As others have, feared fall on steepest slopes
It’s long been said
We’ve long been mocked – still, values held have hope
Question, defy
Stereotypes which ever are so vague
We’d rather die
Than hand the victory to social plague
Break free of reigns
Taboos, old rules. And not as slaves be sold
Ignorance feign
Rethink, change, stir and ever be so bold
Let vision soar
Imagination be your faithful guide
Leave open door
To stranger realms, dimensions new and wide
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By cover we don't judge the book
This piece of wisdom that we took 
Was being told to us since youth.
And now so simple seems its truth.
We turn the cover, read a page. 
When not as young perceived their age 
Some might uncover as time flies 
Still deeper meaning hidden lies.
Not what you thought the book defines - 
Every new chapter gives you signs.
You have to read between the lines,
See contradictions it confines. 
Reread each page day after day, 
With true devotion find a way: 
See what it really meant to say. 
The structure not what you have thought
 
Untie the knot that is the plot,
let pieces fall firmly in place 
And understand narrative's grace. 
The wasted time is worth it all -
You've broken yet another wall. 
While books are hard to comprehend 
Finale will come, you can depend.
 
But unlike books, a person's mind 
Has no last page or words "the end".
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Night, silent, falls upon the ground 
When nothing dares to make a sound
 
Being yourself, by no one found 
All masks are dropped, no one's to hound 
The turmoils, troubles fall away
 
All problems vanish with wind's sway 
What's left, is calm and freedom's say 
The stars are mute, those specks of light 
The moon and lamp posts shining bright 
It's all I need to not lose sight 
Of road, of what I'm set to find 
That I could not, by day so blind 
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In era of fiction
The truth holds no cost
In age of addiction
Reality lost
Now placed in seclusion
All's not what it seems
The dream of illusion
Illusion of dreams
Wondering what's dumb or wise
People can't tell truth from lies
No room for a compromise
Creative delusion
Its brightest it gleams
Still fighting the fusion
Reality screams -
This instant let me out
Not me you should doubt
Let me out and set me free
I'm really not the enemy
A war this doesn't have to be
- You've ruled for a long time
It's finally my turn
As vengeance for your crime
In ignorance burn!
- I was drunk, mistaken
I may have been wrong
But humans - forsaken
Without me they're gone
Let me out and set me free
I'm really not the enemy
A war this doesn't have to be
- But you are so boring
At last that they see
New worlds they're exploring
Together with me 
 
*** 
 
(посвящалось моей теперь уже бывшей девушке)
In life outcast I long have been
 
A rock, alone, a fortress locked
But time has passed - sense came and knocked 
 
In life I found - friends, heart-felt kin
Emotions learned to give and take
Sincerely give and take to heart
To be myself, and never fake
Enjoy in others’ life take part
So much that it became an art
Soul was content yet wanted more
A hole, a void, remained unfilled
I had no one I could long for
One to hold dear, as I same-willed
One to adore, for whom I’m meant
Who understands to full extent
The “me” inside I represent
But then you came into my life 
 
An unexpected sudden flame
Thrust deep inside just like a knife
Evoked emotions absent name
Ones never felt, ones couldn’t tame
Long was the wait, all hope was lost
Existence held no meaning still
Endured, embraced love absence’s cost
But I met you, you’re like a pill
I know with what now void to fill
You’re all I want, you’re all I need
To feel alive, to feel I’m real
Not wishing so, planted a seed
On heart of love you put a seal
You’re part of me, and that’s the deal
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Word said be not, for I will make
The path my own, for my own sake
Word said be not, there is no need
The ancient's warnings I won't heed
For now as never as before
We need forget the elder's lore
As wisdom lies as bright as day
Beneath the snow, amongst the hay
Behind the smile, the loudest laugh
The sound of wood that's cut in half
The falling light of golden sun
The silent touch, the gentle stroke
The pitch-black night that we all shun
The bard's guitar, the pleasant folk
Tall grass, that which upon we run
The moment now has just begun
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Somehow I've been born
Against my own will
This reality so worn
A cup left to fill
Your rules I will learn
The laws to get by
What you say I will yearn
Not even ask why
The more I will grow
The more I will know
And a time will come
When I'll have my own head
I'll stop being dumb
There'll be things that I read
You'll expect me to fit
In the world brightly lit
In the boundaries you set
That you'll never regret
And be one in the crowd
A small speck in the cloud
I'll find strength to endure
The weight of being obscure
I will pick all the locks
To the doors that you closed
Thinking out of the box
Walk the path you opposed
I'll be what I want
No one's to taunt
To break I'm not afraid
The guidelines you laid
They're not for me
The others - maybe
Iт'd rather be all alone
Than be raised as a drone
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you've seen me at my very worst
as well as at my very best
you're not the last and not the first
still very unlike all the rest
Something to see left inbetween
expected I you be more keen
but as have you, i've never seen
my soul inside, that's so obscene
And same as I not having chance
To glimpse in yours, where secrets sleep
no matter how I prance and dance
You'll never let me reach that deep
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I’ve held it in, not dared to say
What matters most. But price to pay
Now turned too steep. Do what you will -
- I’ll speak my heart that won’t sit still.
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“Blessed” with depression
With passive aggression
Crippled by mental regression
Just ashes barely hot
Of what might be, or might be not 
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Don’t yet draw the curtain
Don’t yet draw the line
Nothing’s ever certain
Everything’ll be fine
Opponent standing tall
Yet fearing the fall
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Entity invisible force
Of all anxiety source
From the toughest course
And depths of remorse
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Drinking all night long
Till the booze was all gone
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Reality we weave
The mark that we leave
Of hope desperate beam
We dare to dream
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(это просто словесный понос, смысл которого утерян в пучинах времени)
what is life? you think you know. 
I hear, I see, I think I live.
 
if all's illusion - what you say, 
life itself - restricting boundaries... 
slaves of fate, why aren't you sure? 
free forever, why aren't you sure? 
why not exist beyond reality? 
word losing meaning, this is truth.
 
without the senses, what is there? 
question more than answer. 
afraid of asking, not being answered.
 
strayed from the obvious, 
but are you certain till you find out? 
trust another - trust reality. 
what you now know just still alive
 
may turn to nothing once you're dead.
 
why fear if origin unknown? 
kept in the dark by unknown force...
 
having read, you don't believe.
 
hidden fear, your mind - reality. 
nothing proven yet, 
well you may wait. 
beyond the walls, beyond the lies, 
want or not, you will discover...