First Time (Star Trek: TOS zine)/Issues 11-20

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==Issue 11==
First Time 11 was published in April 1987 and contains 161 pages.
The art is by Sarah Leonard, Chris Soto, Shellie Whild, and Jackie Zoost.
From the editorial: 
* First Time, poem by Dovya Blaque (1)
* Nom de Plume by Mooni (Humor and meta commentary: "Spock asks Kirk for advise on choosing a pen-name.") (4)
* Memory Rains, poem by Sharon Delon (9)
* In Celebration by Charlotte Frost ("Kirk is awed by Spockʼs gift to him, but is upset when he discovers that it sprung from one of McCoyʼs verbal jabs at the Vulcan.") (10)
* untitled poem by Diana Seaton (28)
* Teasing Eyes, poem by Theresa Hernandez (29)
* Enterprise Roulette by Angel C. Soie ("To ease the boredom of a boring patrol, the Enterprise crew starts a computerized Lonely Hearts Club that has everyone on board participating.") (30)
* untitled poem by Susan Catlin (43)
* Fire Eyes, poem by Dovya Blacque (45)
* Actions Speak Louder by Sarah Leonard ("Spock is upset by Kirk and Areel Shawʼs kiss on the bridge.") (46)
* Flesh - Metal, poem by Diane Seaton (54)
* Friend, Lover, Brother by Jenifer ("Three years into their 2nd five-year mission, Spock begins to feel the advent of pon farr but fears telling his captain of his plans to go to Vulcan to bond.") (56)
* untitled poem by Roberta Haga (83)
* Biding Time, poem by Kathy Tipton (85)
* The Hunter by Michelle Baker ("Kirk, Spock and the other two crewmembers of the landing party to a newly discovered world begin having erotic dreams.") (86)
* You Cried, poem by Susan Catlin (95)
* The Balance, poem by Alexis Fegan Black (96)
* Empty Devils, poem by Robin Hood (98)
* Time Itself, poem by Susan Catlin (101)
* The Last Straw by Roberta Haga ("Kirk and Spock argue over each otherʼs safety.") (102)
* Rock of Ages by Kathy Tipton ("Spock begins to rapidly age after the ship passes through an unknown energy wave.") (106)
* Venus Descending by Jenny Starr ("In order to help Areel Shaw find her younger brother, Kirk takes a drug that makes him younger and sexually submissive.") (126)
*A Night Full of Rain, poem by Deann Winter (169)
* Titans, poem by Sue Cameron (160)
* Enterprise Lost, poem by Janis E. Laine (161)
 
Image:firsttime11-1.jpg|from issue #11, Spock's list of pseudonyms
Image:firsttime11-2.jpg|from issue #11, Shellie Whild
Image:firsttime11-3.jpg|from issue #11, Chris Soto (very poorly reproduced, everyone must have been disappointed)
Image:firsttime11-4.jpg|from issue #11, Chris Soto (very poorly reproduced)
Image:firsttime11-5.jpg|from issue #11, Jackie Zoost
Image:firsttime11-6.jpg|from issue #11, Jackie Zoost
Image:firsttime11-7.jpg|from issue #11, Chris Soto
Image:firsttime11-8.jpg|from issue #11, Chris Soto (signed Tina) 
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 11===
==Issue 12==
First Time 12 was published in June 1987 and contains 157 pages. It consists of two novellas and some poetry. Interior art is by Caro Hedge, Chris Soto, Shellie Whild, and Jackie Zoost, and the covers are both by Chris Soto.
thumb|left|cover issue of #12, 3rd edition
* Time is the Fire by T'hera ("Stranded by a shuttle crash, Kirk and Spock are taken prisoner by the natives to by sacrificed to their sun god.") (4)
* Looking at a Rainbow, poem by Faille (64)
* I Wonder, poem by Rhea Gowan (67)
* Desert Wine, poem by Diane Seaton (68)
* Friend's Sonnet, poem by Diane Seaton (69)
* First Time, poem by Robin Hood (70)
* A Man for All Season, poem by Rhea Gowan (71)
* What Cannot Be Cured by Janis E. Laine ("Spock begins to enter pon farr just as the ambassador from a people anathema to Vulcans arrives on the ship.") (72)
File:firsttime12-1.jpg| from issue #12, Jackie Zoost for "Time is the Fire"
File:firsttime12-2.jpg| from issue #12, Jackie Zoost for "Time is the Fire"
File:firsttime12-3.jpg| from issue #12, sample text
File:firsttime12-4.jpg| from issue #12, Chris Soto for "What Cannot Be Cured"
File:firsttime12-5.jpg| from issue #12, Chris Soto for "What Cannot Be Cured"
File:firsttime12-6.jpg| from issue #12, Chris Soto for "What Cannot Be Cured"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 12===
==Issue 13==
First Time 13 was published in 1987 and has 171 pages.
The art is by Caren Parnes, by Dragon, Caro Hedge, SBL, Chris Soto, and Jackie Zoost.
From the editorial: 
* First Time, poem by Ciana Sepulveda (1)
* Wings, Horn & Hooves, poem by Jane Fury (4)
* Letting Go by Darla Michaels ("Kirk and McCoy return with Spock to Vulcan when his mother dies.") (6)
* Thoughts of Innocence, poem by Janis E. Laine (35)
* Obsessions by Pat Charles ("A female passenger tries to come on to Spock just as he and Kirk try to begin a relationship.") (36)
* Myrmidon, poem by Robin Hood (57)
* The Choice, poem by Sharon Pearson (58)
* Dust Devil, poem by Ciana Sepulveda (59)
* What Can Be Done by Sarah B. Leonard ("Kirk canʼt seem to forget seeing Spock being used by the Klingons and responding to it. Prequel: The Air is the Air.") (60)
* Treasure, poem by Janis E. Laine (71)
* A Dream is a Wish by Yvonne DeChine ("While on shore leave, Kirk persuades Spock to join him in trying “Spin,” a hallucinogenic drug.") (72)
* All He Wished by Cybel Harper ("Spock offers comfort to Kirk after Mitchellʼs death, and a new understanding is reached.") (96)
* Wind Whistles, poem by Sharon Delon (99)
* Adagio, poem by Ciana Sepulveda (100)
* His is the Only Music by Elizabeth Scott ("After unknowingly imbibing a drink that causes hallucinations in Vulcans, Spock envisions himself as a long dead ruler and Kirk his human love slave.") (102)
* untitled poem by Diane Seaton (124)
* Future Perfect, poem by Sharon Pearson (125)
* Two Blind Mice by Brandy Amber Allen ("Spock locates a missing Kirk,only to find he was reverted mentally to a child, spouting nursery rhymes while they try to escape their pursuers") (126)
* Festival Fire, poem by Sue Cameron (154)
* First Times, poem by Sharon Pearson (155)
* Waiting for Rain by Jenny Starr ("Taking the ship from Spock after receiving the message from Starfleet regarding Genesis only adds to Kirkʼs depression.") (156)
* Vulcan Past, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (170)
* Sea Dreams, poem by Sharon Pearson (171)
 
 
Image:firsttime13-1.jpg|from issue #13, Jackie Zoost
Image:firsttime13-2.jpg|from issue #13, not specifically credited but likely Caro Hedge
Image:firsttime13-3.jpg|from issue #13, Jackie Zoost -- "[His is the Only Music] is illoed by Jackie Zoost who is improving daily with one of the best pieces I've seen of hers to date. The rich warmth of feeling in both faces of the two 'lovers' expresses what K/S means to most of us." from Datazine #49 
Image:firsttime13-4.jpg|from issue #13, Chris Soto
Image:firsttime13-5.jpg|from issue #13, SBL
Image:firsttime13-6.jpg|from issue #13, Dragon, for the story A Dream is a Wish
Image:firsttime13-7.jpg|from issue #13, Chris Soto
Image:firsttime13-8.jpg|from issue #13, Jackie Zoost
Image:firsttime13-9.jpg|from issue #13, Dragon, for the story Two Blind Mice
Image:firsttime13-10.jpg|from issue #13, Dragon, for the story Two Blind Mice
Image:firsttime13-11.jpg|from issue #13, Chris Soto: "This illo shows Admiral Kirk standing over Spock, who is kneeling in a meditation robe. In the center is a larger Kirk figure. All the figures are well-rendered, including the larger Kirk, who is appropriately half in shadow. This shows that he is lost in memory. The light and shadow on the larger Kirk's face also balances in the composition with the dark firepot and the bright flame in the foreground. The smaller Kirk's light Admiral's tunic and Spock's dark meditation robe are balanced as well."from The LOC Connection #13 "The Chris Soto illo in this story encapsulates the entire feeling on one page. Chris' pen and inks are masterful. While I enjoy her pencil's, it is hard to beat or even match the cleanness of the black and white medium she most often uses. This illo is incredible." from Datazine #49
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 13===
 
==Issue 14==
 
First Time 14 was published in 1987 and contains 200 pages. 
The zine won the 1988 Surak Award for Best Zine. 
The covers by The Southern Cross also won a Surak Award. Interior art is by Dragon, Caro Hedge, SBL, Chris Soto, Shellie Whild, and Jackie Zoost.
* First Time, poem by Carla Menke (1)
* Tango by Dovya Blacque (Surak Award - Best Story) (also in Shadows in the Rain) ("While at a diplomatic reception, Kirk agrees to dance with Spock after watching him dance with the ruler of that planet.") (4)
* poem by Lonetta Ives (14)
* Cradle, poem by Rhea Gowan (15)
* A Flash of Red by Cybel Harper ("Kirk almost dies after being attacked by an unknown crewman but Spock immediately knows of his danger and uses a mindmeld to keep him alive.") (16)
* poem by Lonetta Ives (28)
* Sailing, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (29)
* The Healing by Charlotte Frost (tied for the 1988 Surak Award for 'Best Long Story') ("Kirk comforts Spock after his aborted pon farr, so then Spock is able to comfort Kirk when he is notified of his nephewʼs death.") (30)
* Master Magician, poem by Shellie A. Whild (97)
* Rhythm and Rhyme, poem by Susan Catlin (98)
* Spur of the Moment by Emily Adams ("Kirk and Spock are enjoying the view in the OD when Kirk, rising to leave, stumbles and ends up in Spockʼs arms.") (100)
* The Lure by T'Hera Snaider ("Spock is given a devise to control the seizures he is having after a head injury and finds that one setting creates fantasies in his mind.") (104)
* poem by Sharon Delon (134)
* Cat Tales, poem by Diane Seaton (134a)
* Green Dreams by D.A. Martin ("After the meld on Melkot, Kirk has dreams of a lover who turns out to be himself.") (135)
* Smiled, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (157)
* Lions Reflected, poem by Jane Fury (158)
* A Different Obsession by Mary Adelia ("Captain Spock listens to a tape he made several years before of a sexual experience he had with a certain lieutenant dealing with the tragedy on the Farragut.") (160)
* poem by Roberta (200)
* Smiling Eyes, poem by Susan Catlin (201)
File:firsttime14-1.jpg| from issue #14, sample text
File:firsttime14-2.jpg| from issue #14, Jackie Zoost
File:firsttime14-3.jpg| from issue #14, Jackie Zoost
File:firsttime14-4.jpg| from issue #14, SBL
File:firsttime14-5.jpg| from issue #14, Chris Soto
File:firsttime14-6.jpg| from issue #14, sample text
File:firsttime14-7.jpg| from issue #14, Dragon
File:firsttime14-8.jpg| from issue #14, Jackie Zoost
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 14===
==Issue 15==
First Time 15 was published in December 1987 and contains 179 pages. 
It was nominated for at least one Surak Award.
The art is by Bri, SBL, Chris Soto, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild, and Jackie Zoost.
 
* First Time, poem by Cybel Harper (1)
* The Human Thing to Do by Sarah B. Leonard ("As his 2nd Pon Farr nears, Spock visits the Shore Leave planet to decide who he will ask to bond with.") (4)
* Music Lover, poem by Shellie Whild (15)
* Wild Sand, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (16)
* Fantasy Prince by Darla Michaels (18)
* Soul Search by Jacqueline Vale ("After Omicron Ceti 3, Spock is surprised by Kirk as he masturbates.") (34)
* Voyeur, poem by Cybel Harper (37)
* Lessons by Emily Adams ("After noting a change in Kirkʼs reaction to women, Spock asks for lessons in beginning a relationship.") (38)
* End of Summer, poem by Shellie Whild (54)
* Mirror, poem by Cybel Harper (55)
* Listen and Learn by Maria Surah ("Spock and Kirk discuss the gossip Spock overheard regarding a relationship between the two of them.") (56)
* Sand Curtain, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (63)
* Burden of Shadows by Janis E. Laine ("After Ekos, Spock is haunted by a childhood trauma that threatens his dawning relationship with Kirk.") (64)
* Footsteps, poem by Jane Fury (89)
* Firebird by Jane Fury ("Spock is stranded with “Kirok” after beaming down alone to the planet to rescue Kirk when the Enterprise is disabled.") (90)
* Rival, poem by Janis E. Laine (178)
* Firebird, poem by Jane Fury (179)
 
 
Image:firsttime15-1.jpg|from issue #15, Shellie Whild
Image:firsttime15-2.jpg|from issue #15, Jackie Zoost
Image:firsttime15-3.jpg|from issue #15, Bri
Image:firsttime15-4.jpg|from issue #15, DEW
Image:firsttime15-5.jpg|from issue #15, sample poem
Image:firsttime15-6.jpg|from issue #15, sample text (and a startling choice of graphic)
Image:firsttime15-7.jpg|from issue #15, Chris Soto for Burden of Shadows 
Image:firsttime15-8.jpg|from issue #15, DEW
Image:firsttime15-9.jpg|from issue #15, Chris Soto for Firebird
Image:firsttime15-10.jpg|from issue #15, Chris Soto for Firebird -- "This is a touching illo of Kirk and Spock in Native American costume during the novella, "Firebird", with Spock leaning his head against Kirk's chest. The geometric pattern on Kirk's headband is echoed in the background. Both of these, and the pattern on the frame look like Native American blanket patterns. Spock's expression and the disordered hair on his right side indicate subtly that Spock is still unwell. He has only recently emerged from healing trance at that point in 'Firebird'".from The LOC Connection #10
Image:firsttime15-11.jpg|from issue #15, Chris Soto for Firebird
 
 
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 15===
==Issue 16==
First Time 16 was published in March 1988 and contains 162 pages. It is a single novel called, "Crystal Clear" by Roberta Haga.
It has art by Chris Soto (lots) and one piece by Paul Haga.
 thumb|issue #16, 2nd edition
From the editorial page: "REMEMBER!! If you didn't buy this zine from this address [redacted] or from an over-wieght blonde, they probably bought it from a xeroxer and you got took!"
Summaries:
"The Enterprise rescues a felinoid female from a smugglerʼs ship and soon after all the males on the ship begin to have a reaction that causes all of them, including the captain and first officer, to be constantly sexually aroused."
From The Zine Connection #34: "The Enterprise beams aboard a beautiful, female, alien animal. Confusion reigns on the ship. Everyone is being driven mad by lust, lasciviousness, and love... Our boys fight the power being exerted upon them: fight it mightily, but fortunately, they lose...."
Excerpt:
File:firsttime16-1.jpg| from issue #16, Chris Soto
File:firsttime16-2.jpg| from issue #16, Chris Soto
File:firsttime16-3.jpg| from issue #16, Paul Haga
File:firsttime16-4.jpg| from issue #16, Chris Soto
File:firsttime16-5.jpg| from issue #16, Chris Soto
File:firsttime16-6.jpg| from issue #16, uncredited
File:firsttime16-7.jpg| from issue #16, sample text
File:firsttime16-8.jpg| from issue #16, Chris Soto
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 16===
==Issue 17==
First Time 17 was published in May 1988 (a month after the previous issue) and contains 199 pages. It has interior art by Dragon, Caro Hedge, Chris Soto, Kay Wells, and Shellie Whild.
* First Time, poem by Cybel Harper (1)
* Five Days by Emily Adams ("Shore Leave Between ST:TMP and ST:TWOK. "We have dinner, and we talk about our day, and neither of us will say anything about how we feel or about the subject that is uppermost in both our minds, each other.") (4)
* Glory Days, poem by Cybel Harper (9)
* Carved in Stone by Kay Wells ("Kirk poses for a portrait, unaware that the artist uses his paintings to create nude statues of the subject.") (10)
* Dragon Light, poem by Robin Hood (31)
* Sweet Disaster by Elizabeth Scott ("After pon farr together,Spock rejects a bonding with Kirk out of fear of the effects on him.") (32)
* In Hand, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (63)
* Forests of the Night by Ciana Sepulveda ("Spock Searches for Kirk on a Romulan planet after Kirk is abducted by Orions and sold into slavery.") (64)
* Journeys of the Night, poem by Robin hood (155)
* When, Look at You, Endless Night, poems by Cybel Harper (156)
* Needles by Janis E. Laine ("Kirk and Spock make love while hiding in a haystack from the Klingons.") (157)
* Night Spirit, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (163)
* Who's Too Old, poem by Carol Turner (164)
File:firsttime17-1.jpg| from issue #17, Dragon for "Five Days"
File:firsttime17-2.jpg| from issue #17, Shellie Whild for "Carved in Stone"
File:firsttime17-3.jpg| from issue #17, Shellie Whild for "Carved in Stone"
File:firsttime17-4.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto for "Forests of the Night"
File:firsttime17-5.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto for "Forests of the Night"
File:firsttime17-6.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto for "Forests of the Night"
File:firsttime17-7.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto for "Forests of the Night"
File:firsttime17-8.jpg| from issue #17 
File:firsttime17-9.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto for "Forests of the Night"
File:firsttime17-10.jpg| from issue #17, Kay Wells for "Needles"
File:firsttime17-11.jpg| from issue #17, Chris Soto
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 17===
==Issue 18==
thumb|100px|cover issue #18, 3rd edition. Note: This image has been marked as sexually explicit and has been minimised.
First Time 18 was published in June 1988 and contains 177 pages.
The interior art is by DEW, Dragon, Caro Hedge, Pat Horowitz, SBL, Chris Soto, and Jackie Zoost.
From the editorial: "I have to inform you (notice I didn't say WARN?) there is a story -- NOON TOMORROW, that is a death story. Don't panic! I told you ahead of tome AND, believe me, you'll hate yourself when all your friends are talking about how wonderful it was and you don't have the faintest idea what they're talking about. Yes, it is a death story and yes, in my opinion, it is a happy ending, (but keep the tissues handy!) in fact, there couldn't be any other way to end it and I'm sure you'll all agree. Okay, don't read it, see if I care!"
Also from the editorial: "DON'T BUY A XEROX OF THIS ZINE. THE ORIGINAL IS A MUCH BETTER INVESTMENT. Apparently our campaign is working: the little copier person WASN'T at the last con! Thanks girls! Keep up the good work!"
* These Things I Would Do - Emily Adams. (After Spock is rescued from imprisonment, Kirk decides to give Spock a loving experience of sex. "Kirk spoke, not even bothering to open his eyes. "When you've been as close to death as we were, do you ever think of things you wish you'd done or places you wish you'd seen or things like that?" "Yes," the Vulcan answered.") (4)
* San Francisco, poem by Cybel Harper (24b)
* Until Tonight by Peter Silverton ("The Night after Pon Farr. "I don't really know what I expected, but I think I was surprised to find you were not alien. Not really. How could we all have misjudged you so? Especially me, your closest friend? I've known you almost two years and I don't think I really knew or understood you until tonight.") (25)
* Eridani's Daughter, poem by Janis E. Laine (28)
* The Souvenir by Kay Wells ("McCoy Gives Kirk a Vulcan dildo as a joke, assuming he and Spock are lovers.") (29) (winner of a 1988 Surak Award)
* The Night of the First Day, poem by Dovya Blacque (46)
* Other Games Besides Chess by Sharon Pillsbury ("Spock reprograms the thermostat in Kirkʼs cabin in order to force him to stay in Spockʼs cabin and bed for the night") (47)
* The Dance, poem by Cybel Harper (60)
* Understand, poem by Cybel Harper (61)
* One Small Berry by Elizabeth Scott ("Kirk enters himself as a bondmate for Spock as they return to Vulcan to meet the candidates there.") (62)
* After the Fire, poem by Dovya Blacque (75)
* Noon Tomorrow by Addison Reed ("AU: Kirk becomes a patient in an alien asylum after Spock dies on the crash on their way to their bonding.") (76)
* Soul of Dreams, poem by Robin Hood (91)
* Reflections in a Warped Mirror by T'Hera Snaider ("Kirk dreams of killing an A/U Spock while in Tholian space.") (92)
* Without a Word by Dagmar Buse ("Kirk is surprised by Spock while he masturbates.") (116)
* The Propine, Perfect Love, Asked for More, three poems by Marion Graham (135)
* A Thousand Times by Mara Lynn Cade ("Kirk is chosen as a “Token” by an alien ruler and must submit sexually to him, causing Spock to think it was consensual when he finds out.") (136)
* The Song, poem by Cybel Harper (162)
* Query, Repartee, poem by Marion Graham (163)
* Dear Mom by Roberta Haga ("Kirk writes to his mother of his unhappiness due to Spockʼs departure for Gol.") (164)
* Explain to Me, poem by Cybel Harper (176)
File:firsttime18-1.jpg| from issue #18, Dragon for "These Things I Would Do"
File:firsttime18-2.jpg| from issue #18, Sarah B. Leonard, for the poem "Eridani's Daughter" by Janis E. Laine
File:firsttime18-3.jpg| from issue #18, DEW for "The Souvenir"
File:firsttime18-4.jpg| from issue #18, DEW for "The Souvenir"
File:firsttime18-5.jpg| from issue #18, DEW for "Other Games Beside Chess"
File:firsttime18-6.jpg| from issue #18, Jackie Zoost for "One Small Berry"
File:firsttime18-7.jpg| from issue #18, Pat Horowitz for the poem, "After the Fire"
File:firsttime18-8.jpg| from issue #18, "Dear Mom"—first page
File:firsttime18-9.jpg| from issue #18, Dragon for "A Thousand Times"
File:firsttime18-10.jpg| from issue #18, Dragon for "A Thousand Times"
File:firsttime18-11.jpg| from issue #18, DEW for "Without a Word"
File:firsttime18-12.jpg| from issue #18, Chris Soto for "Reflections in a Warped Mirror"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 18===
==Issue 19==
First Time 19 was published in September 1988 and contains 183 pages.
It won several 1988 Surak Awards.
The interior art by Dragon, Caro Hedge, Sarah B. Leonard, Chris Soto, Suki, Kay Wells, and Jackie Zoost.
From the editorial: "This zine shouldn't insult anyone who believes in IDIC and if they don't then the hell with them!"
* First Time, poem (1)
* To Catch a Unicorn by Robin Hood ("Finding love on a planet of intelligent “horses”.") (4)
* Chains, poem by Cybel Harper (6)
* Sunless Sea, poem by Jo Hardy (7)
* The Ewing Syndrome by Janis E. Laine ("Spock daydreams of what could be while preparing to beam down on Vulcan for his marriage to T'Pring.") (8)
* Fear of Night, poem by Ciana Sepulveda-Mitchell (15)
* Assumptions by Kay Wells ("Spock and Kirk are forced to have sex in order to appease the god of a primitive culture while stranded on their planet." -- "A sea of reddish-brown humanoids, becoming more numerous by the minute, jumped around excitedly, emitting sharp grunting sounds and baring sharp pink teeth. They appeared quite identical, each head topped with a flopping ball of frizzy orange hair.") (16)
* Fairy Magic, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (43)
* Unforgiven, poem by Chris Soto (44)
* Secrets of the Heart by Cybel Harper ("Kirk doesnʼt understand why Spock has been acting so tense around him." -- "What's wrong with him, Bones?" Kirk asked as he paced back and forth across the doctor's cabin. "What's wrong with who?" "Spock, of course," Kirk said, as if the answer should have been obvious. Of course, the doctor thought with a mental sigh. Who else?")
* In the Name of Love by Charlotte Frost (After Spock is sexually tortured, Kirk teaches him self-gratification.") (46)
* Goodbye, poem by Cybel Harper (91)
* The Seed of Truth by Marion Graham (After the fal tor pan, Kirk decides to not repeat the mistakes and missed chances of the past between him and Spock.") (92)
* Love in a Vacuum, poem by Cybel Harper (97)
* Star Vow by Charmen Tramen ("After VʼGer, Kirk demands to know Spockʼs reason for leaving him at the end of the five-year mission. "The Vulcan motioned to a chair.") (98)
* Blended Blood, poem by Robin Hood (108)
* Last First Time by Elizabeth Scott ("Spock repeatedly removes Kirkʼs memories of their times together at Kirkʼs request.") (110)
* Thin Ice by Emily Adams ("Kirk sees similarities of his relationship with Spock in a “movie” the whole crew had been telling him to see, so he asks Spock to see it.") (136)
* Born to Fire, poem by Jo Hardy (155)
* River Rising by Martha Selena Brown ("Kirk has hysterical amnesia and paralysis after an accident.") (156)
* Gift, The Tip, poems by Sarah B. Leonard (182)
* If Your Heart Were the Prize, poem by Janis E. Laine (183)
File:Firsttime19-1 .jpg| from issue #19, Suki for "River Rising"
File:firsttime19-2.jpg| from issue #19, Kay Wells for "Assumptions"
File:firsttime19-3.jpg| from issue #19, Chris Soto
File:firsttime19-4.jpg| from issue #19, Dragon
File:firsttime19-5.jpg| from issue #19, Sarah B. Leonard for "In the Name of Love"
File:firsttime19-6.jpg| from issue #19, Jackie Zoost for "Seed of Truth"
File:firsttime19-7.jpg| from issue #19, Dragon for "Thin Ice"
File:firsttime19-8.jpg| from issue #19, Dragon for "Thin Ice"
===Reactions and Reviews: Issue 19===
==Issue 20==
First Time 20 was published in December 1988 and contains 199 pages.
It won several 1988 Surak Awards, including Best Art on the covers by Chris Soto.
Interior art is by Alayne, Dragon, Chris Soto, and Kay Wells.
* First Kiss, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (1)
* Semantics - Emily Adams (Spockʼs understanding of a new culture from the lack of certain words in their language leads to him and Kirk being able to finally understand what their feelings for each other really are. "But, Spock, how could you know that your life wasn't in danger? These people this whole civilization goes against every belief we have. How could you trust G'Thendis that way?" "Because their customs and mores differ considerably from our own does not automatically prove them to be without honor.") (4)
* Velvet Deceptions - Robert Haga (novella) (A/U: Kirk, a ranger in Starfleet, is assigned to transport a prince of Vulcan to his marriage but is surprised by an adult Vulcan he thinks is there as “the kidʼs” guard. "A shadow slipped through the moonlit night, making its way soundlessly through extensive and well- manicured gardens to a large, ornate verandah. There was no reason to worry about its being seen; still, the shadow entered through a side door to slip unnoticed into the huge, three-story house. "Where the hell have you been?" came the instant greeting upon the female's recognition of her caller. Captain James Kirk chuckled, bent to place a kiss on one perfumed shoulder, then pulled one hand across the woman's flat abdomen as he stepped into her spacious four-room suite. "Is that any way to greet your favorite lay?") (10)
* Goodbye, poem Cybel Harper (88)
* The Rest is Silence, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (89)
* No Better Mirror - Charlotte Frost The author says it was inspired by The Gol Letters by Carlin Thorne in Naked Times #18. (After VʼGer, Kirk and Spock work to rebuild their friendship, which eventually shows itself as the love they have both denied. "Kirk lay on his bed, listening contentedly to the humming of the engines. His hands were folded across his stomach and his eyes were open, staring into darkness. For a moment, he could almost imagine that everything was as it used to be. Almost.") (90)
* I Love Dreaming, poem by Tere Ann Roderick (127)
* Snowbound - Janis E. Laine (Kirk invites Spock to his cabin for shoreleave where both, unaware of what the other plans, try to further their relationship. "No." "What?" "No, Sir," the Vulcan amended. "But look, Spock," Jim Kirk coaxed, "it'll only be for three days. How much trouble could we possibly get into?") (128)
* God Rising, poem by Robin Hood (141)
* King of the Shimrah Raiders - Addison Reed (Abandoned on the planet he had been sent to on a covert mission, Kirk survives as leader of the people there until Spock arrives. "The basis for the succeeding account, translated from the native, was found hidden in the Hall of Archives of the planet Tohhran during an expedition ten years following the rescue of its civilization from the Klingon Empire, Federation Stardate 3187.0. It details the daring attempts to repel the Klingon forces by a small group of rebels headquartered in the hostile Shimrah Mountain Range. And of their mysterious leader, the man they called King.") (142)
* Brother to a Dragon - Dovya Blacque [Also in Shadows in the Rain]. (Kirk is upset when he suddenly finds out that Spock has a brother, Seth, who Kirk meets at an exhibit of the manʼs artwork. "A lie by omission is still a lie. I cannot say why I never spoke of this, why I never told Jim about Seth. Perhaps if I had, matters would never have occurred as they did; perhaps the confusion and feelings of betrayal and guilt would have been avoided for us all. Yet, the truth . . . . Yes, the truth is that I never spoke of Seth, not to Jim . . . nor to anyone else.") (172)
* A Visit from St. Nicholas, poem by Janis E. Laine (199)
 
 
File:firsttime20-1.jpg| from issue #20, sample text
 
File:firsttime20-2.jpg| from issue #20, Kay Wells for "Velvet Deceptions"
 
File:firsttime20-3.jpg| from issue #20, Kay Wells for "Velvet Deceptions"
 
File:firsttime20-4.jpg| from issue #20, Kay Wells for "Velvet Deceptions"
 
File:firsttime20-5.jpg| from issue #20, Chris Soto for "Velvet Deceptions"
 
File:firsttime20-6.jpg| from issue #20, Dragon for "King of the Shimrah Raiders"
 
File:firsttime20-7.jpg| from issue #20, Alayne for "Brother to a Dragon"
 
File:firsttime20-8.jpg| from issue #20, Dragon for "King of the Shimrah Raiders"
 
 Image:firsttime20-9.jpg| Kay Wells is the artist for Snowbond. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized. -- "My god! Even though I'm no K/S-erotica virgin (or any other kind), this drawing about made me faint. Kirk's penis, Spock's mouth. Beautiful." from Come Together #19 
 
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