None taken but you must agree that your story is rather strange if not unbelievable.  If you did in fact come up here at the age of 9 then your written Russian should be approximately at a third grade level, fifth grade if your parents put an effort into it - whoever wrote that first post completed Russian school if not more.   Despite the inconsistency in grammar, your mentality is way too Russian: noone raised here will actually ponder moving to another country for the fear of staying alone - it is simply unconceivable.  Also, when writing a post: always think of the audience.  Most people here have moved to give their children the opportunities you got, same once you are clearly not taking advantage of if you are soliciting medical school advice on Eva.  I believe you are in fact an American Citizen who was somehow raised in Russia but possibly brought here once in a while to maintain your English (please note my choice of words here is not coincidental).  I have actually lived in London for a year and loved it but I went on a study abroad program not followed a Pole who I was not even engaged to.   If you want a constructive advice, here it is: get your life together first and foremost then guys will follow you, not the other way around.  For some twisted reason, you are already two steps behind your peers and you may want to re-think your priorities if you want to get anywhere in life.