Look Up Child

is the fourteenth episode of the seventeenth season and the 377th overall episode of Grey's Anatomy.
==Short Summary==
Jackson pays a visit to his father that helps set him on the right path.
==Full Summary==
Jackson drives through the rain as he thinks back to moments in his life with April and his father.
He sets up a tent in a forest and spends a few days camping there.
Catherine tries to reach Jackson but he doesn't answer her calls.
Jackson leaves his tent to go on a hike. After a while, he emerges from the bushes across the street from Jefferson Grill. He enters the diner. His father is busy packing lunches and is surprised to see him. He was expecting Tate.
Jackson pulls up outside a house. He runs up to the front door and rings the bell. He tells himself he is not being impulsive. He thought it through. April opens the door with Harriet in her arms.
Back at the diner, Jackson assures his father that everyone is alive. Robert says he was expecting Tate, who delivers lunches to people in the community that need them. Robert tested negative yesterday. He offers Jackson coffee but Jackson declines. Robert has been thinking about Jackson but he didn't want to be an extra burden to him during the pandemic. He asks about Harriet. Jackson says he didn't come to catch up. He needs answers. Robert says they can talk while packing lunches together.
April mistakenly thinks she forgot that it was Jackson's night with Harriet. April is stressed. Harriet is running a fever and Matthew is with his sister and the power keeps going on and off. Jackson enters the house.
Robert shows Jackson how to make his sandwiches. Jackson agrees to make the sandwiches but stresses that came for answers. Catherine told him that he sounded like his father when he told her he couldn't see change coming from the Foundation anymore. Jackson wonders what she meant by that. Robert admits he hasn't thought about the Foundation in a long time. He has never been one for the establishment. Jackson thinks the whole system needs to be thrown out and rebuilt, understanding that it is near impossible seeing how many people benefit from the current system. Robert admits that does sound like him. Jackson begrudgingly lets Robert show him how to use the meat slicer. Jackson wonders why Robert never made the changes. Robert says the Avery name carries influence but also a great deal of baggage. Jackson says their amount of money can become a burden. People expect you to fix everything with that money. Jackson adds that their name has become synonymous with the worst behavior possible. Robert says it has not over here. Nobody knows where he came from.
April starts cleaning up the living room. Matthew has been working a lot. She knows the mess is driving Jackson nuts. She informs him that Harriet has been sick for a couple of days. April needs a shower so Jackson watches Harriet. He puts on some jazz music. Moments later, the power dies.
Jackson and Robert have found their groove with some music. Jackson admits the turkey's good. He asks what Harper said when Robert walked away from surgery. At first, he thought it was a phase, but he stopped speaking to Robert when he realized he was serious. He called Robert a stain on the family name, which in hindsight is a complete joke. Harper was never interested in talking to his son unless it was business-related. Jackson has had enough of business talk, too. Robert always knew he couldn't be the son that his father wanted because he had no interest in being the kind of the man that the role with the Foundation required him to be. Robert then guesses Jackson is there because he is ready to leave it all behind.
Harriet cried herself to sleep while April finished her cold shower. Jackson is looking around the kitchen for matches. Matthew has hidden them for the kids and even April has no idea where they are. Jackson then uses the stove to light the candles he found. Jackson thinks Harriet has RSV, as April suspected. Jackson informs April that Meredith is awake. April has been praying for her. April asks Jackson why he's here. Jackson dodges the question. He wonders why he has never been to April's place before and asks how her life with Matthew and the kids is going. She calls him out for being cagey. Jackson admits he went to see his father again. He needed to know if he was right about what he wanted. Jackson says Robert couldn't step up, but Jackson can. He wants to take over the Foundation.
Jackson and Robert sit down with a cup of coffee from Robert's own successful roast. He was going to branch it out into other parts of the state but then COVID hit. Jackson knows the state was hit hard, with the hospital having to turn people away. Robert did his best to keep his diner open but he ended up just bagging food for the regulars. Packing lunches is weirdly therapeutic. Jackson comments on the special life he built for himself. Jackson admits he feels stuck. He feels like there are two parts to him. First, there is this successful surgeon that he's worked so hard to become, but there is also the guy that didn't ask for any of this. Jackson worries that the system is beyond repair. Robert suggests he let go of the idea that it is on him to fix the world. There is nothing wrong with keeping things simpler. Jackson has thought about getting a place in the woods and working in a small private practice. Robert agrees they all deserve to live life the way they want it. Jackson wonders if he ever thought about what if he had chosen differently. Robert is not the type to look back. Jackson asks him why he left, which he couldn't bring himself to ask the last time. Jackson has realized it has messed him up. It made it hard to maintain relationships. He has this inclination to run away. As he gets to work with the meat slicer, he says he has tried to rid himself of the shame and pain that comes with all that. He has doubled down on being the best in what he does. He went along with his marriage and foundation business longer than he should have. No matter how hard he tries, he always ends up running, into the woods, trying to fight the part of his father in him. He gets frustrated when his father just sits there in silence and ends up cutting his hand on the slicer.
April comes back after checking on Harriet, who was having a bad dream. Her temp has gone down and her breathing's better. Jackson has lit some candles. April wonders if Jackson was hoping Matthew wouldn't be here tonight. She has noticed that the communication between them is limited and superficial whenever they are in the same room. Jackson says they keep it civil. April wonders why he came to tell her his plan in person. Jackson says running the Foundation means he has to move to Boston. He wants her and her family to move with him. The Foundation will employ them. They will fund whatever they want to do. He could never leave Harriet behind so he really needs them to come with him.
Robert has washed the wound inside the diner. Jackson wants to put the glue on the wound himself but Robert takes over when he struggles. Jackson bandages up his hand. Robert jokes they should set up a family practice. Jackson leave to get some air.
April tells Jackson he's not the first person in quarantine to face existential question, but you don't just move across the country on a whim. Jackson has always rejected the family name. Jackson says that is not where this idea is coming from. He can use the Foundation to make some profound changes in the world. April admires his idea. Jackson feels in his gut it's the right thing to do. She questions how often he's felt the need in his gut to go on walkabouts and talk to trees. Jackson points out she does the same thing by talking to God about plans for her life. Jackson says nature is like that for him, it offers him peace to find out what he wants regardless of what everyone expects from him. April asks how much time he spent considering to go see his father. Jackson knows what she's getting at and says it was a realization more than a whim. He needed clarity and he got that from his conversation with Robert. April is not about to uproot her whole life and just roll with something that he has always rejected. She questions what if it doesn't work. Jackson points out he never asked her that question when he stood by and watched April marry Matthew. He had her back that day and every day since. While he's not a big fan of Matthew, he has never let himself stand in the way of the happiness that she chose for herself. He wants her to have his back on this. April wants him to be happy but she thinks running the Foundation is not who he is.
Jackson is offended that April is saying he'll end up either failing or quitting running the Foundation. April says Jackson is an incredible surgeon who works miracles. That is where he has left his mark. She questions why he would want to give that up. Jackson says it is not about he wants, it's about what he needs to do. He won't let April decide who he is. She says he doesn't get to chose his career over hers. She is happy helping people. She is building support systems and resources for people in rural communities. Jackson says he can keep doing that on a larger scale across the country. They have an opportunity to do something amazing for all of them. He's sure Matthew will follow April. April says Jackson didn't always have her back. When she found what she needed in Jordan, he left her alone. Jackson thinks that is not fair. She ran away from him and the grief over Samuel. He was resentful at the time but he gets it now. She had to do what she did to survive the grief. Jackson is not running from something, he is running towards something. Jackson says he has an opportunity to make everything make sense, to become what he was meant to be. He wants to do everything he can to get there. Harriet starts crying. Jackson goes to check on her.
Jackson is changing his bandage as April comes back from checking on Harriet. Harriet's temp is continuing the downward trend. She is talking gibberish in her sleep. They share some stories about Harriet, who can be as stubborn as the two of them. He can't leave Harriet behind but he also cannot walk away from this chance. Catherine managed to combine the two and Jackson owes it to Harriet to at least try to do it, too. He can create real and lasting racial equity in medicine. He could then look his daughter in the face and tell her he did everything to create a better world. He can do all that and also be the father that Robert never was. April says the only thing standing in the way is her needing to turn her life upside down.
Robert joins Jackson out on the porch. Jackson has done more thinking these last few days out in nature than he has for the past whole year. Robert has been thinking a lot about his last visit. He left because that is what he does, and he chose this place because it is safe. Nothing of what he does requires much of him and he could walk away any time. Jackson adds he's also leaving people behind. Robert was convinced Jackson would be better off without him. Jackson doesn't understand how a child could be better off without a father their whole life. Robert says his father saw him as the screw-up of the family and Robert became exactly that. He didn't want to pass that down. He understands now that he hurt a lot of people. He may never even get to meet his granddaughter. Jackson says it didn't have to be that way. Robert has bought Harriet a bunch of presents but he has never sent them because he hasn't earned the right to be in Jackson's space. Not one day has passed where he hasn't regretted leaving Jackson. It haunts him. He is truly sorry. He knows an apology will never make up for it and he has to live with that. Jackson gets emotional. Robert will never get over it. He knows Jackson will be okay no matter what road he chooses. Jackson says he's still finding a way to walk away from it all. The apple doesn't far fall from the Avery tree. Robert assures Jackson that he is not like him. His questioning his choices is proof of that. On top of that, Jackson is committed to his work and family and people in need. He might want to run away from it all at times, but anybody with any sense does that. That is different from actually following through with it. Robert was scared. Jackson is, too. Robert tells him he is scared of the doing the wrong thing, while he himself was too scared to do the right thing. He knows Jackson is not a runner or he would have by now. He easily could have run after everything about Harper's actions came out. He never even considered running back then. Jackson has it in his soul to do the right. He fixed that disaster and even made the Foundation better. He shouldn't stay if he doesn't want to, but he can't blame it on Robert if he runs. Even on his worst day, Jackson is ten times the man that Robert is.
Jackson arrives at Catherine and Richard's house. He can't stay at Grey Sloan in Seattle. He can't keep doing what they have always done. People of color are dying and the system keeps erasing them. They can do something about that. He can show Harriet that they can put their money and attention where their mouths are. Things won't magically change after COVID. White supremacy is woven into the fabric of this country, which includes medicine. People of color should not be gaslit, shamed, and ignored when they go to the doctor or have to prove that their lives have value. This constant cycle of trauma and stress and poverty and racism is impacting on mental health. People don't feel safe going to the doctor or calling the cops. There is a deep-seeded neglect going on. And if their deaths aren't affecting their profit margin, then it won't change. That is why he wants to take over the Foundation. He wants to allocate every penny they have towards equity in medicine. He wants everyone who is abused in this country to be served. They need to challenge the way they teach. If that means dismantling the medical system and designing something that actually serves everyone, then that is what he wants to do. Catherine asks him where he's been. Jackson says it only matters that he is back and now knows where he belongs. He says he has to go talk to April. He runs back to his car.
April wakes up in the morning to Jackson feeding Harriet pancakes. Harriet is all beter. While Harriet enjoys her breakfast, April tells Jackson she was wrong before. He is that guy. He's not sure his plan will work but he is sure that it is what he wants. She wonders why their timing is always so terrible. They never want the same thing at the same time. He is prepared to let his idea go if April is living his dream life. April says she won't let him take it all back again after all his passionate speeches. She says they will make Boston work. She is saying yes. He is shocked. He figured she would have to pray and consult Matthew and maybe a pastor. Jackson offers to talk to Matthew with her. She then reveals they split up. They kept trying to tell themselves that their whole winding road was God's plan to bring them back together. But Matthew was actually still angry and hurt. He denied it for so long and tried so hard not to hate her. Loving her and making everything full circle was the story they were both writing. She was trying to get past her guilt, Matthew was trying to forgive God for the loss of Karin. Ultimately, they learned that life isn't always tidy and God's plan isn't always easy to understand. They both started working longer hours to avoid coming home. When Matthew's sister got sick, him and Ruby went out to Philadelphia to help her. Now his sister is better and they are not coming home. April meant to tell Jackson but then there was the pandemic. Jackson figures she was also a little too proud to tell him. She admits to that. She's not sure yet if she's okay but it looks like she's moving to Boston, so fingers crossed for new horizons. He seconds that.
Richard brings Catherine some coffee. He tells her Jackson will visit her and she will visit him. He tells her it's okay to be sad to be handing over something that she has put her life into. Catherine says she's not sad. She has never felt pride quite like this.
Jackson grabs his coat to leave. He needs a few days to figure out what to tell Bailey. It feels weird to think about Boston. April feels the same. Jackson hugs April and thanks her. She tells him to go get ready to go. Jackson takes a second before heading to his car, ready for a new chapter in his life.
==Cast==
17x14RichardWebber.png|Richard Webber
17x14JacksonAvery.png|Jackson Avery
17x14CatherineFox.png|Catherine Fox
17x14RobertAvery.png|Robert Avery
17x14AprilKepner.png|April Kepner
17x14HarrietKepnerAvery.png|Harriet Kepner-Avery
===Main Cast===
*Ellen Pompeo as Dr. Meredith Grey (credit only)
*Chandra Wilson as Dr. Miranda Bailey (credit only)
*James Pickens, Jr. as Dr. Richard Webber
*Kevin McKidd as Dr. Owen Hunt (credit only)
*Jesse Williams as Dr. Jackson Avery
*Caterina Scorsone as Dr. Amelia Shepherd (credit only)
*Camilla Luddington as Dr. Jo Wilson (credit only)
*Kelly McCreary as Dr. Maggie Pierce (credit only)
*Giacomo Gianniotti as Dr. Andrew DeLuca (credit only)
*Kim Raver as Dr. Teddy Altman (credit only)
*Greg Germann as Dr. Tom Koracick (credit only)
*Jake Borelli as Dr. Levi Schmitt (credit only)
*Chris Carmack as Dr. Atticus Lincoln (credit only)
*Richard Flood as Dr. Cormac Hayes (credit only)
*Anthony Hill as Dr. Winston Ndugu (credit only)
===Guest Stars===
*Debbie Allen as Dr. Catherine Fox
*Eric Roberts as Dr. Robert Avery
*Sarah Drew as Dr. April Kepner
===Co-Starring===
*Penelope Kapudija as Harriet
==Medical Notes==
===Harriet Kepner-Avery===
*Diagnosis:
**RSV
*Doctors:
**April Kepner (trauma surgeon)
**Jackson Avery (plastic surgeon)
*Treatment:
**Acetaminophen
Harriet had a fever and cough. Her rapid test for COVID was negative, so her parents suspected she had RSV and gave her acetaminophen to relieve her symptoms.
===Jackson Avery===
*Diagnosis:
**Hand laceration
*Doctors:
**Robert Avery (surgeon)
*Treatment:
**Surgical glue
Jackson cut his hand on a meat slicer while slicing turkey. Robert looked at it and said there didn't seem to be any tendon damage, so he glued the wound and bandaged it.
==Music==
Song 	Performer 	Scene
"Oct 33" 	Black Pumas 	
*Jackson drives through rain as he remembers life with April, meeting his father, and camping.
*Catherine tries to call Jackson and gets his voicemail.
*Jackson goes to the Jefferson Grill and surprises his father.
"Swing" 	Ani DiFranco 	
*Jackson puts on music and dances with Harriet.
"Thousand Watt Workout"	John Moran 	
*Jackson works with his father and talks about his dad leaving medicine.
"See You There" 	Sea Changer Ft. Molly Parden	
*Jackson talks about April being married to Matthew.
*He asks her to have his back like he has had hers.
"Hope" 	Goldford 	
*April and Jackson agree to move to Boston.
*Richard consoles Catherine.
*Jackson leaves April's house.
"Oct 33" - Black Pumas
"Swing" - Ani DiFranco
"Thousand Watt Workout" - John Moran
"See You There" - Sea Changer feat Molly Parden
==Notes and Trivia==
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*This episode's title originated from the song , originally sung by Lauren Daigle. It was featured on the season fifteen episode I Want a New Drug.
*This episode scored 4.93 million viewers.https://web.archive.org/web/20210507201326/http://www.showbuzzdaily.com/articles/showbuzzdailys-top-150-thursday-cable-originals-network-finals-5-6-2021.html
*After news of her upcoming appearance was shared, Sarah Drew was flooded on social media with questions about which episode would feature her return. She reached out to the producers of the show to ask if she would be allowed to share the airdate, which had to be kept a secret before. She was given permission and she shared the date on her Twitter accompanied by a photo of April from the episode.
*The song played in the promo is Me in 20 Years by Moses Sumney.
*This episode is Jackson and April-centric and is the episode that ends their arc.
*Shortly after the episode aired, it was revealed that Jesse Williams was leaving with his last appearance in the following episode.Deadline.com Jesse Williams Leaving ‘Grey’s Anatomy’ After 12 Seasons
*This marks the first time since (Don't Fear) the Reaper that Ellen Pompeo does not appear in any capacity. It's only the third time in the history of the series that this happens, the other instance being Who Is He (And What Is He To You)?, coincidentally also a Jackson and April-centric episode.
*Robert Avery re-appears after his first appearance in Who Is He (And What Is He To You)?. In that episode, he mentioned working on his own original coffee blend. In this episode, a news article appears on the big city success it has gathered.
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===Behind the Scenes===
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==Quotes==
==See Also==
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