Colourwheel

Colourwheel is an 18 year-old SilkWing dragon. He currently works under Vestal Hesperia in her exotic plant shop, and has spent a short amount of time at Jade Mountain Academy. 
== Introduction ==
He gasped for air, but nothing seemed to fill his lungs. Just achy pain, and jarringly cold emptiness. His throat hurt so much, even though it had been healed so many times. That cursed ring...
A spear was thrust down his throat. Again. His mouth filled with warm, tangy blood as it spilled over his lips, drowning him to a false death. He coughed violently, spilling pools of blood all over the floor. A flash of pain. The spear was gone. He could *hear* the flesh rebuilding itself, his throat rapidly reappearing.
He gasped again, a shrill and quick noise, cold air flooding his lungs. This time, breathing had worked.
"This could all be over if you would just tell me where you hid my treasure..." The NightWing said. The NightWing... what was his name again? Colourwheel couldn't remember... all he could think about was death. That's what he craved at this point. Just some escape from this hell.
"I already told you... I don't have your... your treasure. You have the wrong... wrong dragon." He said, gasping pathetically for chilly, desolate air.
A quiet, dangerous, and ominous tsk tsk... that's all there was before his eyes went dark again, pain surging through each and every one of his scales. He was on fire again, melting in his restraints and healing quickly enough to negate the damage.
He couldn't even scream anymore. His mouth was split, hanging open, but no sound was escaping his broken, torn body as it repaired itself over and over again. Infinite deaths. Infinite retries at life. His mind was blank. Pain. Suffering. Hollow, empty darkness. That's all there was. He wished for death. For destruction. For something to free him from this limbo.
And nothing did.
== Appearance ==
Colourwheel is a bombastic and a strikingly-colored SilkWing with scales so chaotic and unnatural he looks as though someone just splashed paint across his body. His wings are covered in smatterings of bright, beautiful colors, like little rainbows imbedded in his scales. He has, frequently, been described as the "dragon embodiment of a dragonet's canvas."
His face is soft and blank, with gentle, but handsome, features. His eyes, purple and golden, reflect the sunlight in a way that give him a serene, tranquil look. This, alongside his gentle curves and soft features, make him approachable and, quote, "friend-shaped."
His scales, due to their bright and flashy colors, glint in the sunlight and give him a shiny, shimmering experience during sunset, making him shine like a beautiful gem in the dimming sunlight. This has caused him to become a spectacle for young dragonets, and art students. They commonly try to depict the sheer beauty of his scales as they glitter and glow.
== Personality ==
Colourwheel is quiet and reserved, keeping to himself and hardly talking unless someone addresses him. He constantly bears a worried, anxious expression, like the ground itself is going to attack him, and he's always jumpy and easily startled. Even a simple word will make him flinch if he doesn't expect you to speak. He carefully, and silently, studies each and every dragon he comes into contact with, scanning them desperately for weapons or malicious intent.
Colourwheel seems at home around plants, and will often find himself chatting with them, as if they were other dragons, or pets. This disturbs Vestal. He cares for them like they are children of his own, keeping them in perfect condition at all times, partially due to the fact that they have to be pristine and perfect to outclass his competition. Vestal often teases him for his almost paternal relationship with the plants around their shop. This both annoys him and makes him feel loved, as he knows Vestal teases him with affection. 
Due to his violent PTSD, Colourwheel often overindulges in unhealthy habits, leading to rapid declines in his health and mental wellbeing over scattered, short periods of time. This worries the few friends he has, but he always denies help, stating "I'm fine, really I'm fine" until he explodes on them with months and months of bottled up and repressed emotions.
Colour has a hard time emotionally connecting with anyone, as he seals away and represses all of his feelings due to intense trauma, and will often panic and overthink emotionally bonding with anyone, as he thinks opening up and being himself around people will drive them off. His personality truly flourishes over letters, as he feels comfortable freely expressing himself through non-verbal methods because it wouldn't hurt as much as losing someone he came in physical contact with. That said, he still fears losing anyone, even through letters, as his biggest fear is being ignored and alone.
Behind the façade of being jittery and nervous, Colour is deeply depressed and self-conscious, harshly judging himself for each and every imperfection in his body. His weight, his eyes, his muscles, his scales, it's all broken and defective. He hates everything about himself, and wishes he could change it all. Every time he does something ever so slightly wrong, he will beat himself up mentally, and tell himself he's nothing but a failure and a waste of affection and space. He constantly judges himself harshly and unfairly, ruining his own idea of himself. This ultimately leads to him using methods of self harm to emotionally ground himself. This is woefully unhealthy for him, and results in multiple scars scattered across his forearms and wrists.
Colourwheel never quite recovered from his two year torture, or the repeated destruction and rebuilding of his body, granted to him by the enchanted ring his captors placed on him, enchanted to force his body to heal infinitely, lulling him into multiple false deaths, causing him to crave it for the two years he was trapped and alone, lost in his mind and pain. This forced him into his headspace, creating his own self-soothing mechanism to help himself not go insane.
For three full years after his escape, he was in rehabilitation for his mental state, and physical training. After two years of complete immobility, he had to relearn how to walk and do most things on his own, making his rehabilitation extremely painful for him to undergo, causing him to border ending his own life multiple times, as all he wanted was relief from the constant pain and suffering. Thankfully, though, he was able to hold on, if only by a string, and mostly fixed his mental state.
Colourwheel has severe, debilitating PTSD from his torture, and commonly lies awake at night, haunted by memories and night terrors. Because of this, he has adapted multiple methods of comforting himself, such as scribbling down book ideas and reading aloud to himself. These help dispel the night terrors, and give him any semblance of rest, even if only a few hours.
== Biography ==
WIP!~
== Relationships ==
The relationships are shaky, and will be worked on and edited. I am unsure if I'd like to keep them as they are. Please bear mind to this, and be ready for any changes. Thank you!
=== Vestal Hesperia ===
Colour's closest friend, and his boss. She's always providing him with croissants, which they appreciate, and constantly complements his work ethic. She the worries for him, and his mental stability, but often tries her best to comfort and support Colour. This comes in the form of extended break time, therapy benefits, and a space to be vulnerable and open.
=== Soultide Cassiopeia-Rose Duskcaller ===
A close friend of Colour's, whom he met when they traveled to Pyrhhia for a year or so (with permission from Vestal). When he met Soultide, they bonded over their love of music and reading, and Colourwheel would sneak Soultide sweet treats and snacks inside of their school. Their face-to-face communication was short-lived, but they now send letters across oceans to each other, acting as pen-pals.
=== Apocrita ===
She and Colourwheel have a positive relationship. She is much younger than him (6 DY) but they frequently hang out as friends. They both speak fluent French, and commonly communicate in said language, making Vestal upset whenever Apocrita stops by the shop, because she can't understand the two of them. He occasionally has to keep her from blowing up on other dragons, and acts as a balancing force for her.
=== Fawn ===
Very positive! They, alongside Vestal, bonded over plants and flowers, and have become a very fun trio of plant-obsessed nerd dragons. They met in possibility after Vestal dragged Colour there, against his better judgement, and have become pen pals while the two are apart. They love writing to each other about plants, and will send four or five letters to each other about a singular plant. Colour spreads the word about their shop around Pantala and the LeafSilk kingdom in hopes of promoting her business.
=== Annulet ===
Very positive! Colourwheel and Annulet are two peas in a pod, if the peas we're shockingly different in color... regardless, the two get along very well. Annulet has, on occasion, cracked sarcastic jokes about Colour stealing his colours while he was in the egg, which offended Colour at first until he realized he was five years older than Annulet, and learned to get over himself. The two of them tend to ramble on about various nonsense, which breaks Crocus's delicate and smooth brain.
=== Dynasty ===
Dynasty is a frequent customer at Vestal's boutique, and one that Colourwheel gets along with quite well. They chat casually while she shops, often times about more than just plants, and are very friendly with each other. Whenever they meet outside of the shop, they grab a quick meal and chat, catching up on life and work alike. Colour feels as if something is off, but can't quite figure it out. It's obvious her confidence is fake, to him, but he can't figure out why she'd need the mask of fake confidence. Besides, a dragon as beautiful as her wouldn't need one anyways, he thinks.
=== Pluto ===
Colourwheel constantly reassures Pluto that his weight is FINE and is NOT A PROBLEM. He sat very still once to allow Pluto to count his colors, but they ended up falling asleep, leaving Colour to awkwardly stand there for hours. The two are very close friends, and tend to be very quiet in private, but burst with energy when in public, bouncing off of each other.
== Trivia ==
* Colourwheel is distantly related to Swordtail
* On a trip to Pyrhhia with Vestal, he accidentally set fire to some RainWing huts when showing off his flamesilk, helping for months to rebuild with them
* His multicoloured scales are a result of a mutation while he was still in the egg
== Quotes ==
WIP!~
== Gallery ==
File:Colourwheel.webp|Colourwheel! (Base by JA and K9Pestilence, filled by Faultea!))
File:Colourwheel-Spi.webp|Headshot of Colour, drawn by Spi
File:Colour-Headshot-Jae.webp|Headshot of Colour, drawn by Jae!
File:Chibi-Colour-Eclipse.webp|Chibi of Colour, drawn by Eclipse-the-SeaNight-Hybrid
File:Colour-Orphice.webp|Chibi of Colour, drawn as a gift by Orphiceunoia <3
File:Colourwheel April fools.jpg|April Fools art of Colour, to match his boss's! By Faultea!
File:Colour Final Form.webp|Derpy Colourwheel, also matching with his boss (and many other dragons!) by me
Category:SilkWings
Category:Non-binary
Category:Occupation (Merchant)
Category:LGBT+
Category:Characters
Category:Subtype (Flamesilk)
Category:Occupation (Staff)
Category:Status (Commoner)