けだもの (Kedamono)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
「兩義性ヲ宿ス壹ツノ事象 	"ryougisei o yadosu hitotsu no jishou 	"A single phenomenon containing ambiguity
／凡ソ參佰ノ愛憎 	/ oyoso sanbyaku-guramu no aizou 	/ About 300 grams of love and hate
渦卷キ疼イタ眼差・對象 	uzumaki uzuita manazashi • taishou 	The target of a conflicting yet painful gaze
／不慥カナシアハセ」 	/ futashika na shiawase" 	/ An unclear happiness
 	 	
四の五の云はずに其の對處を。 	shi no go no iwazu ni sono taisho o. 	I deal with these feelings without a word of complaint.
凛と過ごせばこそ觀へゆく物。 	rin to sugoseba-koso mie yuku mono. 	For these feelings only come to light when you live life dignifiedly.
どふかして受くる樣努めば、 	doukashite ukuru you tsutomeba, 	I thought that if I could somehow try to accept these feelings,
御の字だと想つてゐたよ。 	onnoji da to omotte ita yo. 	That would be for the best.
 	 	
搔き負ひ難く思ひ絕ゆる罪； 	kakioigataku omoitayuru tsumi; 	A sin too difficult to bear;
矯み難き敢へぬ感情の罰。 	tamigataki aenu kanjou no batsu. 	A punishment of uncontrollable feelings.
容易く毀されて來た曉、 	tayasuku kowasarete kita akatsuki, 	In the moment that I was so easily destroyed,
燻る馨は。 	iburu kaori wa konkuri. 	The smouldering scent was like concrete.
 	 	
必死に現狀を繕ひませう。 	hisshi ni genjou o tsukuroimashou. 	I'll cover up my current state desperately.
惑ふのはまう辭めに致しませう。 	madou no wa mou yame ni itashimashou. 	I'll stop getting tempted by these feelings.
變はらぬを追ひ續けるのは、 	kawaranu koto o oitsuzukeru no wa, 	To continuously pursue a truth that will never change,
無論、無謀です。 	muron, mubou desu. 	...is, of course, reckless of me.
 	 	
しとゞに泣いた。構はず努めた。 	shitodo ni naita. kamawazu tsutometa. 	I cried incessantly, but I kept trying.
報われなかつた。獸はどつちだ？ 	mukuwarenakatta. kedamono wa docchi da? 	I got nothing in return. So, who's the real beast here?
 	 	
莫迦だよな。愛してゐるんだ。 	baka da yo na. aishite irunda. 	I was such a fool to have fallen in love with you.
己を壞して仕舞ふ程。 	onore o kowashichimau hodo. 	To the point where I destroyed myself.
ひと度でも今だけは、御前の俺だらう？ 	hitotabi demo ima dake wa, omae no ore darou? 	Just for the moment, am I yours?
然て叉、俺の御前だらう？ 	sate mata, ore no omae darou? 	Or better yet, are you mine?
 	 	
龍の鬚を撫で虎の尾つぽを踏む； 	ryuu no hige o nade tora no oppo o fumu; 	I stroked the dragon's beard and stepped on the tiger's tail;
虎の尾つぽを踏み薄ら氷を涉る。 	tora no oppo o fumi usurahi o wataru. 	I stepped on the tiger's tail and skated on thin ice.
然れども甘んじて受け容れるよ。 	saredomo amanjite ukeireru yo. 	But I still happily took all the risks.
・・一寸、痛いけど。 	..chotto, itai kedo. 	...though, it does hurt a bit.
 	 	
彼の日掛けて吳れた愛の言葉は、 	ano hi kakete kureta ai no kotoba wa, 	All those sweet words you told me that day,
全部だとでも云ふのだらうか？ 	zenbu uso da to demo iu no darou ka? 	I guess you could say they were all lies.
然れども俺は信じて居られるよ。 	saredomo ore wa shinjite irareru yo. 	But I still put my faith in you.
・・俺は愛してゐる。 	..ore wa aishite iru. 	...because I love you.
 	 	
只〻慥かめて疾く〳〵と腐るは見慣れたでせう？ 	tadatada tashikamete tokutoku to kusaru wa minareta koto deshou? 	Aren't you used to seeing me descend into madness just to ascertain our love?
斯くて割いて嘔いて泣くは宛ら砂の樣な意識でせう？ 	kakute saite haite naku wa sanagara suna no you na ishiki deshou? 	All this breaking up, vomiting and crying sure makes my consciousness seem like sand, doesn't it?
貪り、瞋り、ひ癡れた俺が獸とでも云ふのかい？ 	musabori, ikari, eishireta ore ga kedamono to demo iu no kai? 	My greed, my anger, my delusion makes me seem like a beast, doesn't it?
ぢや一體誰だい？こんな獸にしたのはさ。 	ja ittai dare dai? konna kedamono ni shita no wa sa. 	So, who was it who turned me into this monster?
御前樣、アンタの所爲だ。 	omeesama, anta no sei da. 	You. It's all your fault.
 	 	
の俺には、まう戾れないのだらう。 	moto no ore ni wa, mou modorenai no darou. 	I can't go back to who I was before.
手遲れ。南無三寶、俺はまう・・ 	moto yori teokure. namu-sanbou, ore wa mou.. 	It's all too late. Good heavens, and now I...
 	 	
解らないんだよ。生きてゐるさへ。 	wakan'neenda yo. ikite iru koto sae. 	I don't understand, why am I even still alive anymore?
責めて、愛されてみ度かつたんだ。 	semete, aisarete mitakattanda. 	All I wanted was to be loved.
ひと度でも、倖せや御前を知り度かつたし、 	hitotabi demo, shiawase ya omae o shiritakatta shi, 	Just for the moment, I wanted to know what happiness felt like; I wanted to know you more.
慥かめ合ひ度かつたんだ。 	tashikame-aitakattanda. 	I wanted to be certain of both.
 	 	
「然有ラバ假ノ世ヲ虎視セム： 	"sa-araba kari no yo o koshi semu: 	"If so, let's stare into this fleeting world of ours:
・・舍利子色不異空空不異色色卽是空空卽是色受想行識亦復如是 	..sharishi shiki fui kuu kuu fui shiki shiki sokuze kuu kuu sokuze shiki ju sou gyou shiki yaku bu nyo ze 	...O Shariputra! Form is not different from emptiness; emptiness is not different from form. Form is exactly emptiness, and emptiness is exactly form. The same is true for sensations, cognition, volition, and consciousness.
舍利子是諸法空相不生不滅不垢不淨不增不減 	sharishi ze sho hou kuu sou fushou fumetsu fuku fujou fuzou fugen 	O Shariputra! All dharmas are empty of characteristics: they are neither created nor destroyed, neither defiled nor pure, and they neither increase nor decrease.
是故空中無色無受想行識無眼耳鼻舌身意無色聲香味觸法無眼界乃至無意識界 	zeko kuuchuu mu shiki mu ju sou gyou shiki mu gen ni bi zetsu shin i mu shiki shou kou mi soku hou mu genkai naishi mu ishiki-kai	This is because in emptiness, there is no form. There are no sensations, cognition, volition, nor consciousness. There are no sights, sounds, scents, tastes, feelings, nor dharmas. There is no field of vision, and there is no realm of thoughts.
無無明亦無無明盡乃至無老死亦無老死盡無苦集滅道無智亦無得 	mu mumyou yaku mu mumyou-jin naishi mu roushi yaku mu roushi-jin mu ku shuu metsu dou mu chi yaku mu toku 	There is no ignorance nor elimination of ignorance, and there is no old age and death nor elimination of old age and death. There is no suffering, nor its accumulation, nor its elimination, nor its path. There is no understanding nor its attainment.
以無所得故菩提薩埵依般若波羅蜜多故心無罣礙無罣礙故無有恐怖遠離顛倒夢想究竟涅槃 	i mu sho toku ko bodaisatta e han'nyaharamitta ko shin mu keige mu keige ko mu'u kufu onri issai tendou musou kukyou nehan 	Because there is no attainment, the Bodhisattvas rely on Prajnaparamita, thus their minds have no obstructions. Because their minds have no obstructions, they do not fear. They leave their distorted fantasies behind, and they reach the ultimate Nirvana.
三世諸佛依般若波羅蜜多故得阿耨多羅三藐三菩提・・」 	sanze sho butsu e han'nyaharamitta ko toku anokutarasanmyakusanbodai.." 	All Buddhas of the past, present, and future rely on the Prajnaparamita, thus they attain Anuttarasamyaksambodhi...
 	 	
堪へられないんだよ。不條理な憂き世； 	taerareneenda yo. fujouri na ukiyo; 	I can't take this absurd, depressing world we live in anymore.
刻一刻と破れるいのち。 	kokuikkoku to wareru inochi. 	Moment by moment, my life is smashed into pieces.
其れならまう「人情」に蓋を。 	sore nara mou "ninjou" ni futa o. 	If so, I'll put a stop to my "empathy".
是以上何も望めないんだ。 	kore ijou nani mo nozomeneenda. 	I can't wish for anything more.
 	 	
阿呆臭い。何も、彼にも。 	ahoukusee. nani mo, ka ni mo. 	Everything is so ridiculous.
逝く所迄逝つて仕舞つたんだ。 	yuku tokoro made icchimattanda. 	I've gone wherever I had to go.
こんな每日、さあ終のへ！ 	konna mainichi, saa tsui no sora e! 	If every day shall be like this, I'll head towards the end of the skies!
まう俺はの「獸」として生きるのさ！ 	mou ore wa hitoribocchi no "kedamono" toshite ikiru no sa! 	I'll live as this lonely "beast" forevermore!
 	 	
・・責めて、愛されてみ度かつたんだ。 	..semete, aisarete mitakattanda. 	...for all I wanted was to be loved.
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