Dark Wonders, Dark Thoughts

Dammit, people
Open up
LET IT OUT
I know it
You know it
They know it
Stop.
I'm so nervous as I show you who I really am
My real thoughts
I'm shaking
I'm crying
I'm scared.
I find everyone happy, everyone nice,
Everyone "honestly sincere"
But I wonder my dark wonders and I
Think my dark thoughts
And I wonder,
How much of it is real?
How much of it is fake?
How much of it is a lie
And how much of it the truth?
I can't bring myself to believe you
I can't bring myself to trust
Yet I have and you know
And you're all being such a help
But yet.
I'm starting to doubt
I'm starting to leech and to
Bleed and to
Cry and to
Weep.
I wonder how many of you are wearing masks
Like me
And all the rest
I wonder my dark wonders
I think my dark thoughts
I can begin to see the masks on all your faces
This is my delusion, you can't help me
This is me
Not you
Don't cry for me when I'm gone
'Cause it's not your fault.
I just can't bring myself around
The world is just too f*cked up
And I'm just to f*cking scared.
I'm scared.
Do you realize that?
Can you hear my voice quavering through that computer screen?
Can you hear my voice screaming?
Don't help me
Because it's not your fault
That I see you all
Through a mask.
Category:Jenna Fraen
Category:Poetry
Category:Poems
Category:Completed Stories/Poems
Category:Depression