What is the reality and what is a dream

What is human these days? why do people think this way? But what is left is a broken man watching. I am but a broken boy who made no progess to gravitate to the future. While my friends? Well they suffered, I mean they suffered alot. One( for some unknown reason) had alot of club activies and was forced to stay until 8:00PM until he could finally come back. As for me? I stayed home, playing games, looking at my computer while being an antisocial guy. 
I lost....my touch of what is the truth about reality. 
Why do people give words that would longer touch the hearts of the human.
What is enduring? 
I never understand how people live there life.
It because I never understood anyone, in return no one understood me.
Even when you read this message that I lefted here, you will still not understand me.
Like how why their are people killing and dying, it kinda like that.
You will only see me better, but won't understand.
I doubt you want to understand what goes in the mind of a manipulative boy who can't accept the reality.
What would you say?
Would you try to comfort me?
Would try to insult me to the part where I understand?
I am no fool, but my outer image and my whole body tell me I am.
So Who am I?