Don't Know

I wish I know what's going on, but I don't. All I know is that you might like him, and all I know is that this feeling inside me is all jumbled up in this one big complete mess and honestly, I don't know what's going on. 
I don't know what's going on in my head, my heart, I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know if I'm capable of this feeling. 
The best way to describe me, right now, at this single moment, is confused.
My head spins, words, pictures, quotes, laughter.
Your laughter. Your smile.
I don't know what's going on in my head, my heart, I don't know what I'm feeling.
Don't know if I'm capable of this feeling.
All I know is that perhaps he likes you, all I know is that perhaps I'll never get the chance.
All I know is that when you're happy, I am too. I want to be the sunlight to your day, the one that makes you laugh, smile, feel good about yourself.
I want to be the one to let you know you're worthy of everything, you're perfect to me.
But I can't.
Because I don't know what's going on in my head, my heart. I don't know what I'm feeling.
Don't know if I'm capable of this feeling.
So now I sit here, typing away, writing away, my whole heart in a complete and utter mess, I think I should talk about it, I think I should cower from it, I think this feeling, this complete utter mess of a feeling, is fake.
But then again I think I should keep it inside, I think I should let it all out, I think this feeling, this complete utter pathetic excuse of a feeling, is real.
Honestly, I don't know what's going on.
The world spins at 1,038 miles per hour, the world is moving, fast-paced, everything and everyone all crowded together on this big globe that keeps us alive. I'm sitting here, typing away. Because I don't know. Don't know what's going on, don't know how it feels like, don't know why I'm feeling this way.
I want to let it all out. I want to just tell you. 
But I can't.
Because I don't know what's going on, don't know what this means, don't know how to decipher this.
I sort of, maybe, like you.
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