Not Scared to Die

I'm not scared to die
Might think that's a lie
But tonight
I lost the firelight
Can you see it in my eyes?
Do you see I'm broken inside?
Yet I'm not scared to die
I remember looking in the mirror
My image, still no clearer
My eyes don't shine like abalone
I'm more scared to be alone
Not scared to die
Just wanna cry
Walking through the house
Bones feel like ice
Strangers and ghosts
Alone in my own home
I remember looking in the mirror
My image, still no clearer
My eyes don't shine like abalone
More scared to be alone
Not scared to die
Just wanna cry
I find myself in the dark
But when I'm alone in the park
Fear finds me
It lies to me
But every lie has a bit of truth
In my soul, is there still youth?
I remember looking in the mirror
My image, still no clearer
My eyes don't shine like abalone
More scared to be alone
Not scared to die
Just wanna cry
I can see starlight
Eyes with firelight
But inside, I'm not alive
And I can't lie
Not scared to die
I remember looking in the mirror
My image, still no clearer
My eyes don't shine like abalone
More scared to be alone
Not scared to die
Just wanna cry
Soul already has a grave, grave
Fear, I'm it's slave, slave
I can't see myself this way, way
Loneliness worse than D-Day
I remember looking in the mirror
My image, still no clearer
My eyes don't shine like abalone
More scared to be alone
Not scared to die
Just wanna cry
Firelight and starlight
Firelight and starlight
Not in my eyes
This is the way I die
From the inside
I'm lonely
Dying slowly
But don't forget
I'm not scared to die
I still don't lie
-Chiron66 (Caleb)
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