わたしもメンヘラになりたい (Watashi mo Menhera ni Naritai)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
もしも失敗しても許してくれるらしい 	moshimo shippai shite mo yurushite kureru rashii 	It seems that even if I fail you, you’ll forgive me
もしも裏切っても諦めてくれるらしい 	moshimo uragitte mo akiramete kureru rashii 	It seems that even if I betray you, you’ll back down
か弱い免罪符をわたしにちょうだい 	kayowai menzaifu o watashi ni choudai 	Please give me that weak indulgence!Indulgence in this case likely refers to the catholic use of the term, which is “the remission of punishment caused”.
 	 	
ららら　やんやんやんややんやんだ 	rarara yan yan yan ya yan yan da 	La-la-la, wahh wahh wahhh wahh, no way!This part is incredibly interpretive. Firstly, “やんやんやんややんやんだ”, which is phonetically “yan-yan-yan-ya-yan-yanda”, can be interpreted as the cries of a child throwing a tantrum. This could allude to the singer having a more childish disposition, and letting out sobs of refusal. “やんだ / yanda” is an alternate way to say “やだ / yada”, (which means “no / I don’t want to”) but in a more childish way, which is what contributes to the fact that this is a protest towards something. However, another way to interpret this “やんだ / yanda” is a term that means “cease”, like ceasing to cry. This is why I chose to end the sobs with “no way!” –– to allow it to be interpreted either way, a protest, or a sudden stop of crying. In the last version of the chorus, they finally use a kanji for “yanda”, which signifies mental instability. It can be interpreted that the choruses before that could also be a proclamation of being mentally unstable, but as there was deliberately no use of the kanji, I chose to interpret it in a different way.
ららら　やんやんやんややんやーよ 	rarara yan yan yan ya yan yaa yo 	La-la-la, no no no no no way!
やんやんやんややんやんだ 	yan yan yan ya yan yan da 	Wahh wahh wahhh wahh, I don’t want to!
わたしも　あの子みたいになりたいな 	watashi mo ano ko mitai ni naritai na 	I want to be like that girl“あの子” is technically gender-neutral, signifying “that kid/person”. However, in Japanese, this subtext is often used to refer to a girl, and for the sake of fluidity, I used that instead. Just note that this can be completely gender neutral and interpreted either way. too!
 	 	
それは対人恐怖症で人格破綻らしい 	sore wa taijin kyoufushou de jinkaku hatan rashii 	ThatLikely, in this case, “それ / That” is referring to the person from the previous line. An envious comparison that the other person has disorders like anxiety, which could be interpreted as the singer’s feeling of lack and not being ‘sick enough’. “これ / This” is most likely referring to themself, feeling as if they aren’t sick enough due to it not even impacting their social life. seems like a disordered personality due to social phobia
これは社会生活不適合ではないらしい 	kore wa shakai seikatsu futekigou dewa nai rashii 	This⁴ doesn’t seem to be incompatible with my social life
首を吊って生き永らえてるあの子ずるいんじゃない 	kubi o tsutte ikinagaraeteru ano ko zuruin ja nai 	Isn’t it unfair that the girl who hung herself survived?
 	 	
ららら　やんやんやんややんやんだ 	rarara yan yan yan ya yan yan da 	La-la-la, wahh wahh wahhh wahh, no way!
ららら　やんやんやんややんやーよ 	rarara yan yan yan ya yan yaa yo 	La-la-la, no no no no no way!
やんやんやんややんやんだ 	yan yan yan ya yan yan da 	Wahh wahh wahhh wahh, I don’t want to!
わたしも　あの子みたいに 	watashi mo ano ko mitai ni 	I want to be like that girl!
 	 	
おかしい人はあっちで　普通の人はこっちで 	okashii hito wa acchi de futsuu no hito wa kocchi de 	The weird people are over there, the ordinary people are over here
多分私はここらへん　可もないけど不可もないんだね 	tabun watashi wa kokorahen ka mo nai kedo fuka mo nain da ne	I’m probably around here, not good, but not bad, either
 	 	
いっそ　やんやんやんややん　病んで 	isso yan yan yan ya yan yande 	Better yet“いっそ / Better yet” can be interpreted as ‘rather’, which could be sarcastic in this case. It could also be connected to the previous line, about how the singer feels they are around the middle between ‘ordinary’ people and ‘weird’ (mentally ill) people. This could depict a repressed feeling of feeling mentally ill yet not being recognised as such., I’m so so so so so unstable!
もう　やんやんやんや　嫌んなって 	mou yan yan yan ya iyan natte 	I don’t don’t don’t like it anymore!
やんやんやんや　病んでる 	yan yan yan ya yanderu 	I’m so so so mentally unstable!
わたしも　あの子みたいになりたいな 	watashi mo ano ko mitai ni naritai na 	I want to be like that girl too!
わたしも　あの子みたいになりたいな 	watashi mo ano ko mitai ni naritai na 	I want to be like that girl too!
==Translation Notes==
==Discography==
This song was featured on the following album:
*全然、きれいじゃない。 (Zenzen, Kirei ja Nai.) (album)
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