反芻シ考 (Hansuu Shikou)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
あのとき僕はどうして 	ano toki boku wa doushite 	In that moment, why did I
あんな酷いこと言ったんだろう 	anna hidoi koto itta ndarou 	say such an awful thing?
見えない傷の痛みは 	mienai kizu no itami wa 	The pain of an invisible wound,
誰よりも知ってるのに 	dare yori mo shitteru no ni 	I know it better than anyone else, and yet...
 	 	
あのとき君はどうして 	ano toki kimi wa doushite 	In that moment, why did you
平気そうな顔をしてたの 	heikisou na kao o shiteta no 	make a face like you were fine?
飲み込んだ言葉を戻しては 	nomikonda kotoba o modoshite wa 	Throwing up the words I swallowed,
何度も噛み続けた 	nando mo kamitsuzuketa 	I kept ruminatingThe verb stem here, 噛む, literally means "to chew," but metaphorically it means something like "to turn words over in your mouth" similar to how in English we'd say "to turn an idea over in your head." Its use in the song, first as 噛み続けた "kept chewing" (i.e. turning the words over in one's mind) and later as 噛み潰した (literally "chewed up," as in thought about extensively or to exhaustion) are both references to the title, 反芻シ考, in which 反芻 means "rumination." The dual meanings of "ruminate" ("to reflect upon" and "to chew") are shared in both Japanese and English. on them over and over
 	 	
頭ん中 垂れ流してた映像と考察は 	atamannaka tarenagashiteta eizou to kousatsu wa 	The discharge of images and considerations in my head
バッドエンドロールみたいに 	baddo endorooru mitai ni 	was like the roll of credits after a bad endingThis seems to be a pun on two wasei terms: バッドエンド "bad end" as in an unhappy ending to a movie or a video game + エンドロール "endroll" meaning end credits, usually to a movie.
ずっと腑に落ちないんだ 	zutto fu ni ochinai nda 	I will never understand it
 	 	
あ゛ーあ゛ー 聞こえない 何も知らない 	aa aa kikoenai nani mo shiranai 	Aa, aa, I can't hear. I don't know anything.
だって考えてたってもう答えは出ないのに 	datte kangaete tatte mou kotae wa denai no ni 	because no matter how hard I think, no answer surfaces, and yet
あ゛ーあ゛ー 叫んでりゃ楽になるんだ 	aa aa sakenderya raku ni naru nda 	Aa, aa, screaming would make it easier
反芻シ考が僕を夜に溶かす 	hansuu shikou ga boku o yoru ni tokasu 	Rumination thinking dissolves me into the night
 	 	
あのときああしなければ 	ano toki aa shinakereba 	If I didn't do it, aa, in that moment
僕がやられていたんだ　　 	boku ga yararete ita nda 	then I would've been killed
そりゃ誰だって自分のことが 	sorya dare datte jibun no koto ga 	The most important thing to everyone
１番大事だろ？ 	ichiban daiji daro? 	is themself, right?
 	 	
あの日の君の心は 	ano hi no kimi no kokoro wa 	There is no longer any way to ascertain
もう確かめようがなくて 	mou tashikame you ga nakute 	how you felt that day
優しいだけの言葉を求めては 	yasashii dake no kotoba o motomete wa 	Wishing for only kind words,
何度も噛み潰した 	nando mo kamitsubushita 	I chewed them up over and over
 	 	
馬鹿みたいだ 	baka mitai da 	How stupid
要らない自分が脳内をハックして　　 	iranai jibun ga nounai o hakku shite 	I, unwanted, hacked into my brain,
アンビバレントな噂に 	anbibarento na uwasa ni 	always assailed
いつも振り回されんだ 	itsumo furimawasare nda 	by ambivalent rumors
 	 	
あ゛ーあ゛ー 聞こえない 何も解んない 	aa aa kikoenai nani mo wakannai 	Aa, aa, I can't hear. I don't understand anything
だって君は消えちゃってもう口が聞けないのに 	datte kimi wa kiechatte mou kuchi ga kikenai no ni	because you disappeared, so I can't speak anymore, and yet
あ゛ーあ゛ー 叫んでりゃ楽になるんだ 	aa aa sakenderya raku ni naru nda 	Aa, aa, screaming would make it easier
反芻シ考が僕の声を溶かす 	hansuu shikou ga boku no koe o tokasu 	Rumination thinking melts my voice
 	 	
ボクハドウスレバイイノ？ 	boku wa dou sureba ii no? 	W h a t s h o u l d I d o?
 	 	
あ゛ーあ゛ー 聞こえない 何も知らない 	aa aa kikoenai nani mo shiranai 	Aa, aa, I can't hear. I don't know anything
だって考えてたってもう答えは出ないのに 	datte kangaete tatte mou kotae wa denai no ni 	because no matter how hard I think, no answer surfaces, and yet
あ゛ーあ゛ー 叫んでりゃ楽になるんだ 	aa aa sakenderya raku ni naru nda 	Aa, aa, screaming would make it easier
反芻シ考が僕を夜に溶かす 	hansuu shikou ga boku o yoru ni tokasu 	Rumination thinking dissolves me into the night
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