死んでるように生きている (Shinderu you ni Ikite iru)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
正解を探して迷走　誰かのせいとして焦燥 	seikai o sagashite meisou dareka no sei to shite shousou 	I wander in search of the correct answer. I blame others and feel impatient.
散々と嘆いては今日も何もできないな 	sanzan to nageite wa kyou mo nan mo dekinai na 	Deploring so terribly, I can’t do anything today as well.
「人間とは全員平等、愛すべきもの」 	"ningen to wa zen'in byoudou, aisubeki mono" 	“All men are created equal, and thus shall be loved.”
でもなんで 	demo nande 	But, why is it
まるで死んでるかのように生きてました。 	marude shinderu ka no you ni ikitemashita. 	that I lived as if dead?
 	 	
特別な存在だってたまには思っていたんだ　 	tokubetsu na sonzai datte tama ni wa omotte ita nda 	I occasionally thought that I was a special person.
それが今じゃどうですか何もないじゃんか 	sore ga ima ja dou desu ka nan mo nai jan ka 	But hey, what now? I’ve got nothing!
「夢は叶うもんだ」ってアーティストが言っていたんだ 	"yume wa kanau mo nda" tte aatisuto ga itte ita nda 	An artist said, “Your dreams will come true.”
それを聞いているだけの僕はなんだ？ 	sore o kiite iru dake no boku wa nanda? 	What am I, then, only listening to that remark?
 	 	
話せないような悩みほど 	hanasenai you na nayami hodo 	It is my concerns I can’t tell anyone
面倒でしつこくてついてまわる 	mendou de shitsukokute tsuitemawaru 	that are so troublesome, nosy, and stick to me.
誰の声を信じたらいいのだろう 	dare no koe o shinjitara ii no darou 	Whose voice should I believe?
 	 	
泣いてもいいか？逃げてもいいか？ 	naite mo ii ka? nigete mo ii ka? 	Can I just cry? Can I just run away?
そろそろ限界のようでして 	sorosoro genkai no you deshite 	I think I’m about to reach my limit.
いっそ消したいよもう痛いよグラグラしている 	isso keshitai yo mou itai yo guragura shite iru 	I’d rather erase myself! It really hurts. I’m so unstable.
価値はあるか？意味はあるか？ 	kachi wa aru ka? imi wa aru ka? 	Is it valuable? It is meaningful?
誰か早く教えてよ 	dare ka hayaku oshiete yo 	Tell me now, somebody!
ほら「もういいよ」「もういいよ」ってさ 	hora "mou ii yo" "mou ii yo" tte sa 	Tell me “it’s alright,” oh “it’s alright.”
 	 	
死ぬ勇気など持てないよ 	shinu yuuki nado motenai yo 	No way I could have the courage to die…
痛くて寂しくて怖いでしょ 	itakute sabishikute kowai desho 	It must be painful, lonely, and scary, right?
生きることはどうだろ？ 	ikiru koto wa dou daro? 	How about living, then?
分からない僕は最低なのか？ 	wakaranai boku wa saitei na no ka? 	Am I a scum for not having the slightest idea?
 	 	
大人になる日々の途中増える歳と傷痕 	otona ni naru hibi no tochuu fueru toshi to kizuato 	During my days of growing up, I grow older and get more injuries.
何もできない何もなれない信じたくはないけど 	nani mo dekinai nani mo narenai shinjitaku wa nai kedo 	I can’t do anything, I can’t become anything. I don’t want to believe it, though…
自分よりも下を探し満足する僕なんてさ 	jibun yori mo shita o sagashi manzoku suru boku nante sa 	I search for those inferior to me and feel satisfied.
要るのかな 	iru no ka na 	Am I really needed?
 	 	
子どものままいれたらいいな 	kodomo no mama iretara ii na 	I wish I could stay a kid,
明日に悩むこともなく 	asu ni nayamu koto mo naku 	then I could’ve proven my existence
きっと存在の証明も出来てたろうな 	kitto sonzai no shoumei mo dekitetarou na 	without worrying about tomorrow.
母の声が父の声が今になり胸に染みる 	haha no koe ga chichi no koe ga ima ni nari mune ni shimiru	Mother’s words and Father’s sink deeply into my mind at this late date.
今、生きている。 	ima, ikite iru. 	I’m alive now.
泣いてもいいか？逃げてもいいか？ 	naite mo ii ka? nigete mo ii ka? 	Can I just cry? Can I just run away?
そろそろ限界のようでして 	sorosoro genkai no you deshite 	I think I’m about to reach my limit.
いっそ消したいよもう痛いよグラグラしている 	isso keshitai yo mou itai yo guragura shite iru 	I’d rather erase myself! It really hurts. I’m so unstable.
価値はあるか？意味はあるか？ 	kachi wa aru ka? imi wa aru ka? 	Is it valuable? It is meaningful?
誰か早く助けてよ 	dare ka hayaku tasukete yo 	Tell me now, somebody!
ただ「もういいよ」「もういいよ」ってさ 	tada "mou ii yo" "mou ii yo" tte sa 	Tell me “it’s alright,” oh “it’s alright.”
「もういいよ」「もういいよ」ってさ 	"mou ii yo" "mou ii yo" tte sa 	“It’s alright,” oh “it’s alright.”
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