Jackie Trades/Trivia

META INFO:
* SPECIAL FACT 1: Jackie uses music to navigate his emotions and will listen to songs with lyrics or themes that expresses how he feels. He choses songs carefully and will sometimes listen to songs that are matching his feelings on repeat to try and get it out of his system.
* SPECIAL FACT 2: He has a secret collection of cute plush toys he hugs when having a particularly bad day and or panic attack. He thinks it’s embarrassing, but hugging the cute toys has helped him try to ground himself when triggered since the dog attack when he was 6.
* SPECIAL FACT 3: You can get a quick idea of what mood he's in via his walk. Normally he was a confident stride. When low battery he walks very slowly, with barely any arm sway... and it's obvious when he's resorted to his bad coping mechanisms, as he'll be a whobbly mess.
* SPECIAL FACT 4 : Important dates. The 8th of November is his wedding anniversary. Even though his wife was awful and they divorced, he still has a lot of feelings attached and he has a bad time each year. 25th December is his birthday, but he’s never had a bday party or celebrated it. Xmas always overruled it. 2nd of February is when the dogs were set on him as a child. This also a date he does very badly on. March 28th is the date his Nana died on when he was 24years old.
* LIKES - The colours red, black and white. Music, especially various forms of metal, rock, industrial, indie and instrumentals. He loves the sound of  relaxing natural ambience. His alone time is very important to him and he loves to drive around listening to music by himself.
* DISLIKES - Relationship drama, pointless fights, intrusive people, clingy and needy folks. He hates seeing abuse, physical and verbal.
* GOOD HABITS - He practices self care and doesn't feel bad about taking time for himself. He will offer to help people out and be there when needed, but to an extent. He doesn't like butting into people's businesses and knows when to step aside.
* BAD HABITS - He also is self destructive and does the opposite of self-care when triggered. Usual go to is getting black-out drunk, or smoking too much weed. The goal is to get as numb as possible and forget. Jackie can be selfish in that he will totally ignore other people's needs if he is feeling low on personal / social battery. He smokes cigerettes a lot, especially when stressed, anxious and angry. He holds grudges with people and can be passive aggressive with these grudges.
* FEARS - Jackie has a major phobia of dogs (and to a lesser extent of anything vaguely canine). As a child his uncle set his dogs on him and they ripped open his face, leaving a deep scar. Seeing a dog will make Jackie leave the area if he has the opportunity to. If he is caught by surprise, he will have a panic attack and recklessly flee. If he is trapped with a dog in an area, there is a chance for him to either panic to the point of curling up into a frightened ball, or passing out. He will never fight or harm the animal, he is too scared to even go near them, let alone touch them. It doesn't seem to matter what size the dog is, but bigger dogs provoke greater phobia response from him. If the dog is either a rottweiler or pitbull, it is the worst outcome. He has a lesser fear of commitment. This comes from his awful past marriage and life while still in the UK. He fears he loses pieces of himself when attached to something and that other people try to reshape him into what they want. He also fears people taking advantage of his phobia and personal information and using it against him like his uncle, ex-wife and extended family did. Basically, he fears a loss of control, identity and being betrayed.
* GOALS - Because he doesn't want to commit to anything he doesn't have far reaching long-term goals in life. He does put money away as a safety net for himself and for his later years, but doesn't feel he has a place anywhere. He has traveled around, backpacking and applying for working-holiday visas when possible in his late 20's and came to Los Santos because they were accepting people of all sorts, but what he wants to do in the state is not planned out. He tells people he simply takes each day as they come and settles for the small joys in life. Mostly this is true, as thinking about the future is too much for him.