Soliloquy to an Almighty Eidolon

Soliloquy to an Almighty Eidolon is a poem written by Corviknight27. It has eighteen stanzas, each consisting of four lines, seventy-two lines in total, and was published to the wiki on July 12th, 2024.
== Poem ==
I am scared to live; I am scared to die
I am scared to fail; I am scared to try
I avoid the sky for I fear I’ll die
Knowing I'm caught in the gaze of God’s eye
Each day and night; I start to cry
At how often people lie to both you and I
Regarding both Heaven and Hell alike
And the will of that beyond space and time
I wish to drag God’s angels from Heaven
I wish to raise the Devil’s daemons from Hell
And to bring Lady Death from wherever she’d dwell
So that from them, I shall hear of both the well and unwell
But alas, it seems that my prayers to the three
Fall deaf and dead, where only mysteries be
And so, I sit, in my room yet again, once more
Dreadfully awaiting what fate has in store
How often my reveries all seem to be littered,
How often my mind is thoroughly scattered,
And how often my thoughts do rapidly race
Through my now utterly hollow place
The answers I seek, no book can provide
No sacred pastor or friend of mine
For the knowledge I gather is beyond time
Beyond all reason and beyond all rhyme
Somewhere in the cosmos, in this boundless expanse
Lays a being far beyond both you and I
And there, in its eye, all that is and was
All that should be, does be, and will be
All that moves, does not move, and will move,
All that stops, does not stop, and will stop,
All that creates, does not create, and will create,
All that destroys, does not destroy, and will destroy,
All that exists, does not exist, and will exist
All that will cease, does not cease, and will cease
All this and more, in its gaze alone
As it watches calmly from its unknown abode
Its thoughts alone paint stars in the sky
While its dreams bring the world to people far and wide;
Its movements scatter the winds just as far
While its voice gently calls for the rain to fall from afar
Pitter-patter are the lyrics to the ominous dirge
That promises torture to those much like I
But to others, it seems a more cheerful anthem
That promises fortune to those unlike I
However though, a contract, eternally binding, is formed
From the very moment cryptic notes are heard
To a master, it is, we all must serve;
An eternity that we seem to very much deserve
I wonder why things are in such a way
Only to be sent much further astray
To the depths of madness that some may call holy
But that I find to be wholly unholy
For what kind of god, either one or many
Who feels all things with its ever-feeling hands,
Who sees all things with its ever-seeing eyes,
And who hears all things with its ever-hearing ears;
Cannot seem to answer my most earnest request?
A meeting with it is all that I ask,
Regardless of the shape or form it may take,
So that I may no longer fear what is to be at stake
For some type of sign, from either above or below
Or wherever it is that God calls its abode
For some great sea dividing or some verdant bush burning
So that my stomach may finally cease its churning
But still, I find, there is no hope in sight
As I languish here in my anguish and plight
Thus to you, dear God, I address this soliloquy
In hopes that, one day, you’ll finally hear me.
== Trivia ==
* The third line of the seventeenth stanza references the story of Moses.
* The first stanza was inspired by a video on YouTube titled "I once saw the face of God" by burialgoods.
* The poem itself is based on actual prayers by the poet.
* The poet, despite referencing Christianity in their poem, is not religious.
Category:Poems about God