Dracula/Chapter 10

6 September
"My dear Art,
"My news today is not so good. Lucy this morning had gone back a bit.
There is, however, one good thing which has arisen from it.
Mrs. Westenra was naturally anxious concerning Lucy, and has consulted
me professionally about her. I took advantage of the opportunity,
and told her that my old master, Van Helsing, the great specialist,
was coming to stay with me, and that I would put her in his charge
conjointly with myself. So now we can come and go without
alarming her unduly, for a shock to her would mean sudden death,
and this, in Lucy's weak condition, might be disastrous to her.
We are hedged in with difficulties, all of us, my poor fellow,
but, please God, we shall come through them all right.
If any need I shall write, so that, if you do not hear from me,
take it for granted that I am simply waiting for news, In haste,
"Yours ever,"
John Seward
7 September.--The first thing Van Helsing said to me when we met
at Liverpool Street was, "Have you said anything to our young friend,
to lover of her?"
"No," I said. "I waited till I had seen you, as I said in my telegram.
I wrote him a letter simply telling him that you were coming, as [[Miss
Westenra]] was not so well, and that I should let him know if need be."
"Right, my friend," he said. "Quite right! Better he not know as yet.
Perhaps he will never know. I pray so, but if it be needed,
then he shall know all. And, my good friend John, let me caution you.
You deal with the madmen. All men are mad in some way or
the other, and inasmuch as you deal discreetly with your madmen,
so deal with God's madmen too, the rest of the world.
You tell not your madmen what you do nor why you do it. You tell
them not what you think. So you shall keep knowledge in its place,
where it may rest, where it may gather its kind around it and breed.
You and I shall keep as yet what we know here, and here."
He touched me on the heart and on the forehead, and then touched
himself the same way. "I have for myself thoughts at the present.
Later I shall unfold to you."
"Why not now?" I asked. "It may do some good.
We may arrive at some decision."He looked at me and said,
"My friend John, when the corn is grown, even before it
has ripened, while the milk of its mother earth is in him,
and the sunshine has not yet begun to paint him with his gold,
the husbandman he pull the ear and rub him between his rough hands,
and blow away the green chaff, and say to you, 'Look!
He's good corn, he will make a good crop when the time comes.'
"
I did not see the application and told him so. For reply he reached
over and took my ear in his hand and pulled it playfully,
as he used long ago to do at lectures, and said, "The good
husbandman tell you so then because he knows, but not till then.
But you do not find the good husbandman dig up his planted corn
to see if he grow. That is for the children who play at husbandry,
and not for those who take it as of the work of their life.
See you now, friend John? I have sown my corn, and Nature
has her work to do in making it sprout, if he sprout at all,
there's some promise, and I wait till the ear begins to swell."
He broke off, for he evidently saw that I understood.
Then he went on gravely, "You were always a careful student,
and your case book was ever more full than the rest.
And I trust that good habit have not fail. Remember, my friend,
that knowledge is stronger than memory, and we should not trust
the weaker. Even if you have not kept the good practice,
let me tell you that this case of our dear miss is one that may be,
mind, I say may be, of such interest to us and others that all
the rest may not make him kick the beam, as your people say.
Take then good note of it. Nothing is too small.
I counsel you, put down in record even your doubts and surmises.
Hereafter it may be of interest to you to see how true you guess.
We learn from failure, not from success!"
When I described Lucy's symptoms, the same as before,
but infinitely more marked, he looked very grave, but said nothing.
He took with him a bag in which were many instruments and drugs,
"the ghastly paraphernalia of our beneficial trade,"
as he once called, in one of his lectures, the equipment
of a professor of the healing craft.
When we were shown in, Mrs. Westenra met us. She was alarmed,
but not nearly so much as I expected to find her. Nature in one
of her beneficient moods has ordained that even death has some
antidote to its own terrors. Here, in a case where any shock
may prove fatal, matters are so ordered that, from some cause
or other, the things not personal, even the terrible change in her
daughter to whom she is so attached, do not seem to reach her.
It is something like the way dame Nature gathers round a foreign
body an envelope of some insensitive tissue which can protect
from evil that which it would otherwise harm by contact.
If this be an ordered selfishness, then we should pause
before we condemn any one for the vice of egoism, for there
may be deeper root for its causes than we have knowledge of.
I used my knowledge of this phase of spiritual pathology,
and set down a rule that she should not be present with Lucy,
or think of her illness more than was absolutely required.
She assented readily, so readily that I saw again the hand
of Nature fighting for life. Van Helsing and I were shown up
to Lucy's room. If I was shocked when I saw her yesterday,
I was horrified when I saw her today.
She was ghastly, chalkily pale. The red seemed to have gone even from
her lips and gums, and the bones of her face stood out prominently.
Her breathing was painful to see or hear. Van Helsing's face grew set
as marble, and his eyebrows converged till they almost touched over his nose.
Lucy lay motionless, and did not seem to have strength to speak,
so for a while we were all silent. Then Van Helsing beckoned to me,
and we went gently out of the room. The instant we had closed the door
he stepped quickly along the passage to the next door, which was open.
Then he pulled me quickly in with him and closed the door.
"My god!" he said. "This is dreadful. There is not time to be lost.
She will die for sheer want of blood to keep the heart's action
as it should be. There must be a transfusion of blood at once.
Is it you or me?"
"I am younger and stronger, Professor. It must be me."
"Then get ready at once. I will bring up my bag.
I am prepared."
I went downstairs with him, and as we were going there was
a knock at the hall door. When we reached the hall, the maid
had just opened the door, and Arthur was stepping quickly in.
He rushed up to me, saying in an eager whisper,
"Jack, I was so anxious. I read between the lines of your letter,
and have been in an agony. The dad was better, so I ran down
here to see for myself. Is not that gentleman Dr. Van Helsing?
I am so thankful to you, sir, for coming."
When first the Professor's eye had lit upon him, he had been
angry at his interruption at such a time, but now, as he took
in his stalwart proportions and recognized the strong young
manhood which seemed to emanate from him, his eyes gleamed.
Without a pause he said to him as he held out his hand,
"Sir, you have come in time. You are the lover of our dear miss.
She is bad, very, very bad. Nay, my child, do not go like that."For
he suddenly grew pale and sat down in a chair almost fainting.
"You are to help her. You can do more than any that live,
and your courage is your best help."
"What can I do?" asked Arthur hoarsely. "Tell me, and I shall do it.
My life is hers' and I would give the last drop of blood in my body for her."
The Professor has a strongly humorous side, and I could from old
knowledge detect a trace of its origin in his answer.
"My young sir, I do not ask so much as that, not the last!"
"What shall I do?" There was fire in his eyes, and his open nostrils
quivered with intent. Van Helsing slapped him on the shoulder.
"Come!" he said. "You are a man, and it is a man we want.
You are better than me, better than my friend John."
Arthur looked bewildered, and the Professor went on by explaining
in a kindly way.
"Young miss is bad, very bad. She wants blood, and blood she
must have or die. My friend John and I have consulted, and we
are about to perform what we call transfusion of blood, to transfer
from full veins of one to the empty veins which pine for him.
John was to give his blood, as he is the more young and strong
than me."--Here Arthur took my hand and wrung it hard in
silence.--"But now you are here, you are more good than us,
old or young, who toil much in the world of thought.
Our nerves are not so calm and our blood so bright than yours!"
Arthur turned to him and said, "If you only knew how gladly
I would die for her you would understand. . ." He stopped
with a sort of choke in his voice.
"Good boy!" said Van Helsing. "In the not-so-far-off you
will be happy that you have done all for her you love.
Come now and be silent. You shall kiss her once before it
is done, but then you must go, and you must leave at my sign.
Say no word to Madame. You know how it is with her.
There must be no shock, any knowledge of this would be one. Come!"
We all went up to Lucy's room. Arthur by direction remained outside.
Lucy turned her head and looked at us, but said nothing.
She was not asleep, but she was simply too weak to make the effort.
Her eyes spoke to us, that was all.
Van Helsing took some things from his bag and laid them on a little
table out of sight. Then he mixed a narcotic, and coming over to
the bed, said cheerily, "Now, little miss, here is your medicine.
Drink it off, like a good child. See, I lift you so that to swallow
is easy. Yes." She had made the effort with success.
It astonished me how long the drug took to act.
This, in fact, marked the extent of her weakness. The time
seemed endless until sleep began to flicker in her eyelids.
At last, however, the narcotic began to manifest its potency,
and she fell into a deep sleep. When the Professor was satisfied,
he called Arthur into the room, and bade him strip off his coat.
Then he added, "You may take that one little kiss whiles
I bring over the table. Friend John, help to me!"
So neither of us looked whilst he bent over her.
Van Helsing, turning to me, said, "He is so young and strong,
and of blood so pure that we need not defibrinate it."
Then with swiftness, but with absolute method, Van Helsing performed
the operation. As the transfusion went on, something like life
seemed to come back to poor Lucy's cheeks, and through Arthur's
growing pallor the joy of his face seemed absolutely to shine.
After a bit I began to grow anxious, for the loss of blood was telling
on Arthur, strong man as he was. It gave me an idea of what a terrible
strain Lucy's system must have undergone that what weakened Arthur
only partially restored her.
But the Professor's face was set, and he stood watch in hand,
and with his eyes fixed now on the patient and now on Arthur.
I could hear my own heart beat. Presently, he said in a soft voice,
"Do not stir an instant. It is enough. You attend him.
I will look to her."
When all was over, I could see how much Arthur was weakened.
I dressed the wound and took his arm to bring him away,
when Van Helsing spoke without turning round, the man seems
to have eyes in the back of his head, "The brave lover,
I think, deserve another kiss, which he shall have presently."
And as he had now finished his operation, he adjusted the pillow
to the patient's head. As he did so the narrow black velvet
band which she seems always to wear round her throat,
buckled with an old diamond buckle which her lover had given her,
was dragged a little up, and showed a red mark on her throat.
Arthur did not notice it, but I could hear the deep hiss of indrawn
breath which is one of Van Helsing's ways of betraying emotion.
He said nothing at the moment, but turned to me, saying, "Now take down our
brave young lover, give him of the port wine, and let him lie down a while.
He must then go home and rest, sleep much and eat much, that he may be
recruited of what he has so given to his love. He must not stay here.
Hold a moment! I may take it, sir, that you are anxious of result.
Then bring it with you, that in all ways the operation is successful.
You have saved her life this time, and you can go home and rest easy
in mind that all that can be is. I shall tell her all when she is well.
She shall love you none the less for what you have done. Goodbye."
When Arthur had gone I went back to the room.
Lucy was sleeping gently, but her breathing was stronger.
I could see the counterpane move as her breast heaved.
By the bedside sat Van Helsing, looking at her intently.
The velvet band again covered the red mark. I asked the Professor
in a whisper, "What do you make of that mark on her throat?"
"What do you make of it?"
"I have not examined it yet," I answered, and then and there
proceeded to loose the band. Just over the external jugular vein
there were two punctures, not large, but not wholesome looking.
There was no sign of disease, but the edges were white and worn looking,
as if by some trituration. It at once occurred to me that that this wound,
or whatever it was, might be the means of that manifest loss of blood.
But I abandoned the idea as soon as it formed, for such a thing could not be.
The whole bed would have been drenched to a scarlet with the blood
which the girl must have lost to leave such a pallor as she had
before the transfusion.
"Well?" said Van Helsing.
"Well," said I. "I can make nothing of it."
The Professor stood up. "I must go back to Amsterdam tonight,"
he said "There are books and things there which I want.
You must remain here all night, and you must not let your sight
pass from her."
"Shall I have a nurse?" I asked.
"We are the best nurses, you and I. You keep watch all night.
See that she is well fed, and that nothing disturbs her.
You must not sleep all the night. Later on we can sleep,
you and I. I shall be back as soon as possible.
And then we may begin."
"May begin?" I said. "What on earth do you mean?"
"We shall see!" he answered, as he hurried out. He came back a moment later
and put his head inside the door and said with a warning finger held up,
"Remember, she is your charge. If you leave her, and harm befall,
you shall not sleep easy hereafter!"
8 September.--I sat up all night with Lucy. The opiate worked
itself off towards dusk, and she waked naturally. She looked
a different being from what she had been before the operation.
Her spirits even were good, and she was full of a happy vivacity, but I
could see evidences of the absolute prostration which she had undergone.
When I told Mrs. Westenra that Dr. Van Helsing had directed
that I should sit up with her, she almost pooh-poohed the idea,
pointing out her daughter's renewed strength and excellent spirits.
I was firm, however, and made preparations for my long vigil.
When her maid had prepared her for the night I came in, having in
the meantime had supper, and took a seat by the bedside.
She did not in any way make objection, but looked at me gratefully whenever
I caught her eye. After a long spell she seemed sinking off to sleep,
but with an effort seemed to pull herself together and shook it off.
It was apparent that she did not want to sleep, so I tackled the
subject at once.
"You do not want to sleep?"
"No. I am afraid."
"Afraid to go to sleep! Why so? It is the boon we all crave for."
"Ah, not if you were like me, if sleep was to you a presage of horror!"
"A presage of horror! What on earth do you mean?"
"I don't know. Oh, I don't know. And that is what is so terrible.
All this weakness comes to me in sleep, until I dread the very thought."
"But, my dear girl, you may sleep tonight. I am here watching you,
and I can promise that nothing will happen."
"Ah, I can trust you!" she said.
I seized the opportunity, and said, "I promise that if I see
any evidence of bad dreams I will wake you at once."
"You will? Oh, will you really? How good you are to me.
Then I will sleep!" And almost at the word she gave a deep
sigh of relief, and sank back, asleep.
All night long I watched by her. She never stirred, but slept
on and on in a deep, tranquil, life-giving, health-giving sleep.
Her lips were slightly parted, and her breast rose and fell
with the regularity of a pendulum. There was a smile on her face,
and it was evident that no bad dreams had come to disturb
her peace of mind.
In the early morning her maid came, and I left her in her care and took myself
back home, for I was anxious about many things. I sent a short wire to Van
Helsing and to Arthur, telling them of the excellent result of the operation.
My own work, with its manifold arrears, took me all day to clear off.
It was dark when I was able to inquire about my zoophagous patient.
The report was good. He had been quite quiet for the past day and night.
A telegram came from Van Helsing at Amsterdam whilst I was at dinner,
suggesting that I should be at Hillingham tonight, as it might be well to be
at hand, and stating that he was leaving by the night mail and would join me
early in the morning.
9 September.--I was pretty tired and worn out when I got to Hillingham.
For two nights I had hardly had a wink of sleep, and my brain was
beginning to feel that numbness which marks cerebral exhaustion.
Lucy was up and in cheerful spirits. When she shook hands with me
she looked sharply in my face and said,
"No sitting up tonight for you. You are worn out.
I am quite well again. Indeed, I am, and if there is to be
any sitting up, it is I who will sit up with you."
I would not argue the point, but went and had my supper.
Lucy came with me, and, enlivened by her charming presence,
I made an excellent meal, and had a couple of glasses of the more
than excellent port. Then Lucy took me upstairs, and showed
me a room next her own, where a cozy fire was burning.
"Now," she said. "You must stay here. I shall leave this door open and my
door too. You can lie on the sofa for I know that nothing would induce any
of you doctors to go to bed whilst there is a patient above the horizon.
If I want anything I shall call out, and you can come to me at once."
I could not but acquiesce, for I was dog tired, and could
not have sat up had I tried. So, on her renewing her promise
to call me if she should want anything, I lay on the sofa,
and forgot all about everything.
9 September.--I feel so happy tonight. I have been so miserably weak,
that to be able to think and move about is like feeling
sunshine after a long spell of east wind out of a steel sky.
Somehow Arthur feels very, very close to me. I seem to feel
his presence warm about me. I suppose it is that sickness
and weakness are selfish things and turn our inner eyes and
sympathy on ourselves, whilst health and strength give love rein,
and in thought and feeling he can wander where he wills.
I know where my thoughts are. If only Arthur knew!
My dear, my dear, your ears must tingle as you sleep,
as mine do waking. Oh, the blissful rest of last night!
How I slept, with that dear, good Dr. Seward watching me.
And tonight I shall not fear to sleep, since he is close at hand
and within call. Thank everybody for being so good to me.
Thank God! Goodnight Arthur.
10 September.--I was conscious of the Professor's hand on my head, and started
awake all in a second. That is one of the things that we learn in an asylum,
at any rate.
"And how is our patient?"
"Well, when I left her, or rather when she left me," I answered.
"Come, let us see," he said. And together we went into the room.
The blind was down, and I went over to raise it gently,
whilst Van Helsing stepped, with his soft, cat-like tread,
over to the bed.
As I raised the blind, and the morning sunlight flooded
the room, I heard the Professor's low hiss of inspiration,
and knowing its rarity, a deadly fear shot through my heart.
As I passed over he moved back, and his exclamation of horror,
"Gott in Himmel!" needed no enforcement from his agonized face.
He raised his hand and pointed to the bed, and his iron face
was drawn and ashen white. I felt my knees begin to tremble.
There on the bed, seemingly in a swoon, lay poor Lucy, more horribly
white and wan-looking than ever. Even the lips were white,
and the gums seemed to have shrunken back from the teeth,
as we sometimes see in a corpse after a prolonged illness.
Van Helsing raised his foot to stamp in anger, but the instinct
of his life and all the long years of habit stood to him,
and he put it down again softly.
"Quick!" he said. "Bring the brandy."
I flew to the dining room, and returned with the decanter.
He wetted the poor white lips with it, and together we rubbed
palm and wrist and heart. He felt her heart, and after a few
moments of agonizing suspense said,
"It is not too late. It beats, though but feebly. All our work
is undone. We must begin again. There is no young Arthur here now.
I have to call on you yourself this time, friend John." As he spoke,
he was dipping into his bag, and producing the instruments of transfusion.
I had taken off my coat and rolled up my shirt sleeve. There was
no possibility of an opiate just at present, and no need of one.
and so, without a moment's delay, we began the operation.
After a time, it did not seem a short time either, for the draining
away of one's blood, no matter how willingly it be given,
is a terrible feeling, Van Helsing held up a warning finger.
"Do not stir," he said. "But I fear that with growing strength
she may wake, and that would make danger, oh, so much danger.
But I shall precaution take. I shall give hypodermic
injection of morphia." He proceeded then, swiftly and deftly,
to carry out his intent.
The effect on Lucy was not bad, for the faint seemed to merge subtly into
the narcotic sleep. It was with a feeling of personal pride that I could
see a faint tinge of color steal back into the pallid cheeks and lips.
No man knows, till he experiences it, what it is to feel his own lifeblood
drawn away into the veins of the woman he loves.
The Professor watched me critically. "That will do,"
he said. "Already?" I remonstrated. "You took a great deal
more from Art." To which he smiled a sad sort of smile
as he replied,
"He is her lover, her fiance. You have work, much work to do for her
and for others, and the present will suffice.
When we stopped the operation, he attended to Lucy,
whilst I applied digital pressure to my own incision.
I laid down, while I waited his leisure to attend to me, for I
felt faint and a little sick. By and by he bound up my wound,
and sent me downstairs to get a glass of wine for myself.
As I was leaving the room, he came after me, and half whispered.
"Mind, nothing must be said of this. If our young lover
should turn up unexpected, as before, no word to him.
It would at once frighten him and enjealous him, too.
There must be none. So!"
When I came back he looked at me carefully, and then said,
"You are not much the worse. Go into the room, and lie on your sofa,
and rest awhile, then have much breakfast and come here to me."
I followed out his orders, for I knew how right and wise they were.
I had done my part, and now my next duty was to keep up my strength.
I felt very weak, and in the weakness lost something of the amazement at
what had occurred. I fell asleep on the sofa, however, wondering over and
over again how Lucy had made such a retrograde movement, and how she could
have been drained of so much blood with no sign any where to show for it.
I think I must have continued my wonder in my dreams, for, sleeping and
waking my thoughts always came back to the little punctures in her throat
and the ragged, exhausted appearance of their edges, tiny though they were.
Lucy slept well into the day, and when she woke she was fairly
well and strong, though not nearly so much so as the day before.
When Van Helsing had seen her, he went out for a walk,
leaving me in charge, with strict injunctions that I was not
to leave her for a moment. I could hear his voice in the hall,
asking the way to the nearest telegraph office.
Lucy chatted with me freely, and seemed quite unconscious that
anything had happened. I tried to keep her amused and interested.
When her mother came up to see her, she did not seem to notice
any change whatever, but said to me gratefully,
"We owe you so much, Dr. Seward, for all you have done, but you really must
now take care not to overwork yourself. You are looking pale yourself.
You want a wife to nurse and look after you a bit, that you do!"
As she spoke, Lucy turned crimson, though it was only momentarily, for her
poor wasted veins could not stand for long an unwonted drain to the head.
The reaction came in excessive pallor as she turned imploring eyes on me.
I smiled and nodded, and laid my finger on my lips. With a sigh,
she sank back amid her pillows.
Van Helsing returned in a couple of hours, and presently said to me.
"Now you go home, and eat much and drink enough. Make yourself strong.
I stay here tonight, and I shall sit up with little miss myself.
You and I must watch the case, and we must have none other to know.
I have grave reasons. No, do not ask the. Think what you will.
Do not fear to think even the most not-improbable. Goodnight."
In the hall two of the maids came to me, and asked if they
or either of them might not sit up with Miss Lucy.
They implored me to let them, and when I said it was Dr. Van
Helsing's wish that either he or I should sit up, they asked
me quite piteously to intercede with the`foreign gentleman'. I
was much touched by their kindness. Perhaps it is because I am
weak at present, and perhaps because it was on Lucy's account,
that their devotion was manifested. For over and over
again have I seen similar instances of woman's kindness.
I got back here in time for a late dinner, went my rounds,
all well, and set this down whilst waiting for sleep.
It is coming.
11 September.--This afternoon I went over to Hillingham.
Found Van Helsing in excellent spirits, and Lucy much better.
Shortly after I had arrived, a big parcel from abroad came
for the Professor. He opened it with much impressment, assumed,
of course, and showed a great bundle of white flowers.
"These are for you, Miss Lucy," he said.
"For me? Oh, Dr. Van Helsing!"
"Yes, my dear, but not for you to play with. These are medicines."
Here Lucy made a wry face. "Nay, but they are not to take in a decoction
or in nauseous form, so you need not snub that so charming nose,
or I shall point out to my friend Arthur what woes he may have to
endure in seeing so much beauty that he so loves so much distort.
Aha, my pretty miss, that bring the so nice nose all straight again.
This is medicinal, but you do not know how. I put him in your window,
I make pretty wreath, and hang him round your neck, so you sleep well.
Oh, yes! They, like the lotus flower, make your trouble forgotten.
It smell so like the waters of Lethe, and of that fountain of youth
that the Conquistadores sought for in the Floridas, and find him
all too late."
Whilst he was speaking, Lucy had been examining the flowers and
smelling them. Now she threw them down saying, with half laughter,
and half disgust,
"Oh, Professor, I believe you are only putting up a joke on me.
Why, these flowers are only common garlic."
To my surprise, Van Helsing rose up and said with all his sternness,
his iron jaw set and his bushy eyebrows meeting,
"No trifling with me! I never jest! There is grim purpose
in what I do, and I warn you that you do not thwart me.
Take care, for the sake of others if not for your own."
Then seeing poor Lucy scared, as she might well be, he went
on more gently, "Oh, little miss, my dear, do not fear me.
I only do for your good, but there is much virtue to you in those
so common flowers. See, I place them myself in your room.
I make myself the wreath that you are to wear. But hush!
No telling to others that make so inquisitive questions.
We must obey, and silence is a part of obedience, and obedience
is to bring you strong and well into loving arms that wait for you.
Now sit still a while. Come with me, friend John, and you shall
help me deck the room with my garlic, which is all the war
from Haarlem, where my friend Vanderpool raise herb in his
glass houses all the year. I had to telegraph yesterday,
or they would not have been here."
We went into the room, taking the flowers with us.
The Professor's actions were certainly odd and not
to be found in any pharmacopeia that I ever heard of.
First he fastened up the windows and latched them securely.
Next, taking a handful of the flowers, he rubbed them all
over the sashes, as though to ensure that every whiff of air
that might get in would be laden with the garlic smell.
Then with the wisp he rubbed all over the jamb of the door,
above, below, and at each side, and round the fireplace
in the same way. It all seemed grotesque to me,
and presently I said, "Well, Professor, I know you always
have a reason for what you do, but this certainly puzzles me.
It is well we have no sceptic here, or he would say that you
were working some spell to keep out an evil spirit."
"Perhaps I am!" He answered quietly as he began to make the wreath
which Lucy was to wear round her neck.
We then waited whilst Lucy made her toilet for the night, and when she
was in bed he came and himself fixed the wreath of garlic round her neck.
The last words he said to her were,
"Take care you do not disturb it, and even if the room feel close,
do not tonight open the window or the door."
"I promise," said Lucy. "And thank you both a thousand times for all your
kindness to me! Oh, what have I done to be blessed with such friends?"
As we left the house in my fly, which was waiting, Van Helsing said,
"Tonight I can sleep in peace, and sleep I want, two nights of travel,
much reading in the day between, and much anxiety on the day to follow,
and a night to sit up, without to wink. Tomorrow in the morning
early you call for me, and we come together to see our pretty miss,
so much more strong for my `spell' which I have work. Ho, ho!"
He seemed so confident that I, remembering my own confidence two nights
before and with the baneful result, felt awe and vague terror.
It must have been my weakness that made me hesitate to tell it to my friend,
but I felt it all the more, like unshed tears.