Jesse (Unfiltered)

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ALL OF THE MENTIONED TRIGGER WARNINGS ARE DISCUSSED HEAVILY IN GREAT DETAILS. 
Trigger warnings for:
* Suicide
* Self-Harm
* Substance abuse
* Alcohol
* Self sabotage
* Mental illness
* Disordered eating
* Suicide ideation
* Panic attacks
* Mental breakdown
"I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side"
"No-one compares to you.."
"I just want you to love me.."
Jesse was previously a mark of "what could have been" before he met Damien. Though the two started out as best friends, they quickly became romantically entangled in an inescapable feeling for eachother. Their friendship began on September 19th, 2008, as the two had met while in line together in a hardware store. The two had previously ran into each other while Jesse sat in a plastic box in the middle of the materials aisle. Damien left a great impression as he started cracking funny jokes and jabs out of boredom, attracting Jesse to his positive and addictive energy. The two traded information, and agreed to message each other later that night. They began doing everything and going everywhere together, and even sleeping in bed together, leading Jesse to the point where he couldn't deny his feelings for his new companion anymore, leading him to try to get Damien to ask him about it. Jesse and Damien laid in bed, tangled up with each other, and Jesse began to push his face up against Damien's. Damien finally asked him what he wanted. Jesse forced him to guess, and Damien's first guess was "You hate me secretly, don't you? You can't hide it anymore?". Jesse shook his head, looking down as he started to chew on the inside of his mouth. Damien guessed, "You're in love with me!" as a joke. Jesse blushed softly and pushed his head into his "best friend"'s chest. Damien looked at him for a moment, in disbelief, unable to process what had just happened. Damien received a text from his mother, and had to respond to it and leave soon, so that she wouldn't come to the two. Jesse asked Damien to be his boyfriend, to which Damien responded, "I'll think about it". Damien said yes when he got back, and the two got together at seven in the morning. Their relationship started on October 10th, 2008, and lasted for 13 days, before one of Cory's friends tried to sabotage the relationship 2 times, which left Jesse hurt and unsure about a lot of things. The first time, Jesse reacted horribly as Damien had no idea of what was happening. One of Cory's friends had sent Damien an anonymous message about how they felt about Jesse, before the two had even gotten together, describing him as a "Useless stupid junkie pimp". Jesse caught a glimpse of this by accident, and it took a major toll on his mental health. He left the bedroom, avoiding any form of drugs, as that would prove the message to be right about him. Jesse resorted to the only other thing that he knew that could help how he felt. He entered the kitchen, and grabbed an x-acto knife. He exited the house upstairs, walking out onto the back balcony, using the knife on himself, completely unaware of the fact that Damien had woken up and was walking around the house looking for him.
Damien caught Jesse and was immediately nauseated at the sight of blood dripping down his arms and off of the balcony, onto the concrete below it. Jesse dropped the knife and put his arms out slightly, trying to calm Damien down as he began to have a panic attack. Jesse walked toward him, slowly, blood still dripping off of him and onto his surroundings, sending Damien flying into the nearest bathroom in horror. He became even more upset and horrified as he noticed that the door didn't have a lock on it. Jesse banged on the door, trying to open it with his free hand, blood dripping down onto the floor. Damien forced all of his weight against the door, while also trying to hold the knob. Jesse stopped for a moment, Damien could hear him walking away and instantly became even more nauseated at the thought. He heard Jesse pick something up from the table inside of his bedroom, and then start walking back. He sat the object down on the floor next to himself as he turned it on. It was a radio, and it was playing their song, Cherry Waves by Deftones. Jesse fell to the floor, as did Damien, in unison with him. Jesse tried to open the door again, this time being a success. The door slowly opened, their eyes locked as he crawled into the bathroom. The two shared a long hug, and one very passionate kiss, before Damien passed out, which left Jesse to drag him to the bedroom. The scheme to get the two to break up eventually ended up working the second time. The relationship ended on October 23rd, 2008.
Jesse attempted to commit suicide 6 days later, after seeing Damien and his "new boyfriend" at a bar inside of an arcade on the 29th of October, as time reversed and the two headspaces bled into each other, until the headspace with the "new boyfriend" ceased to exist. He saw the two, had a panic attack, got escorted out of the bar, went home, and had a mental breakdown. similar to the one that he had upon first seeing the two together. He got home, dropped to the floor, sobbed on the ground, and eventually pushed himself to crawl to his dining room table, where he picked up an almost lethal amount of an unidentified illegal drug, and took his phone out of his pocket. He dialed in Damien's phone number very carefully, crying audibly while it rang. Jesse was left alone that night, as Damien's phone went straight to voicemail. Jesse waited for the tone, and went silent. "I love you", he mumbled, very lowly, almost under his breath, before slamming his phone shut and passing out on the floor. He was awoken by the sound of banging on his front door early the next morning, and was greeted with excruciating stomach pain, along with fatigue, nausea, and a pounding migraine. Jesse had barely survived without medical assistance. 
Damien scooped Jesse up after opening one of his unlocked windows, pulling his head into his chest as he sat on the kitchen floor, next to Jesse's body, as he had yet again fallen unconscious before Damien could find a way in. Damien held him for almost 20 minutes, running his hands through his short brown hair, before carrying him up to his bedroom, and laying him out on the bed. Damien used his knowledge from his previous nursing classes in college to nurse him back to health after the potentially lethal overdose. Jesse woke up within 30 minutes, and couldn't remember anything that had happened in the previous 24 hours. Damien left the room to cry alone, but was followed by Jesse. The two went back to being best friends without talking about anything that had happened, but that ended quickly. As the two went to bed together, Jesse caressed his "new best friend"'s sides under his shirt, before gazing into his eyes. The two shared a passionate kiss, before Damien left to go to a function with his sister. Damien was left thinking about the things that had just occurred the entire time, eating up his entire time with his sister. Damien arrived home at 8 PM, getting back into bed with Jesse. He asked him if he was wanting to get back together, to which Jesse responded with an immediate yes. The two slept together that night, waking up fully rested together in the morning.
The two continued to be together again, constantly. They are still together as of 11.09.2008, and have patched everything up, leaving no room for confusion or mistakes in the relationship.
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