LU 62 - Dr. Thornberry 16

Went back to the shit hole today. Yeah the shit hole. I honestly don't know how much longer I can be a slave for this imbecile of a bird. I'm disgusting with myself for even going back every night. But I know somewhere that I won't be able to defend myself when he comes down to kill me. And I never want to experience that feeling again. After his short welcoming's and small talk we headed back down to the cell. but this time when I opened the door I saw coyotes. Not one but two of them. Drooling, scary, hungry looking predators. After convincing Tori that I would be alright, he left me for the night, promising to come check on me once. At what I felt like would be the time of my second death, I spoke to my Father. He.. he did so much for me. And I killed him with my own two hands. I still wear his lab coat to this day. His blood is still on this coat, and I can't bare to wash it off. He was such a kind man, doing everything for others without putting himself first. He would be so disappointed in me now.. I wonder what he would even say.
Would he even recognize me now? Recognize me with the blood of hundreds on my hands? Recognize me now, wanted in the small town I call a home.
But right as I was about to shed a real tear for the first time in 16 years, I heard clapping. Tori. Was he listening to all of that? He looked down at me with a grin on his face.
"What a touching monologue Thornberry! Funny to see you speaking to your daddy in a time of need!"
I took deep breathes. I was not going to let this man tip me over the edge. I just smiled and told him that was nonsense to evoke a reaction out of him. He nodded and left me with the coyotes for the rest of the night. After making sure he was for sure gone, I started choking on my tears. I miss him. I miss him so fucking much. My next task was simple. Make a shrine out of the materials Tori provided. As he slept in a chair waiting for me to finish, I admired my creation. Though I'd never made a shrine before, I though this was pretty good. But as soon as he woke up, he told me it was vile and disgusting. Sigh I don't really care about his opinion so waited until he let me out. I walked back to my bridge and looked out at the horizon. Talking about him has made me think:
Does that lab still exist? Does the town even exist? The land deserted and covered in blood? I wonder if everything is just the same as it once was? What if I go back and he's standing right in front of me?
Thornberry chuckles.
"That would never happen."