Choiceless

I was a punching bag. A punching bag for my mother. And for a long portion of my life, I thought that was how she gave love to me. It was a lie, but I moved on and moved away from her from all the way to The Philippines to help children learn how to speak English. I always asked them if they were okey and they always said that they were thankfully. I just kept my eye out for if or when the kids are feeling more off than usual those days. It was all so long ago before I eventually got my hands on an email gifted from my dad who helped me get away from the freak that was my mom. He said it was somehow.. a gift. For.. me? Sent from mom.
I just didn’t know how to react. I was both confused and very.. happy, for some reason. Like yeah, my mother was a Grade A D-Bag but.. she gave me something. Fittingly enough, it was some sort of pirated collection of the entirety of Season 13 of Family Guy. I watched them, binge ate some snacks.. and overall, I was pretty happy. But then I scrolled far into the collections and found some sort of QR Link hidden within the final episode in the season’s credits, oddly enough with it having an endless.. gonging noise playing in the back. I didn’t know what it was exactly, give me a bit of a break alright?
Eventually it lead me to this forum on KiwiFarms which talked about some sort of Lost Fan Episode where Meg dies, which I scrolled through and dug through like I was looking for diamonds. It felt impossible, searching around for something that might’ve been just lost media. But eventually.. I found it. It was on another forum, but everything was in some form of cryptic language. Every word looked similar to DnD Dice, having only a few English or Spanish comments sprinkled around. But one comment I found the most interesting, was one of the Spanish Ones. From what I remember, it went like this.
“Los incendios esperan”
Which from what I can remember, said “The fires await”. I couldn’t tell if that was some sort of threat or a shitpost left behind to mark where they were. Either way, I dug deep until I found the link. I’m honestly dumbfounded for how I managed to scrounge around within the damn farms and manage to uncover this thing. It felt weird actually finding this. I eventually bookmarked it and waited until the weekend to finally watch the episode. It was pretty scary not gonna lie, me suddenly feeling ill in the middle of one of my classes. On the plus side, I got a small break out of it. I eventually got around to watching the episode, and I wasn’t expecting everything that could’ve happened in it.
It started off with the intro, Meg looking.. oddly enough, uncannily happy as her smile was big and wide. And it kept increasing in size throughout the entirety of the intro. It just felt uncomfortable seeing it, seeing Meg’s features be distorted in a weird way like that just makes my skin crawl. It later cut to the episode, featuring Meg infront of the mirror. She stared sorrowfully into it, her being tired along with it. She later stood up and walked outside of her room and went to her seat within the dining room, Lois making breakfast for the family before noticing Meg in such a terrible mood. Then dialogue happened.
L: “Meg? What’s wrong Sweetie?”
M: “Mom, I just feel.. blegh.. But, do you really hear about it or..?”
L: “Sweetie, Moms are supposed to listen to their children. That’s why I was put on this earth to do, to give what I can to my special little gifts from god!”
M: “..You mean that?”
L: “Course I do Sweetheart, and I’m sorry if I haven’t been the best in a long while.”
Meg smiles a tad bit, thanking her mother for genuinely spotting her like that after all that time. Eventually Meg gets her schoolfood and supplies and heads to school, heading to it with a slightly pleased expression on her face. Eventually it hardcuts to Meg within the Dining Room, before one of her bullies walks up to her. However this bully in particular for a splint second looked just like.. my mom. But, it switched to the jock archetype as soon as the second frame was introduced. Eventually another conversation broke out.
M: “..Listen dude, not in the mo-“
B: “I’m sorry.”
M: “..Huh?”
B: “Y-Yeah I got told by my dad to apologize to you for the way I’ve been treating you, gave me one HELL of a reality check too. L-Look-I’ve been bullying you these past few months and I’m.. audible sigh I’m sorry, alright. I don’t expect you to accept this.”
M: “..I accept it, a-and.. thanks dude, kinda needed that today.”
B: “Ain’t no thing, Meg.”
So far.. it seemed not too bad, with Meg not being the punching bag this time around. The Bully walked off, Meg feeling better this time around. She was eating what seemed to be Tater Tots, before someone tried shoving her head into them as some form of humiliation stunt. It worked but.. no one was laughing. Instead the entire cafeteria was filled with riled up anger as the kid who did it was carried away by security. Some kids even walked up to her to check if she was okey, some of them being most likely 14 or even 13 years old. She genuinely was confused on how life was going smoothly for her on this day in particular. 
Eventually the day ended, her walking back home and seeing Brian walking right past her. Eventually Brian looked at Meg and said something. Sparking another conversation.
B: “Hey, Meg?”
M: “Yeah?’
B: “..Is everything alright? You don’t have to spill the details if you don’t want to.”
M: “..It actually is pretty.. fine. Nothing much happened except for me making amends with a bully. Not much to say really.”
B: “Alright good.”
And just as Meg was about to step one more foot back to the house.. she gains Deja Vu and stops in her place, looking at the surroundings around her. Flickering lights begin to be heard, as her breathing becomes more and more clear.
M: “..Did we have the same conversation before, Bri-!?”
As she turned to Brian, Brian was already facing her direction. His arms now replaced with Meg’s, oddly enough. The sky was also flickering as this happened, Brian’s facial expression contorted into a horrific grin which expanded from ear to ear. The lighting was also very good on this, as if the sun is actually setting. But then.. It spoke, in a clear.. female voice.
”I figured you’d figure it out eventually, Meg.”
The sky immediately switched to a weird.. sky like texture, holes pulsing and quaking as stars peered and disappeared. Meg stepped back, now being on a concrete road that stretched into infinity. A lullaby playing within the background as the thing went from looking like Brian.. to a near perfect reflection of Meg, albeit with some unsettling features. The eyes being as small as golfballs, her jaw large and open as black liquid perfectly aimed downward from her... eyes. Another conversation broke out, and this is what I remember.
M2: “I don’t get it, Meg. I just don’t.”
M: “..W-..What do you mean!? Where am I-?”
M2: “Shush.. silence now, my sweet little girl. No time for questions. …To explain would need to know what happened for this to happen.”
This entity’s eyes expand to the size of what her eyes would normally look like, showing Meg what seemed to be a bitcrushed visage of what seemed to be her just taking a nap within a camp. It frowning for a splint second weirdly enough. Before it goes back to normal, cutting to Meg as it talks once more.
M2: “I love you. I love you with every fiber of what makes me just as human as you Meg! I just made a perfect world, a perfect replica of what YOU want. What YOU need. A loving family? People who respect you? Is that what you want.”
M: “..Y-Yeah but I can take care of myself, plus.. What about Chris? What about Brian??-“
M2: “THEY ALL DON’T RESPECT YOU ENOUGH.”
Meg backed away, looking towards the Path she was treading down. It being cover by shadow now, while she looks back at the other her’s side.. being a lighter and lighter shade until it completely disappears into the light. This was her mind, and the physical path towards continuing and not. The connections were clear, and I just.. had a horrible feeling course through my body after realizing the fact at play.
M2: “Why else would you think otherwise? You’d be better off WITHOUT THEM.”
Visions begins to appear within the sky, visions of her failures, her family laughing at her misfortune, her family enraged that she got something right and being glad that she didn’t. But.. Meg after a while looked down, and said something.
M: “No. I do.”
M2: “But this is solid-“
M: “Shut up. This is what you personalize the family as to try to take the plunge into the dark and let YOU control my life? Sure, I may be a punching bag at times. But.. they’re my damned family, and I’m not letting you change how I think of them. I’m better off without YOU is what I think, and if you think you can stop me from thinking that.. good fucking luck.”
They both stood for a long while, the doppelgänger finally not smiling. For a split second.. It again showed my mom before she had me and what seemed to be her within her current state, rugged and tired. Almost.. decrepit. I was very confused on why my mom was featured as split second frames in this, weirded out by the symbolism of the episode and how Meg was used here.
M2: “..Fine then. We’ll burn down in flames togethe”
And then suddenly, it hardcut to Meg awake in her bed. Her eyes unnervingly bloodshot as she stared at the ceiling fan, before she eventually turned on the light and went to the kitchen. Making her some midnight snack of some sort. She just ate there, the episode fading the black after a short while. The credits were nothing short of tragic and almost saddening for the use of instruments with it, as a woman in the back was.. crying. Hysterically. Eventually I stopped the video right then and there, and just.. tried to think. What the hell was it meant to say? What the hell was it supposed to even be?? In the end, I was left with more questions than answers. Eventually I watched the rest of the credits, but once it got to the final credit of the sequence.. it made me tear up.
”Made for Raymond Stephenson Goldilocks, from Meg Griffin Goldilocks. ❤️”
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