Metal Heart/Earthbound

Hi guys, this is something new I've wanted to try, there's two poems here that can be read apart or together as one long one. Each one has it's own meaning/backstory/speaker, and they give those qualities to each other when read together, hope you enjoy!.
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3 Am and sleep's seduction is unlikely
Staring at my computer screen, hack of the psyche
Thoughts pour fast, head begins to reel
The mind,soul,and heart;replaced by steel
Listen to the words that can ruin me
Following the beats that move chaotically
Reminds me of a place called home
Now it's just me and a broken metronome
Left alone to my own devices
I found out I threw away something priceless
Cuts deep on my skin, drawing blood but fast healing
Mechanized numbness, tell me what is a "feeling"?
A sick virus embraces me warmly
Forget who I am, talk with the machine that speaks for me
Echoing memories, delay the stillness
Just whispering ghosts and useless wishes
They belong to something else now- part of dead dreams
Cut the connection, and just take them out by the seams
My world is getting darker, or do I just see it differently?
The face that screams for contact, but the mask is all you see
I know it's obscene, but what else am I suppose to do?
Trying to blank the days and nights that remind me of you
Metallic tendencies only hide the fact, I wanted to be rewound
Maybe one day I'll be back,
EarthBound
I haven't lived as long as others have
I have nothing but a laptop and some worn out sneakers
A smile, some laughter, and the memories in my heart
There were some times so sad, that it made tears come out
But I always had you by my side
We talked, we laughed and yeah sometimes got hurt
You realized sometimes I tried to take shortcuts, and ended up in circles
I was too ambitious, trying too hard but just fell 
You laughed it off, and helped me up
I realized then, even if you can't believe in everyone
You can't outrun someone you do believe in
You made me stronger, just by being who you are
Like a gentle wind blowing, swaying the trees softly
You always looked at the world with a smile
Yes, the two who shared so many memories
Are now far apart
I can say that I miss you now
But you're not really gone
I can see how you saw the world, everytime my heart beats
"Take a melody,
Simple as can be
Give it some words and
Sweet harmony"