Who am I?

(Note: This is a really personnel poem. Basically just me throwing my emotions into words.)
Why do I have to fight
Why can't I still see the light
I hear two voices in my head
I feel like a sinner and a saint
Who am I?
I lost the fight
Why waste my time
They don't understand
It's not my time to shine
I'm an outcast in my own home
Separated and they don't even know
I'm too stubborn to die
But I have no breath to fight
Who am I?
Why do I have this life
Come on
Raise that sword
Speak your word
But fear holds me back
Who am I?
I'd lose their light
The fire in my eyes
Hellfire or pure light
The spirit to fight
Is that right
Who am I?
Why do I have this life
They think it's the same
But I've changed
And the smile's breaking
I'm shaking
As tears soak my soul
But in real life
I can't even cry
They haven't realized
And how long can this last
Can I keep up the act
Why do I have this life
How did I lose the light
I have to wake up
And I realize
That everything I fantasize
Won't come true
Cause I'll still be an outcast
Putting on a fake smile
The world seems hostile
I feel like I'm on trial
Who am I?
Tonight
I look up
See the starlight
Not as bright as sunrise
Not as bright as my eyes
Before my spirit died
World's full of trip mines
And I sit here 
Trying to rhyme
What's it worth
What am I worth
Who am I?
Why is this my life
Where I have to hide my light
So it's no longer in my eyes
Cause if they saw that light
They'd wish I'd died
Gotta find a way
To make this work
Who am I?
Truth's the dangerous option
My smiles are on auction
Cause they're rarer than platinum
My heart's being pounded by a magnum
But the bullets never reach
Cause that wall can't be breached
The walls of my heart
Why my life
Who am I?
-Chiron66 (Caleb)
Category:Poems