Beloved in Calmness

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== Foreword ==
Hello. My name is Jonathan.
Recently, a lot of updates have been released that complement our favorite sandbox and change it beyond recognition. The news of innovations reached me quickly enough, and I always admired them, but at the same time I was sad, because I couldn't dive into them. I have a very weak, used computer that doesn't support about modern versions. Even worse was that even with not the biggest modifications on 1.12.2 it was impossible to play. However, I managed to get used to it and accept my fate. While everyone is debating and berating the reporting system in the new update, I'm only focused on one thing that was added around the same time. The cute fairies named Allays. As soon as they appeared, I immediately fell in love with them. I always watched videos with these beautiful, pure soul creatures, and I could also look at them for hours. Even all my drawings were devoted to them (although I didn't know how to draw well).
Of course, I couldn't see them in the game. I could accept this loss and not hope for the best... but the day came that changed everything.
== Fateful Day ==
It started in the usual way. My parents went to work, I, as always, walked the dog, brushed my teeth, ate, and was left alone with myself. Wandering on social networks and looking through posts, my friends suddenly began to write to me. They invited to play on a local server to talk in voice chat on Discord and just spend time together. We used to do this before, because fortunately, my computer could allow me to play on old versions with a small number of players.
Another new world on version 1.8. Everything is going as usual. Me and five people who used to be close to me are building a house, extracting resources and defending ourselves from mobs, along the way talking on ordinary topics, like "How are you", "What's new?" etc. Usually, I was always incredibly happy with such gatherings and actively maintained communication with everyone. Even the dog barked after me. But that day I was not in the mood, because I couldn't come to terms with the fact that I could never meet Allays, because of which I was closed and taciturn. This was noticed by my friends, but at first they didn't raise the topic. At some point, TypeProto (my now ex-girlfriend) decided to ask about this.
TypeProto: Jonathan?
Me: Huh?
TypeProto: Can you hear me?
Me: Yes, I can. What do you want?
TypeProto: You're kind of uncommunicative today. Is everything okay?
I wanted to shrug it off by saying, "Yes, everything is okay" but deep down I knew it would be stupid to hide it, so I decided to answer honestly.
(TheGreatMemer149, player1235, XaRiO_Producti, G3r4nl0d - my friends' nicknames)
Me: It's... nothing. I just realized once again that I won't be able to play on the new versions.
TypeProto: Uhm... what is it this time?
TheGreatMemer149: Wait a minute, you want to see the reporting system?
Me: Of course no! I'm not that goofy.
player1235: So what is it? The computer began to work even worse?
Me: Fortunately, no. It's just... it's a shame that I won't see the mobs from the new updates.
TheGreatMemer149: Aah... you're about Warden, right? Well... it's a shame.
Me: Well, I'm not so much embarassing for Warden as for Allay. They are... beautiful mobs, the best I've seen from Mojang.
XaRiO_Producti: Uhm... I never liked them. Useless bastards.
TheGreatMemer149: I wouldn't say like that... although, in fairness, I agree that other voting mobs would be better.
Me: But I like them. And I wonder how it would be to survive in lane with them.
TypeProto: So you saddened because of you can't?
Me: ...yes.
TypeProto: Well, you know, it's okay. Everything is possible ahead! Maybe your parents will give you a new computer for your birthday, or you can just ask them.
Me: I asked, they have no money for it. As for the birthday, I doubt that they can give me something other than rubbish.
TypeProto: Ehh...
XaRiO_Producti: Maybe, if that's the case, let's throw him some money?
G3r4nl0d: Where did you see the money in us? Only you and Type have bank cards to made it.
XaRiO_Producti: Damnit.
player1235: Listen, Jonathan? Does your computer supports 1.12.2?
Me: Yeah?
player1235: Of course, I can’t send you a link right here and now, but I came across various mods a couple of times that add content from new versions to older ones.
Me: This is all good, only my computer doesn't supports big mods.
TheGreatMemer149: In fact, they shouldn't particularly burden your system.
XaRiO_Producti: Yes, they are not big. They usually weigh a little.
Me: I... don't sure that will work.
player1235: Do you want to see Allay in the game? Put in the effort and you'll find what you need!
These words made me think. And indeed, I could satisfy myself thanks to the modifications! I'm not the only person with a weak computer, which means there were others who were also looking for a solution here. Why didn't I think of this before? I set myself the goal of finding this mod. When we finished playing and parted ways, I started looking.
== Dreams Come True ==
Finding this mod wasn't difficult. I installed it, moved it to the right folder, switched the version to 1.12.2, launched the game, and... it turned out to be too heavy. Okay, let's say. There are other mods that perform its function. I installed another - there's again crazy lags. I installed the third one and it's finally working. I happily peer into the eggs of the summoning... wait, where is it? There is no Allay. I tried to summon through the command - nothing! The third mod added everything that was in modern versions, but there was no Allay! What the heck? What does it mean? And what is this copper imbecile anyway?! I was outraged. I was extremely outraged by this result. After a few more unsuccessful attempts, it suddenly dawned on me: what if I look for mods that add only Allay, and not all the content from the updates? This made things a little easier.
After several more unsuccessful attempts, I finally found it... a mod that my computer could support, and which added Them and only Them. I was crazy with joy, my heart was pounding inside of me. I summoned them more and more, viewing them from every angle I could. They were beautiful, every detail was perfect: their small, light bodies, their thin strong paws, their graceful dexterous wings, and their beautiful, full of hope eyes... For me, all the days passed quickly, I wanted to spend more and more time with them. Sometimes I even forgot to eat!
Then my dream came true, but I didn't want to leave them. I put an Allay skin for myself, put arts of them on my avatars, and even put a screenshot with them and me on the desktop background. I shared my joy with friends, but they answered me extremely indifferently. Well, hell with them! I have my friends! I called each of the fairies by name, and always shared my experiences with them and shared my joy with them. Cara, Alice, Susie, Jennifer, Sophia, Isabella, Ellie... they always listened to me, nodding sweetly and encouraging me with their beautiful, melodic chuckle. I even could hear their beautiful voice.
== Hatred ==
The next moment came when it was necessary to get together and play with human friends. I walked the dog, ate and joined them. When I joined, I was very active in the conversation, but I was talking only about Allay and I was going to discuss only Them. At first everything went fine, but friends weren't going to keep the conversation going. At first I didn't understand why, but at our next meeting, G3r4nl0d said that he was extremely alarmed by my such "obsession". Then I realized everything! They... hated me. They despised me for liking Allay. They weren't my friends, they were just pretending because they were interested in what I would do next. Traitors...
And he still had the audacity to talk to me further.
G3r4nl0d: Of course, I understand that you are incredibly happy to finally see your favorite mobs, and that's it... only you have recently become as if dependent on them. Maybe you should take a break?
I said nothing. I was offended and angry and didn't speak for a long time. Everyone else supported his opinion, which annoyed me even more. They tried to talk to me, but I had no desire to be here at all. At some moment, I was so filled with anger that I couldn't stand it and yelled at them, after which I left the game.
I shared my experiences with Allays. They were the only ones who understood and supported me. Their voice became clearer and I could now hear. They told me that they love me, and that I did everything right... it was then that I realized who my friends really were.
The next day, TypeProto wrote to me.
TypeProto: Hello.
Me: Hello. What do you want?
TypeProto: I'm a bit confused by your behavior lately. Is everything okay?
Me: Can't you guess it out yourself?
TypeProto: Uhm... no. Did something happen?
Me: Yes, literally nothing at all happened.
TypeProto: Jonathan. What happened?
Me: Don't pretend like you care.
TypeProto: What are you talking about?
Me: Don't pretend like all of them. I know everything... I know that you all hate me!
TypeProto: Who are they? What am I did?!
Me: Geranlod wanted to hurt me, wanted to separate... and Mathew, Xario, Memer support that bastard. And you too! You think I didn't realize that you are friends with me only for selfish purposes?
TypeProto: What purposes? What are you talking about?
Me: Stop pretending to be stupid! You have seen it all!
TypeProto: I don't understand anything!
Me: I already know this...
TypeProto: What is happening? Explain.
At first I wanted to quietly leave the conversation, but then I decided to calm down and answered.
Me: You wanted to leave me without Them.
TypeProto: I'm sorry, what?
Me: Geranlod told me to leave Allays. Now do you remember?
TypeProto: And you got mad at everyone for that?
Me: What else do you think I could do?
TypeProto: He advised you to take a break... after all, you have become too attached to these mobs. Look at yourself, Jonathan. You're too keen on friendly concern. And this is... scares me. I don't wish you harm!
I didn't want to continue the conversation, so with the words "f*ck you" I removed her from friends and blocked, which I also did with other "friends".
== Zenith ==
I decided to play to calm down. Being around my favorite fairies was always more pleasant than being around those bastards. I survived with them for a long time. At some moment, during a fight with zombies, Alice fell under the sword. She died... I was frightened, hearing her heartbreaking cry, and began to mourn her. I was hurt, I asked for forgiveness from everyone, I was extremely sorry for my act. The rest of Allays tried to calm me down, but I couldn't forgive myself for that. I could still hear her voice like a ghost, which only made me feel worse. Unfortunately, the game freezes and crashes. I mourned and screamed. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced in my entire life, I have never felt so bad...
A dog came running to my screams. I found that it doesn't feel sorry for me, she barks mockingly, with laughter. I was angry, I hated my dog. And then I heard the voice of Alice... she ordered me to do something if I want to make amends. I got up from the chairs, approached the dog, grabbed it by the neck and began to choke it. It floundered, it pressed to escape, but I held on tight. I watched its frantically clawing and thrashing, often clutching at life until its twitches were all over the place. I held it like that for a couple of minutes until I started crying. I pressed its lifeless body against me, mourning her and verbally gloating at the same time. Stupid b*tch...
When my parents arrived, they saw me sobbing, hugging an already dead pet. I told them that it was dead and they also started to mourn my dog along with me. Its body has now been thrown into the trash. I regret nothing. After a while, I returned to my fairy friends. They applauded me and praised me for my act. Alice told me that I was ready to join them, but something else was needed...
The night has come. The parents go to bed. I also lie down, but only pretending to be asleep, and waiting for the moment when everyone falls into a deep sleep. 2am. Everyone has been sleeping for a long time, watching their dreams. The windows in the houses went out. The time has come.
I quietly get out of bed and go to the kitchen. I carefully turn on the gas on the stove without setting it on fire, after which I take two knives and go to my parents' room. They sleep sweetly, not knowing what awaits them. I cautiously approach their heads. My hands are trembling, but I'm determined. I identify the target, swing and stab the knife in the skull. Mom's and dad's. Death for them came instantly, half the room was stained with their blood...
I began to wait for the apartment to be filled with enough gas. I... I can't describe the feeling. It's... beautiful... this feeling of hope that I have achieved what I wanted... spiritual freedom... it's immeasurable! Now I know that Allays isn't just friends for me, they are the best thing that exists! I want them. I want to be with them. I want to be just like them! I already feel how my weak human hands are turning into Allay's paws, I feel that my happiness is close...
I took the box and lit a match.
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