Mai's suicide tape

Mai's suicide tape is a tape that Mai Harikani recorded before committing suicide.
==== "Mommy, Whoever you are. I dont want to live in this world anymore." Mai's last words before pulling the trigger ====
The tape starts off in the middle of the night. Mai, covered in dried blood and dirt. Is sitting in front of the recording screen, with a sad look on her face. She starts speaking by saying the date, time and year in a terrified voice, expressing that she doesnt deserve to live and that nobody wants her while searching for something, tears are welling up in her eyes as she speaks. she finds a double barrel shotgun covered in dirt and rust and attempted to clean it with her fingernails, causing them to bleed profusely due to the rust, the video quality starts to get slightly worse as Mai is cleaning the gun. she contines to ramble on about how she is a disgrace to the human race and is ashamed to be one. In her final moments she begins softly singing "My Wave" by Soundgarden while loading the gun, she then aims the barrel at her face, continuing to sing. and then pulls the trigger. the tape continues to play as the bullets are fired as the back of Mai's head explodes. and her head drops through the barrel of the gun. the tape continues to play for a few more minutes, and it then ends unexpectedly.
The tape is currently in a safe underneath Mai's house.