Nixie

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I'm sorry but, don't wanna talkI need a moment before I go It's nothing personal
“Uh, hey, hello. How can this sparkly weirdo here help you?”- Essence's introduction
 
essence
nixie/essence ✧ rain/night/sky ✧ she/her ✧ ✧ writer 
In a world like Pyrrhia, you wouldn't expect it to have a place for a dragoness who looks like she's out of a fairy tale. Some may even believe that she's only a myth, a living enigma at most, something that no one could ever hold onto or say that's she's real.
But believe it or not, she's very much real. And all of those stories about her? Well, most of them aren't true. 
None of them knows the truth, anyway. 
Meet Essence, the dragoness who represents a fairy of light, yet also a soul with possibly one of the darkest histories...
You might just have a hard time believing how such a beautiful mind could hide the ugliest thoughts.
I draw the blindsThey don't need to see me cry
 
Nixie, or Essence, is the first character that the gayest writer ever has created on this wiki. She is a fictional dragonsona, or as how I would describe it, "the dragon I would be in another world". 
Needless to say, she is not the most accurate representation of me, but she still holds a special place in my heart, and is still a a character I treasure a lot. Please do not plagiarize her in any way, and kindly keep your talons and tails to yourself while viewing this page. I do not need any help with spellchecking, thank you for your concerns though <3
Note: I won't be taking relationships on this sona anymore! Don't worry, though I will transfer the relationships I have once written here to my realistic sona, Acuity!
Here is Essence's theme playlist!(some may be explicit)
Cause even if they understandThey don't understand
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An ache, so deepThat I can hardly breatheThis pain can't be imaginedWill it ever heal?
Nixie 	Nixie
 	
Background 	Background
Art By 	echo <33
Creator 	the gayest gay to ever gay
Aesthetics 	starry skies, moonlight, pastel crystals, candies, dusk, gentle waves, ice crystals, fantasy lands, dusk, twilight skies, kittens
Attribute 	healing, empathy
Element 	mystic, ice
Theme Animal 	snowy white kitten
Theme Color 	pastels (mainly blue and purple)
Theme Song 	
Essence - Hewkii
Character 	Character
Names 	Nixie, Essence, Cinnamon Roll, Kitten, Little Sparkle, Fairy Child, Pastel Princess
Age 	8 dragon years / 18 human years
Hatchday 	May 16
Tribe 	Rain/Sky/Night
Gender 	female
Pronouns 	she/her
Orientation 	lesbian
Occupation 	writer
Residence 	Hikari
Relatives 	Starsurge (mother, deceased), Bonfire (father, deceased), Paradise (aunt), Dreamcatcher (uncle), Chameleon (cousin brother), Spirit (cousin sister)
Allies 	Chameleon, Chromium, her friends
Enemies 	Happy, Arcene, Rhythm, bullies, mean dragons, anyone who hurts those she cares about
Abilities 	can breathe fire, color-changing scales (very limited), incredibly good hearing, strong intuition and imagination, semi-high intelligence, strong empathy
Weapons 	her claws, fire, quills and her typing speed, but she's a peaceful gal c:
S.O 	Chromium
Extras 	Extras
Zodiac 	♉
Birthstone 	emerald
Patron Arcana 	The Moon
MBTI 	INFP-T
Moral Alignment	neutral good
Ennegram 	4w5 level 3
Favorite Colors	pastels
Patronus 	cat
Wand 	9 inches, cherry wood, unicorn hair core
Likes 	feeling loved, positive emotions, candy, food in general, peaceful nights, dreams, fantasy, writing, reading, romance, anything emotional, physical affection, Chromium's company, rain, soothing sounds, cool weather, light/pastel colors, crystals, icy aesthetics, moonlight, nighttime, lights, bright places, succeeding at something, music, singing, flying, nature, cute fluffy animals, playing her favorite games, fantasizing, daydreaming, freedom, non-judgmental dragons, falling asleep easily, beautiful words, jokes, comedy, light-hearted subjects, pleasant smells
Dislikes 	letting down others, feeling like a failure, sadness and anger, violence, cruelty, dragons being hurt, her dreams being crushed, being told what to do, being treated like a monster, extremely hot weather, being sick, loneliness, seeing others suffer, pain, blood and gore, horror stories, overly dark subjects, outrageously bad grammar, the thought of being unloved, loud and unexpected sounds, natural disasters, sometimes herself, her own insecurities/issues, bugs and insects, stereotypes, any form of discrimination, lightning/thunder/electricity
Goal 	to continue living a happy life, to show that she had survived her past demons
Quote 	Happiness? It's not found on the outside... it's felt on the inside.
 
appearance
“I used to hate my own reflection. I admit, I might still be hating it if it wasn't for someone who showed me otherwise.”- Essence
Special. Unique. Phenomenal. This pale colored dragoness with sparkling wings looks almost exactly like a fairy, straight out of her magical tale... only that tale isn't quite as light as she looks. Nixie is not someone you would expect to encounter on the streets, but maybe in a secluded town like Hikari, the sight of her isn't all that startling...
The dragoness has a lean build, not having any extra muscle on her body, and she barely resembles any of her three tribes. For her age, she's considered to be a very small dragon - some might even call her tiny. For the most part, she looks rather weak physically, and she's also quite light due to her bones not having a lot of mass. Her wings are one of a kind, not resembling any of the tribes she's from, and they are unique to her and her only.
For some reason, Essence's round scales are extremely smooth, up to the point where you couldn't see their outlines. In terms of coloration, her main scales are constantly shifting between hues of light blues, purples and lilacs, a sign of her RainWing blood. Although, if you look closely, there are always several streaks of lavender in her scales that she cannot change. They are never only one solid color, often forming gradients that resemble a starry evening sky. This part of her blood isn't dominant, however - she cannot consciously change them, and they are forever stuck within these color ranges.
Her wings, however, are the real deal. Because she's part SkyWing, they are larger in comparison to her body size, though not by much. Their membranes are completely smooth, and the colors here change and ripple constantly with her emotions. Instead of showing her feelings with contrasts in colors, the colors of her wings meld and blend whenever she experiences a shift in emotion, which is very often. Much like her main scales, they can be only light shades of purple, blue or pink. The difference between them is that there are scattered white spots evenly distributed over her wings, a sign of her NightWing heritage. They resemble glittering stardust, or just fine powdered sugar, and when her wings turn a pale shade of blue, they look like shimmering water. The same white spots scatter across her underbelly as well, giving it a glimmering effect. Somehow, her underbelly and her main scales can never be the same color at the same time.
Essence has a light purple forked tongue, along with pretty standard teeth and claws. She does possess two longer fangs, but they are much shorter than a regular RainWing's and they do not contain venom. She sharpens her claws often, and they are a dull grey in color. She has a tail that resembles a normal SkyWing's. Triangular spines line down her back, getting flatter as it approaches her tail. One single triangle stands on its own at the tip of her tail, which is significantly longer than the rest of her spines. All of these have blunt edges and are powdery light blue in color.
A pair of very pale dusty purple horns, which curve slightly downward are present on her head. She has a pair of significantly larger than normal ears. Nixie's eyes are probably one of her most striking features - they are a deep, sharp blue, forming two layers of blue when looked closely.
She keeps a neutral expression, a face that seems to reflect one of the calmest souls... but underneath, her volatile emotions bubble like molten lava, flowing between the fractures and cracks that she has gathered over the years...
After all, some scars that can't be seen are best left hidden, like those cracks in the glass that you will never see...
Your hand, so smallHeld a strand of my hair, so strongAll I could do was keep believingWas that enough?
 
personality
“Everyone is inevitably flawed on the inside. But those who love you will always remind you they are what makes you beautiful.”- Essence
Perhaps an oxymoron can sum up Nixie's personality in two words: simply complicated.
At first glance, you'll probably see a quiet, perhaps just shy dragoness wandering the streets, an expression of pure cool and calm written on her face. Nothing special about that, right?
This is when you should stop judging a book by its cover.
Essence is nothing like what you would expect underneath - nothing about her is ever going to be simple. While the facade she chooses to show others may seem perfect, she is broken, shattered in many places on the inside. She's a survivor of many terrible events, and the cracks in her soul prove just that. However, they are hidden deep down within her, and she has no intention to reveal them to anyone. As such, no one understands the pain she suffers.
Eccentric is what some will call her. And it's true - even she would agree. She has a tendency to just let her thoughts wander and stare into space, and she wouldn't snap out of it until after a while. To outsiders, she appears distant, and sometimes cold when spoken to. She gets defensive pretty easily when talking to dragons she doesn't know, and sometimes show very little tolerance of them. However, part of this is just because she doesn't know how to socialize, which causes her to appear unfriendly. Honestly, she desperately wants to change this, but the part of her that just values her alone time stops her, until the point where she isn't sure what she wants, exactly.
Around those she's close to, which are a very few individuals, Essence is completely different. Caring, quite funny, easygoing are what you would see if you spent more time with her. Most would call her tendencies to blush and get embarrassed in a conversation easily cute, as long as they already know her. She takes a lot of time to warm up to another dragon, but when she does, you can almost already guarantee her utmost loyalty and devotion. Of course, very few dragons has actually reached that stage in her book. And it is even more difficult to reach it now, when she has been betrayed again and again...
Both her dark past and what it has shaped are things that Essence wishes to never bring up. She has suffered from major depression before, and has been pressured to do the unthinkable, once. Anxiety and self-loathing haunts her like a ghost, and if it wasn't for her lucky star, she would have turned into one herself... The dragoness knows no sense of pride. Anyone will perk up and smile at compliments, but not her. Nixie cowers and shrinks back, as if she was struck or in fear, whenever you praise her. She has little faith and hope in both herself and the world, and she had almost forgot how to feel, once...
But beneath this dark side lays a soul made up of light. Essence is quite the selfless dragon, wanting the best for everyone and generally helpful. She would almost always attempt to help those in need, even if her clumsiness sometimes means that those attempts would turn awry. She is very emotional and empathetic, almost being able to feel others' emotions as her own. She believes very strongly in treating everyone kindly, and also thinks that everyone deserves a second chance. Always the sensitive one, it is almost impossible for her to ever speak a word or perform an action that hurts someone else... but it also means that it is infinitely easy for her to feel pain herself...
Perhaps what makes her personality so unique is that many aspects of her clash. She is the same dragon that will forgive you easily, but also hates herself for it. She is the quiet dragon that shies away from society that will also jump into action to defend someone in need. She craves companionship and love, and long to forge deep bonds, yet she also fears and avoids social contact... Some part of her longs to be known and appreciated, yet some part of her wants to stay low and unnoticed at the same time... She keeps trying to stay away from everyone's attention, but also gets jealous extremely easily... These conflicting feelings often run wild in her head, and there are times when she just feels so tired from all of it. She often questions if she is a bad dragon, if her negative emotions will one day take over her... but honestly, some part of her mind has swore to never let that happen.
Nixie is a natural born writer - her mind often being able to work wonders with a quill, ink and some paper. She specializes in fantasy - a chance for her vivid imagination to really shine. There is almost nothing she couldn't think of, and her creativity is always a guarantee. She is also especially good at describing emotions, especially sadness and loneliness, two feelings that she can relate most to in her own life...
She has one redeeming quality that never faded from her personality, no matter how dark times were. She is not one to hold grudges or create drama, preferring problems to be solved as quickly and as quietly as possible. Essence is not the type of dragon to argue with you for long, and any argument she gets herself involved in is usually out of beneficial intention... or to defend those she loves. Add that to the open mind that she has, and you'll get a totally different side of her, a funny, charming and companionable dragoness, a side that only shows around those she considers herself closest to, the side that's the hardest to bring out...
Even though this little fairy has suffered much, she is undoubtedly clever, and even has a certain degree of wisdom to her. She learns from her past, her mistakes, even all of her painful experiences. While there still shadows of doubt and negativity in her mind, she is slowly starting to overcome them and is already finding strength with some help... Even if there is still a sorrowful feeling to how she carries herself, she has learned to walk steadily once more...
Essence has fully accepted that she's different, and there's probably no other dragon like her, and she definitely will not tolerate any comments that claim that she's "just the typical dragon". She's stronger now - or at least, she's trying to be, but no matter what, she'll always just be that gentle soul, patient and welcoming, always ready to help out or listen to your problems... even though you might never see it as she keeps herself hidden in the background almost all the time.
She's truly one of a kind, and someone that would be worth knowing if you're willing to get past her walls...
Is anyone there?
 
abilities
“There is no "right" or "wrong" way to write. If anyone ever tells you there is... believe me, they're not a true writer.”- Essence
She does have her strengths, even if she sometimes fail to see them herself.
Being a hybrid of two tribes that can breathe fire, Essence does possess this ability and is perfectly capable of producing a normal flame, although less scalding than a normal SkyWing's fire. She also exhales smoke when frustrated or angry. Being part SkyWing meant that the tribrid still has fairly decent flying skills, able to move at a quicker than normal speed when in the air. She has also shown to be able to glide with the wind, that is, staying in flight while not flapping her wings. She has no abilities from her RainWing and NightWing sides, somehow.
Because of her naturally light body weight, Nixie can be pretty agile when she puts her mind to it. She also has the odd talent of being able to squeeze through rather small spaces. Her claws are also in generally good shape and can cause quite a lot of damage if she uses them. Among all her senses, her ears are probably the strongest - she has incredibly sharp hearing, able to detect even small vibrations over other noises. She can dodge and sidestep attacks pretty well, and her strong suit seems to be flight rather than fight.
Aside from physical capabilities, Essence is a very creative and imaginative writer, being able to form sentences and create fantasy worlds with her mind. She is pretty creative and resourceful, able to think out of the box and come up with unorthodox, but often quite effective solutions. Despite what she says, she is pretty smart, and actually has quite the good memory. She can sing fairly well, but doesn't do it often. She has a very vivid imagination, able to illustrate and describe things more intricately than most other dragons. Her empathy allows her to understand emotions better than most as well, and this gift sometimes means that she can feel other's feelings as her own.
It may not seem like it, but Essence is stubborn and quite tough - well, maybe not physically, but past experiences have made her will much stronger and much harder to break. No matter how much she is hurt, she'll never let it knock her down completely and is determined to survive through everything that's thrown at her.
I wanna scream, is this a dream?How could this happen, happen to me?This isn't fair, this nightmareThis kind of torture, I just can't bear
 
weaknesses
“It's okay to admit that you are ashamed of your own weaknesses - after all, I was there once. Only weak dragons would deny their imperfections.”- Essence
Even though Essence is part RainWing, she has no direct control over her scale color. While they shift and flicker with her emotions, it is impossible to tell what exactly she's feeling by just looking at her colors. This also means that she is unable to use camouflage. Her RainWing fangs have no venom in them, and she has no NightWing powers at all.
The tribrid is very frail and weak, not having much physical strength. In a fight, she is very likely to just go down immediately. She has very weak teeth, and using them to bite another dragon would probably cause her more harm than she does them as it would bring a lot of pain. She also severely lacks stamina, tiring out very easily no matter on the ground or in the air. Her naturally slow speed while walking makes things difficult sometimes. Nixie is quite prone to getting sick and has a weak immune system. Her weakest sense is probably her sight, though. The dragoness has very bad eyes, unable to see very far at all, and they get extremely tired easily. She is also night blind.
When it comes to actual skill, Nixie is quite unfortunately very, very bad at it as well. She has almost zero coordination and this causes almost anything that requires detail or precision to become an extremely difficult task. Most of the time, her performances in just about everything is very inconsistent and it's hard for even herself to gauge her own skill level. She might have on-point reaction times occasionally, but most of the time she's just so slow and dreamy that she drifts off into space often, and finds it hard to concentrate on anything that doesn't interest her. She doesn't know how to think logically, and a lot of times this can be a bit tough for her.
Essence has a natural aversion to water, electricity and darkness. She also gets stressed and worked up very easily, and naturally struggles with many negative emotions, mainly her self-loathing and doubt. When she's pressured, she actually can get so anxious that she will completely become unresponsive and productive for a while. She is also generally rather lazy and unmotivated, having a high tendency to procrastinate. The tribrid will also admit that she's rather cowardly and scared of many things, and she often lets her emotions take control of her.
I want you hereI want you here...
 
trivia
“Oh - uh. That's... a bit private of a question isn't it?”- Essence
*Nixie is both my dragonsona as well as the first character I've created on this wiki <3
*her aesthetics include crystalcore, spacecore and pastel academia. she also vibes with the moon and winter lesbian flag
*there is a reason for her three tribes - RainWing to represent her creativity, colorful thoughts and her light-hearted nature + SkyWing to represent her love for flying and freedom + NightWing to represent her secretiveness, dark thoughts, while still retaining endless imagination and curiosity 
*most of her playlist songs + music are either reminiscent of her sadness, loneliness, emotions or just her fantasy-like vibe
*owns two pet cats - one is a fluffy light orange, patched cat named Sparkle, the other is a pure white cat named Snow
**Chromium and her are basically parents of those furballs
*right-taloned 
*honestly clueless in almost any social situation
*secretive, feels very anxious when asked to "open up" to strangers
*struggles to talk to almost anyone but talks frequently to herself, animals and a few select inanimate objects
*a proud Ravenclaw
**but will also pass for a Hufflepuff
*realistically she's multilingual but because she basically only uses two languages frequently, she calls herself bilingual
**uses Chinese as her second language but she sucks at it. enough to understand and listen and communicate simple sentences but nothing more than that
*when she was questioning her orientation, she first labelled herself as bisexual, with a stronger attraction to females. her friends helped her figure out and embrace her gayness
*in her opinion, rainy weather beats every other
*nighttime > daytime
*not quite the night owl but also not quite the early riser
*deep sleeper and a heavy dreamer. she remembers almost all of her dreams vividly
*has a lot of diseases in her bloodline
*more emotionally vulnerable when sick or injured physically
*she likes to think that she is decent at singing but realistically her voice probably sounds horrible
*artcore and nightcore are her guilty pleasures in terms of music
**she likes most instrumental and lyricless music, and modern lyrical songs to her is annoying and distracting
*she likes almost every animal in existence, however, in her opinion, all insects/worms etc, with the exception of dragonflies can burn up and die
*pescatarian (a vegetarian but also eats seafood)
**she doesn't have anything against eating meat, but most red meats simply make her sick easily
*partially lactose intolerant
*has a sweet tooth despite all her already weakened teeth, and the fact that she constantly gets sick from overdose 
*gaymer. her favorite games are Legends Of Stormfield (League Of Legends) and its card game Electrifying Arena (Legends Of Runeterra)
*wishes she could do magic half the time
*scared of water and drowning due to a freak accident since young
**ironically she finds rain very soothing and peaceful, and thinks that the sound of rain falling is very calming
**also likes scenery with bodies of water
*what's logic 
*hates dragons that call others immature often
*she secretly doubts that her writing skills are all that good
*can't draw at all, everything comes out as a mess
*very obsessed with grammar and is particular about mistakes
*cries extremely easily, whether out of real emotion or reading/listening/watching sad things
*likes the smell of mint, lavender and vanilla
*she loves citrus fruits a lot 
*her talon-writing sucks
*math is stinkey
*homophobes really, really upset her more than anything else.
*in case you haven't picked it up yet, she loves cats, perhaps a little too much
*she has quite a few stuffed animals on her bed and her favorite is a pink cat 
*knives and several sharp objects terrify her to no end, but this varies with context and situation
*she feels very stressed when she has to talk to multiple other dragons at once
**also hates it when she is pressured to speak
An ache, so deepThat I can hardly breathe...
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“It hurts just to talk about it - no, sometimes it hurts too much even to think about it. I mean, they're gone, everything is gone, and I'm reminded of the fact that I'm all alone...”- Essence, to Chromium regarding her traumatic experiences
 
history
Note: Essence's history is rather extensive and detailed, so it will be split into 5 acts. Beware that there is mature content at around late Act 3/early Act 4 onwards, so you may still view part of the writing without seeing the sensitive content. This includes dark themes, depression and attempted suicide, so avoid reading if this is a trigger for you. 
There will be a spoiler warning for my fanfiction Broken Glass, so take note of that if you're still reading it!
act 1
It all started with the very unconventional meeting of two young talented healers.
Starsurge, a RainWing and NightWing hybrid, and Bonfire, a SkyWing, met in the rainforest, the home of the former. The SkyWing had moved to the home of the peaceful forest dragons, in hopes of escaping the stressful environment of his own hometown, wanting to take a break from all the yelling that one would expect from there. As he defied the stereotypes of a SkyWing in almost every way, being someone who's gentle, skilled in the arts of healing, and well, just a dragon who wouldn't burn down everything in general, the RainWings agreed to let him stay.
Love can be found in unlikely places - who would have expected two dragons of completely different tribes and backgrounds to fall in love this easily? Yet, the moment fate decided to put them together in the same room, an odd chemistry sparked between them. Neither of them felt like their lives were ever the same after their initial meeting. And the two were not believers of defying destiny. They went with the flow, and eventually ended up in a steady relationship.
Their love only grew and blossomed with each passing day, until the point where they were happily married. Starsurge and Bonfire agreed to have an egg, and so they did. From this pale blue egg streaked with lavender that was hatched in the first few moments of nightfall, Nixie was born. She received endless love and affection from her parents the moment she came to this world, and soon learned to give the same love back to them. She also quickly adopted the nickname Essence, essentially becoming her second name alongside her birth name.
In her early life, she quickly discovered that she was... different. She stood out from the RainWing and NightWing dragonets in the local school she attended, but not because she had SkyWing blood - no, no one really judged her for that. No - she was somewhat naturally socially inept, her parents being the only figures she would actively speak to. Teachers have spoken to her parents before, as she would frequently have trouble communicating in school, no matter to other students or teachers. To be honest, she tried making friends, but several attempts have turned awry, and her intentions were misunderstood as something hostile. For some reason, she was eventually dubbed as the "weird and crazy one" in her school, and not in a good way at all. Maybe it was her tendency to appear distant and aloof, almost far away from this world, or maybe some of them just thought she preferred to isolate herself anyway (which is kind of true). Anyways, Essence was a little unhappy about being picked on, for obvious reasons, and isn't the most enthusiastic about school.
Of course, all of these had effects on her developing personality. She doesn't have much confidence, and often walks with her eyes cast to the ground. Her parents have tried to make her communicate more with others, but to no avail - they realized they couldn't force her to do anything if she felt uncomfortable. She wasn't a bad student by any means - teachers were satisfied with her academic performances as well, they just think that she's... weird. Someone who couldn't fit in. Nixie often felt upset about this, and wondered if she would ever find a place she belonged in.
On the flip side though, her life was still relatively great. She was happy at home, if not at school, and it wasn't like her parents weren't great company. She learned that she enjoyed reading, preferring to stay at home and do so while listening to music anyway. Her parents took her on trips often, but she still preferred to stay where she was most of the time, and that was at home - her own sanctuary where nothing could harm her, not even the harsh and snide comments she often received outside of it. Besides her obvious social problems, her parents saw no problems with her. She was still a relatively quick learner, and always had decent grades despite not being the top of the class. Even with no one else but mostly her parents in her life, she was contented and peaceful with life in the rainforest, with no intention of ever moving out.
That was until the day Essence discovered this little haven near the borders of the continent.
A place named Hikari.
They discovered it when the family took a trip to the southern regions of Pyrrhia. It was almost by luck that they had spotted the secluded sanctuary, and Essence had thanked her lucky stars for it.
She fell in love with the place immediately. She was drawn to both the culture of the dragons living in Hikari, as well as its reputation as the Town Of Light. Essence was extremely interested in the technology there, and being from the rainforest meant that she had no idea what computers or any other electronic devices were. They stayed a bit longer than they had initially meant to, and she learned fast, meaning that she was soon able to operate them just as well as any resident of Hikari. She even started to develop her writing skills, and managed to persuade her parents to get her a computer of her own. With each passing day that she spent there, the more that Essence felt like that was exactly where she belonged.
And that was exactly what she told her parents.
Starsurge and Bonfire was worried - naturally, since Nixie was only four years old, but after consulting Infia, the town's leader, she confirmed that Essence wouldn't have a problem, as most of residents were very kind and caring, especially to younger dragonets. Plus, she could attend school there as well, something the little tribrid felt excited about, since it meant leaving her old one behind. In the end, her parents agreed to let her stay, but they couldn't do the same since they wanted to keep their old jobs, thus letting her stay in the school's dorm for younger dragonets until she was six. They promised that when she was capable, they'll allow Essence to move out and live in a house of her own.
The little tribrid relieved some of their worries when she moved into the town. She had little to no trouble with taking care of herself. And for the first time ever - she felt truly happy. It was no doubt that her heart and soul belonged to that town, and that wasn't changing anytime soon. With a computer of her own, she started posting her written works, and they generally received positive responses. Essence had almost decided very early in her life that she wanted to be a writer, utilizing her natural-born imagination and ability to describe feelings vividly.
Life in her new school was much, much better - residents in Hikari were much friendlier than her old classmates. She wasn't exactly singled out for being too different, and both her new friends and teachers were accepting. She made friends with a Mud/Ice hybrid named Camellia, the twins Hail and Floe, as well as a young couple, Renatus and Sage. They had quite the solid friendship, and all three of them helped Essence herself figure out her orientation early. Obviously, she was a bit nervous telling her parents that she liked girls, but her friends encouraged her and it turned out that both of them were extremely supportive of her as well. 
Once her life seemed to have settled its pace, Essence felt contented and truly happy for once. It was such an ideal situation that the tribrid thought it had to be a dream. She never thought that everything was soon to change. 
And all it took to cause that change was a single dragoness with silver scales with striking goldenrod eyes.
act 2
insert story here
act 3
insert story here
act 4
insert story here
act 5
insert story here
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We can rise up, you take me higherMy soul's on fire, I know how it hurtsWe can rise up, you take me higherMy soul's on fire, I know how it hurts
“I can't thank you all enough for just being in my life. You helped me get through the worst of times, and with you I created the best of them. I don't want you all to ever leave me.”- Essence
 
relationships
starsurge
super positive
Nixie had always been extremely close with her parents, and undeniably she had a very strong bond with her mother in particular. Starsurge was always her reassurance, a beacon of light whenever she feels lost in the darkness of the world. Granted, they didn't always share the same views about life, and did argue every now and then, but it doesn't change the strength of their relationship. After all, Starsurge helped her find the way in this world, and Essence firmly believes that almost all of her good qualities were taught to her by her mother.
Needless to say, the hybrid was more than devastated when she passed away - her death was a big part in causing the tribrid to fall into her depressive state. Essence missed everything about her mother, like how she used to lull her to sleep when she was afraid, soothe her when she was upset, and how she never failed to encourage her whenever she felt insecure. 
She understands that her mother had loved her very much as well, and never would she ever stop mourning her death. Essence has learned to move on - but her mother would forever hold a special place in her heart. She hopes that Starsurge is proud of her daughter, no matter where she is.
bonfire
super positive
While her mother was more of a protective, guardian-like parental figure, Essence viewed her father as a really fun yet mature parent to have. The two of them had really similar views and ways of thinking, and often can relate very well to each other. Bonfire always had a penchant for jokes and making everything light-hearted, and Nixie loved that a lot. Her father also offered her a lot of advice, and she is eternally grateful to know that some parts of his personality had been passed down to her - including the aspects of being open-minded and generally easy-going.
Much like Starsurge, she mourned greatly when she lost him. Essence missed how her father could always crack jokes and create a joyful atmosphere no matter where they were, or simply offering her valuable advice. She only hopes that her dad is happy and proud of what she had become. She misses him greatly and knows that she will be elated once it's her time to see him again. 
chameleon
super positive
Chameleon is Nixie's cousin, and the only dragon she is still in contact with from her family aside from her parents. When they were younger, he was almost always her constant companion, playing with her and keeping her entertained. Despite being younger than her, they have conversations easily, and he was the closest thing to a younger brother that she ever had. Unlike her, he didn't have such great luck with parents, and the hybrid constantly tries to show her sympathy by keeping him happy when she was around. The only dragon that she felt guilty leaving behind was Chameleon, and sometimes she finds herself missing his company.
Essence had unintentionally lost touch with him after she left the rainforest, for she simply didn't want to seek help from Chameleon's parents or acknowledge them in any way after her own parents' deaths. She was worried that that had forever caused them to drift apart, but ever since she received a letter from her cousin who wished her well, and a recent visit after her recovery, she was proven wrong. Out of her remaining family members, Chameleon is the only one she'd die to protect, and she treasures their bond very much.
dreamcatcher
negative
Essence does not have a high opinion on her uncle, and that shows. She tries to keep a respectful distance, but technically is disgusted by his obnoxious tendencies and sometimes a little terrified of him. Honestly, she only dislikes him mostly because the feeling seems to be mutual - Nixie still has her suspicions that Dreamcatcher never liked her the moment she was born.
She knows that Chameleon isn't exactly happy with his parents, and is fully aware that Dreamcatcher is a big factor leading to most of his unhappiness. She just wishes that one day her cousin would be able to leave the stressful atmosphere of their home and forge a life on his own, away from his father's control. She has no form of familial connection with the Rain/Night hybrid, and the fact that he hardly reacted to his sister's death simply made her resent him more.
paradise
neutral/negative
Paradise is Essence's aunt, and someone she has a mostly neutral opinion on. Unlike Dreamcatcher, the hybrid finds Paradise to be tolerable, at least. She still doesn't really have a positive view on her, though. She can clearly see that both her and her husband were biased towards their treatment of their two dragonets, and, well, anyone who caused Chameleon suffering would not be ranked high on her list of nice dragons. She also dislikes her tendency to yell at random moments, and feels bad for her cousin for having to go through that. 
She lost touch with the RainWing after she left the rainforest. Just like her uncle, Nixie feels no emotional attachment to her at all. She hardly doubts that the two probably wouldn't bat an eye if something happened to her, something she's entirely fine with, for she could probably say she feels the same, if not for her sensitivity.
Still, Paradise remains mostly neutral in her views, as she still did allow Chameleon to go visit her. Essence is only hoping that he will soon grow up and be old enough to live away from them both to be spared the burden.
spirit
neutral
For the first few years Spirit was born, Nixie didn't like her one bit, thinking that everyone was overreacting to a dragonet's hatching, even her parents, for no other reason than she's cute. After the initial jealousy she felt for the younger dragonet capturing most of the attention, she didn't have much feelings towards her, but when it was obvious that her parents started prioritizing and liking her more than Chameleon, Essence felt some sort of anger towards her cousin sister for being partially the reason her sibling was going through a tough time.
Nixie has practically forgotten that she exists, since she lost touch with their entire family after moving away. Still, she doesn't truly hate her in any way, and she believes there's still a chance Spirit would turn out nothing like her parents in the future.
evening
positive
Evening is a RainWing who's Nixie's oldest friend, back when she was in the Rainforest Kingdom. She had her doubts about their friendship, as gossips about Essence's eccentricity were still hot topics in her school the time they spoke to each other. However, unlike the rest of the dragonets she met there, Evening visited her after she found out she lived in Hikari and remembered her, and expressed sympathy on her loss. Essence still considers her a good friend even though they mostly keep in touch through letters and texts.
She might not be as close to her as she is to her other local friends, but whenever they do have chats, they get along well, surprisingly, for their interests are vastly different. They still sometimes meet up when Essence visits the rainforest or when Evening takes trips to Hikari with her family and friends. 
chromium
super positive
To Essence, Chromium is probably the best dragon that she had ever met in her life. She thinks that the other hybrid is simply so amazing in so many ways, and is undoubtedly horns-over-talons in love with her. Her girlfriend is the reason that she survived something that she wouldn't have otherwise, and until this day she still remains a constant source of support for her, and Nixie doesn't think it's going to change - ever.
She couldn't thank the hybrid enough for all she has done for her, besides being her wonderful girlfriend. Chromium always seems to know what she needs, what to say whenever she cries, how to comfort her whenever she feels unwell or down. She even loves it when the older hybrid teases her playfully, even though she always blushes at those gestures of affection. She is the one of the only few dragons that Nixie feels that she can be entirely comfortable around - but even more so as Essence never feels like she's held back by any boundaries when she's with her.
Needless to say, the two enjoy their time together very much, as with each other they've also given themselves the chance to explore things that they've never thought of in each other's absence. Essence doesn't think that there is a feeling better than the one she gets when she is affectionately cuddled up against Chromium, whispering kind words to each other.
rhythm
neutral/negative
Rhythm was once an old mutual friend of both Chromium and Essence. In fact, Nixie probably wouldn't have met Chromium if it wasn't for the RainWing. She once also treasured the friendship she had with her, believing that she had found someone great to spend time with along with Chromium. She never actually felt like they were really close, but she believed that she at least owed Rhythm that much for introducing her to such an amazing dragoness.
Believing that she genuinely considered Essence a friend was the greatest mistake she had ever made. Over time, Essence only saw her as a snobby, pushy and demanding, possibly spoiled dragoness with no redeeming qualities. Rhythm had yelled and threatened her once (despite it being an empty threat) and that was the final step for her to cross the line between mixed feelings to utter and complete dislike. She doesn't understand why Chromium was such good friends with her to begin with, and started to resent her for also possibly ruining her relationship with her crush back then.
Somehow, Essence and Chromium lost contact with her, and over time the feeling of hatred had subsided and dulled out. Chromium had actually agreed with her on most of the views on Rhythm after she shared them. Nixie had met this dragoness one last time by mistake, as well as Chromium did, but it was clear that the RainWing had never valued her as a friend, as she had completely forgotten about her. Chromium appeared to have distanced herself from Rhythm as well after that incident, and now Essence just doesn't think about her anymore.
songbird
positive
Nixie was seeing Songbird as her therapist to help cope with her depression. In the process of her healing, the Rain/Ice hybrid had always been patient with her, and from there, a steady friendship was formed. Essence is not only eternally thankful to Songbird for helping her overcome her mental obstacles, but now sees her as an older figure that she can rely and count on whenever she needed a listening ear.
She can greatly sympathize with her stage fright, although Essence sometimes finds it a little uncanny that the hybrid is surprisingly adept at being social in every other situation. In the same way, the healer helps to relieve some of her concerns of being who she is, as Songbird also has a wife named Music. At this point, Nixie may even almost consider her a parental figure, which they are both surprisingly okay with.
Essence still visits her from time to time, checking in with her and keeping her updated on her mental health, as well as just having good-natured chats. 
music
neutral/positive
The conversations and interactions between the two of them are scarce, with Essence only seeing Music as a patient whenever she fell ill or got hurt, but she respects the doctor and trusts her to deal with whatever ailments she has. She mainly knows of Music through her wife, Songbird, and she can see how much the two adore each other. 
She doesn't know the hybrid personally, but can see her dedication towards her job and definitely appreciates how patient she is with everyone that she tends to.
anima
very positive
Being such a popular singer, it's no surprise that Essence has heard of Anima before she even saw her. Even then, the tribrid has always been starstruck about her music and admired her fantastic voice. Essence often listens to her songs and enjoys the messages she writes in them.
When she truly met her, however, Essence had never expected a dragon who was unable to fly to be able to stay so happy and optimistic about life all the timeWhat surprised her further when they did meet and talk was that Anima wasn't just a talented dragoness - her natural kindness and patience made her a good friend. She feels guilty for ignoring and brushing off her kind gestures of concern when she first fell into depression, thinking that she wouldn't have fallen so far if she had interacted with Anima more back then.
Essence never thought that she'll become a close friend of the other hybrid's, but she's more than happy that she did. She is surprised that Anima also ended up with Isla, another one of her best, and only friends, but feels extremely happy for them, thinking that they are a fantastic couple, not to mention their cuteness, reminding Essence of Chromium and herself. Now, all of them are a part of a close-knit friend group, and often hangs out together, enjoying each other's company. Overall, she is a dragon Essence admires very much, and their relationship couldn't be better.
isla
very positive
As soon as Essence met the little IceWing, she felt an instant connection with her. Isla was like her in many ways - quiet, reserved, and has experienced traumatic events in the past. Surprisingly, the two didn't find it too difficult to open up to each other, despite both of them being secretive dragons by nature. Nixie enjoys talking to her, simply because Isla can understand her feelings just as well as she understands hers.
To Isla, Essence is someone who can offer her valuable advice and help, as shown when she consulted the hybrid about her crush on Anima, and to Essence, she can always rely on Isla to be a good friend. They enjoy their time spent together, be it in silence or having a friendly conversation. The two have a very strong friendship, and it's clear that nothing would break them apart.
kurante
positive
Essence greatly admires the Rain/Sea hybrid's musical talent, and being a sucker for extremely fast tunes as well, she enjoys the songs she plays through the lyre, and likes her cheerful personality. She also relates very much to her fear of loud and unexpected sounds.
She knows Kurante through Anima and Isla, and even though she finds her excitable personality a little overwhelming for her sometimes, she loves the positive and light-hearted vibe she always brings to the room every time they spend time together. She also absolutely adores the music she and Anima (and sometimes Isla as well) produce when they collaborate, and the fact that they share such a strong friendship warms her heart.
utopia
positive
The quiet and musical Ice/Rain hybrid is greatly adored by Essence. She loves listening to her music and spending time with her, along with all of their friends. She finds her pretty interesting and admires how she radiates silent strength and determination, as it reminds Nixie a little bit of herself. Their chats together are usually pretty thoughtful and deep, but most of the time Utopia is just like her - enjoying the silence together.
She does think Rush and her complement each other though, and sometimes laughs a little as their antics are admittedly quite cute. Essence is also seriously figuring out how to beat her in mind games, as none of them are as good as she is at a regular game they play.
rush
positive
Essence sees Rush as a great complement to Kurante's cheerful personality, as well as a nice balance to his girlfriend's quieter behavior. She likes how he constantly makes the mood in the room lighter whenever they are together, and enjoys how he is all fun and games, never really taking things so seriously. It's partially the reason why she befriended him quickly, as they have similar taste for jokes, despite Rush being much more talkative than she is.
Rush also surprised her by being caring and understanding when she least expects it, and she can see now in his eyes that he is the type that will sacrifice anything to protect those he loves. This quality alone is already making the Sea/Mud hybrid a very respectable and likable dragon in Nixie's eyes, and she believes this isn't going to change anytime soon.
sage
very positive
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happy
very negative
Until this day, Essence still doesn't know how has she managed to make such a mistake.
She sometimes still blames herself for ever believing that Happy was her significant other, and once hated herself for letting her take Chromium's place in her heart. It wasn't just that - the SandWing eventually became one of her main causes of depression and self-loathing, and needless to say, Nixie no longer has any shred of regret regarding their failed relationship.
She was once weak, so much that maybe it was one of the reasons that Happy dared to physically hurt her, but that is a thing of the past - Essence eventually grew strong enough to kick the dragoness out of her life completely. She has moved on from it, but she'll never forget how hard the process was. Essence doesn't find it quite like herself to hate someone - but that's possibly the closest thing she could feel for Happy. In fact, she has to admit that she doubts that they were ever in a positive relation in the first place.
arcene
negative
Essence honestly has never known Arcene well. The SeaWing has just always been a thorn in many dragons' sides, and (in her words) she was just unlucky enough to be one of them. The other dragoness, to Nixie, is nothing but a bully, and constantly talks everyone around her down, creating a stressful and unhappy atmosphere when there is no need to.
Nixie has bad experiences with her, even excluding the fact that she and Dawn are basically best friends, considering that she was often one of the targets that Arcene likes to belittle and sneer at, and it's obvious that the SeaWing considers her useless and incompetent. It was nothing good to her already bad self-esteem, except that the fact that the other dragoness was nothing excellent herself, aside being much more academically intelligent.
Overall, she thinks that Arcene is just a pain to deal with, but the fact that almost no one really likes her, and she really doesn't see her that often anymore, it doesn't bother her as much.
fleur
positive
The artistic SeaWing was Essence's former classmate. They never really interacted with each other, both being shy and reclusive by nature, but Essence appreciates Fleur for not judging her and also putting up with the nasty comments she has received for her dreamy personality - something the tribrid relates to. The SeaWing had never made any negative remarks about her or thought of her as weird or odd, and this accepting nature is something Essence really admires.
They graduated at the same time, and Essence often sees her offering her commissions online, or even illustrating for other famous figures. She has met Fleur occasionally in one of the local cafes, having small talk to pass the time. With their minimum interactions, it's safe to say their relationship is still positive, with both of them having mutual respect for each other. 
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“I can't draw and that is a universally known fact.”- Essence
 
gallery
a very big thank you to all of you who have contributed to her gallery! i love all of your work and you all are amazing talented people <3
note: please refrain from adding in art you made for her herself without asking for my permission! thanks a lot <3
Fairy Girl.jpg|by verglas!!! tysm <3
Asdf.png|by echo! just, aah, thank you <3
Nixie.background.png|by a wonderful artist <3
2BB88327-48D4-4C79-82D8-B3DAFEB88F4E.png|by TWH, tysm!
EssenceCloud.png|by cloud, she's looking amazing thanks <3
FDA1A9C0-17CC-475D-BE3E-AB8B3E16350B.jpeg|by night, she's looking lovely <3
Forest nixie.png|by forest! she's so lovely! tysm <3
33D201A4-E86F-425F-AFD3-22B9EB3E0FCF.jpeg|by sneaky! thanks for drawing my lovely girl <3
Iceshadow.fullbody.png|by ice! thank you so much! <3
B22E28B5-80E8-4F14-9794-5D16DA43A3DB.png|by sneaky!! this is one of the most gorgeous things i've seen omigosh thank you <33 
Nixiebirthdaygiftice.png|birthday gift by ice! thank you so much! <3
GaypowerbyDusk.png|by dusk! thanks for the gayness <3
Essencebybreezy.png|by breezy! thank you for your lovely attack fren <3
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“Sometimes a thank you is more than enough to make someone's day.”- Essence
 
art credits
All pictures in the gallery tab are credited.
The amazing banner on the intro tab is by Sneaky.
The adorable headshot on the bottom-left corner is drawn by Cloud.
The beautiful fullbody sprite on the bottom-right is by Ice.
All of your art is amazing and I love every single one of them. You all are wonderful peeps. <3
 
song credits
For the songs at the top of every tab:
Intro: On My Way - Alan Walker ft. Sabrina Carpenter & Farruko
Character: I Want You Here - Plumb (Nightcore)
History: Fragments Of You - Fractal Dreamers
Relationships: Love How It Hurts - Axel Johansson ft. Tina Stachowiak (Nightcore)
Gallery: Memories - DYATHON
Credits: Nightfall - ginkiha (from Deemo)
Thank you to all of you wonderful composers/songwriters/singers. You have inspired me so much and made my life so much happier. <3
 
special thanks
Here you will find the people I need to thank for even making this page possible.
To my best friend and the true owner of Estrella, I love you so much and you make me very happy whenever I get to spend time with you. You are my platonic soulmate and I won't want it any other way. <3 
To Stardust, thank you for being my dearest friend I've made on this wiki. I enjoy every conversation we have and your kind words have always motivated me. <3 
To Verglas, thank you for being the first user to welcome me and be my friend when I came here as a total noob. You are very fun to talk to and I can't thank you enough for all the support you showed towards me as I developed my characters, including Nixie. <3 
To all my other real life friends, you probably won't see this, but thank you for shaping me into the person I am now. You won't be forgotten, ever. <3
To all my wiki/online friends, thank you for accepting my friendship and tolerating my weirdness. My life online has never been dull when you all are around. <3 
To all the mods on this wiki, thank you for all your sacrifices made in the name of keeping this wiki an orderly and safe place. <3
And lastly, to you. Yes, you, who's reading this page. I might or might not know you, and I wouldn't know if you have read this page or not - but you are an amazing person, unique in your own ways, and I couldn't thank you enough for showing interest in this page and reading until this very end. I wish that you will have a happy, successful life. <3 
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