So Close Yet So Far (poem)

So close yet so far,
Sometimes,
I think I'm not destined to reach it,
So close yet so far,
I'm never going to overcome this challenge,
So close yet so far,
Bang! Bang! Bang!
My head is hurting,
So close yet so far,
Why can't I find a way to reach it?
So close yet so far,
Always smiling,
Looking like an idiot,
Knowing that I'm suffering,
Only because of them,
So close yet so far,
Why am I faking a smile?
Do you know how much suffering I carry?
Why?
Why?
They say god loves,
Does he?
So close yet so far,
I can never do the right thing,
I can never get the right thing,
I am cursed,
By god,
And it's his fault,
Not mine,
So close yet so far,
God loves,
Yes,
He truly does.