ただ病名が欲しかった (Tada Byoumei ga Hoshikatta)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
ねぇ、忘れないように 	nee, wasurenai you ni 	Hey, so I don’t forget
間違いがないように 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
notice、心が 	notice, kokoro ga 	Won’t you notice, that this heart
黒く染まるだけなの？ 	kuroku somaru dake na no? 	only gets stained with darkness?
頭の中 	atama no naka 	Inside my head
祈りを捧げたってさ 	inori o sasagetatte sa 	Even if I say a prayer
回り始めた毒に狂う歯車 	mawari hajimeta doku ni kuruu haguruma 	The gears crazed with poison start to turn
 	 	
患者の声は届かないから 	kanja no koe wa todokanai kara 	Because the cries of a patient won’t be heard
理由を付けた麻酔を打って 	riyuu o tsuketa masui o utte 	I inject anaesthesia with a reason attached to it
注射器の針みたいな 	chuushaki no hari mitai na 	Even begging only with a kindness
優しさだけで希うことも 	yasashisa dake de koinegau koto mo 	like the needle of a syringe…
 	 	
どこかの誰かの幸せなんて 	dokoka no dareka no shiawase nante 	I couldn’t care less for the happiness of some person somewhere else
祝福の余裕が無いの！ 	shukufuku no yoyuu ga nai no! 	I can’t afford to wish others well!
不治の病も続いて欲しかった 	fuji no yamai mo tsuzuite hoshikatta 	Even this incurable disease was something I wished would last
こんな僕も 	konna boku mo 	Even someone like me…
 	 	
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
この傷を見て 	kono kizu o mite 	Please look at these scars
後ろの正面、誰も居ないの？ 	ushiro no shoumen, dare mo inai no? 	Is there nobody behind that facade of yours?
「この不幸に縋っているの？」 	"kono fukou ni sugatte iru no?" 	“Are you clinging to this unhappiness?”
 	 	
頭の中 	atama no naka 	Inside my head
間違いがないように 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
まちがいがないように 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
マチガイガナイヨウニ 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
 	 	
「ねぇ、羨んでもないから」 	"nee, nozonde mo nai kara" 	”Hey, trust me, I’m not even jealous”
「アンタ、持ってないモノ」 	"anta, mottenai mono" 	“Of the things you don’t have”
辟易ね。息が詰まるだけなの 	hekieki ne. iki ga tsumaru dake na no 	I’m fed up with it all. I can’t do anything but suffocate
dirty、満たされてる？なんで 	dirty, mitasareteru? nande 	Are you satisfied with being dirty? Why is that?
こんな手首のあみだも何を示すの？ 	konna tekubi no amida mo nani o shimesu no?	What do these lines like laddersI interpreted あみだ to refer to あみだくじ or “ghost leg” in English — where shorter lines are drawn at random between longer multiple parallel lines to decide pairings between two sets of things equal in number (eg. the order a group of people does something in). Therefore, I believe this line is alluding to self harm scars. on my wrists show?
 	 	
この手をこの手を離さないで 	kono te o kono te o hanasanaide 	Don’t let go of this hand, this hand
点滴のような繋がりだけど 	tenteki no you na tsunagari dakedo 	Though it’s a connection like an IV drip
今にも今にも崩れそうな 	ima ni mo ima ni mo kuzuresou na 	I’m about to fall apart even now, even now
怯えるように願っていた診断を 	obieru you ni negatte ita shindan o 	The diagnosis I’d been so anxiously wishing for…
 	 	
頭の中 	atama no naka 	Inside my head
間違いがないように 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
黒く染まるだけなの 	kuroku somaru dake na no 	It only gets stained with darkness
祈りを捧げたってさ 	inori o sasagetatte sa 	Even if I say a prayer
忘れないように 	wasurenai you ni 	So I don’t forget
間違いがないように 	machigai ga nai you ni 	So there aren’t any mistakes
黒く染まるだけなの 	kuroku somaru dake na no 	It only gets stained with darkness
息が詰まるだけなの 	iki ga tsumaru dake na no 	I can’t do anything but suffocate
 	 	
結んで開いて元に戻って 	musunde hiraite moto ni modotte 	Tie it, open it up, and put it back together
ない事にしないでくれよ 	nai koto ni shinaide kure yo 	Please don’t act like nothing ever happened
不治の病も続いて欲しかった 	fuji no yamai mo tsuzuite hoshikatta 	Even this incurable disease was something I wished would last
分かっているの 	wakatte iru no 	I know…
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
この傷を見て 	kono kizu o mite 	Please look at these scars
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
愛されたんだ。 	aisareta nda. 	I was loved.
この傷を見て 	kono kizu o mite 	Please look at these scars
 	 	
本当の病名(なまえ)はついていないの 	hontou no namae wa tsuite inai no 	There’s no true name for this disease
この傷は私のモノ 	kono kizu wa watashi no mono 	These scars belong to me
不治の病も続いて欲しかった 	fuji no yamai mo tsuzuite hoshikatta 	Even this incurable disease was something I wished would last
この痛みも 	kono itami mo 	And this pain, too…
 	 	
サヨナラなんて 	sayonara nante 	Saying goodbye,
タチが悪いよ 	tachi ga warui yo 	What a cruel thing to do
深く残って 	fukaku nokotte 	I want to remain in your memoryThe direct translation is to “leave a deep mark”, often in the context of leaving a deep impression in one’s memory.
笑われたいの 	warawaretai no 	so you can laugh at me
間違いですか 	machigai desu ka 	Is it wrong of me?
間違いですか 	machigai desu ka 	Is it wrong of me?
この不幸に縋っているの！ 	kono fukou ni sugatte iru no! 	To cling to this unhappiness!
 	 	
またね、病室に残っていた 	mata ne, byoushitsu ni nokotte ita 	See you again, I’m left behind in the hospital room
鉄の匂いに微睡んでいた。 	tetsu no nioi ni madoronde ita. 	The smell of iron lulls me to sleep.
花瓶には知らない花 	kabin ni wa shiranai hana 	There’s flowers I don’t recognize in the vase
ただ病名が欲しいだけなの。 	tada byoumei ga hoshii dake na no. 	I just want a name for the disease.
==Translation Notes==
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