ほんとはね (Honto wa ne)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
夜が明けるよ　眠れない夜が 	yoru ga akeru yo nemurenai yoru ga 	Dawn is breaking upon a sleepless night,
私の心に　朝もやがかかる 	watashi no kokoro ni asamoya ga kakaru 	and the morning mist is cast over my heart.
どれだけ泣いたんだろ　おかしいよね 	dore dake naitan daro okashii yo ne 	How much have I cried? It’s so strange.
薄暗い部屋に　涙の滴が落ちる 	usugurai heya ni namida no shizuku ga ochiru 	Drops of tear are falling in this dim room.
Ah… 	Ah… 	Ah…
 	 	
どうして　ねえ 	dōshite nē 	Why? Tell me,
涙が止まらないの 	namida ga tomaranai no 	how come my tears won’t stop?
隠せないよ… 	kakusenai yo… 	I can’t hide them…
 	 	
ほんとはね　ほんとはね　私 	honto wa ne honto wa ne watashi 	Actually, you know, I’ve been crying
悔しくて泣いてたんだ　君が 	kuyashikute naitetan da kimi ga 	because I can’t do anything about it.
無理して笑っていることを 	muri shite waratte iru koto o 	I’ve known all along
私は知ってたから 	watashi wa shitteta kara 	about how you must force yourself to smile.
悲しくて　苦しくて　いつか 	kanashikute kurushikute itsuka 	It makes me so sad, so pained, that I wonder
壊れてしまうんじゃないかって。 	kowarete shimaun janai ka tte. 	if I might just break apart someday.
…まるで　バカみたいだね　Ah… 	…maru de baka mitai da ne Ah… 	…Indeed, I’m just like a fool, aren’t I? Ah…
 	 	
君のために泣いた　なんて 	kimi no tame ni naita nante 	I wasn’t planning to cry
そんなつもりもないのに　心がチクリとしたんだ 	sonna tsumori mo nai noni kokoro ga chikuri to shitan da 	because of you, but there’s this prickle in my heart.
誰も気づかないの　時間は残酷で 	daremo kizukanai no jikan wa zankoku de 	No one realizes it, but time is so cruel;
君のキモチさえも　過去に流すんだ 	kimi no kimochi sae mo kako ni nagasun da 	it washes away all of your feelings, back to the past.
もう私のために　笑わなくていいよ 	mō watashi no tame ni warawanakute ii yo 	You don’t have to make yourself smile for me anymore, I’d tell you,
そうやって　嘘でごまかして 	sō yatte uso de gomakashite 	and then I’d gloss everything over with a few white lies,
何て　酷いことを言うんだろって 	nante hidoi koto o iun daro tte 	wondering to myself why I’m saying all of these cruel things,
後悔して　なのに… 	kōkai shite nanoni… 	regretting it all, but even then…
 	 	
泣かないで　そう言って　君は 	nakanai de sō itte kimi wa 	“Don’t cry,” you’re going to tell me,
優しく微笑むんだ 	yasashiku hohoemun da 	and smile at me with your tender smile.
辛い時　「辛い」だなんて 	tsurai toki “tsurai” da nane 	See, I don’t have it in me
私は言えないから。 	watashi wa ienai kara. 	to say that it hurts, when it really hurts,
どうせなら　下手くそな　嘘で 	dōse nara hetakuso na uso de 	and I’d think to myself that I might as well
終わらせてしまえばいいのにって 	owarasete shimaeba ii noni tte 	end everything with some clumsy lies.
まるで　道化師みたいだね。 	maru de dōkeshi mitai da ne. 	Indeed, I’m just like a clown, aren’t I?
 	 	
悲しくて　悲しくて　私 	kanashikute kanashikute watashi 	It makes me so sad, so sad, I just wanted
一人でいたかったんだ 	hitori de itakattan da 	to be all on my own,
君と　一緒にいるだけなのに 	kimi to issho ni iru dake nanoni 	for just being with you is enough
思い出してしまうから　Ah 	omoidashite shimau kara Ah 	to make me remember everything. Ah…
 	 	
会いに来てくれた 	ai ni kite kureta 	I’d remember those times
手を繋いでくれた 	te o tsunaide kureta 	when you’d come see me
…あの毎日を。 	…ano mainichi o. 	and hold my hand… every day.
 	 	
ほんとはね　ほんとはね　私 	honto wa ne honto wa ne watashi 	Actually, you know, I just wanted
忘れてしまいたかった　全て。 	wasurete shimaitakatta subete. 	to forget about everything:
君が笑ってくれたことも　抱きしめてくれたことも 	kimi ga waratte kureta koto mo dakishimete kureta koto mo	how you used to smile at me, how you used to hold me in your arms.
振りほどけない寂しさを　心に背負って 	furihodokenai samishisa o kokoro ni seotte 	I’m going to move on, even as my heart is weighed down
歩き続けるんだ 	aruki tsuzukerun da 	by this loneliness I can’t part with.
 	 	
思い出にそっと、 	omoide ni sotto, 	And ever so quietly, I’m going to lock up
鍵をかけよう。 	kagi o kakeyō. 	all of my memories.
==External Links==
*Hatsune Miku Wiki
*Hazuki no Yume - Lyrics Source
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