Car Seat Headrest

Car Seat Headrest is a band that I can't remember if anyone but me listens to. it's hard to gague the scope of something and its notareity when you're so intimately familiar with it. Do people know what car seat headrest is? Probably. When you're so deep in tyour understanding of self and knowledge of self you cannot understand how you can be fully known. the bedroom is a holy space. you know what your bedroom looks like. familiar with the sheets, the colors. this is the place i live. Do they understand that i live here? do they know what it means to me? I can't move away.
I see myself from the inside. you see me from the outside. no one else can ever see me from the inside. i cannot be fully seen by any other person. The only one who knows me is myself. I want to protecct that little girl. i want her to know that i love her. she is my best friend. no one knows me as well. no one knows me this way. I can look through a window and see you doing your daily tasks. but i am not you. i cannot wear your skin and assume your role as you do your daily tasks. i don't know what it feels like. even if i have done the same tasks, copied your motions. i don't know what it feels like.
the things you think mean nothing to me. well, they mean things to me, but not in the same way they mean things to you. i listen from the outside of a wall. the room you reside in has no doors. you play a game with yourself inside the room. i don't know the rules. you tell me what to do from the inside of the room. i hear you, and i do what you tell me to do, but i could never be sure you're not rigging the game. keep playing the game with yourself. she's better at it than me. i forfeit. can you hear me? i forfeit.