106762-my-wildstar-story

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			I want to say thank you to all of the wildstar community and developers. The dominion i fight, and the exiles i fight with. This game has been a huge relief and escape for me. I always look forward to coming home and playing the game exploring nexus and enjoying friends whether it be pvping with friends on skype or designing housing plots for RP sessions. My initial though of Wildstar was one of skepticism, i thought i wouldn't enjoy pvp, and without being able to be an aurin warrior, i was put off near instantly from the game. but a friend gave me a preorder and told me to try it out for a month and give it a real shot. I am very glad he did and he has all of my thanks for that. I started out trying to play an aurin stalker named Judith, a cute bubbly scientist with a passion for virology and biology. while i ran about celestion questing and reading the lore i got really sucked in, i started writing little bits of stories here and there. and before i knew i was 27k words in  Then it happened.. My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer. I happen to live in a different state then she and found myself worrying alot, I began to call her, and the rest of my family that i had been fairly dissatached to more often. the only time i wasn't worried or upset about this was when i played wildstar, i could be an aurin who saved people from illness and took care of the sick and needy it helped alot. my nerves would calm and I would find myself distracted from a horrible situation from which I can't do anything about.  the main reason I have been so disattatched from my family is because I am a transwoman, I have been transitioning for about 5 years now so it's been a long while since i spoke with my direct family. I am fortunate they all love and support me. however, my mother has not told our extended family about me, and doesn't want the stress of explaining it during these rough times. So I can't even move back with her to take care of her. She had surgery today, the tumor was alot larger then we all thought, about the size of a golf ball.. It's spread to her lymph nodes, now i have to wait, tenatively  hoping that she can at least get a few more years with us all, whether it's with chemo or not, i don't know. but as i can't help as i can't be there for her. All i can do is distract myself, enjoy my friends. and talk to her as much as possible. and Wildstar lets me do that. Here i can help people, i can make people happy. I can enjoy myself.. so thank you carbine, thank you my friends and players and even the dominion who let me play with them.	
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			I'm a little lost for words (it's that empathy thing getting in the way) but wanted to recognize your courage for sharing with us your story. Warm thoughts to you, your mom and family. I'm happy you found some comfort in Wildstar during these times.	
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			Thank you so much.	
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I want to say thank you to all of the wildstar community and developers. The dominion i fight, and the exiles i fight with. This game has been a huge relief and escape for me. I always look forward to coming home and playing the game exploring nexus and enjoying friends whether it be pvping with friends on skype or designing housing plots for RP sessions. 
 
My initial though of Wildstar was one of skepticism, i thought i wouldn't enjoy pvp, and without being able to be an aurin warrior, i was put off near instantly from the game. but a friend gave me a preorder and told me to try it out for a month and give it a real shot. I am very glad he did and he has all of my thanks for that. I started out trying to play an aurin stalker named Judith, a cute bubbly scientist with a passion for virology and biology. while i ran about celestion questing and reading the lore i got really sucked in, i started writing little bits of stories here and there. and before i knew i was 27k words in
 
  Then it happened.. My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer. I happen to live in a different state then she and found myself worrying alot, I began to call her, and the rest of my family that i had been fairly dissatached to more often. the only time i wasn't worried or upset about this was when i played wildstar, i could be an aurin who saved people from illness and took care of the sick and needy it helped alot. my nerves would calm and I would find myself distracted from a horrible situation from which I can't do anything about.
 
  the main reason I have been so disattatched from my family is because I am a transwoman, I have been transitioning for about 5 years now so it's been a long while since i spoke with my direct family. I am fortunate they all love and support me. however, my mother has not told our extended family about me, and doesn't want the stress of explaining it during these rough times. So I can't even move back with her to take care of her. 
 
She had surgery today, the tumor was alot larger then we all thought, about the size of a golf ball.. It's spread to her lymph nodes, now i have to wait, tenatively  hoping that she can at least get a few more years with us all, whether it's with chemo or not, i don't know. but as i can't help as i can't be there for her. All i can do is distract myself, enjoy my friends. and talk to her as much as possible. and Wildstar lets me do that. 
 
Here i can help people, i can make people happy. I can enjoy myself.. so thank you carbine, thank you my friends and players and even the dominion who let me play with them.
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			My mom also used to smoke she quite about 16 years ago though, the damage was done it seems.	
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My mom also used to smoke she quite about 16 years ago though, the damage was done it seems.
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			My mom only learned of her tumor because of a gall bladder issue that was completely unrelated. she hadn't even felt pain there or anything. there's no telling how long it's been growing. thanks for telling your story also.	
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