Day 321-330/Day 325

Day 325
After morning training today, I saw Kanami-chan and Redhead going to the pond in the Kuuderun Great Forest. Along with them were Alchemist-san and the children. I saw the fish that were swimming by the clear water, it was a nice place where a soft wind blows through.
Since I had become too tense for a moment in the counter-plan for the Holy War, it also served as a little breather and family duty. Though Blacksmith-san is busy and unfortunately absent. Still, spending time together this way is just nice and became a recreation.
It may be a somewhat carefree thought, but some will die in the Holy War. They might be members and they might be children. Even Kanami-chan and me are still likely to die. As for the deaths, there are plenty of ways to go about it if I do not want to die and don't want to let any members die.
Endlessly breaking military forces into their formation state from a distance, to spread the epidemic in the enemy country, and to assassinate them for sure one by one. That would be nice only if it succeeds. Even for me as a single demon, I would succeed with enough time. To begin with, if I don't find the enemy base in its current state, they could begin setting the flow of war one-sidedly without trouble either. By then, it will be useless.
The obtained experience value would be concentrated on me too much, I would cancel out the trial that members would get over as a proxy. Though there are many reasons that it might still not be big enough to benefit all the members, it's not a good thing for the future to miss the opportunity to grow up greatly either.
In the first place, I cannot do it bluntly due to the desire from the members: "I want to fight". We might be attracted simply because it is a battlefield where ones have risked their lives, but the desire certainly exists in how much we want to demonstrate the power which was cultivated by training with actual combat.
Typical of the tribe, there are many people expecting and hoping for war, not peace. They desire the battlefield where instinct quarrels with one's own flesh and blood. However, average members might not be needed, and there is also my personal thought that discarding things might also become the choice if the difference becomes any greater. The part of me where my rational ideas are thinks we might pick such a choice, though the possibility might be extremely low. 
However, our current state already has the generative capacity ability of many races. The generative capacity is excellent. It is so convenient that it may be said that to be overly superior. The common soldiers who can use it till the end without hesitation will keep generating it as long as they have magic power, and this application works for many aspects as long as it meets the conditions.
It could be said that they are a colony while being a simple unit. However, the members who were there from the beginning was me and and the blood relative family. The members who joined later are an existence like the apprentices who came to train, and also the fellow with comrade-like feelings. There is a little possibility that I might discard them, but this is unnecessary due to the generative capacity they have - is what I say to myself but just as expected, I don't think it is a good idea.
Therefore, though I am recommending members to participate, the holy war was made a voluntary participation, not compulsory. The plan is worked that way so they don't lose spirit as much as possible and pay attention to the details like geographical features. I am likely able to win in 9 cases out of 10, and the present conditions will considerably lessen the damages.
However, those never exists in the battle. It is surely not a mistake that the match has ended even before it started, but there are certainly some existences that are able to overturn that. The likes of【Savior】,【Emperors】, and【Heroes】and are the first on the list. It would be possible that they might get enough chances of victory from the slight possibility.
It is quite possible to seize the opportunity to win from the slightest possibility. That's why we need these moments. I want to be able to go away with less regrets about what I should have done then, and more glad that I did what I did. Or maybe it will be the same again, or maybe I will be able to live with the hope of enjoying a more enjoyable time. The other members of the group are probably spending their time in their own ways.
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RAWS
“三百二十五日目”
朝の訓練の後、今日はカナ美ちゃんや赤髪ショート、錬金術師さんや子供達などを連れて大森林の中にある池に行って見た。
澄んだ水で泳いでいる魚が良く見え、柔らかい風が吹き抜けるいい場所だ。
最近はちょっと聖戦に向けての対策でピリピリしていたので、家族サービスと少しの息抜きを兼ねている。
残念ながら鍛冶師さんだけは忙しく不在だが、それでも皆でこうして過ごすのは気分転換になって丁度いい。
何を呑気に、と思うかもしれないが、聖戦では誰かが死ぬだろう。
それは団員達かもしれないし、子供達かもしれない。俺やカナ美ちゃんだって、もしかしたら死ぬかもしれない。
そりゃ、ただ単純に死にたくないのなら、団員達を誰も死なせたくないのなら、今なら幾らでも方法はある。
遠距離から生成体の軍隊を延々ぶつける、敵国で疫病を蔓延させる、一人一人確実に暗殺していく。
勝つだけならそれでいい。俺単鬼でも、時間さえあればどうにかなりそうだ。
そもそも敵はコチラの拠点を見つけてもいない現状ならば、一方的に仕掛ける事など造作もない事である。
だが、それでは駄目だ。
得られる経験値が俺に集中し過ぎてしまう、団員達が乗り越えるべき試練を俺が代行してしまう。
理由は他にも多々あるが、やはり団員達の為にならないというのが大きいだろう。大きく成長する機会を失うのは、今後の為にもよろしくない。
そもそも『戦いたい』という団員達の願いを無下にはできない。
命を賭した戦場だからこそ魅了されてしまう事があり、日々の訓練で培った力を実戦で発揮したいという欲求は確かに存在する。
種族的にも、平和よりも戦乱を望む者は多い。本能が血で血を洗う戦場を渇望するのだ。
それに、これ以上の差が広がれば、もしかしたら一般団員達が必要なくなり、切り捨ててしまう事も選択肢になってしまうかもしれない、という個人的な思いもある。
可能性は極めて低いだろうが、既に多種族の生成能力を持っている現状、俺の合理的な考えをする部分がそんな選択をしてしまうかもしれない。
生成能力は優秀だ。優秀すぎると言ってもいいぐらいに使い勝手がいい。
気兼ねなく使い潰せる雑兵を魔力さえあれば生成し続けられるし、条件さえ満たせば多方面にも応用が効く。
単体でありながら群体であるとも言えるだろう。
しかし最初からいるメンバーは俺と血が通っている家族だ。
後から加わった団員も、鍛える弟子のような存在であり仲間意識はある。
それなのに生成能力があれば不要だ、と切り捨ててしまいかねない可能性が僅かにでもある事に、自分で言うのも何だが、流石にどうかと思っている。
だから団員達が参加するのを俺は推奨しているが、聖戦は強制ではなく自主参加にした。その上で極力死なない為に策は練り、地形などにも気を配っている。
十中八九勝てるだろうし、現状なら被害もかなり抑えられるだろう。
だが、戦いに絶対は存在しない。
勝負は始まる前から終わっている、というのも確かに間違いではないが、それを覆す事を可能にする存在は確かに居る。
【英勇】とか【帝王】、そして【救世主】などはその筆頭だ。
僅かな可能性から勝機を掴む事は十分有り得るだろう。
だからこそ、こういう一時が必要だ。
あの時ああしていれば、という思い残しは少なく、あああんな事をしてて良かったと思いながら逝けるように。
あるいはまた同じか、より一層楽しい一時を堪能したいなどの思いから生き足掻けるようになるために。
他の団員達も、思い思いに時間を過ごしている事だろう。
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