Object of trigger

One day, a random thought appeared to look through my mailbox. I found an email. Albeit unrelated, somehow the name appeared in the trail, and my mind played up the whole 'story' of how the relationship was formed and developed. And it occurred to me that all this time, there was judgment and jealousy towards my "object of trigger". And the 8-month-old incident was taken as an opportunity to victimize the person, although just psychologically. At the same time, it was used to justify my feeling victimized. The situation effectively became a scapegoat for me to release my angst.
-- Lihn, Newsletter 8 June 2021wise.foundation/blog/