Jesse's journal

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== Transcript ==
=== JANUARY 2021- BY FORK ===
Reasons for resisting Dramcorp:
* Dramcorp is destroying the desert...
* They just want to drain the Source out of us
* The people deserve the Source!!!
* Cecelia is a bad mother :( to Marin!
Ecological Impact:
* We're losing plant life every season. - Rose has had to start experimenting with new remedies.
* We're losing animals! - I spent all last week looking for a two-headed rattler and couldn't find any!
* Something is wrong with the sky, and the land. It flashes in strange cycles, there are def some colors we've never seen before.
The ecology of the desert is coming apart. And it's all because of what they've done, DramCorp is going to destroy everything and they don't care! They've locked the source well from us and are using it to make f- bubblegum- They should be stopped. I've been talking to Ximena and Lora about this. They also want to do something, Charlie gave me a book about the Haitian Revolution and Toussaint Louverture. I found this quote:
"I know how to move the people, but I know also where to stop in my own actions so that, when I strike, I shall be felt and not seen."
DramCorp won't see us coming.
=== 7/1/21 - BY FORK ===
Marin is meeting with her mother next week, I guess Cecelia wants to introduce her to her grandfather. I warned her not to go; that her mom hasn't done anything for her, Cecelia LITERALLY missed Marin's Birthday, HER 16Tth BIRTHDAY!!!
Why trust her? She took Ximena's farm - and polluted the village, she's never around, she lies and lies, and lies,
Marin just shrugged and said that Cecelia was still her mom- and that she wanted to meet her grandfather, I showed her the Omega Mart ad I got in the mail yesterday that had both of their pictures on it and said that this should be as close as she ever got to "the Drams." She left angry, and we'd had such a good day. We went up to the mesa and ate lunch... I wish I could talk to Ximena and Lora about how I feel about Marin. It's hard to explain, I don't even know how I feel about her. Like sometimes we're best friends and then other times it feels like I should grab her and kiss her? Like she might want me to? There's so much to do, but all I can think about is Marin!
NEEDED FOR RESISTANCE:
* NEED MORE PEOPLE → make a poster
* GET ON TV → The Resistance? film the run-off
* DO WE NEED A NAME? Sisters? Desert [scribbles]
* TALK TO THE FACTORY WORKERS?
=== 9/1/21 - BY-FORK ===
Charlie told me about protests he went to in San Francisco in the 60's. And about New York back then. He lived in a commune for a bit before coming to 7MV. It was late at night and he was telling me about a group called the Weather Underground in Michigan. He said that he worried about me talking about resistance if I meant it that way.
LOOK UP THESE GROUPS! STANDING ROCK NODPL, BLACK PANTHERS, WEATHER UNDERGROUND - MICHEGAN, COMANDANTA ROMONA
I IMAGINED A PLACE WHERE ALL OF US CAN LIVE. A place where we can have a future when it all goes dry. A perfect place where we can be safe. I've been calling it THE JUNCTION
BEST DAYS WITH MARIN:
* W WATHCHING TIK-TOK DANCES...
* PICNIC AT SUNSET ON THE MESA
* TALKING ABOUT THE FUTURE
* WALKING TO THE CAVES!
* PLANNING THE WHAT-IFs fo FOR WHEN SHE CAN LEAVE.
=== 14/1/21 BY FORK ===
Marin never came back from "lunch" with Cecelia and Walter the other day.
We searched everywhere, Antonia said she saw Cecelia taking Marin towards the caves around the Source. But then she just never came back out. Lora and I went as far as the northern ridge, Lora made me come home because it was late and we could here hear something big following us across the mesa. There's a dust storm today so we can't go anywhere. Charlie said he was going through the portal. To talk with the Abundantites, but what are they going to do? He went anyway. I NEED TO :( ! FIND HER!
Lora and I got in a fight, she said Marin probably ran away from Cecelia and Walter Walter because they are the worst- but she wouldn't do that. She would have come right back. She can't go anywhere, she physically hurts when she tries... The last time she tried, she collapsed all bruised and crying at the portal out of The Fork.
THIS HAS TO BE CECELIA'S FAULT!
She had to have done something to Marin. :( Why would she steal her from us?
=== 16/1/21 - BY-FORK ===
I found the metal rose I made for Marin under my bed today. It's only been a few days, but I had already forgotten about it. I didn't tell Ximena or Lora about that day or the rose. It was just too private.
Marin asked me once what I'd be willing to do to see Dramcorp give us back the source: I told her that I wouldn't hurt people. I'm not like that, none of us are. We just have to show the world what the Drams are doing. I showed her the research we have on resistance and protests throughout history. She seemed into it. She looked so sad, she's one of them, a Dram, she said, and so is Charlie. I told her they're different, they're good people.
I think she wanted to prove it. She told me we'd we'd grab some food and go for a walk. We'd go see the caves, the ones with the old writing and we'd just... be people. On the way we started talking about... everything and nothing. And we had a great time. It was dawn when we got back. The village was so quiet.
That was one of those times, I wanted to thank her so I made the rose. But then I worried that it wasn't good enough - so I hid it under my bed
I don't want to go to sleep now, I'm going to check on Charlie's still. He isn't back yet and it runs better at night. He always says it's because the parts of Source left in the runoff just "harmonize" better at night, but I think it's because Charlie doesn't like to sleep.
=== 17/1/21 - BY-FORK ===
Charlie came back from Earth - the other one, he said he talked to Cecelia. I guess something terrible happened in the source, Charlie wouldn't say more but we stopped the search parties because Charlie DID say that Marin had left on her own, wchich which... what does that even mean!!? She could barely leave town without her body trembling and feeling like she was being torn apart, apart. Ximena has been sitting at her computer all night doing stuff something. I don't understand computers enough but she said she was trying to hack into Dramcorp's servers? She said that she's going to leave a "sign" that she was there to try and scare them.
We decided to call ourselves THE MONOLITH after the stones in the source well, so that's the name she's going to leave.
Charlie has been spending a lot of time with Thali again. When I was little he would tell me stories about her. About her whole About how she messed with her whole society. She was a revolutionary! I would hold the scrolls and try to understand the language written there. I knew the story well enough that I felt like I could read it.
When Charlie found me when I was little and decided to adopt me - I felt like everything was going to be amazing, But then all of this happened.
"DON'T TAKE ANY RIDES... FROM FLYING saucers..." CHARLIE
=== 19/1/21 - BY-FORK ===
ANOTHER GOOD MEMORY. She found me out in the desert looking for scrap one day and asked me why I'd been angry, And it all came out. Just all my feelings about Lora and Ximena aggravating me. How living with them was good and bad. How we couldn't agree on how to approach DRAMCORP. About helping Charlie with his run-off and mish-mash still. About wondering who my parents were even though I love Charlie.
It all came pouring out- And I was soo embarrassed I just ran away from her, I couldn't help it. ♥ I never let myself talk like that.
The next day I came back to find a note on my bed to come up to the mesa, that she liked to watch the sunset at. I went, and Marin had collected flowers and laid them around in a big circle. She brought food, and we sat and read her blog on my phone and laughed. No, it was giggling. I giggled. That's when I decided to make her the metal rose and talk to her about how I felt for real.
AND THEN I NEVER HAD A CHANCE ↑ 
I miss her.
=== 22/1/21 - BY-FORK ===
I had a dream about glittery light and a strange place full of aliens. It was like the time the weird sky boat was hovering above Charlie's place for a few days. I was so young, maybe I imagined that, but Charlie has a model of it. I should ask him.
The light was like what would happen to Marin in her sleep. The weird portals she could open in her dreams..
Ximena made contact with someone in Dramcorp. She's emailing with them, I think we have a spy!!! (which is sooo weird but also amazing.) I was walking along the side of the factory where the workers take smoke-breaks. They call them "actualizers" I guess. It's so condescending. I met this one "actualizer" and she said something about a broken security door that the foreman had been trying to fix for a few days- We talked about how messed up it was that Dramcorp is Destroying the desert, I was surprised that she agreed with me.
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