那些我恐惧至极的事 (Nàxiē Wǒ Kǒngjù Zhìjí de Shì)

==Lyrics==
Singer	Tianyi	Ling	Both
Chinese 	Pinyin 	English
是不是有误会？ 	 	Was there a mistake?
明明之前都无话不谈 	 	You usually kept no secrets from me.
如果我有做错的求你告诉我 	 	If it’s my fault please tell me.
 	 	
他对我说　成长是经久不愈的残疾 	tā duì wǒ shuō chéngzhǎng shì jīngjiǔ bù yù de cánjí 	He said to me, that to grow up is a long-lasting deformity we can’t recover from
谁承想那一天　他成为我的顽疾 	sheí chéngxiǎng nà yītiān tā chéngwéi wǒ de wánjí 	But never did I think that since then, he would become my disease to fester
我从鸦群嘴里抢回我的眼睛 	wǒ cóng yā qún zuǐ lǐ qiǎng huí wǒ de yǎnjīng 	From the crows’ mouth I’ve taken back my eyes
却失去自己 	què shīqù zìjǐ 	But I lost myself in the process
没有自己 	méiyǒu zìjǐ 	I don’t know what I am anymore
 	 	
我该如何忘记他的话语 	wǒ gāi rúhé wàngjì tā de huàyǔ 	What do I have to do, to forget his words?
相信明天太阳还会升起 	xiāngxìn míngtiān tàiyáng hái huì shēng qǐ 	So I can believe that the sun will be able to rise tomorrow?
我曾与春天许下永远的约定 	wǒ céng yǔ chūntiān xǔ xià yǒngyuǎn de yuēdìng 	In the past I’ve made an everlasting promise with the spring
现在我怕我先春天而去 	xiànzài wǒ pà wǒ xiān chūntiān ér qù 	But now, I fear that those days of spring are gone to me
 	 	
我多害怕革命者失去了信仰 	wǒ duō hàipà gémìng zhě shīqù le xìnyǎng 	I’m deeply afraid that the revolutionaries have lost the causes they believe in,
创作者舍弃掉发光的骄傲 	chuàngzuò zhě shěqì diào fàguāng de jiāo'ào 	that the creators have lost their dazzling pride
多害怕孩子们忘记了梦想 	duō hàipà háizimen wàngjì le mèngxiǎng 	I’m deeply afraid that the children have forgotten their dreams,
而青鸟不愿意向这里飞翔 	ér qīngniǎo bù yuànyì xiàng zhèlǐ fēixiáng 	that the blue bird no longer wants to fly here
如果浓雾会将白昼都笼罩 	rúguǒ nóngwù huì jiāng báizhòu dōu lóngzhào 	Should the thick fog envelop the broad daylight,
漫天酸雨侵蚀着乌托邦 	màntiān suānyǔ qīnshí zhe wūtuōbāng 	the heavy acid rain will surely erode the utopia
我是不是会成为自己不屑的人 	wǒ shìbùshì huì chéngwéi zìjǐ bùxiè de rén 	Have I become someone I can’t bear to look?
没骨气地第一个放声尖叫 	méi gǔqì de dì yī gè fàngshēng jiānjiào 	A spineless coward, the first to shout their voice shrill?
我害怕　我惧怕　我畏缩　还胆寒 	wǒ hàipà wǒ jùpà wǒ wèisuō hái dǎnhán 	I’m scared, I’m afraid, I cower, in deep fear
我惊恐　我颤抖　我希望　又绝望 	wǒ jīngkǒng wǒ chàndǒu wǒ xīwàng yòu juéwàng 	I’m frightened, I’m shaking, I hope, only to despair
 	 	
我曾说过　从此我不怕任何曲折 	wǒ céng shuōguò cóngcǐ wǒ bùpà rènhé qūzhé 	I once said, that I won’t be afraid of any problems that comes my way
谁承想那一天　他成为我的挫折 	sheí chéngxiǎng nà yītiān tā chéngwéi wǒ de cuòzhé 	But never did I think that since then, he would become my setback
我紧紧盯着装满糖果的药瓶 	wǒ jǐn jǐn dīng zhe zhuāng mǎn tángguǒ de yào píng 	With close attention, I stare at the medicine bottle stuffed full with sweets
砸了个粉碎 	zále gè fěnsuì 	Shattering it into pieces
扔进海里 	rēng jìn hǎilǐ 	Throwing it into the seas
 	 	
我该向谁讨回我的锐利 	wǒ gāi xiàng sheí tǎo huí wǒ de ruìlì 	Who do I have to beg, to ask for my edge back?
向爱我的人们演示站立 	xiàng ài wǒ de rénmen yǎnshì zhànlì 	So that I can show that I still stand to the people who love me?
我曾为花海怒放弹奏起旋律 	wǒ céng wèi huā hǎi nùfàng tánzòu qǐ xuánlǜ 	In the past I used to play a melody to the field of flowers in full bloom
现在我怕我憎恨起乐音 	xiànzài wǒ pà wǒ zēnghèn qǐ yuèyīn 	But now, I fear that I have borne a loathing for the music
 	 	
我多害怕复杂的成为种炫耀 	wǒ duō hàipà fùzá de chéngwéi zhǒng xuànyào 	I’m deeply afraid that all the complicated things have become something to flaunt about,
实验者沦为了批判的对象 	shíyàn zhě lúnwèi le pīpàn de duìxiàng 	that the experimenters have been reduced to targets of criticism
多害怕流水线是默认选项 	duō hàipà liúshuǐxiàn shì mòrèn xuǎnxiàng 	I’m deeply afraid that the assembly line is the default option,
旁观者看不见当中的单调 	pángguān zhě kànbùjiàn dāngzhōng de dāndiào 	that the onlookers are unable to see the monotony within
如果时间今后再也不流动 	rúguǒ shíjiān jīnhòu zàiyě bù liúdòng 	Should time come to a stop right now,
那一天无限重复到变老 	nà yītiān wúxiàn chóngfù dào biàn lǎo 	then that hurtful past will play back ‘till I’m old
我是不是再打败不了镜中的人 	wǒ shìbùshì zài dǎbài bùliǎo jìng zhōng de rén 	Can I no longer defeat the person in the mirror?
姿态只能定格在狼狈出逃 	zītài zhǐ néng dìnggé zài lángbèi chūtáo 	As I’m stuck, in the form of a coward running with tail between my legs
我害怕　我惧怕　我畏缩　还胆寒 	wǒ hàipà wǒ jùpà wǒ wèisuō hái dǎnhán 	I’m scared, I’m afraid, I cower, in deep fear
我惊恐　我颤抖　我绝望　却希望 	wǒ jīngkǒng wǒ chàndǒu wǒ juéwàng què xīwàng 	I’m frightened, I’m shaking, I despair, but still I hope
 	 	
我绝望　为我的胆小 	wǒ juéwàng wèi wǒ de dǎn xiǎo 	I despair, at my cowardice
我希望我还　热爱着歌唱 	wǒ xīwàng wǒ hái rè'ài zhe gēchàng 	I wish I still, have my passion for singing
我希望这是　最后一次沮丧 	wǒ xīwàng zhè shì zuìhòu yī cì jǔsàng 	I hope this is, the last time I were to feel dismayed
 	 	
我不想从此逃跑 	wǒ bùxiǎng cóngcǐ táopǎo 	I don’t want to run away from hereon,
接受懦夫称号 	jiēshòu nuòfū chēnghào 	to be called a coward from hereon
也不想跪地求饶 	yě bùxiǎng guì dì qiúráo 	I don’t want to kneel to beg for mercy,
变质得从头到脚 	biànzhí dé cóngtóudàojiǎo 	to sink so low from head to toe
我既说过成为士兵 	wǒ jì shuōguò chéngwéi shìbīng 	I’ve said that I will soldier on
便有天会撕碎这强加于我名为宿命的顽疾 	biàn yǒu tiān huì sīsuì zhè qiángjiā yú wǒ míngwèi sùmìng de wánjí	For the sake of a day when I could tear this disease known as fate imposed upon me
 	 	
我依然怕先行者放弃了导航 	wǒ yīrán pà xiānxíng zhě fàngqì le dǎoháng 	I’m still afraid that the forerunners have given up on their voyages,
奉献者悔恨起坚守过信条 	fèngxiàn zhě huǐhèn qǐ jiānshǒu guòxìn tiáo 	that the devotees regret having believed in their faiths
依然怕开拓者停止了寻找 	yīrán pà kāità zhě tíngzhǐ le xúnzhǎo 	I’m still afraid that the pioneers have stopped looking,
颠倒黑白的毒虫死而不僵 	diāndǎo hēibái de dúchóng sǐ'érbùjiāng 	that the poisonous insects distorting right and wrong have not died completely
如果浓雾会将白昼都笼罩 	rúguǒ nóngwù huì jiāng báizhòu dōu lóngzhào 	Should the thick fog envelop the broad daylight,
漫天酸雨侵蚀着乌托邦 	màntiān suānyǔ qīnshí zhe wūtuōbāng 	the heavy acid rain will surely erode my utopia
我能不能够成为自己向往的人 	wǒ néng bù nénggòu chéngwéi zìjǐ xiàngwǎng de rén 	Can I become someone I can look up to?
继续开凿直到再遇见曙光 	jìxù kāizáo zhídào zài yùjiàn shǔguāng 	Pressing on, until a day I could once again see the light
我害怕　我惧怕　我畏缩　还胆寒 	wǒ hàipà wǒ jùpà wǒ wèisuō hái dǎnhán 	I’m scared, I’m afraid, I cower, in deep fear
然而我　还希望　还希望　还希望 	rán'ér wǒ hái xīwàng hái xīwàng hái xīwàng 	But even so, I still hope, and hope, and hope
 	 	
熄灭的星光。 	 	The dying starlight
下沉的底线。 	 	The sinking standards
复辟的糟粕。 	 	Dregs reinserting themselves
倒退的历史。 	 	History, playing back in reverse
通行的潜规则。 	 	The implicitly followed unspoken rules
虚浮的价值观。 	 	Superficial worth
不平等的地位。 	 	Unequal grounds
不自由的权利。 	 	No right to freedom
披着羊皮的卫道者。 	 	The conservative wearing sheep-skin
我恐惧的，并不仅仅是这些。 	 	The things I’m afraid of, are not limited to just these
这些是从前不曾知晓的现实。 	 	These are the reality that I have never once understood
而是懦弱。 	 	My weakness
而是投降。 	 	My surrender
而是屈服。 	 	My defeat
而是同化。 	 	My assimilation
杯弓蛇影的。 	 	My paranoia
破罐破摔的。 	 	Only able to resign myself to my despair
我自己。 	 	Me, myself
 	 	
 	 	
我与你就此别过。 	 	I’m not saying anything more to you.
 	 	
那就别过。 	 	Goodbye then.
你不值得。 	 	You’re not worth it.
 	 	
QNMD. 	 	GFY.
 	 	
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This song was featured on the following albums:
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