麻痺 (Mahi)

==Alternate Versions==
==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
みんなが幸せに見えても 	minna ga shiawase ni miete mo 	Even when everyone would look so happy
劣った自分に気付くときも 	ototta jibun ni kizuku toki mo 	Even when I would notice my feelings of inferiority
すべてがどうでもよくなって 	subete ga dou demo yoku natte 	I’d find myself coming to terms with it
大人みたいな態度を取る 	otona mitai na taido o toru 	And take up the air of someone so mature
 	 	
前よりは少し楽になったかな？ 	mae yori wa sukoshi raku ni natta kana?	Have I become more comfortable than before?
麻痺する方法を覚えれば 	mahi suru houhou o oboereba 	As long as I try to remember the way to numb myself
植物のように生きて行ける 	shokubutsu no you ni ikite ikeru 	I could keep on living, just like a vegetable
別に、悪いことじゃないんだ 	betsu ni, warui koto ja nai nda 	Not that, there’s anything so wrong with that
 	 	
だけど、たまに幻を見る 	dakedo, tama ni maboroshi o miru 	But, there are times when I would hallucinate
泣きながら叫んでるわたし 	naki nagara sakenderu watashi 	For this me who’s been crying, sobbing and shouting
檻の中に置き去りにしたわたし 	ori no naka ni okizari ni shita watashi	For this me who you’ve left behind in a cage
夢の中で、会いに来るんだ 	yume no naka de, ai ni kuru nda 	I dreamt, that you came to see me
 	 	
 	 	
どうせも治らないから 	 	Seeing that it will never be cured
あなたに見せるの 	 	I showed it to you
 	 	
そしたらあなたが舐めてくれて 	 	And then you licked it for me
痛みがちょっと麻痺して 	 	And the pain was numbed, even by a little
 	 	
あなたのこころの中に 	 	What you think about me
かわいそうでキレイなわたし 	 	A pitiful and beautiful me
うれしくて気持ちいい事 	 	The things that make me happy and feel good
 	 	
「わたしブスでしょ暗いでしょ 	 	“I must be ugly, right? I must be a downer, right?
臭いでしょ気持ち悪いでしょ」 	 	I must be smelly, right? I must be gross, right?”
それがわたしの居場所だから 	 	But that was where I belong, after all
それが歌うっていう事だから 	 	But those were the things I sing about, after all
 	 	
そうしていつも疑っている 	 	And then I’m left always in doubt
なぜあなたはわたしを嫌わないの 	 	On why you didn’t hate me
どうして笑顔で接してくれるの 	 	Why you welcomed me with a smile
もっとあなたに踏み込んだなら 	 	If I stepped on you more and more
豹変するあなたが見れるというの 	 	I’m sure I’ll see you change
 	 	
劣っていると気付く瞬間 	 	When I realized that I was feeling inferior
あなたがとても遠く感じて 	 	You seem to have become so far away
こころが歪むのを感じて 	 	It felt like something in my heart has become warped
あなたとの間に線を引いて 	 	So I drew a line between the two of us
そうして自分を守っている 	 	And protected myself
そうして他人を増やしている 	 	And then you became another stranger
 	 	
わたしより劣っている誰かに 	 	I want to extend my sympathies
同情してあげたい 	 	to someone who’s worse off than me
優しい言葉をかけてあげたい 	 	I want to console them with kind words
余裕たっぷりの笑顔で包んであげたい 	 	I want to wrap them in a generous smile
わたしの優しさをたっぷりと味わわせ 	 	I want to make them feel my overwhelming kindness
そうして　この手の中で 	 	And then, I want to stop their breath
息の根を止めたい 	 	With my own two hands
 	 	
もしも誰かがわたしを 	 	Even if someone were to
全て受け入れてくれて 	 	Accept my everything
醜い部分も愛してくれて 	 	Love even the ugly parts of me
大切な特別になれたとしても 	 	Have me become an irreplaceable existence to them
朝起きてから眠りにつくまで 	 	Yes, from the moment I get up from bed to the moment I go to sleep
その心に確かめ続けるだろう 	 	I know I’d always carry that heart with me
今もわたしはあなたの特別かな？ 	 	Am I still your special someone now?
今も　未来も　ずっとそうだよね？ 	 	Both now, and in the future, will I always be someone special to you?
 	 	
こんな音楽なんていらない 	 	I don’t need a song like this
いますぐゴミ箱に捨ててもいい 	 	You can throw it in the trash if that’s what you want
ほんの少しの時間でもいい 	 	I don’t mind if you only spare me a little of your time
未来も過去もすべていらない 	 	I don’t need the future, or the past
たったの一日でもいい 	 	Just one day is enough
だめなら一時間でもいい 	 	If that’s too much, an hour is enough
だめなら一分でもいい 	 	If that’s too much, a minute is enough
だめなら一秒でもいい 	 	If that’s too much, a second is enough
だめなら　せめて 	 	If that’s too much, then, please
やすらかに眠らせて 	 	Just put me to a restful sleep
 	 	
雨が止んで陽が差して 	 	The rain has stopped, and the sun shines
みんなの声が響いてて 	 	I could hear everyone’s voice ringing in the air
あなたは笑っていた 	 	You were laughing
わたしに笑顔くれたんだ 	 	You smiled at me
穏やかな世界に 	 	When I prepared myself to step out
わたしは踏み出そうとして 	 	Into that peaceful world
玄関で立ち止まって 	 	I could only stop myself by the door
ほほえみ返して戸を閉めた 	 	And return a smile back to you before closing the door shut
なぜなら　きっと 	 	As for why, I know, after all,
あなたは最後には 	 	That, in the end,
 	 	
わたしを嫌うから 	 	You must have hated me
==Discography==
This song and its remaster were featured on the following albums:
*わたしのココ (Watashi no Koko) (album)
*わたしのココ (Watashi no Koko) (remaster) (album)
==External Links==
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