Ataraxia

ataraxia
ataraxia (a-tə-ˈrak-sē-ə): the state of blissful and serene calmness.
A perfect representation of such a word, the perfect fit for a job in a place as quiet as the library. 
ataraxia 	ataraxia
 	
Background Information	Background Information
Art By 	ice
Creator 	essence
Aesthetics 	libraries, neatly-arranged bookshelves, jade, seafoam, light-colored waters, oceancore, seaside views, afternoon tea, comfy cushions, rainy days
Main Attribute 	calmness
Elemental Attribute 	water
Theme Animal 	swan
Theme Color 	seafoam
Theme Song 	
Hisame - seafoxy
MBTI Personality 	infj-a
Character Information 	Character Information
Age 	8 D.Y. / 17.5 H.Y.
Gender 	demigirlflux
Pronouns 	they/them + fae/faer
Orientation 	lesbian
Occupation 	librarian
Tribe 	seawings
Other Names 	tara
Goal 	to be with dream (formerly), keep the library in good shape
Residence 	Hikari
Relatives 	unknown parents, calla (older sister)
Allies 	calla, euphoria, swan, dream
Enemies 	those who cause problems in the library
Likes 	books, arranging stuff, things being orderly, peace and quiet, tea, snacks, sweet treats, fairytales, romance, happy endings, clean environments, rainy days
Dislikes 	loud sounds, obnoxious grammar errors, anyone disturbing the peace and quiet of the library, dragons who talk too much in the library, the rules being broken, rudeness, death, long and boring texts, anything horror related
Abilities 	normal SeaWing abilities, the ability to be deadly silent while moving, stealth
Weapons 	none but getting a dictionary thrown in your face isn't fun
Love Interests 	dream (formerly)
Quote 	no, no, you are not allowed to borrow anymore books until you return those you already did about a week ago.
appearance
When you walk into the local library in Hikari, you will often spot a trio of dragons moving about, each getting about their tasks as they get ready for the day. The excitable dragoness with twilight-colored scales would most likely be seen sorting out new arrivals and returned items, the grumpy looking night dragon hunched over piles of papers at the counter, and lastly, the green, languid figure that meticulously looks through every book on the shelf. The last dragon, the one that gives off nothing but cool vibes of calm waters, is none other than Ataraxia, or Tara, as they preferred to be called, the one librarian you might easily miss. 
Upon closer look, you will see that they aren't any more different than any other SeaWing - with the fins, glowscales and gills all in the right places. A lot of times they are often seen curled up relaxedly - either on a couch or just the ground while doing faer duties, but even when fae stands, they hardly seem threatening - quite the opposite actually. Their build is neither strictly thin or chubby - simply one of average size and height when considering their age. 
Tara's scales are a medium shade of teal, not something incredibly outstanding for their tribe. Fae has very pale cyan glowscales, and a jade green underbelly. Their fins and webbing do not stray from this cool color scheme - being a soft minty green. Realistically, the only thing that separates faer from other SeaWings would be their wings - the membranes share the same light blue color with their glowscales, but wavy patterns can be traced across their wings, presenting as seafoam green lines over the pale canvas. 
Their eyes, unlike the rest of their body, is a plain, coffee brown, slightly on the more drab side. Tara has mostly smooth facial features and two pure white curved horns on faer head. Faer expression is matching with their posture - languid, most of the time wearing a small smile, with a mostly neutral gaze that betrays none of their feelings. When they do decide to let their emotions show, however, their eyes can brew up a storm, letting it creep into faer outward appearance, and that's when you know something serious has happened. 
Tara is not the most eye-catching of dragons, at least not so in terms of appearance, but fae doesn't mind. It's how they prefer it, anyway, as "staying under the radar will one day come in handy", in faer own words. 
personality
To outsiders, Tara may seem like a bit of an enigma, a complicated soul hidden behind their general quiet demeanor. Those who know faer personally, though, may realize that they are not as different as others perceive them to be. 
For starters, fae is obviously an introvert, as they have chosen this job knowing that it would come with peace and quiet. It's not that they dislike social interaction, and will have no problem holding themselves in a conversation, but it's when alone, or only with their trusted friends that they feel most at ease. Outside of their work, Tara still prefers to be in less hectic environments - a cozy afternoon with just a few of their best pals would be their ideal way to pass the time. 
The way fae sometimes speaks to others may lead most to believe that they are the type of slack off on their duties or sleep through classes. However, that is far from the truth. Tara is actually pretty diligent and does almost every single one of faer tasks well, even if fae doesn't deny that rest and relaxation is what they think is most important in life. This perhaps comes from the fact that they love what they do wholeheartedly - more specifically, their love of books and order. Tara takes faer job seriously and will not hesitate to call out anyone who breaks the rules in the library that fae is in charge of.
More often than not, Tara would come across as someone softspoken and easygoing, an individual you would rarely expect to get chewed out by. Most of the time, that would be true, however, if anyone assumes faer to be a pushover, they alone would suffer the consequences. The SeaWing's calm and steady attitude has a drastic flip side, and they can turn into a terrifying monster the moment you overstep certain boundaries. Of course, for a dragon like them, such limits are rare and hard to cross, so fae does not think that any of their actions would not be justified. Fae usually shows signs before turning into their literal mad state, so it's usually pretty hard to see this scary side of them. 
Among faer friends, Tara is somewhat of a peacemaker, a medium that usually resolves tensions and prevents any possible fights. This, of course, stems from their genuine hatred of conflict, as well as careless arguments. Similarly, if they ever personally get involved in any drama, they will try their hardest to resolve it as soon as possible. They will readily admit to their faults and flaws, but they are not a pushover and will not hesitate to point out if the other party involved is wrong. 
They are a secretive dragon, and sometimes a bit cryptic. Tara enjoys speaking in sentences that sometimes sound like riddles or use suggestive ways of phrasing, and this can cause many to label faer as weird. When questioned, they do admit that they like to carry a mysterious aura, even if it comes at the risk of them appearing unnatural. They don't like disclosing a lot of information about themselves before getting to know and trust another dragon, and they usually need more time to sort out their thoughts before using their voice once faced with a problem. Rushing or pressuring them would usually backfire and cause faer to behave coldly towards you or avoiding you entirely. 
Not everyone can appreciate how fae naturally is, and those who cannot see past faer odd outlook may not understand their love for simplicity. Tara does sometimes feel a little lonely when they deem that they have been alienated by a crowd. Fae does enjoy faer alone time, but going too long without any form of social interaction drains them equally. This state of unrest sometimes put them through a thought process where they start worrying about what they've done wrong, or is anyone that they're close to mad with them. Fae seeks deep, meaningful relationships with others and prefers them over having tons of friends or acquaintances.
Tara is an orderly dragon, and this shows in almost everything they do daily. Fae claims that arranging and keeping anything in tidy order is one of their hobbies, and they hardly ever get tired of sorting out and categorizing objects that need it. This reflects a part of faer personality that is almost entirely bound by rules - they freak out whenever they feel like someone, be it themselves or any other dragon has violated a rule that they've agreed to abide by. They are not naturally a leader, but Tara can feel uneasy and restless when things spiral out of faer control. At their worst, they can seem like a bit of a control freak, but in reality they are just not comfortable with things extending beyond their comfort zone, and they do their best to keep everything within it.
Tara is typically an approachable dragon, and quite a friendly one once you get to know them properly. Fae is definitely a friend worth having, even though it might be hard at first for others to see through their sometimes odd demeanor.
history
The moment Tara hatched, they never knew their parents, and memories of their early life was akin to hazy fog. All fae remembers is that from the very beginning, faer one and only companion was Calla, their beloved older sister, who had never failed to take care of their every need. She told them that she chose the name Ataraxia for them, because all she could feel from her egg was a pleasurable, calm sensation radiating from the eggshell.
Between attending her classes and caring for Tara, Calla never seemed to stop working, and the younger SeaWing quickly matured and realized that they were not a perfect family - they needed to help their only known relative before she worn herself out. Because of this, most of Tara's dragonet years were spent by their sister's side, either helping out with chores, or hanging out like siblings do. Calla's instincts were right, too, as fae grown to be a quiet, more reserved dragonet, and looked upon rowdy dragonets of their same age with distaste.
However, fae was often lonely when they had to attend school, away from their sister who understood them so well. Some dragonets deemed faer as "odd", being "too mature" for faer age, or dubbing them creepy just for being too quiet. There was also the fact that Tara faerself felt out of place, but it didn't stop the sinking feeling they had whenever they saw other groups of friends hanging out together, laughing and having fun as they went about their days. 
This was where Calla came in - playing an even more important role than before. She was both their best friend and only known family member, and she never stopped working to take care of Tara's needs. 
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relationships
parents
Tara has no recollection of their true parents, and much to their own surprise, this little fact doesn't bother them much. Every time they questioned Calla about it, she would deftly find a way to dodge the subject, and frankly, they've just given up on trying. Part of faer suspects that their parents met a tragic end early, or that their older sister simply had close ties to what truly happened to them, but fae doesn't hold any grudges against her for not coming clean about their whereabouts. 
Without ever having seen or heard of them, Tara holds a completely neutral stance on faer parents, and even though a tiny part of their mind is curious about the prospect of meeting them personally, they have no strong feelings about this subject, simply dismissing it with a wave every time it is brought up.
neutral
calla
There's no one in this world that Tara trusts more than faer older sister, Calla. The older SeaWing has practically acted as their parental figure since they were born, tending to their every need and teaching them how to fend for themselves well. Tara remembers every life advice she has ever given them, and enjoys all the time they spend together, be it cleaning up their shared home together, exchanging random facts and conversations during dinner, or just having fun during one of their tea party sessions.
Like any other siblings, their relationship isn't all just smooth sailing. Tara's opinions can sometimes clash with their sister's, such as Calla's tendencies to be more flexible about rules, while fae sometimes gets irritated at the fact that she is naturally much less patient and quiet than her, sometimes unintentionally appearing to force them into speaking more than they are comfortable with. However, these fights get resolved quickly and both of them genuinely love each other, and would do anything to protect their only known true family.
Tara is not sure why Calla refuses to reveal any information about their parents, and over time they have stopped asking as they know they wouldn't get a definitive answer from her anytime soon. Fae doesn't mind - as long as it doesn't strain their already wonderful relationship, they are content with their parents' whereabouts being kept in the dark. In faer opinion, both of them are more than enough for each other, watching each other's back and getting through life happily.
very positive
euphoria
Tara adores the Rain/Night hybrid as a friend. Fae thinks that she is kind and thoughtful, and doesn't mind her often childish antics, thinking it to be rather adorable, actually. The SeaWing knows that fae could trust Eury with almost anything, from work related matters in the library to just counting on them to be a good friend. They appreciate all of her kind gestures, and is always willing to entertain their conversations. The two often hang out together during their breaks and so, discussing everything ranging from library matters to other little things in life. 
They cherish this relationship, with Tara being the voice of reason to steady some of Eury's chaotic antics, and Eury being the comedic relief and source of optimism that the SeaWing appreciates. Fae certainly hopes that their interactions will remain positive and delightful in the future.
very positive
swan
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trivia
* Tara's role amongst the librarians is the shelf manager, being the one who arranges stuff in alphabetical order and calling out dragons who deliberately sabotage the order the books are placed
* fae enjoys seasonal treats as well as the celebrations in general
** they like pumpkin spice latte and pumpkin pie which means they are a spawn of hell. i created a spawn of hell
* enjoys poems and just really mystical and fancy writing in general
* absolutely loves riddles and mysteries to be solved
** they'll definitely be the first one out of their friends to find the exit to an escape room, probably even do it all on faer own honestly
* bad with numbers and counting
* thinks of flowers as the most romantic gift
* Tara still retains a lot of faer SeaWing traits, such as enjoying trips to the ocean or just preferring to chill near the river during their spare time
* sea salt caramel is probably their favorite ice cream flavor
* prefers sweet to savory foods
*fae dislikes history lessons the most
**one of their key mottos in life is to focus on the present, and worrying over the past achieves nothing
gallery
please follow this reference when drawing faer! the base is by agoldfishwithanxiety, colored by me.
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