We Can Never Go Home

is a Quest in Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn.
==Journal==
* Although Sidurgu has yet to recover from his injuries, Myste will wait no longer. He wants to resume his search for souls in need of succor, and he is willing to forgo their assistance, if you are. Anything to hasten the conclusion of this mad crusade. Castrum Oriens, the site of Ilberd's grand slaughter, may offer what you seek.
* Myste grows weary at the sight of so many men and women willing to give their lives in service to a greater cause. A sight that is all too familiar, perhaps. Elsewhere shall we look for listless spirits.
* In the depths of a cave by a flickering fire, a man sits alone, waiting to die. Gallien, an Ala Mhigan refugee for whom you once made medicine long, long ago, reveals that he shared it with another refugee, ensuring that the man lived...and that he would not. His friend Houdart went on to fight for the Griffin and even served as his body double, but ultimately died at Baelsar's Wall with his mad master and so many others. They made their choices, and such are the consequences, but Myste cannot help but meddle. He conjures a simulacrum of Houdart to comfort the dying man, who bids his dead friend to go to Rhalgr's Reach and pray for their fallen brothers.
* The shade born of Gallien's memories tells you of how he always wanted to meet you, a larger-than-life hero...unaware that he eventually did at Little Ala Mhigo. He laments his fate, wishing he could go back and convince his former self not to place his trust in the Griffin...but if such things were possible, you wouldn't have a broken shield, now would you?
* You rescue Houdart and Myste from wild beasts, but though they are unharmed, the shade abruptly stumbles and grips his head. Dizziness, he claims, and nothing more, before imploring you to hurry. He is as poor a liar as the boy.
* Again Houdart falters, suddenly weak and in pain. A man's memories cannot outlive him, he says, and Gallien is running out of time. He will try his best to carry on, but in the end, it is not up to him...
* Look how he burns with fervor, with desperation, with faith. How he sings of his homeland and wills himself to stand. How he marshals his strength to put one foot in front of the other. In that moment he lives again.
* The spell is broken. Houdart is no more, which can only mean one thing: we are one step closer to ending this charade.
* She/He is not the first, nor will s/he be the last to betray you. She/He will implore you to see reason, to seek solace in the fiction. And when you refuse, s/he will have no recourse but one. As I did not. Be ready.
* The dead are forever beyond our reach, and we have no choice but to accept the inevitability that everyone we know and love will join them in time...or do we? Distraught by his failure to see Gallien's final wish fulfilled before his passing, Myste muses on the possibility of a world where time and death hold no power of us. A world you could share. You need only ask. But we know better.
* Sidurgu is concerned that Myste's failure will spur him to deeper depths of depression. Even more concerning is the fact that the boy has yet to return to Ishgard, though you believed he would. Why, I do not know. The aether wanes, and he has but one chance left. Be ready, damn you. Be ready.
※The next dark knight quest will be available from Sidurgu upon reaching level 70.
==Objectives==
* Rendezvous with Myste at Castrum Oriens.
* Search the Fringes for people in distress.
* Speak with Houdart.
* Follow Houdart.
* Speak with Myste.
* Use Souleater to consume the swirling abyss.
* Pay /respect to the fallen at Bloodstorm.
* Speak with Sidurgu in Ishgard.
==Script==
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Sidurgu 	I wasn't joking, by the way. About the moogle punching.
 	
Rielle 	He'll heal, but I'm afraid it's going to take a while. The moogles can probably help, though Sid would have to let them─and good luck convincing him.
 	
Myste 	As you can see, Sid has yet to fully recover from his bout with Ser Ompagne, and there is no telling how much more time he will require.
Myste 	But my quest will brook no delay. If we must seek out another soul in need of succor without their assistance, then so be it. Do you agree?
Myste 	Then we are of one mind. Now then, where shall we begin our search...
Myste 	War is perhaps the greatest source of man's misery. So much death and destruction... A battlefield, perhaps...
Myste 	Yes, yes... This slaughter you bore witness to at Castrum Oriens is precisely that of which I speak. A tragedy which tore apart the lives of every man and woman it touched...
Myste 	My mind is made up. That is where we must go.
Sidurgu 	<sigh> If I had it my way, I'd not let you out of my sight...
Sidurgu 	But, again, it's your soul crystal at stake. I'm only here to help you reclaim your aether. If you think you can look after him by yourself, then by all means.
Sidurgu 	As for me...I think I've finally regained enough strength to make the journey back to Ishgard. When you've finished in Gyr Abania, come and find us at the Forgotten Knight.
 	
Sidurgu 	Don't get cocky. The little bastard's a handful and a half.
 	
Rielle 	Myste cares for us all, in his own way, but you most of all, I think...
 	
Myste 	Castrum Oriens... How it buzzes with life. So many brave soldiers, resolved to do their duty no matter the cost...
Myste 	But have no doubt there will be a cost, and it will be most high, for no man is beyond the reach of fate. Death will not be denied...
Myste 	This place...this place...it weighs on me... Anywhere but here I would search...
 	
Gallien 	Come...come to share the fire? I would stand to greet you, stranger, but my legs...my eyes...the whole of me is not what it once was...
Gallien 	[Player Name]...I know that name, and that voice! By Rhalgr, you're still alive! Praise Him, praise Him...
Myste 	Who is this man on the verge of death? Is he your friend?
Gallien 	Nay, nay, though I am flattered that you would think so...
Gallien 	This woman/man made medicine for me long, long ago, at the behest of Captain Meffrid...when we were still in Quarrymill.
Gallien 	If I'd kept it all for myself, I'd've made a full recovery...but I couldn't. I had a dear friend, you see, and so I made a choice. He got better. I didn't.
Gallien 	Ended up working for the Griffin, he did. As a right-hand man, even. But like all the rest who went to the Wall, he never came back.
Gallien 	The irony of it, that I'd be the one to outlive them all, if only for a little while.
Gallien 	And so I sit here and await the reckoning, as I rot from the inside out. The husk of the freedom fighter I aspired to be.
Myste 	No, no! This is not the ending you deserve! I will not allow it!
Myste 	The man he spoke of, the one whose life he chose to save at the cost of his own. That man is proof of his nobility! If he were here...
Myste 	Do you wish to see him again? Your dear friend?
Gallien 	Houdart? Aye, more than anything. But there's no point in praying for the impossible. He died with the rest. I'm sure of it.
Gallien 	He was the Griffin's double, and one of his top commanders besides...
Gallien 	You're a kind boy, you are, and I'm grateful for the company in these twilight hours. But there's no need to trouble yourself further. My time is nearly spent.
Houdart 	Then spend the remainder thinking of better days, Gallien, and not dwelling on the deaths of me and mine.
Gallien 	Gods strike me down... Houdart? No, no, it can't be... This is naught more than a trick, an illusion... A lie...
Gallien 	But...even if it is a lie...
Hear me, Houdart. I've a favor to ask of you. One final favor for a dying fool...
Gallien 	Return to the Reach. To Bloodstorm. Offer a prayer to our brothers there.
Houdart 	I will, Gallien. You have my word.
Houdart 	We should talk. Outside.
 	
Myste 	I have to believe...I have to believe...
 	
Gallien 	Will you go with Houdart? He has to make it. I've naught left but this...
 	
Houdart 	To Meffrid and Gallien, you were larger than life. I always wanted to meet you...and here we are. Though I reckon this doesn't really count, does it?
Houdart 	If only I could go back and tell myself what a blind, bloody fool I was to place my trust in the Griffin. Maybe then Gallien wouldn't be dying alone.
Houdart 	Listen, he hasn't got much time. I'll lead the way. The wilds between here and the Reach aren't too dangerous, but as you can see, I'm unarmed, so I'll not be any good to you in a fight.
Myste 	Nor will I, I fear. We will have to rely solely on you for protection...
Houdart 	Heh, I've no doubt you can keep us safe. You're the bleedin' Warrior of Light, after all! Let us be off!
 	
Houdart 	Strong as ever, eh? Stronger even than you were that day, I reckon...
Houdart 	They say that when the Griffin's men realized you were coming to stop them, they grew panicked and unsure. How could they take up arms against a woman/man hailed as the hero of Eorzea? A hero who had personally intervened in their lives for the better?
Houdart 	Some stood their ground and died then and there for it, I imagine, while others looked the other way and tried to find some more imperials to kill. I pray I wasn't foolish enough to try and fight you. I owed you better...
Myste 	Houdart? Houdart! Speak to me!
Houdart 	I'm fine... Just got dizzy all of a sudden. We have to hurry, do you hear me? We have to make it to the Reach!
 	
Myste 	Houdart has to stay strong! He has to remember what's at stake!
 	
Houdart 	I made a promise...to Gallien... I will not fail you, brother...
Myste 	It cannot be the distance. We haven't traveled far enough yet...
Houdart 	A man's memories...cannot outlive him...
Houdart 	I told you, he hasn't...hasn't got much time. And neither do I...
Houdart 	I'll hold on as long as I can, but...in the end...it's not up to me...
 	
Myste 	No! I will not allow it! He will endure! We will fulfill Gallien's wish!
 	
Houdart 	So...so close...
Myste 	Houdart! You must go on! You must make Gallien whole! Remember, Houdart!
Houdart 	Don't you think I know that!? He...he saved my life! And I...we all went and died for naught! For naught! All we ever wanted was to go home...
Houdart 	O come ye wayward brothers,♪
Bereft of hearth and home,♪
Beneath yon burning star there lies♪
A haven for the bold...♪
Houdart 	Raise up your hands and voices!♪
Let fill your hearts with pride!♪
Above the churning waters we♪
Stand strong and unified!♪
Houdart 	...We can...we can still go home.
Houdart 	Even now, after everything we have done, we can still go home...
 	
Myste 	He fell and would not rise. He began to shake and...and...
Myste 	He was so close! He could have made it─he should have made it! How cruel the gods to tempt us with this promise of redemption!
Myste 	We...we did not fail. They failed us...they failed us!
Myste 	They...we...I...
Myste 	Forgive me...forgive me... My failure is my own. I had my chance, and I squandered it. Reclaim that which was yours.
 	
Myste 	It was not mine to take, but I took it. For that is who I am at heart.
 	
Myste 	...It is not finished. Not yet. You will come and pray with me.
 	
Myste 	Here is where we are to pay respect to the dead.
 	
Myste 	...What good are prayers to the dead. They have not ears to listen.
Myste 	Nor eyes to see or hearts to console. Naught remains of them save fleeting recollections soon lost to time and to the abyss...
Myste 	We are left only with pain.
A lingering sadness for names and faces consigned to oblivion.
Myste 	How are we to withstand this relentless onslaught which threatens to consume us? Is there no truth but this, that all men must die?
Myste 	Is this our world to suffer, or to shape?
 	
Myste 	...Indeed. We are only bound by the gods' law by choice.
Myste 	...But it need not be ours, do you see?
Myste 	We cannot save everyone, can we.
Sometimes, it is all we can do to save ourselves.
Myste 	Does any of it matter? What, if aught, have we wrought by our own hands?
Myste 	One last time. I gave you my word, and I mean to keep it.
Myste 	But know this. Every intervention has come at cost. A sacrifice. When I have finished, naught will remain of me.
Myste 	But...it does not have to be. For all our faults, for all our failures, we have made a difference. All the lives we have shattered, we can make them come together again.
Myste 	Time and death, our true enemies, need hold no power over us. I can make a place for you in my world. You need only ask.
Myste 	We should go back to Ishgard. You must miss Sid and Rielle...
 	
Rielle 	Is everything all right, [Player Name]?
 	
Sidurgu 	[Player Name]. I pray your trip to Gyr Abania was productive.
Sidurgu 	...I'm sorry to hear that. I mean, I am glad you reclaimed more of your aether. I but wish the circumstances hadn't been so...depressing. For Myste's sake. We shall have to see how he is feeling when he returns.
Sidurgu 	Hm? No, as far as I am aware, he has yet to return to Ishgard. He certainly isn't here, as you can see.
Sidurgu 	...Oh, godsdammit. Don't tell me he decided to run away! And just when I was beginning to trust the little bastard... <sigh> No, no, I could still be wrong. He's earned a little trust. A few days worth, no more...
Quest complete.	Quest complete.
Category:Disciple of War Job Quests in Final Fantasy XIV