毒吐く (Doku Haku)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
ここんとこずっと満たされない 	kokontoko zutto mitasarenai 	I’ve been unfulfilled for so long these days
依然、創作も振るわない 	izen, sousaku mo furuwanai 	I still can’t get my creativity going
ここが居場所なんて信じない 	koko ga ibasho nante shinjinai 	I don’t believe that this is where I belong
朝はまだ来ない 	asa wa mada konai 	The morning still hasn’t come
綴る言葉は毒になれども薬にはならない 	tsuzuru kotoba wa doku ni naredo mo kusuri ni wa naranai 	Though the words I write out may turn to poison, they won’t become medicine
「続ける意味がない」 	"tsuzukeru imi ga nai" 	“There’s no point in going on any further”
過らなかった日はない 	yogiranakatta hi wa nai 	There’s no day that hasn’t passed
流行りの音楽が聴けない 	hayari no ongaku ga kikenai 	I can’t listen to any popular music
比べて卑下してが止まない 	kurabete higeshite ga yamanai 	I can’t stop with the comparisons and self-deprecation
「多分、僕はもう音楽が好きじゃない」 	"tabun, boku wa mou ongaku ga suki ja nai" 	“Maybe I just don’t like music anymore”
それを吐き出す術は音楽しか知らない 	sore o hakidasu sube wa ongaku shika shiranai 	But I don’t know of any way to spit that out but through music
 	 	
だから 	dakara 	And so,
またこうして歌に縋って愚かな"毒"を吐いた 	mata koushite uta ni sugatte orokana "doku" o haita 	Just like this, relying on music once again, I spat out my stupid “poison”
月夜の下、尚更無様だ 	tsukiyo no shita, naosara buzama da 	Under the moonlit sky, it just gets all the more uglier
どんな言葉を歌ったらこんな僕とさよならできんだ 	donna kotoba o utattara konna boku to sayonara dekin da 	What kind of words do I have to sing until I can say goodbye to this kind of me?
答えが出るまで止まぬ独白 	kotae ga deru made yamanu dokuhaku 	This is a monologue that won’t stop until I get an answer
 	 	
悩みに贅沢もクソもない 	nayami ni zeitaku mo kuso mo nai 	There isn't an ounce of luxury in my worries
当事者以外知り得ない傷の痛みに優劣はない 	toujisha igai shirienai kizu no itami ni yuuretsu wa nai 	In the wounds only known by those involved, nobody’s pain is worse than another’s
暗示は絶え間ない 	anji wa taemanai 	They just don’t ever quit with that suggestion
日陰じゃ涙は乾かない 	hikage ja namida wa kawakanai 	Tears don’t dry up in the sunlight
涙じゃ花なんて芽吹かない 	namida ja hana nante mebukanai 	Tears don’t make flowers bud
「明かりの射さない人生に価値はない」 	"akari no sasanai jinsei ni kachi wa nai" 	“There’s no value in a life the light doesn’t shine on”
そんなのは信じない 	sonna no wa shinjinai 	I don’t believe that sort of thing
信じていいわけない 	shinjite ii wake nai 	There’s no way I can believe it
 	 	
だけど 	dakedo 	But still,
僕が歌った歌でくらいは主役で在りたかった 	boku ga utatta uta de kurai wa shuyaku de aritakatta 	I wanted to be the star, at least in the songs I sang
スポットライトは誘蛾灯でいいから 	supottoraito wa yuugatou de ii kara 	I don’t care if my spotlight is just some light trap
かつて純粋を極めた僕は焦燥の餌になった 	katsute junsui o kiwameta boku wa shousou no esa ni natta 	I once was the purest of all, but that old self now feeds my impatience
綺麗な言葉も今や吐瀉物 	kirei na kotoba mo ima ya toshabutsu 	And now, I even expel beautiful words
 	 	
時に創作は自傷行為 	toki ni sousaku wa jishou koui 	At times, creation can be an act of self-harm
と同時に自分を定義するただ一つの武器 	to douji ni jibun o teigi suru tada hitotsu no buki 	Though at the same time, it is the sole weapon that defines who you are
諸刃の剣でこれを書いてる 	moroha no tsurugi de kore o kaiteru 	I’m writing this song with a double-edged sword
「まだだ、まだだ」って息も絶え絶え 	"mada da, mada da" tte iki mo taedae 	“I’m not done yet, I’m not done yet,” I say with my breath growing more and more faint
 	 	
なのに 	nanoni 	And yet,
またこうして傷を抉って恥ずべき自分を吐いた 	mata koushite kizu o egutte hazu beki jibun o haita 	Just like this, I gouged my scars out once again and spat out my own shameful self
それが僕の価値になるのなら 	sore ga boku no kachi ni naru no nara 	If that were to be my value
どんな醜態晒しても歌い続けるほかないんだろうな 	donna shuutai sarashite mo utai tsuzukeru hoka nain darou na	I guess I have no choice but to keep singing, no matter how much of my shame shows
これは死ぬまで続く束縛 	kore wa shinu made tsuzuku sokubaku 	These are the shackles that will keep me bound until my death
 	 	
答えが出るまで止まぬ独白 	kotae ga deru made yamanu dokuhaku 	This is a monologue that won’t stop until I get an answer
 	 	
これを聴いてくれたあなたが 	kore o kiite kureta anata ga 	I can’t stop wishing that you, who listened to this song
まだ純粋なあなたが 	mada junsui na anata ga 	You, who are still so pure
僕みたいにならぬようにと願って止まない 	boku mitai ni naranu you ni to negatte yamanai 	Don’t ever end up like me
, with minor edits
==Translation Notes==
==Discography==
This song was featured on the following album:
*絢爛のアシンメトリー (Kenran no Asymmetry) (album)
==External Links==
*Google Drive - Instrumental
===Unofficial===
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*Niconico Tag
*Tsukiyo Translation - Translation Source
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