对不起我不是女孩 (Duìbùqǐ Wǒ Búshì Nǚhái)

==Alternate Versions==
==Lyrics==
Chinese 	Pinyin 	English
从小， 	 	Since childhood,
我像女孩的样貌， 	 	I’ve had the appearance of a girl,
给了父母很多快乐， 	 	bringing my parents a lot of joy,
却改变不了男孩的本质。 	 	but I wasn’t able to change my nature as a boy.
我常想， 	 	I often thought,
从一开始就是错的吗？ 	 	had it been a mistake right from the very beginning?
如果没有开始，就没有后面那些误会了。 	 	If nothing had ever begun in the first place, then none of those later mistakes would’ve happened.
 	 	
这封信写到停笔 从月升到天刚微明 	zhèfēng xìn xiě dào tíngbǐ cóng yuè shēng dào tiān gāng wēi míng 	I’ve been writing this letter without pause, from the time the moon rose to the early glimmers of light in the morning.
昨夜刚下一场霜寒 成我脸上冰冷的倒影 	zuóyè gāng xià yīchǎng shuānghán chéng wǒ liǎnshàng bīnglěng de dàoyǐng	A layer of frost had just fallen last night, casting an ice-cold reflection across my face.
每一阵风吹过街区 吹拂我的眼角眉宇 	měi yīzhèn fēng chuīguò jiēqū chuīfú wǒ de yǎnjiǎo méiyǔ 	Every time a burst of wind blows past this city block, it brushes past my eyes and forehead,
窗台上精美的花艺 我平凡在生活的轨迹 	chuāngtái shàng jīngměi de huāyì wǒ píngfán zài shēnghuó de guǐjì 	the elegant flower arrangement on my windowsill, and the route of my ordinary, everyday life.
 	 	
爱最不可信 只能封闭着秘密 	ài zuì bùkě xìn zhǐnéng fēngbì zhe mìmì 	Love is the least dependable, and I can only lock up all my secrets.
女孩模糊的样子 我不能选择暂停 	nǚhái móhú de yàngzi wǒ bùnéng xuǎnzé zàntíng 	With my vague appearance as a girl, I couldn’t choose to stop it.
或许是你们相信 相信孩子命运 	huòxǔ shì nǐmen xiāngxìn xiāngxìn háizi mìngyùn 	Perhaps all of you believe in the destiny bestowed upon children.
背负女孩的信仰去开始 	bēifù nǚhái de xìnyǎng qù kāishǐ 	Having moved forward carrying the burden of perceived womanhood,
越长大越知道无能为力 	yuè zhǎngdà yuè zhīdào wúnéngwéilì 	I realize more and more how powerless I am as I grow up.
 	 	
父母渴望一个女孩， 	 	My parents wished for a daughter,
我的成长不断提醒他们—— 	 	and my growth constantly reminded them—
女孩的外貌并没有困住我的灵魂和身体。 	 	my outer appearance as a girl wasn’t able to restrict my spirit or body.
我不是女孩， 	 	I’m not a girl;
只是一个曾经背负父母梦想的普通人。 	 	I’m only an ordinary person who once shouldered my parents’ dreams.
 	 	
一开始就是悲剧 注定萌发痛苦别离 	yī kāishǐ jiùshì bēijù zhùdìng méngfā tòngkǔ biélí 	It’d been a tragedy from the start, destined to blossom into painful parting.
我和他在开学相遇 下一秒仿佛欺骗开启 	wǒ hé tā zài kāixué xiāngyù xià yīmiǎo fǎngfú qīpiàn kāiqǐ 	I met him when we started school, and in the next moment, this seeming deception began.
他灿烂明媚的眼睛 倒映专属他的笑意 	tā cànlàn míngmèi de yǎnjīng dàoyìng zhuānshǔ tā de xiàoyì 	His brilliant, beautiful eyes reflected my smile that’s just for him.
我不愿被结局惊醒 把一切都封锁在梦里 	wǒ bùyuàn bèi jiéjú jīngxǐng bǎ yīqiè dōu fēngsuǒ zài mèng lǐ 	I didn’t want to be woken up by an end, so I locked everything up in dreams.
 	 	
他在开学典礼上经过我们班， 	 	He passed by our classroom during the school opening ceremony,
我们眉目间开始有一丝暧昧。 	 	and from then on, a feeling of intimacy rose up between us.
他喜欢我什么？ 	 	What did he like about me?
性格？ 	 	My personality?
女孩的样貌？ 	 	My female appearance?
或者，他什么都不知道。 	 	Or, he didn’t know anything at all.
 	 	
爱是暴风雨 倾泻疯狂和委屈 	ài shì bàofēngyǔ qīngxiè fēngkuáng hé wěiqu 	Love is a tempest, with downpours of frenzy and grievances,
伤害我们的纯净 太多无法回避 	shānghài wǒmen de chúnjìng tàiduō wúfǎ huíbì 	hurting our innocence with too many things that can’t be avoided.
世界被颠倒占据 永远无法安静 	shìjiè bèi diāndǎo zhànjù yǒngyuǎn wúfǎ ānjìng 	The world has been tipped on its head, taken over, never to find peace again.
背负女孩的信仰去开始 	bēifù nǚhái de xìnyǎng qù kāishǐ 	Having moved forward carrying the burden of perceived womanhood,
越长大越知道无能为力 	yuè zhǎngdà yuè zhīdào wúnéngwéilì 	I realize more and more how powerless I am as I grow up.
 	 	
我在教室门外叫住他， 	 	I called to him from outside of the classroom,
鼓起勇气： 	 	summoning up my courage,
“我不是女孩。我以为，你知道。” 	 	“I’m not a girl. I thought that you knew.”
怀疑、吃惊、愤怒都在他的脸上。 	 	Disbelief, shock, and anger were all on his face.
抱歉， 	 	Sorry,
我不是女孩。 	 	I’m not a girl.
 	 	
黑白键成了天地 困惑占据内心 	hēibái jiàn chéngle tiāndì kùnhuò zhànjù nèixīn 	The monochrome keys become heaven and earth, as confusion takes over the heart.
我把回忆送给轻风藏起 	wǒ bǎ huíyì sònggěi qīngfēng cáng qǐ 	I gift my memories to the breeze to hide away.
谁能调回时间诉说秘密 	shéi néng tiáo huí shíjiān sùshuō mìmì 	Who will be able to reclaim that secret told to time
生命中梦幻的洗礼 	shēngmìng zhōng mènghuàn de xǐlǐ 	for this baptism of a life’s dream.
 	 	
这场梦， 	 	In this dream,
没有谁有错。 	 	no one is at fault.
对不起， 	 	I’m sorry,
我不是女孩。 	 	I’m not a girl.
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