卑屈の脳内 (Hikutsu no Nounai)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English 	
生きている　ごみなのに生きている 	ikite iru gomi nanoni ikite iru 	I'm alive, I'm absolute scum, yet I'm still alive 	
嫌な奴　嫌々生かしてもらってる 	iya na yatsu iyaiya ikashite moratteru 	My tormentors are begrudgingly keeping me alive 	
きっともっと大事なことがあるのにこんな曲を聴いてる 	kitto motto daiji na koto ga aru noni konna kyoku o kiiteru 	Even though I'm sure there's better things I could be doing, I'm listening to this song again	
無為な4分を繰り返して　朝日が昇ってやっと後悔する 	mui na yonfun o kurikaeshite asahi ga nobotte yatto koukai suru 	Looping those meaningless 4 minutes, and when the sun finally rises, I regret it 	
ああ　ただ漠然と消えたい 	aa tada bakuzen to kietai 	Ahh, I just kind of want to disappear 	
 	 	 	
今日も「おはよう」を聞き返される 	kyou mo "ohayou" o kikikaesareru 	I hear "good morning" over and over as always 	
言い直した声が更に小さい 	iinaoshita koe ga sarani chiisai 	My restated voice is even meeker today 	
変に思われてないかなあって 	hen ni omowaretenai kanaa tte 	Thinking "I wonder if she thinks I’m weird..." 	
僕が気にかけているように 	boku ga ki ni kakete iru you ni 	Just like how I'm worrying about it, 	
あの子も気をつかってくれている 	ano ko mo ki o tsukatte kurete iru 	I’m sure she is too 	
ちゃんと分かんなきゃ 	chanto wakannakya 	But I have to know for sure! 	
とか何良い子ちゃんぶってんの 	toka nani ii ko chan butten no 	Come on, what kind of goody-two-shoes are you trying to be? 	
とか思ってる時点で良い子じゃない 	toka omotteru jiten de ii ko ja nai 	But doesn't me thinking that make it true? 	
とか（以下省略） 	toka (ika shouryaku) 	And- (Omitted for brevity) 	
 	 	 	
個性とオンリーワン信仰　好きなことで生きよう 	kosei to onriiwan shinkou suki na koto de ikiyou 	Individuality and an "only one" ideology. Let's live as we please 	
新進気鋭のクリエイター　必死のバーター 	shinshinkiei no kurieitaa hisshi no baataa 	An up and coming aspiring creator, desperately bartering 	
既製品のアイデンティティ　なんだ4年で終わり？ 	kiseihin no aidentiti nanda yonnen de owari? 	A ready-made identity. What, 4 years and that's it? 	
笑いと不謹慎　それが大人と子どもの分岐点・・・ 	warai to fukinshin sore ga otona to kodomo no bunkiten... 	Laughter and indiscretion. That's the turning point from childhood to adulthood... 	
 	 	 	
生きている　ごみなのに生きている 	ikite iru gomi nanoni ikite iru 	I'm alive. I'm absolute scum, yet I'm still alive 	
嫌な奴　嫌々生かしてもらってる 	iya na yatsu iyaiya ikashite moratteru 	My tormentors are begrudgingly keeping me alive 	
優しいから捨てないでくれてる 	yasashii kara sutenaide kureteru 	They’re nice, so they're not discarding me just yet 	
せっかく生まれた感情が 	sekkaku umareta kanjou ga 	These precious, newly born emotions 	
なんでこんなんなんだろうって 	nande konnan na ndarou tte 	How did they get to be like this? 	
いつかこんな僕を笑えたら 	itsuka konna boku o waraetara 	If someday, I can laugh at these thoughts... 	
ああ　なんでこんなんなんだろう 	aa nande konnan na ndarou 	Ahh, how did things get to be like this? 	
 	 	 	
「かわいいですね」「かっこいいですね」 	"kawaii desu ne" "kakkoii desu ne" 	"How cute!" "Wow, cool!" 	
「すごいですね」「上手いですね」 	"sugoi desu ne" "umai desu ne" 	"That's amazing!" "You're so good at that!" 	
義務ですか？　欲目ですか？ 	gimu desu ka? yokume desu ka? 	Is it your job to say stuff like that? Are you biased somehow? 	
って思うのはさすがにやりすぎですよね？ 	tte omou no wa sasuga ni yarisugi desu yo ne? 	...No, that's probably going overboard, right? 	
「そんなことないですよ」より 	"sonna koto nai desu yo" yori 	Instead of saying "That's not true...", 	
「ありがとう」が絶対可愛いから 	"arigatou" ga zettai kawaii kara 	saying "Thank you!" is way cuter 	
そうは言うけど思ってないから 	sou wa iu kedo omottenai kara 	You say that, but I don't believe you so I won't do it 	
そのくせ罪悪感だけはあるから 	sono kuse zaiakukan dake wa aru kara 	And yet, this sense of guilt remains 	
 	 	 	
マイナーな意見　無視してなんぼの尊厳 	mainaa na iken mushi shite nanbo no songen 	In the minority, shunning every last bit of my dignity 	
社会の歯車　それでも思考は止めるな 	shakai no haguruma soredemo shikou wa tomeru na 	A cog in the machine of society, but even so, I won't stop having my own thoughts 	
僕の中に住む怪物　現れる鬱 	boku no naka ni sumu kaibutsu awareru utsu 	A monster dwells within me. This despair manifests. 	
撥ねつけた愛　ほんとは少しだけ休みたい 	hanetsuketa ai honto wa sukoshi dake yasumitai 	I spurned that love. To be honest, I want to rest, just for a little while... 	
 	 	 	
生きている　ごみなのに生きている 	ikite iru gomi nanoni ikite iru 	I'm alive. I'm absolute scum, yet I'm still alive 	
嫌な奴　嫌々生かしてもらってる 	iya na yatsu iyaiya ikashite moratteru 	My tormentors are begrudgingly keeping me alive 	
きっともっと大事なことがあるのに 	kitto motto daiji na koto ga aru noni 	I'm sure there's better things I could be doing. 	
なんでこんな曲聴いてんの？ 	nande konna kyoku kiiten no? 	Why am I listening to this song again? 	
なに人の時間無駄にしてんの 	nani hito no jikan muda ni shiten no 	I'm wasting everyone's time 	
ごみはごみ箱へ　くさいものには蓋を 	gomi wa gomibako e kusai mono ni wa futa o 	If it's trash, throw it in the dumpster; if it smells, put a lid on it. 	
 	 	 	
どうせごみならいっそ　社会のごみ箱になって 	douse gomi nara isso shakai no gomibako ni natte 	If I'm garbage, I might as well be society's dumpster 	
汚いの全部　僕に捨ててくれよ 	kitanai no zenbu boku ni sutete kure yo 	All the filthy things, throw them into me 	
犯罪も汚職も戦争も不倫も劣等感も汚いの全部 	hanzai mo oshoku mo sensou mo furin mo rettoukan mo kitanai no zenbu	All of that disgusting stuff like crime, war, immorality, inferiority complexes... 	
焼却炉に飛び込んじゃったりして　地球が一層綺麗になって 	shoukyakuro ni tobikonjattari shite chikyuu ga issou kirei ni natte 	If I jumped into an incinerator, I'm sure the world would be cleaner than ever 	
ごみはごみでも良いごみだったねって 	gomi wa gomi demo ii gomi datta ne tte 	"Let garbage be garbage, it's just garbage, after all", 	
別に好きじゃなくたっていいから 	betsu ni suki ja nakutatte ii kara 	I don't really need to be liked or anything 	
 	 	 	
ただ嫌われたくない 	tada kirawaretaku nai 	I just don't want to be hated 	
==Discography==
This song was featured on the following album:
*全然、きれいじゃない。 (Zenzen, Kirei ja Nai.) (album)
==External Links==
*piapro - Karaoke
===Unofficial===
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